Hey ho everybody! It's been a long time since I've been in here. Damn it's a hot weather here! And most real,thinking about what happened yesterday...I get so stressed up! I lost my red cap at the void deck!! It's more like stolen... I forgot to take it home with me..and when I realised that it's not with me..I went down to check on it..it's gone! Not even 10 mins! WOW! Whoever took my cap will DIE! of...SARS! Buahahahaha! DAMN IT! It was only like what...3 months old! And the button...My Squared Circle button! I lost it! Can u believe it! ARGH!

Complained to Bernard and Shammie yesterday about my lost and I'm sorry guys...just have to complain ah..frustrating u know! BLUERGH! Now have to save up and get a new one! Damn it...anyways,talking to shammie now a days..is getting better..and I really really like it! I guess that somehow...the old sparks is back or something.. WOO HOO!! We're getting somewhere

It's like 2 plus and I've not taken my shower...and I'm suppose to buy food for home! DAMN!...Better go...PEACE

Whoa! It's like hot in this room and I'm sweating... Hehehe,looks like Dil knocked out again and I'm the lone survivor! Here I am at Dil's place,torning around. Did nothing much really,played some games,talked crap and eat some good food that Dil's mom bought... Right now,got bored of the game and here I am,blogging away. I have nothing much to say though...and I'm like lost for words to type...so,don't mind my crapiness on the entry.

Talked to Shammie just now...well,not exactly just now...around 12 plus and I'm glad that we talked. Things seems to be getting better and we're finally moving to somewhere now. I'm happy to hear her voice again and it was fun talking to her although she thinks that she was wasting my time. U didn't shammie,it was never a waste of time. I'm looking forward to talk to her again today,start back from where we were...like the first time I talked to her. That was how I felt just now when I talked to her on the phone...all nervous and kinda lost at what to say. Hehe...I'm just glad and happy that we're going somewhere now... Let's see how things will be in the next few days and weeks and months...

Okay,back to where I am now...I'm feeling so hot cuz it's like...I'm sweating here! ARGH! Okay..seriously,that was crap...if u guys read this...I guess that u guys must be saying.."God damn,this is the lamest blog I've ever read". I agree with ya,it is lame,but hey,it's my style of blogging..so...FUCK IT!

About this SARS virus thingy...it's all over the news and it's making people worry. Most parents are worried about this...telling the kids to stay home so that the chances of getting this disease in lesser and bla bla bla. Somehow,it spoils the kids plans...but then again...it's also to take precaution. Better to be safe than sorry I guess. But I didn't care much anyways...That's why I'm here,out of my home. Seriously...I'm lost for words..Yeay! I'm outta here,this blog's getting lamer...

Cheers!

[Music Blasting: The Get Up Kids - Mass Pike] [Mood :-: Sick]

Ah madness..today's a Thursday and I ain't out... Damn,I'm always out almost every single day! NGAST! I was never home for the past...what...1 month?
Now a days,people are getting worried about that SARS thingy...Fuck that Hongky who carried that disease here. Now with my parents worried about that shit,it's harder for me to go out but most real...FUCK IT! Went out yesterday to meet Fidah and Pluggy...Hanged out at Bukit Batok till Azri came,which was kinda late..but it's okay. Hanged out and talked crap!

Went down to town with Fidah to meet up with Bernard,Shain and Dzafir. On the way there,I kinda felt something for Fidah...I guess that it was a crush,a major crush. But forget it...It was just a crush ah eh. Met up with the boys and we sat down for only 5 mins and they decided to leave... So okay,we left,head down to Bedok Skate Park (The one near the library) and slacked there for a while. Till it was about 10 plus and then we left for Simpang Bedok. Met up with Yan there. Have a craving for Milo Dinosaur and wow! It was heaven! Slacked till about 11 plus...soon after that..we left for home!

