Whoa...it's Thursday already and I didn't know. I guess that I've been slackin' so much that I've lost track of the days. Madness! I bought the game "Enter The Matrix" and it's fuckin' awesome! The graphics..the moves...the details...awesome! Accept one part of the game...Nayobe can't drive well... She keeps knocking on walls and stuff. Hehehe... Tomorrow's a Friday,which means..that Bernard's booking out! Amazing!
Read Nora's webby...and it sorta made me cried when I read about the part she was walking alone and thinking about the past... heheh,those skating days in Mad Circle...the crew,the mad bunch of nut fucks. And now,Mad Circle is just a name,the crew is..dead. They have their own things to do in life. And especially when she wrote about No Direction,how she feels pain rather than pleasure when she hang out with No Direction...because she's all left out of what we're talking about. She missed the times when we hang out together and Nora,I miss having u around with the group. Like what she says,people come and go and it's true... Names that sounds so familiar but yet forgotten. Faces that can be remembered but name forgotten. There were those who came,stayed and left and there were those who came,stayed and stayed on. Ngast! Well...I got nothin' much to write today...take care!
Cherio!
Hamster
Radwimps - Me Me She
Sunday, May 25, 2003
It's a Sunday...and I'm at home. And it's been quite some time since I last wrote in. Many things had happened..and many things I've learnt from mistakes..that me or others made... Life is so cruel at times but yet...it may be happy too! And there's this other thing that I...just thought about..when I was sitting around,doing nothing. It's something that can make u happy and yet hurt u so much when it's over... It's called..Love... When things are good...ur happy..and when it's bad times..or it ends...it just..saddens u...For my past two serious relationship..I've learnt that...
Many things had happened in the past week...between me and her...about me and my band...Emo star kid...and many others...God knows what..
Between me and her...The fire started,and the chemicals burning...Chemistry's workin' it's magic. I hope,things work out between me and her and well..People may hate her..or don't really like her and stuff...I mean...that's what I think..but..it's me who's liking her...So..I hope they can bless me or something.
Pluggy: Now,this is someone whom I was very very close with. The girl that I once loved...and cared for...and who was damn close to me..is now..drifting apart...really far...And it saddens me. I guess that she's in her world ey? U know..She have Azri now and her school she gotta think about that. And with me,I don't know,the other time...still got this cold feeling whenever i'm near her. At the pit,last monday for example...We didn't talk much like how we would before..I mean..it was a simple..hi..and a simple..bla bla bla..ha ha..thingy..Maybe she saw me with her or something that makes her...don't wanna talk to me..or maybe..she hates her? I don't know...Cuz last time at the gig,when we're going off from the bus..the way she shook HER hands..Pluggy simply..just..tap at the hands..and look away...that's a sign of hate..I guess? But pluggy,if only u can read this...I wished for us to be close again cuz one thing i know...that I really really miss ya...
And the story between me and Shammie...I guess it's like her favourite show..Days Of our Lives...Some drama..about this and that..but with a difference..(what the heck am I saying?) I guess that she's starting to hate me...and I simply..couldn't approach her..cuz I fear that she might get angry again..and I don't want that.. Maybe what I think is wrong..cuz the other day...i sorta tried to make conversation with her...indirectly that is...We're on the main of #emo and we were sorta asking sam to go bath..u know..indirectly talking to her kinda thingy..hehehe..that was a funny way...I feel that..somehow..it's like a good small sign that..she wants to talk to me..so i guess..I should try talking to her again...but I'm afraid that she might feel sad and all whenever I start talking. Like the other time..I said hi and she replied back with words that made me a li'l bit sad and a li'l bit mad..and in the end...we ended up arguing... I should try again one day,when i got the guts to do so.
With the band,things are going as usual again...sorta like last time...Bernard starts calling me again..and I call dzafir and tweet and all..asking them out..and all.. And we hanged out as a band yesterday..just like old times...4 years,5 years back when Izat was still in the band as our bassist. It was heck of a fun. Talking crap,watched movie together...and it was like last time. And we went to the gig yesterday as a band again...The same old four faces that u'll see at gigs...He he.. Well,glad that things are going well and I hope that my shit won't happen again,it's up to me to make it right.
I'll be going off to "war" later on and it's just a small squad. Lt. Dilah,Pvt.Ikhwan,Sgt.Rizal a.k.a Tweet,Recruit.Dan,Recruit.Din. Gonna have some fun shooting people up..hehe.. ngast...
Bernard's booking in today...back to Tekong he goes. And he lent me his Hood...WOO HOO!! Mt.Sac!! hehe..simple red sweater... but nice. Gonna lend it for one week. And well,that someone is going to the beach today..to take a swim..and do some..tanning? i guess...She went with her two friends and I didn't get to follow... (sad)...But,she's having fun..so yeah..fair enough..I mean..Don't get to see her one day..it wouldn't hurt..hehe... So it's one day off from seeing her. Hehe.
Okay folks...take care..PEACE OUT!
Many things had happened in the past week...between me and her...about me and my band...Emo star kid...and many others...God knows what..
Between me and her...The fire started,and the chemicals burning...Chemistry's workin' it's magic. I hope,things work out between me and her and well..People may hate her..or don't really like her and stuff...I mean...that's what I think..but..it's me who's liking her...So..I hope they can bless me or something.
