.:: DEAD SUNDAY ::.

It's a Sunday and I ain't feelin' good. Always had been this way ever since. First of all it's because of the stupid NS thing... Every god damned Sunday, I have to think about bookin' back into camp and trust me, that ain't something u wanna think about on Sundays. For those of u who is going through or had been through this crap... U know what I'm talkin' about.. It's like, u have no free mind in ur thoughts... And what's worst, havin' the stupi Battallion Exercise that's comin' up next week. I can't have a free of mind...

.:: DEPRESSING HOME ::.

Do u guys ever notice on how I'm always out on weekends... It's either I'm with my sweetheart or I'm with the boys, out there.. hangin' out, slackin' away or jammin'.. or gigs.. or whatever.. just to be away from home... Now a days, I never want to go back home.. Cuz everytime I get closer to my doorstep.. I always have this feelin... One depressin' feeling... Some of u may know how my home is like and some of u, well.. just know me as me.. not my background and all.. For the No Direction boys, they should know what I'm referring to. It's like, if any chances I have.. I don't wanna be at home. past few months, or the past year... I only get back home to either use the internet, get my stuff, wash my clothes, play games or simply.. just to change my clothes after comin' home from camp. It's no longer about bonding with the family... Why? i don't feel the bond anymore... and yeah, I agree that they say that whatever it is, they're still ur family... i don't know... Maybe it's because of my in-camps experience, that's why I don't feel the bond anymore. I'm always in camp and always out on weekends.. cuz being in camp is always mundane and lame... I don't really bother to talk to anyone in my family cuz I know, whatever I say, it's as if I'm always wrong and stuff... So, I come to the conclusion that there is no point in voicing out my opinion or suggestion in making the home better cuz it's pointless... It's someone else's fault that this place became like this and I get the fuckin' blame... No matter how much we tried, it's still the same... Years after years.... after years.. And for those of u who came by my place durin' the Raya season... Well, what u see.. is just a li'l bit of the "wayang" act. Nice home, happy family.. well.. that's BULL.... I can't be bothered with home anymore.. Whatever it is, I'm on the "WHATEVER" mood.. like how those girls always say it.. Anything goes.. Nag nag nag.. goes in the right ear..comes out the left... So fuck this shit... As long I'm in NS, I'm takin' advantage of my stay-in situation to run away from home.. Somehow, I rather stay in camp than home... Or B's place.. or Hallie's or just simply.. hang out in the streets....Alone or with anyone.. Home, is not that sweet as how it used to be... No longer a heavenly place where u can just come back home and chill and just relax ur mind off things...

.:: FOUR TONE STUDIOS ::.

Checked out the new studio with the boys yesterday down at Boat Quey area... It's awesome... Comfy, nice atmosphere... And there's even a chillout corner where u can chill and play X-Box... Cool ey? The studio itself.. it's big.. Big enough to hold about 20 or 30 people for an unplug session... Two Laney stack amps.. and one other well known brand amp which I couldn't remember the name... The drum sound was good, nicely tuned toms, two crash, one ride, one splash and one china crash... Don't have guitars to jam with? Not to worry... They have a washburn bass, guitar andan Ibanez guitar... at the corner of the room, there's even a three-person couch for those bands who have friends taggin' along to their session...Currently, they're havin' a promotional price of 18 bucks for 2 hours but the promotion ends this month (July)... It's 24 hours everyday except on friday whereby it closes at 12pm - 3pm... If I'm not wrong that is...Overall rating: 8/10

.:: SCREENED BY A LADY COP ::.

As me and the boys were walkin' along the road, headin' down to Coffee Bean in Boat Quey, we got screened by a female cop... Well, I wouldn't blame her cuz all of us were wearin' black shirts, except for Shadi (Sammy's brother) and there were about 10 of us waslking... So who wouldn't look at us suspiciously? While being screened, I saw B talkin' to the lady cop... And I was like.."Whoa, B's makin' a move or somethin'"? And guess what, he didn't, he happened to know her.. now really know but somehow seen her around... She was in the same GOH contingent for last year's NDP... Bernard was the GOH for Air Force and she was the GOH for the Police Force.. So somehow, they've met.. And one thing that all of us agreed on... She's one hot lady cop! She was kinda cool... She was tellin' us that we shouldn't have come by Boat Quey and how she said.." This is a fucked up place, u guys shouldn't have come here...Fucked up people hanging around..." heh.. It's either she's givin' an advice to us or simply she had bad experience there... But whatever it is, it was cool.. So she screened us and bla bla bla.. and after everything was cleared.. she let us off...