Seeing Shammie on the net...and chatting with her,kinda short these days. She always go offline after a while and all... I miss her and I miss talking to her on the phone... I miss her voice...and miss that "Whatever moron" line she always say. What is becoming of us? I seriously do not know. I'm lost at that. I guess that we just need some time off each other for a while. But I'm missing her. I hope things will be okay...

No Direction's Update: Vocals recording will be done this coming Sunday! Woo Hoo!!!

CHEERS MATES!!!

[Music Blasting: Biffy Clyro - Christopher's River] [ Mood :-: Normal]

Whoa...feeling all groggy right now and my body sure hurts...God knows what..It aches..I guess that I've not been sleeping well and guess what?! I torn at B's place again yesterday! Not really torn...but stayed there till about 3 plus and I went back soon after that. We watched Spider-Man and it was halfway watched cuz I was tired and decided to go home. Damn,I'm going no where with this kinda journal...mad!

As for yesterday..went out with Fidah and B at Parkway Parade the earlier part of the day. Just hanged out at BK and talked crap till about 5 plus. We were suppose to go Mohaa but no...we have recording. So I have to call off the game session. Went over to B's place and did recording... Kinda had fun ah yesterday...

Had a call from Pluggy and I learnt that she has a problem and I wished that I could help her out in any way I can but I feel so helpless and the best I can do was just to be there for her. Consoling and hearing her out..that's the best I can afford to do. Damn! Well,talked on the phone with her for quite some time...45 mins roughly... That's the longest chat with her since I've last taked to her on the phone. I just hope that she'll be okay...

I'll be going out later on..AGAIN?! Yes,again... The boys wanted to go town and chill...I guess I'd go later on cuz I'll be meeting Pluggy first in Bukit Batok. Just go there,slack with her for a while...chill out after she finish school and accompany till Azri comes and pick her up. Then I'll go to town. Ah mad...to and fro...yeah!

No Direction's Update: Currently all tracks are done...except for some minor lead parts that I still have to re-do and lastly...vocals...

[Music Blasting: Saves The Day - Certain Tragedy] [Mood :-: LaL]

Hey ho everyone! I didn't blog yesterday..oh wow! Hehehe... Dude,I've realised that I've been out almost every single fuckin' day! I'm never at home and I"m always itching to go out. Woo hoo!! Last night,I torn at B's place...watching some DVDs and some shows on TV after that. Went back around 5 plus at home. Amazing! Ah madness...Currently taking some time off from things,example...me and Shammie...There's not even a we there.... I guess we're just friends...that's what she wanted so okay..friends it is! (Chey,like Genie in the lamp siak) Damn I'm fuckin' bored! And come to think of it,I'll be out again later on! WOO HOO!!

Heading out to Parkway to meet up with Fidah and B...we'll be having a lunch date. And after that....We might be heading out to Grandlink to do some Mohaa gaming! Fidah,B,Dil,Yan and me...We'll be up playing in either German or Allies uniforms battling against one another in some of the war torn maps of the game...Medal Of Honour. It's an awesome game once u now how to play it...seriously..better than that overrated Counter Strike,which is so fuckin' lame! Some of the bengs,they play Mohaa...they became lost and then they say this..."Wah,this game no good ah,don't know how to play sia..." It's like,COME ON!! It's the same as CS! Stupid fucks! Hahahahahahahahaha....Okay,seriously,I'm bored. LaL!

Aight...peace out! Cheers! Selamat Jalan! Offheidesen! Chiao! Adios!

Didn't get to hear from Shammie today after the last message she sent me in the morning saying that she's going out and she will call me at night. Well she didn't...I guess she's busy or didn't want to talk. I didn't do much today...in the afternoon I sat at home...laling around..doin' nuts... Talked to Rabia from Incoincidence and telling her about her band and teaching her some new stuff on the guitars. We talked crap till evening time.