Pluggy: Now,this is someone whom I was very very close with. The girl that I once loved...and cared for...and who was damn close to me..is now..drifting apart...really far...And it saddens me. I guess that she's in her world ey? U know..She have Azri now and her school she gotta think about that. And with me,I don't know,the other time...still got this cold feeling whenever i'm near her. At the pit,last monday for example...We didn't talk much like how we would before..I mean..it was a simple..hi..and a simple..bla bla bla..ha ha..thingy..Maybe she saw me with her or something that makes her...don't wanna talk to me..or maybe..she hates her? I don't know...Cuz last time at the gig,when we're going off from the bus..the way she shook HER hands..Pluggy simply..just..tap at the hands..and look away...that's a sign of hate..I guess? But pluggy,if only u can read this...I wished for us to be close again cuz one thing i know...that I really really miss ya...
And the story between me and Shammie...I guess it's like her favourite show..Days Of our Lives...Some drama..about this and that..but with a difference..(what the heck am I saying?) I guess that she's starting to hate me...and I simply..couldn't approach her..cuz I fear that she might get angry again..and I don't want that.. Maybe what I think is wrong..cuz the other day...i sorta tried to make conversation with her...indirectly that is...We're on the main of #emo and we were sorta asking sam to go bath..u know..indirectly talking to her kinda thingy..hehehe..that was a funny way...I feel that..somehow..it's like a good small sign that..she wants to talk to me..so i guess..I should try talking to her again...but I'm afraid that she might feel sad and all whenever I start talking. Like the other time..I said hi and she replied back with words that made me a li'l bit sad and a li'l bit mad..and in the end...we ended up arguing... I should try again one day,when i got the guts to do so.
With the band,things are going as usual again...sorta like last time...Bernard starts calling me again..and I call dzafir and tweet and all..asking them out..and all.. And we hanged out as a band yesterday..just like old times...4 years,5 years back when Izat was still in the band as our bassist. It was heck of a fun. Talking crap,watched movie together...and it was like last time. And we went to the gig yesterday as a band again...The same old four faces that u'll see at gigs...He he.. Well,glad that things are going well and I hope that my shit won't happen again,it's up to me to make it right.
I'll be going off to "war" later on and it's just a small squad. Lt. Dilah,Pvt.Ikhwan,Sgt.Rizal a.k.a Tweet,Recruit.Dan,Recruit.Din. Gonna have some fun shooting people up..hehe.. ngast...
Bernard's booking in today...back to Tekong he goes. And he lent me his Hood...WOO HOO!! Mt.Sac!! hehe..simple red sweater... but nice. Gonna lend it for one week. And well,that someone is going to the beach today..to take a swim..and do some..tanning? i guess...She went with her two friends and I didn't get to follow... (sad)...But,she's having fun..so yeah..fair enough..I mean..Don't get to see her one day..it wouldn't hurt..hehe... So it's one day off from seeing her. Hehe.
Okay folks...take care..PEACE OUT!
Thursday, May 15, 2003
I thought that I could acheive
What I have promised
Many reasons I've came up with
Reasons on why I've failed
Same old reasons that many are
sick of hearing
I've let down the others
Who had put faith in me
Failure is where I'm heading
It seems that everyone's looking down on me
Dissapointed is how they're feeling
I know I deserve this
Facing the consequences alone
The price I had to pay for failure
Slipped off the stepping stone
It has become an extreme matter
Solve these problems I must
To ammend the broken trust
I will never let them down again
Never again would I wanna feel the pain
Something i just wrote,after what happened...It ain't much but I hope it's something for u guys to read about...
Wednesday, May 14, 2003
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
[ Channel Watching : Star World - Darma & Greg ] [ Mood :-: Downed ]
Likee what my mood says..downed...I'm totally downed by everything. I suck...I'm a jerk,I'm an asshole..or whatever u wanna say it. i disappointed many people and hurt a few. Betrayed a few people. And I somehow feel or sense that a few people is beginning to hate me...I don't know... Sometimes I just feel like running away..disappear from others be away...be gone! Sometimes I feel that would be better...Just be alone,without having the thoughts and care and worries of how others would feel if I were to do things...or how would this person say when I hang out with this other bunch of friends..or how that other bunch of friends feel when I hang out with this bunch of friends. Should I get a new life? A new lifestyle? new Friends?
No Way! I love my friends...can't live without them...and especially my band,I would seriously not know what to do if I were to be out of the band...I'll be a lost fuck. I guess,that is why they're mad at me...I'm drifting away and yes,I admit that...I feel that way too..I'm drifting away. Without realizing and being concious about it..I'm drifting away. And this ain't the first time that they ain't happy bout me...It's more than one,that I know. And I know that I'm the trouble in the band. And now a days...god knows how I feel...I feel weird,awkward and all. I got one month left to prove myself worthy of the band...to change my attitude towards them..if not... Be Gone.So i must shape up or else I'll have to ship out.
As for Pluggy...I don't know,the day of the gig...since the first moment we met...I felt this coldness...the way she talk to me,look at me...something's not right..but she didn't say anything. When questioned,she says..."It's Nothing"... I don't know...and it's like,we're drifting apart..totally..not that close anymore like how we were before...
