Today...So far...had been...ONE HELL OF A FUCKED UP DAY! I shouldn't have gone to the gig... But I see it for Nurul so I went. It was fuckin' borin'. Mainly of the bands are ska bands.. Socks ain't it?! I mean, ska? Fuckin' ska! I mean, ska is okay, but when it becomes too much.. it turns sour! Fucked up! And the crowd... It was there, yeah, it was like.. a lot.. but u know what.. it was empty.. it terms of energy.. For me, it was dead.. When a fuckin' ska band plays, everybody goes up to the front.. even when they're outside the fuckin' gate.. most real, even from the fuckin' coffee shop, they ran back to the garden.. Why? Cuz a ska band is playin' and they do not want to miss the skankin' fun. Rudies, in all colours, black.. and even in full white suit.. They look rich.. try askin' them.. "How much u got?" most probably u got a lame fuckin' reply like.."3 bucks plus". or maybe less.. well the richer ones would have maybe around 10? They look "rich".. With all the suits and all, but what they drink? A packet drink that cost a few cents. Okay, most probably some of u who's readin' this shit might say, "Come on, it's their choice on how they want to dress up..." Yeah by all means dress fuckin' up! U guys go to gigs just to skank and do a fuckin' fashion parade?! Kids of all ages.. youngest maybe...12? or 13? Influence by others.. I mean, what the fuck?! It was draggy.. today was so fuckin' draggy! Never had a fucked up day like this before! And most real, the last band, I felt bad for them. If that was my band, I'm sure to feel really fucked up. Where have all the crowd gone to? Rancour was second last and after that, almost everybody left! THe last band, only a handful of crowd stayed behind. And they were awesome! Good vocals, good bass slapping and the guitars with effects and tight drummin... too bad.. the "commercialised and sellout" crowd left... Oh wait, maybe they're too fuckin' young to stay out that late...Whatever it is, this L2R is not by far..the best.. L2R 1 and L2R 3 was awesome...

That was part of the fucked upness... To end off my day... Saw people that I wished I wouldn't see.. okay, maybe it's not people.. more like...this one guy. Before I went to the gig, I should have followed my heart... I see this comin' and it sucks when it happened.. I don't wanna talk much about it, just to touch the surface of things... This someone who I was okay with and who I could at least talk... I can no longer talk to him.. i don't know why... secondly, I felt fucked up or like as if being used or somethin'.. U know, back then I wrote somethin' about "PLaster-Of-Boredom"... somethin' like that.. Right now, at this fuckin' minute... I have one hell of a confused feeling... It's all mixed up, just like "rojak"... Sadness, anger, frustration, emptiness, loneliness, wishful... I don't know.. What's happenin' to me?! Will someone, approach me and fuckin' tell me what?! Past few weeks I've been feelin' dead.. really dead.. it's as if my fun side no longer exist. I can't make jokes no more, or maybe I can but others might find it lame..It's like I'm more like pretendin' to laugh these days... I feel dead... The energy inside of me is so fuckin' dead... Felt like as if I'm sick of everythin' and I just want to end it all. Everythin'... and start anew... Are these signs of growin' out of ur teenage days? Mellow down? Like what Fattah did? Look at him, he no longer hangs out with us, or sms or call.. I guess he settled and mellow down from he's active teenage life... As we malay would say..."Dia dah bawak diri ah..." it's like, he's in his own world... Bargh! I don't know... Fuck it! i'm feelin' F-ed-UP!

Anyways, 1st day chalet pics are up.. my display pics will stay the same for some time, maybe next week will be new pics? I'm just lazy to edit for now. Pic of the week, it will still be, the chalet pile up pic...

Allright, happy fuckin' day all! Enjoy ur fuckin' time! Hope everythin' will be fuckin' fine... Cheers! And have a good fuckin' day!

Fuckingly Yours,
HaZe_OnE

It's a fuckin' borin' Sunday again.. There's a gig today and I'm goin...Supposedly to be there by 2..but I ain't moved my butt yet.. Hahaha... I'm half hearted to go... I don't know why..maybe of some personal reasons...I shall try to avoid today..