It was around 7 plus when Pluggy messaged me askin' for Jessie's and Mich's number and I didn't have it and I asked her what was it for,she says that she was going to slack in town for a while and she asked me whether I wanna join her...so I did,since I ain't got much to do. Got ready and went off to Sommerset. Met them at Long John's Silver in Cineleisure. Pluggy,Azri(her guy),Mint and Sallie. Sat down,talked crap about stuff...till about 11 plus where everyone says their goodbyes and left.

I got home and I didn't went up to my place straight away...sat down at the void deck..alone...and think about all of the events that happened before. I mean,What has happened in the past. How my band was formed up,how I get to know them...How I know my ex,Ainun and stuff and how I get to know Pluggy..and Shammie..and everyone else..and I think of rmy school days..and the weird events that happened... I realise..that my life was kinda weird...I don't know...Weird.

While sitting alone at the void deck,I was experiencing different stuff... I cried,thinking of the good times I had,the bad times I've been through and some of the sweet/sad moments I had with the special someones... I laughed thinking of the mad stuff I did with my band mates,my pals and everyone... I'm only 20...and I have so much of memories. Once I'm older,whoa..I don't know what to say. More experiences comin' up I guess...

"Life ain't that bad...think of it as a teacher...something that teaches u things through the experiences u have with life. Correcting mistakes and making things right so u'll go to the right path and end up scoring A's..."

[No Loud Stereo - Switch Off The Stereo] [Mood :-: Sleepy/Tired]

Whoa~~ It's been quite some time since I've last blogged. Amazing! And it's a Monday. Things had happened...many things..I guess..
On Saturday...there was a gig at this place called "Eurasian Community House" before that...I didn't even know where this Ceylon Road is at.. On the day of the gig itself..I realise that it's actually a 10 mins walk from my place after checkin' out the map. Went to the gig..and all of the bands that played that day are new bands... Most of 'em... Of all of 'em...only two stands out..or was it three... Shoe Size Nine is one of 'em..definitely...Sammy is doing back ups now and I'm proud of him for that cuz he was at lost for vocals last time and he asked me on how to to do back ups..but I guess I didn't have the chance to guide him and he learnt it himself and that's good! He pulled it off well.. Vocals hitting the pitch and tone and everything was awesome..Their set was great! With Sammy's awesome leads,Fir's vocals and Acap cute stance while playing the bass and Amok's hitting of the drums..they rocked the stage! And they played Invincible by NUFAN and it was great! Rock on Shoe Size 9! The other band was Norphrunt...they played okay..but I never have this liking for their vocals..a bit..weird...and this other band..Not sure what's the name but they covered Jimmy Eat World's Sweetness... and they were good. The rest of the bands..were okay...Oh...not forgotting...Sammy's side band..Plan 2 Fool..that is one awesome ska band...but gotta say..their horns was a bit off key... other than that..they're awesome. Enough of the gig...

On that day..of the gig..Shammie was there..and I was happy to see her..and glad. I wanted to approach her but I don't even have the guts to do that...I was feeling afraid,gutless and worried... Everytime I wanted to approach her..I turned back cuz I simply didn't dare to. When it was the last time I was about to go I turned back..and she left... She was no longer there. I was regretting for not even talking to her..or approach her... I was feeling very lal after that...

After that gig,i left the place with Tweet,Mon,Mint,Asmah,Inn and Hafiz... While walking,Inn was asking me whether I want to torn so yeah.. I agreed...
Went to to Tamp,slacked near Mint's place...Talked crap...Inn,Mint and me. While slackin' I called Shammie and told her to call me back..and she did... We talked and saying about what happened and stuff and it was kinda nice..I mean,we did talk in a happy note but I was pissed off when my phone went dead on me. Damn it!

After that,Fad joined us...and we slacked the whole morning...till about 6 plus we went off.... and that was it...