As for Shammie...things not going like how I've promised...about being friends...I mean,from my view,we're still are...but we just don't talk anymore... It's sorta of that..I know u but not that much anymore...From stranger to friends to something and back to friends and now...it's the sort of Hi-Bye kinda friend. I don't know...
As for the band... Currently,things not going good,the rest hate the way I do things,hate the way I treat them. And I agree,I am a jack ass...And Dzafir,ur right...I'm a sucka for a girl..yes I agree! I'm an asshole. And yeah,I don't call u guys up like how i did before...and I'm slowly disappearing... And I should change..for the band. And the promise we kept to one another..."Even if we're in a relationship,the band comes first"... Damn I suck...It seems like i can't keep that promise.. The band comes first..cuz when the girl goes...the band's there for me... Ainun..they were there when she left...Pluggy..They're still here when she left...Why can't I see that...I'm too blinded by a girl or something? No wonder...Blindedheart... i must change myself for the band...One month...that's all I've got to prove myself worthy...
As for my family... It's like..I'm a stayover person. The house is like my hotel...I mean,these past few months,I've been out...and out...and out..without staying home. It's like,I come home,to stay the night..have food..and then go out again. That is why my mom's nagging away...My bad...But i can't help it,staying home..will cause more hate..cuz I know..if I stay home..me and my mom..would argue..so it's best..to go out..and I'm sick of my home...god knows why...I'm just sick of it.
As for my life... It's on the downside right now...Things are not going the way I see it... Now I'm on the rocky part of the sea...*sigh*.. I don't know...whatever it is..I still have to go through it.
As for her... Something's going on between us...we're clicking away and we're getting somewhere but it's because of this...betrayal arises...I won't mention names...but i've betrayed two people cuz of this. A few others...sorta disagree on me going out with her...But I have feelings for her...and it's growing every single time I see her... Let's just see how things goes.
Lastly...Mint,Irma,Nuwul,Mira,Anah.... I wanna thank u people for being there.... Thanks for everything thanks for coming up to me and all...Thanks for everything..once again..especially Mint... Ur a sweetie!
Offheidesen!
Likee what my mood says..downed...I'm totally downed by everything. I suck...I'm a jerk,I'm an asshole..or whatever u wanna say it. i disappointed many people and hurt a few. Betrayed a few people. And I somehow feel or sense that a few people is beginning to hate me...I don't know... Sometimes I just feel like running away..disappear from others be away...be gone! Sometimes I feel that would be better...Just be alone,without having the thoughts and care and worries of how others would feel if I were to do things...or how would this person say when I hang out with this other bunch of friends..or how that other bunch of friends feel when I hang out with this bunch of friends. Should I get a new life? A new lifestyle? new Friends?
No Way! I love my friends...can't live without them...and especially my band,I would seriously not know what to do if I were to be out of the band...I'll be a lost fuck. I guess,that is why they're mad at me...I'm drifting away and yes,I admit that...I feel that way too..I'm drifting away. Without realizing and being concious about it..I'm drifting away. And this ain't the first time that they ain't happy bout me...It's more than one,that I know. And I know that I'm the trouble in the band. And now a days...god knows how I feel...I feel weird,awkward and all. I got one month left to prove myself worthy of the band...to change my attitude towards them..if not... Be Gone.So i must shape up or else I'll have to ship out.
As for Pluggy...I don't know,the day of the gig...since the first moment we met...I felt this coldness...the way she talk to me,look at me...something's not right..but she didn't say anything. When questioned,she says..."It's Nothing"... I don't know...and it's like,we're drifting apart..totally..not that close anymore like how we were before...
As for Shammie...things not going like how I've promised...about being friends...I mean,from my view,we're still are...but we just don't talk anymore... It's sorta of that..I know u but not that much anymore...From stranger to friends to something and back to friends and now...it's the sort of Hi-Bye kinda friend. I don't know...
As for the band... Currently,things not going good,the rest hate the way I do things,hate the way I treat them. And I agree,I am a jack ass...And Dzafir,ur right...I'm a sucka for a girl..yes I agree! I'm an asshole. And yeah,I don't call u guys up like how i did before...and I'm slowly disappearing... And I should change..for the band. And the promise we kept to one another..."Even if we're in a relationship,the band comes first"... Damn I suck...It seems like i can't keep that promise.. The band comes first..cuz when the girl goes...the band's there for me... Ainun..they were there when she left...Pluggy..They're still here when she left...Why can't I see that...I'm too blinded by a girl or something? No wonder...Blindedheart... i must change myself for the band...One month...that's all I've got to prove myself worthy...
As for my family... It's like..I'm a stayover person. The house is like my hotel...I mean,these past few months,I've been out...and out...and out..without staying home. It's like,I come home,to stay the night..have food..and then go out again. That is why my mom's nagging away...My bad...But i can't help it,staying home..will cause more hate..cuz I know..if I stay home..me and my mom..would argue..so it's best..to go out..and I'm sick of my home...god knows why...I'm just sick of it.
As for my life... It's on the downside right now...Things are not going the way I see it... Now I'm on the rocky part of the sea...*sigh*.. I don't know...whatever it is..I still have to go through it.