Free entry, thanks to nuwul dear...I'm on the guest list... Should I go or should I stay? hmm.. Fuck it, I'm goin'... Ain't much to do now, just to get ready and to fuck off from here. I'm feelin' so uneasy!! I don't know why.. The same old fuckin' feelin' that keeps on repeatin... ARGH! Fuck it, it's a fuckin' sunday, I should go out there and enjoy.. I think it's a ska fest today...AH! Rudeboy-ing around!

I'm outta here.. I'm fillin' in later...

Here's the poem I wrote when I was sittin' in my lecture durin' my theory lessons in driving... It's halfway done...

If I have to go far away
From your heart where I'd normally stay
Would you still be there?
To let me know that you care?

I love you dearly with all my heart
From my p|uGGy I cannot part
The bond we have are all so true
To break your heart I can never do

Okay, so this is where I'm stuck at... Shit, I shouldn't expose it now but what the heck.. I'll be back with the ending... (I hope)... So yeah.. Cheers to all!

Hey guys! Guess what? I'm at home! Cool ey? Hehehe. Today's my third day of drivin' around on the public road... Tampines,Bedok and Pasir Ris... Most real, past by Temasek Poly and I drive real slow there... Hehehe, u guys know what I mean. The "view" was awesome! Another good "view" Was at the traffic light of Tampines, around the AXN building... There I was, my Rover, waitin' patiently at the traffic light, suddenly, an SBS bus pulled up on my right. So it was nothin', I turned my head and GOD DAMN!!! WHAT A WHAMMAX!! There she was sittin' there, lookin' out, of course, she wasn't lookin' at me but hell, I was lookin' at her. She was gorgeous. She doesn't look like a minah (Which I'm glad she wasn't).. Just an ordinary Plain Jane... Whatever is, I drove wreklessly.. Hehehe.. Well, don't blame me! Singapore road users can be fuck ups at times, especially some of the cabbies... They drove like they own the fuckin' road!

Cut in my lane any-o-how just to get their passenger up ahead... And big lorries drivin' above the speed they should and cuttin' into my lane. It was insane but fuck it, being a good defensive military driver, I keep my cool and so did my instructor. He's cool, never ever had he raised his voice on any of my guys... Detail 6 Driver 5... That's me... 5 guys in one group... I'll be havin' my night drivin' tomorrow... so yeah, I'm expecting more view..ehem..I mean.."view"... Hey, it's night time, it's that time of the day where beautiful beings of god appears...HAHAHA... okay whatever it is, I'm going to get back to my picture edittin'...crackin' up my brain on what to edit next... Too many pics.. hehe...

Anyways, I just remembered somethin'... The other time at the chalet, I saw this girl, say...about 14 or 16.. somewhere there... She was dressin' up like a so-called.."punk rocker"... along with her friends.. And me and the guys cracked up when we read what the shirt she was wearing said...U know what it says?....

"Punks Not Die" <-- I mean... talkin' about bad english, this is bad... Super mega extremely...BAD! Punks not die!! Now that made our minds think..."This shirt,is either from Malaysia or Indonesia..." Punks Not Die! What the hell were they thinking.. And this poor girl thinkin' that it's some kind of a cool "PUNK" shirt.. is being a victim of a bad Grammatical Error of English... SOCKS! We had a good laugh over that shirt and we somehow teased her... Hehehe.. It was mad...

Okay, that's it... I'll be typing in on my next entry with a half written poem...Cheers for now!

Okay, most real, I've just editted new pics on my display...

Marcos Brothers: The famous archapello group from Mexico. Currently they're here in Singapore to do some illegal buskin' in the streets to get money for them to get back home to mexico. Reason, they got robbed...

Have You Seen Them: Two brothers were found missing, buy the Mad Dailys to know more about the story..

Pic Of The Week: This week, we're havin' a mad pic, showing the bunch of us piling up... It was insane! The chalet, was awesome!

I got another one, a beautiful poem by Henry Scott Holland...

"Death is nothing at all. It does not count. I have only slipped away into the next room. Nothing has happened. Everything remains exactly as it was. I am I, and you are you, and the old life we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged. Whatever we were to each other, that we are still. Call me by the old familiar name. Speak of me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference into your tone. Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow. Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together. Play, smile, think of me, pray for me. Let my name be ever the household word that it always was. Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was. There is absolute and unbroken continuity. What is this death but a negligible accident? Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just round the corner. All is well. Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost. One brief moment and all will be as it was before. How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!"