[Saves The Day - At Your Funeral] [Mood :-: Regretted/Lost]

Just finished chatting in the IRC...well not exactly finished..but no longer have the mood after what me and Shammie exchanged during the chat. I'm feeling as if I'm losing my friends each day... Mint came up to me to say something about Shammie..and I sorta blasted and say things that I didn't really wanna say..and now I guess mint's kinda pissed off at me. I didn't mean to say anything..I"m just pissed and all. And about Shammie..seriously..I don't know what's going on between me and her cuz we kept arguing..okay not we..ME! I'm the guy who started all this... One thing...she said that I left...I left and she stayed..now something's a bit wrong there...cuz in her blog..she as me to be gone...so did I leave intentionally..I don't think so..I wanted to stay but she says..BIGGONE..

Should I just move on..or should I stay? This will always go on this way if I never decide on what to say... I do like shammie..I do care for her...GOD! WHY?! *sigh*

I think I should just lay low...not being in contact with anyone at all...which means..no chatting,no slackin'...just make myself disappear for a while... I wonder if alienating myself helps... Ntah ah eh! ENOUGH!...I'm outta here...

BIGGONE BIGGUY!

[ Biffy Clyro - Christopher's River] [Mood :-: Groggy]

Groggy?! I just woke up...so here I am straight to the comp and somehow I've been lost cuz somehow I've lost count of the days we're having... Today's a...Friday..right? ho yeah...today's a friday! Ah madness..yesterady went slackin' and it was awesome...had fun...lotsa crapiness. Didn't call or message Shammie...wasn't free to do so and she did the same...no message from her. I guess it's either she went away or something...I don't know lah.

"so sink it in, bigguy. i guess pluggy was kinda sick cos we always come to her when fuck happens. i understand. but i tink shes rite. i hav to learn. so i decided to fuck it like i always do wich suck but dats d onli n d best way. i guess ur not worth a friend. that i expected and proven right now. i had d fucking answer now so d rest is up to u. i decided. biggone..."

Those were the words that she wrote in her blog and it hurts... If "biggone" is what she wants me to do...then I should just be a better man and walk away. If she wishes to let the friendship die... Then I shall do just that. I'm kinda giving up cuz she says this one thing and then she says that on the other...So if she wants to fuck it..then I'll fuck it too! If she wants to forget me,forget who I am...it's her choice. But one thing I know,I do still care about her and I still do have feelings for her and I won't forget her. Whatever it is,I don't wanna think so much about this,it's making me stressed out... For goodness sake,I have a lot of other better things to think about... I'M GROWING WHITE HAIR!!! GOD DAMN IT!! Ngast,whatever lah!

Right now,feeling so fuckin' stoned...not knowing the reason why...

[Penfold - I'll Take You Everywhere]

Ngast,I'll be doing recording again later on..tonight at B's place. In the mean time,what am I to do during the afternoon...darn..go out? With who? To where? Hmm... Don't know ah eh. Ah dang..I'm done...Kepish?

-GoNe-

[ The Ataris - Summer Winds Was Always Our Song] [Mood :-: Stony/Dodgy]

"I love you,I need you here..." oh yeah! Ataris...Kicks ass! Socks,just realised that the Americans has launch the missile and it hits Iraq. War has begun my friends! And that....Sucks! I'll be meeting my slackin' khakis soon...around 3 plus later on. Didi,Dilah,Fan,Lina,Bernard.... Simply gonna slack around at Bedok Skate Park (Beside Bedok Library) Got nothin' better to do...so we slack.

The issue on me & Shammie... Well,I guess things are doing okay for now. We have talked things out and I guess that what she wants is simply friendship...and maybe from there,we work things out. I do like Shammie but somehow,like what she says...I don't understand her... I mean, hey, people don't get things right...right away... It takes some time to know,understand and work things out. So i guess that I just have to be patient about this and go with the flow and maybe one day we get together.

No Direction has not been jammin' for quite some time cuz Tweety's busy workin' and Dzafir's workin' too! And our next show (maybe) is next week at NYP. We might be playin' at this Anti-Smokin Campaign thingy. Not a biggie. Just for ur info,it will be only our band that's playin' and a few others hip hop,tarian and some drama crap lah! So it's not worth comin' unless u guys wanna join us or something. And for my side band "The First Chapter"... Currently ain't jammin' yet.