As for her... Something's going on between us...we're clicking away and we're getting somewhere but it's because of this...betrayal arises...I won't mention names...but i've betrayed two people cuz of this. A few others...sorta disagree on me going out with her...But I have feelings for her...and it's growing every single time I see her... Let's just see how things goes.
Lastly...Mint,Irma,Nuwul,Mira,Anah.... I wanna thank u people for being there.... Thanks for everything thanks for coming up to me and all...Thanks for everything..once again..especially Mint... Ur a sweetie!
Offheidesen!
Friday, May 09, 2003
[ Video Playing : Christina Aguilera - Fighter ] [ Mood :-: Dodgy/Sleepy ]
Damn! The weather's makin' me wanna sleep! It's all,cool and wet..and rainy kinda weather..holy wow! Wonderful weather to sleep..so I guess that I'll be sleeping soon after this..cuz I'm like fuckin' bored... Talkin' bout picture editting,I didn't even start on it...Damn,I'm feeling sleepy and can't take it...I guess I take a short break or something from the webby and picture editting. Gonna re-vamp the whole thing I guess... Called her just now and talked to her...and it was nice to hear from her cuz I miss her and well,today she went to meet Hafiz. Wanted to meet her,but to think of it,nah...she have tuition later on so it's okay. After meeting Hafiz,she'll be going to her Grandma's place after that. But it's okay...get to meet her again tomorrow!
Right now...it's Justin Timberlake with his stupid song...dancing around in his white suit...WHATEVER Justin... ngast! I'm feeling so fuckin' sleepy..Aight kids...I'm outta here! Type in again some other time when I have the time. Peace out!
Cheers!
Damn! The weather's makin' me wanna sleep! It's all,cool and wet..and rainy kinda weather..holy wow! Wonderful weather to sleep..so I guess that I'll be sleeping soon after this..cuz I'm like fuckin' bored... Talkin' bout picture editting,I didn't even start on it...Damn,I'm feeling sleepy and can't take it...I guess I take a short break or something from the webby and picture editting. Gonna re-vamp the whole thing I guess... Called her just now and talked to her...and it was nice to hear from her cuz I miss her and well,today she went to meet Hafiz. Wanted to meet her,but to think of it,nah...she have tuition later on so it's okay. After meeting Hafiz,she'll be going to her Grandma's place after that. But it's okay...get to meet her again tomorrow!
Right now...it's Justin Timberlake with his stupid song...dancing around in his white suit...WHATEVER Justin... ngast! I'm feeling so fuckin' sleepy..Aight kids...I'm outta here! Type in again some other time when I have the time. Peace out!
Cheers!
[ Video Playing : Foo Fighters - Times Like These ] [ Mood :-: Dodgy ]
Ah mad!! Most real,only now that my dad got us Cable Vision... When others go it like,way long ago and only now we got it but it's something. When I got home yesterday, I saw him playing around with the TV,so I thought that there was something wrong with the TV or something and when I came up close... GOD DAMN!! It's a fuckin' SCV Channel Box or something. ARGH!!! My left eye hurts,god damn,it must be the lens... It's like a heaty sensation whenever I blink my eyes or close my eyes. MTV...I LIKE! Ngast!! hahaha...
Dang,it's one day to go to gig day which is tomorrow! Woo hoo! Can't wait to check the bands out! And for today,I seriously don't know what to do,god damn! I'm bored and right now...I'm freakin' bored x 10. Aight,I guess I'll continue with my picture editting thingy....Peace!
Cheers Mates!!
Ah mad!! Most real,only now that my dad got us Cable Vision... When others go it like,way long ago and only now we got it but it's something. When I got home yesterday, I saw him playing around with the TV,so I thought that there was something wrong with the TV or something and when I came up close... GOD DAMN!! It's a fuckin' SCV Channel Box or something. ARGH!!! My left eye hurts,god damn,it must be the lens... It's like a heaty sensation whenever I blink my eyes or close my eyes. MTV...I LIKE! Ngast!! hahaha...
Dang,it's one day to go to gig day which is tomorrow! Woo hoo! Can't wait to check the bands out! And for today,I seriously don't know what to do,god damn! I'm bored and right now...I'm freakin' bored x 10. Aight,I guess I'll continue with my picture editting thingy....Peace!
Cheers Mates!!
Thursday, May 08, 2003
[ Music Blasting : No Direction - Downside Emotions ] [ Mood :-: Ngast ]
LaL...The time has now turned from morning to afternoon and I've been sitting in front of the comp since like what? 9 plus in the morning...Been showering four times yesterday night. Everytime I woke up,I went to the loo and just...shower...it's the weather I guess...kinda humind,sweaty and hot! Been chattin' and dissing people in #melayu...Ngast! Been planning of doin' the webby..but I guess I don't feel like starting...I'll be doin' it soon after I blog in here. Whoa...even now,I'm still feelin' the heat! Whoa,kinda stressed out about the webby...the picture editting parts is the frustrating ones... Gotta do this,lighting,colours,blending..NGAST! hehehe..Madness..