.:: B-Boy B ::.

Nah, it ain't B-Boy as in those breakers or that sorta stuff.. B-Boy as in, Birthday Boy B... Tomorrow's my homeboy's birthday... Happy 22nd Birthday B! Cheers to ya aight? hehe.. Growin' old ey? Soon it'll be my turn...

.:: WORDS FROM THE PAST ::.

Surprisingly, I got a message from pLuGGy and Surya! Ain't that cool?! People from the past are comin' back! Chatted about how's life with pluggy on how she is and why the disappearance.. and stuff like that.. And well, she changed somehow.. All grown up I guess.. The thing that shocked me when I asked her whether if she wants to hang out with us one day... She replied in her text," Nah, I don't think I'll be hangin' out anymore, I find it a waste of my time now...." That really shocked me.. The girl that was a total bummer is now sayin' that.. And she doesn't go to gigs no more... All those years where we hung out at places, coffee shops, fast food joints from early noon to night fall.. and at gigs.. said that... I was like.. WHOA~~ Well, she changed just like how she say she changed... Saw her pic in myspace.. or was it friendster.. She changed.. she knows how to look pretty now.. My guess is that she have found her feminine side... As for Surya, well, the same old whacky gal I knew years back... finishin' school soon and she's workin' in Topshop.. hehe.. What a place to be... Town, the place that's like a cycle.. Everyday is like a repetition... Well, nice to hear from the old skool peeps.. There's many others that I missed.. Especially the old #ska chatters... The pioneers of that chat room.. Miss them lots!...

.:: OFFHEIDESEN ::.

If ur wonderin' what that means... that means goodbye in German, Well, I guess it's time for me to go... Cheers to all, and keep on readin' my blog... Thanks.. Good bye...

.:: BACK AGAIN ::.

Ola to all! It's been a while since I've last blogged ey?! The previous poem that I wrote spontaniously was somethin' that was suppose to happen but it didn't and I'm glad that it didn't. Some of you may read it and though otherwise but guys, nothin's happenin', we're back with even more energy and same line up. To the boys of No Direction, I love you guys and thanks for believing in me. Also, to the No Direction family for being there at our shows and supporting us and also to ND's followers. Big thanks to all. And not forgotting the critics and "haters" of our band, I know that some of you who falls under this category is readin' this, well, thanks cuz your words and critisicm had help us to improve in our songs and style of play. Who says that it's fair in the music industry, there bound to be haters and lovers. So it's like a give and take kinda thing. Those bands who thinks that everybody likes them and there's no haters, well, BULLOCKS TO YOU... Because in reality, there's no such thing.

.:: MAD WORLD OUT THERE ::.

Enough of the bands and scene stuff, back to life. Many things had happened since I've last blogged. Killings, Bombings, Torture, whatever it is, you name it. Those that you thought might not happen, is happenin' right now. The foreign worker who got chopped up by a sick 50 year old guy, not, that IS sick. Bombings in London... What's next? Haven't the world have enough violence already? Selfish leaders, stupid narrow minded rebels... It's all fucked up!!

.:: ALERT RED ::.

Back here in Singapore, everythin' seems to be fine... Except that right now, I'm on Alert Red standby, meanin', if there's any bad thing to happen, my battalion would be activated to go and defend or somethin' like that. i just can't wait to ORD and fuck off from this stupid place cuz I'm beginnin' to hate this place, very much!

.:: THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL ::.

i'm havin' a wonderful life with Hallie in my heart. She's my other half that completes me. Without realising, we'v ebeen together for 7 months and that's awesome. i'm growin' really attached with her. Gotta tell ya, i'm gettin' really close with her family too!. It's as if I'm already a part of them. if ur readin' this, I LOVE YOU BABY!!

.:: WHAT'S NEXT? ::.

4 or 5 months and I'm out of this stupid camp and back to my civillian life. Ain't sure of what I'll do but I'll figure somethin' out...

.:: REMEMBERING THE PAST ::.

Somebody who I treasured so much is slowly disappearing... For many years that I've been writin' about her and m y guess that you guys should know who she is. That's right, pLuGGy... She got a new life... New guy, new friends... Somehow it seems that she's forgotten about us.. The girl that I once shared my life with. The girl that I grew up with is now just a name and a distant memory...