As for No Direction's "Night Skies,Falling Stars" Album....currently we're still on it. Hoping to release it by mid this year together with My Squared Circle. That's all I can say for now.

Cheers!

[ Lifehouse - Everything] [Mood :-: Lost/Angry/Confused/Sad]

FUCK! It happened again...Some shit simply make me don't understand what's going on in life. *Sigh*

"Not now,I don't want to go out with anyone and make myself emotionally attached to that person..."

Hearing that statement...simply sucked! I know I'm at fault...I wish the chance I'm given are true... Whatever it is,efforts put in but it's like..so damn hard to win her back again. I hate myself! FUCK U HEZWAN!! I killed my past to go on but it seems that now...I'm lost. Lost by god knows what?! 22nd March...a date that I WAS looking for but now it seems..that it's just another gig. I was looking out for that day cuz it'll be the day I'll be able to see someone. But after that conversation I had...things crumble down... "Night Stars,Falling Skies" The title of No Direction's new album..totally means everything that happened in my life. IT SUCKS!

FUCK IT AH EH!! Life just sucks! Or is it..that I make it that way? Whatever...if god wants to take my life now..TAKE IT cuz u know why?? Rather than suffering from all this thoughts and choices...I rather die!

"And it never crossed ur mind? How u gave our faith away? Those empty promises,U never fail to make...Should I try to make u stay? Or let things stay this way,the consequences that u left behind..."

[ Thursday - Cross Out The Eyes ] [ Mood :-: Pissed ]

MADNESS! It's a fuckin' Sunday and I ain't going out! FUCK! Damn..yesterday's gig was fuckin' lame cuz of some racial issue..that's what I feel ah. Cuz everytime and asian band plays..the white people goes out...but when the white bands playing...they come back in. But one thing's for sure...MSC KICKED THEIR ASSES BIG TIME!! Awesome set that MSC put up! All I can say..u guys should have been there!

See my mood..I'm pissed..cuz I've been trying to blog my entry..but it keep failing..FUCK! I typed out long long story. Cheebye! This is my third fuckin' try..if this doesn't work..I give up blogging! DAMN! Okay ah..most real..I enjoyed ska yesterday ah..because no skins or rudies ah...and the band was good ah.. I actuall kinda "skank" to the music. I felt my body moved a bit. NGAST! Okay ah..enough ah...FUCK AH! Damn internet services. dah ah..cukup ah...BUTO! hahaha..aggro siak bigguy...DIAM AH! HAHAHAHA

p.s. Plaza Singapura...APA APA AH!! HAHAHA...No offense to anyone out there. &...ermm...SHAMMIE I LOVE YOU!!! WILL U BE MY SPECIAL SOMEONE?

"There's room to believe,out of sight,out of might,out of reach,start over,there's no where to begin..."

GOOD MORNING SINGAPORE!!! Ah yeah! Right now,I'm in front of my comp,doing nuts! Well,actually...went in the net...IRC..chatted with some few people who i don't even know. Went to check out my mails,nuthin' much except that pluggy mailed me...some forwarded mail about friendship and all. I didn't call Shammie today,it's not that I don't want to but just afraid to call cuz it's weekend. Weekend = parents at home. So I guess I'll wait for her to call me up. I'm missing her already! Yesterday night,had a good talk with her,fun talk! No longer the old downed kinda conversations we always have. I like that!! I like~~~ (BIGguy is losing it,cuz he seriously is talkin' crap here!)

An hour to go before I leave my place to head down to Bernard's place. Meeting him and Tweet there then we go to the gig. Okay,my guess is that,u guys must be saying,that my blog is lame. I agree,it is plain and lame! Cuz I know nuts about blogging!!! GOD DAMN IT!! ARGH!!!~~~ okay...I'm cool! chill biggie..chill!! I'm so lost!

LOST!