The gig's in two days time! (WoW!) Hehehe..can't wait to see MSC's new line up! And most real,to see Azman sing! Woo hoo!! And most real,to hang out with the old bunch of kids that I've been hangin' out at gigs always..hehe...The chatters..old and new...WOO HOO!! And most real,I'll be meeting her later....or am I not? Hmm...not sure...but I wanna see her..miss her sooo very much! *sigh* Missed Shammie too but I guess that she's doin' okay now..and I hope that she's getting better at things...
Well then,gotta start on the webby,gonna re-vamp some stuff.... Anyways,take care and good night!
CHEERS!
LaL...The time has now turned from morning to afternoon and I've been sitting in front of the comp since like what? 9 plus in the morning...Been showering four times yesterday night. Everytime I woke up,I went to the loo and just...shower...it's the weather I guess...kinda humind,sweaty and hot! Been chattin' and dissing people in #melayu...Ngast! Been planning of doin' the webby..but I guess I don't feel like starting...I'll be doin' it soon after I blog in here. Whoa...even now,I'm still feelin' the heat! Whoa,kinda stressed out about the webby...the picture editting parts is the frustrating ones... Gotta do this,lighting,colours,blending..NGAST! hehehe..Madness..
The gig's in two days time! (WoW!) Hehehe..can't wait to see MSC's new line up! And most real,to see Azman sing! Woo hoo!! And most real,to hang out with the old bunch of kids that I've been hangin' out at gigs always..hehe...The chatters..old and new...WOO HOO!! And most real,I'll be meeting her later....or am I not? Hmm...not sure...but I wanna see her..miss her sooo very much! *sigh* Missed Shammie too but I guess that she's doin' okay now..and I hope that she's getting better at things...
Well then,gotta start on the webby,gonna re-vamp some stuff.... Anyways,take care and good night!
CHEERS!
Wednesday, May 07, 2003
[ Music Blasting : Muse - Citizen Erased ] [ Mood :-: Confused Feelings ]
I don't even know what I'm feeling? Ngast! Yesterday,I was the morning man! Hahahaha. Woke up around 7:30 in the morning...got ready and met Tweet at Paya Lebar Station on the platform. Then from there,we set off to Redhill. Reached redhil,took the bus an we went off to CMPB. Tweet got the check-up letter but he wants to defer cuz he still got school to attend to. He'll be going to ITE Macpherson,taking up the Infocomm Course...or was it Multemedia...LaL..I've forgotten! Anyways,after that CMPB thingy in the morning,we head down to Parkway to have our Brunch at "Banquet" on the top floor of Parkway Parade.
East Coast where we headed next,went to to do somethings and this,I can't tell cuz it's a surprise thingy. Went to book something... Ngast! And the next best thing,we got lost...don't know where to go,where to slack,with whom to slack. So we just sat down at one of the blocks in Marade Parade. Calling up friends to recruit to play MOHAA but then we failed. Lacking in troopers,we decided to slack at BK in Parkway. Met up with Dzafir and Fidah...Four dodgy kids,lost...bored...decided to go to Grandlink and play Pool. Had a fun game and the way Tweet plays,u guys should see,he cracks us up big time! after pool,we hanged out at Mc's and chit chat for a while before all of us split up. After that,I went home feeling so LaL! ngast! HAHAHAH....
Okay then,I think,that's about it,I'm outta here... PEACE OUT!
Cheers!
I don't even know what I'm feeling? Ngast! Yesterday,I was the morning man! Hahahaha. Woke up around 7:30 in the morning...got ready and met Tweet at Paya Lebar Station on the platform. Then from there,we set off to Redhill. Reached redhil,took the bus an we went off to CMPB. Tweet got the check-up letter but he wants to defer cuz he still got school to attend to. He'll be going to ITE Macpherson,taking up the Infocomm Course...or was it Multemedia...LaL..I've forgotten! Anyways,after that CMPB thingy in the morning,we head down to Parkway to have our Brunch at "Banquet" on the top floor of Parkway Parade.
East Coast where we headed next,went to to do somethings and this,I can't tell cuz it's a surprise thingy. Went to book something... Ngast! And the next best thing,we got lost...don't know where to go,where to slack,with whom to slack. So we just sat down at one of the blocks in Marade Parade. Calling up friends to recruit to play MOHAA but then we failed. Lacking in troopers,we decided to slack at BK in Parkway. Met up with Dzafir and Fidah...Four dodgy kids,lost...bored...decided to go to Grandlink and play Pool. Had a fun game and the way Tweet plays,u guys should see,he cracks us up big time! after pool,we hanged out at Mc's and chit chat for a while before all of us split up. After that,I went home feeling so LaL! ngast! HAHAHAH....
Okay then,I think,that's about it,I'm outta here... PEACE OUT!
Cheers!
Monday, May 05, 2003
[ Music Blasting : The Prata Boyz - Me & My Chapati ] [ Mood :-: Swingin' ]
Dang...what i've been doin? Since the previous entry? Well,chatted and got sick of everything. I was so frustrated with someone in the net and maybe some of u know what happened...Pshyco Fin pissed me off just now... Whatever she's feeling. Bluergh! i hate this,I hate this kinda life..I'm getting sick of it..."Get a job Hezwan" "Find something better to do than slackin " "Don't u want to school anymore?" "What are ur plans after NS?"