Aight, right now, I have this new segment, called the Poem segment! Where I would read up from a book and tranfser it to my blog just to share it with u guys. Anyways, this first poem, goes out to someone, that someone who had always been there in my mind... Some of u guys might know who.. or rather, SHOULD know who...

When I must leave you for a little while
Please do not grieve and shed wild tears
And hug your sorrow to you through the years
But start out bravely with a gallant smile;
And for my sake and in my name
Live on and do all things the same.
Feed not your loneliness on empty days,
But fill each waking hour in useful ways,
Reach out your hand in comfort and in cheer
And I in turn will comfort you and hold you near.

That was written by some annonymous guy...

Hey Ho! It's been much of a fucked up day today... First Chapter's jammin's cancelled...God knows why and most real, I feel that it should just close down! Cuz it's like no one's serious about FC no more besides Fir... Fir's the only fuel that still wants to play. But fuck, if they ain't puttin' much effort...Fuck it, just shut down the band. All efforts from the original Learnin' Tunes lined up, all down the drain. So far, the original First Chapter was still the best line up.

Feelin' Lal about many things these days, just now, had a fucked up mornin' cuz of my grandma who accused me of somethin'. It's weird ey? When u wanna do good things ur always mistaken for doing bad things. Reason, cuz u've been doing bad things too much that even others wouldn't believe it when u say u wanna do somethin' good. So yeah, somesort like that. Fuck it! Woke up to a bad note and B got one hell of a screamin' from me. I was fuckin' shoutin' all over the place, to my mom, my grandma.. and even to my dad. Fuck ain't it? It ain't a normal shout, it's one of those that sounded like a scream from a band and it's going at louder frequency...I think the whole of next block could hear me. It was unintentional... Fuck it, I was pissed, who cares...all that matters that I let it out by fuckin' shout.

Yesterday was kinda fun.. went out with Surya to watch a movie, "Around The World In 80 Days" starrin' Jackie Chan and many other cast. It was Star Studded! It was whacked! Funny and all. Had fun with her, a simple movie date and we ate ice cream and then we went home... Hahaha.. It was insane, normal mornin' routine (going to Kaki Bukit to my course) and in the afternoon, head out to Tamp to fetch Surya and then head off to town to watch the movie and then head back to Tamps to send surya home and then met Fad there, then head back to Town to meet up with Mon,Tweet,Min,Haniff,Aisha... After that, head back to tamp to meet up with the bunch...Zany!

Anyways, the chalet was a fuckin' success! Although it was sorta last minute but it all worked out!~ Invited a lot of people but didn't expect most of them to turn up! It was awesome! Fuckin' fun! Big crowd in a small crowded room.. Had fun playin' games and all... To those who didn't come, it's okay but one thing, u guys missed all the mad fun! To those who came, I wanna say thanks for making it a happenin' one... And to those who contribute food or any other stuff (ETC Playstation,Radio,Snacks...) I wanna say big thanks to u guys! Without u, it wouldn't ignite... I might be planning to organise another chalet end of year...let's see how ey? CHeers to all! PILE UP!!! And yeah, to the band "Secret Windows"... Thanks for performing at our chalet, u guys rock on Friday night!!!

Whoa, so the many Tags! Madness! Insane! Hahaha, most real, drove my first vehicle for the past few days...but that's only a simulator. Insane part about it, The first few tries, I was okay... but when I was drivin' in the Ang Mo Kio map, I hit a pedestrian! If it was real, I'd be in deep shit! Well, can't blame me, he dashed out of the street from a cab! There was a few tries whereby I drove up the curb...hehe..it was fun! Insanely fun! I'll be drivin' the real thing next week, Monday.

The chalet's goin' on right now and yesterday, being the first night, was already mad enough!! Roughly about 15 of us in that one room! All snuggling up and sharin' spaces playin' Sammy's PS2! It was mad, the whole lot of us just sit in that room, lights all turned off and curtains drawned...and we played...Fatal Frame.. It was scary funny madness experience! The game itself is already fuckin' spooky and Inn was makin' noises at first but not until he was taken by surprise by the ghost in the game. we all freaked out! Especially the girls, we were screamin' and freakin' out and Khus was on control. Poor guy, he was stressed out by us I guess... What do ya expect? I know it's a game but with dimmed lighting effects of the game and freaky camera angles plus the freakin' sounds and music...It does make ur hair stands! What's worse? When the ghost appears right in front of ya or let's say when ur on the second floor and the camera angle was like half top floor and half facin' ground floor... The character Khus was controlling, walked upstairs and suddenly the ghost just appear and walks past below and disappears.. It was kinda freakin! We shouted and we screamed and it was like fuckin' 2 in the mornin'! Hahaha... Loads of fun!