LOST AGAIN!

Okay...most real...since I got nothin' to say right....PEACE! Hehehehahahaha...buahahahah..BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA...*COUGH**COUGH* Damn I'm sick!

"I've chosen a path the last time and it lead me into a deep pothole. Now I'm rising up again and I'm going back to that same old crossroad where I chose my path. This time,I'm choosing the right one."

Look at the time,it's 7 plus and damn I'm fuckin' bored. Been blogging three times. THREE FUCKIN' TIMES IN ONE SINGLE DAY!! Believe it or not...believe it!
Feeling stoned,groggy,lost and tired. Suppose to head down to recording to day,but didn't... dad told me,not to go out,so here I am. Yeah yeah,I know I'm turning 20 and dad still controls me...So hey,gotta give and take..it's a good deal. He gives me the luxury I repay him by doing things that makes him happy.

Shammie called just now,and I was kinda surprised! A good surprise that is! Happy until mad that she called me!

Most real,some shit just happened while I was chatting in IRC. Some fucked up dude come up to me and typed this out:-

Ling_Quet - u fucking pig!
BIGguy_ND - what?
Ling_Quet - u terrorist!
BIGguy_ND - huh?
BIGguy_ND - what the?
BIGguy_ND - who the?
BIGguy_ND - What the FUCK?!?!
Ling_Quet - what the fuck!
Ling_Quet - u asshole!
Ling_Quet - nothing but singapore trouble maker!
Ling_Quet - destroy singapore mother fucker!
BIGguy_ND - What the fuck

Now ain't that fucked up?! NGAST!! Losers!! These group of people are what I call,dumb ass! Never do researching before saying things like this. WHATEVER AH!

Cheers!

Ah socks ah! Madness..it's such a LaL Friday. Got up today,around 10 plus in the morning after sleeping late at 5 plus. WoW! Woke up,straight to the phone,call Shammie up but...DAMN! She was in the shower. Thought of calling her again but...DAMN! I fell asleep! Woke up again,around 12 plus and call her and...DAMN! Her phoneline engaged! So I left her a voicemail in her mailbox. Few minutes later,she call. I was like fuckin' happy! WOO HOO!! And we talked...talked about the gig today (which I'm not going cuz I don't feel like going out...) and she told me not to go,so okay..I guess she wants to spend time with her friends. So I told her, looks like we meet up on the 22nd ey? After that,Zaid called me up,asking me whether I wanna jam. And damn,I don't even know my side band's permanent name. First it was Learning Tunes and then it changes to Silent Scream and then to Blinded Star and now...The First Chapter. So I don't know ah. And then Tweet call me up..did a three way calling with Tweet and Shammie. Talked crap for a while. Tweet is still feeling kinda low after what happened I guess but we'll try to cheer him up. Now listening to Penfold - Sound of Jazz. Ah socks! Boredom siak. Want to go out,but ain't got the dough so I guess I'll stay home,besides...I've been out for like every single fuckin' day!

Bernard calls me up,and we talked... And he tells me about getting the drum tracks from Soundworkz today. I wanna stay home but yet I wanna do recording and all. And i told him,see how it goes later,if my mood changes. And he sounded pissed. Damn,I hate that... Don't know ah eh... See how it goes later on. I guess I should go down to the studio to do recording,finish this album as soon as we can. Damn I'm bored at home!! Ah LaL...gotta go,lotsa people in da' chat room. Gotta chat up with them!

Peace Outside!!!

That's right! A first timer shithead down here trying out the blog thingy. I've always wanted to try blogging. So here I am,trying out. Sitting in the dark,in my hall only lighted up by the glow of my computer screen and my TV which is showing "Yan Can Cook". WoW! And right now,I'm listening to Penfold - Our First Taste Of Escape. I simply can't sleep,so that's why I'm up at this hour! Amazing!

Okay then,it's my first blog,and I ain't got much to say... so check in again some other time,aight? Well then,take care...

CHEERS!!