These questions make me think...WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?! Slacking away...that,I know! That's why I'm finding something to do,like ND's webby...and updating my blogs..scan pics and stuff like that...but most of the time..I'm out. Don't know where the heck would I go at times..sometimes,I just sit alone down stairs at my void deck. Ngast,it's hard these days...whereby u gotta take care of people's feelings...their hearts...and ur actions..must think twice and all... Me and pluggy,we argued and we were very pissed at one another but we settle it up...our friendship,is too precious for me to just let it go. If pluggy were to go,it'll be like tearing a part of me off..goes the same for my band. I feel bad about my band,since Bernard left for tekong,the rest of us didn't keep in touch. Bernard is like the glue master who sticks us all together. They've been talking to me about making efforts to at least call each of 'em and ask how they're doin..but I didn't..I'm one fucked up asshole. Like past few days...we didn't keep in touch...Except that Tweet called me up..asking whether I want to follow him and yes I said I would. As for Dzafir,i don't know..I just feel that sometimes...we don't click that well..as well as me and tweet..or me and Bernard...Since the first time I met Dzafir during my skating days...we didn't click that well. Talk on the phone,quite often..but ain't that often to say that it's like everyday we talk on the phone or something. What am I doing? I'm one lazy Mo Fo! that's what I am!
Sometimes I feel that I should just drift away and disappear for a while but I've got commitments to attend to. So i can't just drift away.
FUCK! Stupid brother of mine..hate that ass fucked wuss! never did I click with him ever since I was 6. i hate the way he do things hate the way he say things hate the way he things he is.
Argh..most real...I'm outta here...meeting someone... write in again later.
FUCK OUT!
Dang...what i've been doin? Since the previous entry? Well,chatted and got sick of everything. I was so frustrated with someone in the net and maybe some of u know what happened...Pshyco Fin pissed me off just now... Whatever she's feeling. Bluergh! i hate this,I hate this kinda life..I'm getting sick of it..."Get a job Hezwan" "Find something better to do than slackin " "Don't u want to school anymore?" "What are ur plans after NS?"
These questions make me think...WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?! Slacking away...that,I know! That's why I'm finding something to do,like ND's webby...and updating my blogs..scan pics and stuff like that...but most of the time..I'm out. Don't know where the heck would I go at times..sometimes,I just sit alone down stairs at my void deck. Ngast,it's hard these days...whereby u gotta take care of people's feelings...their hearts...and ur actions..must think twice and all... Me and pluggy,we argued and we were very pissed at one another but we settle it up...our friendship,is too precious for me to just let it go. If pluggy were to go,it'll be like tearing a part of me off..goes the same for my band. I feel bad about my band,since Bernard left for tekong,the rest of us didn't keep in touch. Bernard is like the glue master who sticks us all together. They've been talking to me about making efforts to at least call each of 'em and ask how they're doin..but I didn't..I'm one fucked up asshole. Like past few days...we didn't keep in touch...Except that Tweet called me up..asking whether I want to follow him and yes I said I would. As for Dzafir,i don't know..I just feel that sometimes...we don't click that well..as well as me and tweet..or me and Bernard...Since the first time I met Dzafir during my skating days...we didn't click that well. Talk on the phone,quite often..but ain't that often to say that it's like everyday we talk on the phone or something. What am I doing? I'm one lazy Mo Fo! that's what I am!
Sometimes I feel that I should just drift away and disappear for a while but I've got commitments to attend to. So i can't just drift away.
FUCK! Stupid brother of mine..hate that ass fucked wuss! never did I click with him ever since I was 6. i hate the way he do things hate the way he say things hate the way he things he is.
Argh..most real...I'm outta here...meeting someone... write in again later.
FUCK OUT!
9 plus in the morning....waking up at god knows what time,I think it was around 8 plus. Ngast,stoning around,went to the loo to take a shit and smoke and....it was heaven. I woke up to the tunes of Candy Girl in my head and I think I know why...she always sing that song whenever I'm with her. Hehehehe,Sugar sugar...oh honey honey...u are my candy girl...u got me wanting u...I ain't sure bout the lyrics but that's roughly on how it goes. Chatting has never been so boring,oh wait,it always had been that boring. Unless the khakis are all in there,the IRC is just another ghost town,everyone doin' their own shit and all. Ngast!
Today's a freakin' Monday! A new beginning to the week. I hope that I can see her today,but I ain't sure,maybe she went to school or maybe she's at home right now. I guess I call her later and ask whether we could meet up or something. Had a good sleep...I guess...but waking up to a wet t-shirt...cuz it was suddenly...hot and I was sweating,god damn I was sweating! What's with the weatther these days,all weird.
The 10th May gig is comin' up and it's actually this week and....WOO HOO!! MSC's playing! Can't wait to see the new version of MSC...with an addition to the members..Azman is now singing for them. And what I heard...their style of play is a li'l bit different. So I want to check them out. And secondly,Plan 2 Fool is what I'm looking out for,potential young lads playing in a ska band and they can go far by the way I see it. And the girl vocalist is awesome,she does sound a li'l bit like Monique Powell... And most real,can't wait to go to the gig with her... I'm suppose to go with Pluggy but she ain't sure about going so I rather take a confirmed stand which is her. And hopefully she wants to go with me.