Today's the second day, which is the food day for the chalet, we ain't got much food and my mom don't wanna cook for me! Shit! We're so lackin' in food... Nik's bringin' Chicken and bee hoon.. hope that's enough! Min bought hotdogs, tweet and mon bought snacks,instant noodles, that kinda thing. I really hope it's enough. To those who contributed, be it food or playstation or guitar or radio or any other things that we use for our entertainment and hunger needs in chalet.. I wanna say thanks! Without u guys, it wouldn't happen. Aight, gotta go get ready to met up with Fad to get back to the chalet...

Cheers to all!

P.S. I'll reply ur tags later when I'm free...CHEERS!

Hoa! It's like 6 plus in the mornin' already and I ain't sleepin'.. God damn, goin' to camp in a while.. Fuck it, I'm gonna shagged myself out today. I won't be updatin' on what's been happenin' but just to inform u guys... New pics are up... Well, they're not really new but they're new in my blog, so yeah, they're new pics. Anyways, to those who's going to the chalet and u think u wanna contribute in the food department, do inform me through taggin' or SMSing me..aight? Please, need u guys man... I'm afraid that there might not be enough food. Anyways, do take care, I'll come in and write new entries when I have the chance...aight? Cheers!

It's that time again! Mass replies!!! MASS REPLIES!! Come on everybody! Sing along!! MASS REPLIES!! Hahahahaha!! Yeah!! Barney is gay!! Fuckin' purple shit head! And kids got influenced by his evilness! He's evil under that stupid purple suit... Anyways...here are my replies!

scrub:- I wanna post up those pics.. trust me, there's like, loads of pics to upload but I don't know why I can't upload to shutterfly. And hey, recommend me with any sites that offers free hosting for pics or files.. so that I can post up my pics... I'll see what I can do about it scrub...

zeezee:- Hey girl! Thanks for informin' me about ur link.. I'll update when I have time but right now I'm in the mood to just update my entries...

nurl:- Saturday was awesome!!yes I agree with ya! Thanks for the info girl! Hope to see u and hang out with u more! Hehe...CHEERS!

alif:- hehehe.. smiggle was awesome at Starbucks right? Coolness!

Huergh!! Madness...Today is a monday..oops I mean..Tuesday..just went into Tuesday and I just realised that. Listenin' to Bob Marley right now...hehehe...Feelin' reggae-ish this morning. Madness... Hey guess what? wednesday's a holiday!! YEAH!! Vesak Day! So most real, get to rest for one day from this stupid army life... Only one day? Yes..only one day.. Fuckin' hell. BUt most real, there's a break..Hahaha..okay I conclue that for the past for words that I typed out..are all lame...Crappy..and has no meanin' whatsoever at all.

When i got home from camp just now, I head out to meet up with B,Tweet & Mon at Parkway... Did nothin' much... Just sat down there and chat crappy stuff as usual...Gig's comin' up, play's comin' up and the chalet's comin' up! Oh my god, got loads of things to think about. Pay's comin' up in say....9 days time.. or was it 8...hmm...it felt so long! Dry on cash.. Madness! Damn, I'm kinda groggy... Or should I say, as what we always say back then (when this word was in season).. I'm feelin'.. DODGY... hehehe.

Here I am, sittin' on my favourite computer chair...okay, maybe not favourite..it's the only chair I've got...with my boxers on..only my boxers and my flabby, full of fats belly.. and my specs... sittin' here, with an empty mug with coffee stain on and another mug with lemon juice in it... lookin' at this screen.. this very screen that I'm lookin' as I'm typin' out the words that ur readin' right now.. Boredom, this...is a result.. of boredom... Blankness + Boredom = Insanity... okay, whatever...I'm lookin' forward for saturday..

Oooh!! I saw my tagboard full of tags! It's mass reply time!!!