Well then,ain't much left to say,maybe I'll blog in later on. And have u guys checked out Shammie's new layout,it's awesome! Click on her link below and check it out...it's sweet and simple yet nice! Well then,take care lads!
Cheers!
Today's a freakin' Monday! A new beginning to the week. I hope that I can see her today,but I ain't sure,maybe she went to school or maybe she's at home right now. I guess I call her later and ask whether we could meet up or something. Had a good sleep...I guess...but waking up to a wet t-shirt...cuz it was suddenly...hot and I was sweating,god damn I was sweating! What's with the weatther these days,all weird.
The 10th May gig is comin' up and it's actually this week and....WOO HOO!! MSC's playing! Can't wait to see the new version of MSC...with an addition to the members..Azman is now singing for them. And what I heard...their style of play is a li'l bit different. So I want to check them out. And secondly,Plan 2 Fool is what I'm looking out for,potential young lads playing in a ska band and they can go far by the way I see it. And the girl vocalist is awesome,she does sound a li'l bit like Monique Powell... And most real,can't wait to go to the gig with her... I'm suppose to go with Pluggy but she ain't sure about going so I rather take a confirmed stand which is her. And hopefully she wants to go with me.
Well then,ain't much left to say,maybe I'll blog in later on. And have u guys checked out Shammie's new layout,it's awesome! Click on her link below and check it out...it's sweet and simple yet nice! Well then,take care lads!
Cheers!
Sunday, May 04, 2003
[ Music Blasting : No Direction - Downside Emotions ] [ Mood :-: Happy ]
Woo hoo!! madness of the mading! I'm damn blardee happy! Hey ho..let's go! hahhaa..get to spend the whole time with her yesterday at Changi Beach! It was damn fantastic! Can't stop thinking about her now. After two days of not comin' home...hehe...I'm at home now..Yeah..on a Sunday! Staying home Sunday! Ah yeah! I'll be home for the whole day today!
Went back from Changi just now and got to Bedok Interchange...and noticed a whole bunch of skaters passing by..and I was like..what the heck...surely either just came back from memo or head down to Bedok to skate at the skate park..then I just remembered that there's a skate comp going on at the Bedok Adventure Park..which is beside Bedok Library...today's the official opening day of the park... The comp's going on as I'm typing right now. Woo hoo!! i'm bored....Ah mad! Miss jammin' with ND...I wonder when's our next jammin' session! And when's our next recording... *sigh* god knows when...
Now there's this Japan TV thingy going on...on Channel News Asia...damn japs...speakin' as if they wanna fight or something. NGAST!
There's nothing more to say or talk about...so..I'm signing off..PEACE OUT!
CHEERS!
Woo hoo!! madness of the mading! I'm damn blardee happy! Hey ho..let's go! hahhaa..get to spend the whole time with her yesterday at Changi Beach! It was damn fantastic! Can't stop thinking about her now. After two days of not comin' home...hehe...I'm at home now..Yeah..on a Sunday! Staying home Sunday! Ah yeah! I'll be home for the whole day today!
Went back from Changi just now and got to Bedok Interchange...and noticed a whole bunch of skaters passing by..and I was like..what the heck...surely either just came back from memo or head down to Bedok to skate at the skate park..then I just remembered that there's a skate comp going on at the Bedok Adventure Park..which is beside Bedok Library...today's the official opening day of the park... The comp's going on as I'm typing right now. Woo hoo!! i'm bored....Ah mad! Miss jammin' with ND...I wonder when's our next jammin' session! And when's our next recording... *sigh* god knows when...
Now there's this Japan TV thingy going on...on Channel News Asia...damn japs...speakin' as if they wanna fight or something. NGAST!
There's nothing more to say or talk about...so..I'm signing off..PEACE OUT!
CHEERS!
Friday, May 02, 2003
Ngast! That's the first word I wanted to type in... Feeling kinda tired but not sleepy and not knowing what to do right now..I'm lost!
Now,what's wrong with that sentence? Does it have the feel...the excitement..or the climax of this stupid blog? FUCK IT AH! Crappy siak! I'm just feeling bored ah. Well as for today,nothin' much has happened...Except that went to meet up with Bernard and hang out with him for a while at his place..and I literally mean..FOR A WHILE... Cuz I came..we talked for a while..and he was getting ready to go back to his camp. So we did...his mom drop us off Pasir Ris and we walked to Coffee Bean...where we met Shain,Fidah and Mon there. Hanged out,talked crap and soon after,Dzafir dropped by. Madness...it was like..BERNARD LOOK FREAKIN' SMART IN HIS ARMY U! jealous aku! hahaha..Soon ah eh Wan..soon! And hanged out,talked crap as always...and then he had to go back. A few mins after he went off to the interchange to take the bus to the Ferry Terminal to Tekong...Yan came...He looks..so fuckin' cute! Like a bear..u know..all cuddly and round...hehe...seeing him with shorter hair makes him looks even cuter siak! And in uniform somemore..lagi cute..he kena disturbed by Shain and Dzafir..heheheh...sick ah.. Then they left off to Tekong. The rest of us...slacked at Coffee Bean again and talked about things and all. And then,after a while..we left. Bla bla bla...(I'm typing out like a fuckin' Primary School kid) damn it! I head back home taking the bus no.21...and it was a long ride..but it was nice..cuz I get to take a nap! WOO HOO! Met up with Malek..and slack again...
Talk crap for a while about things and all..bla bla bla...blee blee blee..woo hoo! APA APA AH! Actually...to be honest..I'm out of idea to type things out...but just to fill up the blog...I type in lah! so here it is..BUAhAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAPLEHSQUIRREL AH EH!
Okay..that was the most uninteresting blog I've ever typed in...Woo hoo! some other time ah..when I'm feeling very Authorish! hahaha..peace out folks!
CHEERS!
Now,what's wrong with that sentence? Does it have the feel...the excitement..or the climax of this stupid blog? FUCK IT AH! Crappy siak! I'm just feeling bored ah. Well as for today,nothin' much has happened...Except that went to meet up with Bernard and hang out with him for a while at his place..and I literally mean..FOR A WHILE... Cuz I came..we talked for a while..and he was getting ready to go back to his camp. So we did...his mom drop us off Pasir Ris and we walked to Coffee Bean...where we met Shain,Fidah and Mon there. Hanged out,talked crap and soon after,Dzafir dropped by. Madness...it was like..BERNARD LOOK FREAKIN' SMART IN HIS ARMY U! jealous aku! hahaha..Soon ah eh Wan..soon! And hanged out,talked crap as always...and then he had to go back. A few mins after he went off to the interchange to take the bus to the Ferry Terminal to Tekong...Yan came...He looks..so fuckin' cute! Like a bear..u know..all cuddly and round...hehe...seeing him with shorter hair makes him looks even cuter siak! And in uniform somemore..lagi cute..he kena disturbed by Shain and Dzafir..heheheh...sick ah.. Then they left off to Tekong. The rest of us...slacked at Coffee Bean again and talked about things and all. And then,after a while..we left. Bla bla bla...(I'm typing out like a fuckin' Primary School kid) damn it! I head back home taking the bus no.21...and it was a long ride..but it was nice..cuz I get to take a nap! WOO HOO! Met up with Malek..and slack again...
Talk crap for a while about things and all..bla bla bla...blee blee blee..woo hoo! APA APA AH! Actually...to be honest..I'm out of idea to type things out...but just to fill up the blog...I type in lah! so here it is..BUAhAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAPLEHSQUIRREL AH EH!
Okay..that was the most uninteresting blog I've ever typed in...Woo hoo! some other time ah..when I'm feeling very Authorish! hahaha..peace out folks!
CHEERS!
Thursday, May 01, 2003
[ Music Blasting : Biffy Clyro - Christopher's River ] [ Mood :-: Sick ]
Whoa,sick? Yes I am,sick as hell... I'm not sure but I think it's just the morning sickness or some sort. I just woke up,did I? Damn! I don't even know if I've just woke up or woken up long ago. God damn! Buah ha ha hahaha ha Pleh Squirrel! I'm freakin' bored.
Yesterday,Bernard got to book out from camp and I can't go cuz my mom won't let me go out that far yesterday. I do remember about his booking out date and I do want to go but yesterday I can't. Went down to meet Malek for a while cuz he wanted to take something from me and then we slacked for a while. But when I was slackin' with him,Tweety called me up asking where am I and all and I told him that I was at home and damn,I should have told him that I was at my void deck,not home..home. And in the background,I heard Dzafir shouting out things like "It's worthless,don't talk to him,put the phone down"..That kinda thing...*sigh* I suck! I really can't go out far and Dzafir's mad at me now. I wish that I could just disappear from the people I know so that I don't keep hurting them. Sometimes I feel that it's kinda nice to be someone who have no one else except themselves. Loneliness may take over but then u have no worries on to taking care of other people's feelings,promises to keep and everything willl be problemless. DAMN! I don't know,I guess I have to talk to Dzafir about what happened yesterday and all. Hopefully Dzafir will understand about it.
Well then,anyways,gotta carry on doing the website.
Cheers Mate!!
Whoa,sick? Yes I am,sick as hell... I'm not sure but I think it's just the morning sickness or some sort. I just woke up,did I? Damn! I don't even know if I've just woke up or woken up long ago. God damn! Buah ha ha hahaha ha Pleh Squirrel! I'm freakin' bored.
Yesterday,Bernard got to book out from camp and I can't go cuz my mom won't let me go out that far yesterday. I do remember about his booking out date and I do want to go but yesterday I can't. Went down to meet Malek for a while cuz he wanted to take something from me and then we slacked for a while. But when I was slackin' with him,Tweety called me up asking where am I and all and I told him that I was at home and damn,I should have told him that I was at my void deck,not home..home. And in the background,I heard Dzafir shouting out things like "It's worthless,don't talk to him,put the phone down"..That kinda thing...*sigh* I suck! I really can't go out far and Dzafir's mad at me now. I wish that I could just disappear from the people I know so that I don't keep hurting them. Sometimes I feel that it's kinda nice to be someone who have no one else except themselves. Loneliness may take over but then u have no worries on to taking care of other people's feelings,promises to keep and everything willl be problemless. DAMN! I don't know,I guess I have to talk to Dzafir about what happened yesterday and all. Hopefully Dzafir will understand about it.
Well then,anyways,gotta carry on doing the website.
Cheers Mate!!
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