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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

The most fucked up thing just happened. The warnin' letter from ITE just came in and it's pretty fucked up... It's a warnin' letter for missin' classes.. and which is.. ESS.. Just for one fuckin' subject...thanks ah eh...

Baby, if ur readin' this, I'm sorry I'm tryin' to sleep but I just can't.. I had to blog in... I promise u that I'll sleep after this... It's 2:37am right now.. and it's so fucked up.. First of all, my dad came into the room and started askin' me... "Did ur teacher say anythin' about coming to school late?" And I just replied no.. I said no because I'm hoping that he would not nag about all this shit..And well I told him, it's nothing, nothing happened as to avoid nagging sessions by him... And I told him it's just a small matter cuz it's just one subject and I'm not even debarred from the exams..which is..a good thing ain't it?

Then came in my brother, the biggest asswipe ever..why doesn't he just fuck off from here? Go get married as soon as u can and just fuck off! Holy shit, what a big fucker he is... He came into the room and starts nagging at me..and both my dad and brother said the same shit..."Ur repeating SHATEC all over again.." In my mind, what the fuck?! SHATEC was a course that wasn't even in my interest and as for this, I love this course..the subjects are subjects that I wanna learn about..not like shatec..I came in there cuz I had no where to go.. and fuck that shit..I skipped classes because I hate the subjects...as for this ITE case..it's not even that I wanna skip it on purpose..I mean..fuckin' hell, I woke up late..and I miss class...and now they thought that I'm skipppin' class...WHAT THE FUCK?!? What's up with that shit?! Ermm.. hello? It's multi media here..Something that I love to learn about and why can't they see that? Holy shit, what do they need, a log book? My brother's an asshole, that's for sure! He was sayin' something about "How can we trust u hezwan, u told us a lie... When I asked u what time u start, u would say that today it will start late.." Well, hello, the only reason I said that was because I do not wanna hear u nag.. that's why.. cuz ur bitch ass mouth can't shut up once u start..the actual fact is that I missed class because I WOKE UP LATE!

For cryin' fuckin' loud! And the part where he mentioned that I'm still a kid and sayin' things like I said I'm all grown up and stuff.. well fuck that shit..I may act like a kid, I may do things that not many adults would do.. so what? I do think like one.. and that is all that matters.. Hey, I'm young at heart and I still want to have fun... unlike them who's so god damn serious about stuff... Fuck that! I'm tellin' u peeps, with god's will, I hope one day that I'll be successful in life, have a proper job and earn well and that's when I'll show them what I've been doin... Especially to my stupid brother... I wouldn't even want to look at him.. If I had to, I'll spit on him if I earn better than him... Just because he have a job with good pay and all that shit, he seems to be looking down on me... And everytime, he will always act as if he's the smart one in the family... fucker!

I'm really thankful I have my baby with me.. and of course my friends.. all in all, My beautiful baby, my Bella family and of course my crew in class... Thanks to these bunch of people, my stress level ain't that bad.. they're the ones that cool me down or keep my mind off things.. and most real, I dare to say this...My gf and my friends knows me waaaay better than my family does.. They know shit about me.. All these while, they might think that I never think about stuff... well, ur wrong! I look happy and all joy on the outside but what's on the inside, do they even fuckin' know?! My dad, his money.. my mom's sickness..my dad's condition, the fuckin' house.. my own money to spend, my savings needed for many things (recording, future purposes, marriage )... Well, it's all running in my head but it's just that I don't wanna be some party pooper and show my problems to others and make them worry about me...I don't want that..that's why I put up a mask and act all happy towards everyone...

Those who knows me well would know the real me... And they can really spot if there's something wrong with me even though I hid it well under that happy mask of mine... Not sayin' that I'm like the only one with problems, I'm sure some of u out there are full of it and I might say that some are even worse than mine... I'm just sharing my side of the story..letting out my frustrations by blogging. Hopefully u guys don't mind...

Tomorrow's the fuckin' phase test..and I have to be in class by 8:30am... FUCK! That's fuckin' early..

And baby, I love u so much dear, don't ever leave me.. Cuz I need u here with me... Ur so part of my life now that I would be at lost if u ever go away dear... I love u so much baby!

Well, the time's like 2:52am, better get my fuckin' sleep before I miss my class again just because I couldn't wake up and get the fuckin' accusations of SKIPPING classes.. Well, for ur fuckin' info brother, I've heard from others that there are those out there who got tons and tons of warning letters but they're still not out of the school..and the best part... they somehow graduated! It's not like I don't do my fuckin' work in school.. I do miss classes but I do my work as well... So what do they have to complain about? Fuckin' hell... Fuck this shit, I'm out!

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

[ MooD: Stoned / Sleepy ]
[ Time: 3:50am ]

Stoned & Alone In The Living Room

Hey everyone... here I am again, blogging away... I'm at my sweetie's place, all alone in the living room, ok, maybe not alone, her brother's sleeping... Well, poor baby angel of mine, she must be tired from her work. Well, I put her to sleep and looking at her sleep makes me smile... Seeing that beautiful face, that very face that I'm looking forward to wake up to every morning in time to come... I love her very much although at times we argued and stuff but somehow, that... got our relationship to be stronger... 2 years and 2 months... it's like, wow... Without realising, time flies...

Tick, Tock, Tick, Tock

Well, talking about time flying... when I looked back... it's been like 1 year since I've ORD from NS and it's like 11 years No Direction had been together and there are many other things to mention but I'm just too lazy to type it out. Time flies too fast when ur just about to have fun and looking at my age.. god damn, I'm 24... the big 2 and 4! I mean... oh my god, with a blink of an eye.. First I"m like 18 and now...whoa... 24! And look at me, hopeless in life for now... had always been that way ain't it? I'm 24 and I'm still living off my parents, still schooling away while many of my friends of my age had started working full time and some are schooling for Diplomas or higher diplomas and some even degrees but look at me.. just some big sized dude starting back from basics... Some of them have their own cars! Only time will tell... Once I pass through this cert, I'm going further up, in hopes that I could get a higher education level so as to support myself and if possible, to return a favour to my parents who had been taking care of me since young and also to those who had taken care of me without realising it... one of those people is my baby, who took care of me well... Well, as I said, only time will tell...

Life Scars, Life's Lessons

After reading other people's blog (since I got not much to do, so I blog hopped) and i realised that life itself is such a complicated thing. To those who followed my blog since 2003, I did write about this once... Life and Fate... It's funny in a way... and as u grow older, u tend to learn from things, mistakes that u've made or mistakes that others made... U try to understand it and fix it to be a better person... I know I'm only 24 but seeing things happened to me or some others out there... it made me realise...life itself is a living classroom.

Lessons learnt from bad things or some good things, knowledge earned from people u know or the media or published materials. Teachers in life had to be those mistakes that u've made... well, at least from my point of view.. and somehow, the saying..."Shit happens for a reason" can somewhat... be true.. The man above didn't dump us down here for no reason... everyone goes through obsticles and it's all a big major test. Especially love....

Love itself is the most painful learning experience that we all have to go through... It doesn't hurt us physically but mostly emotionally and mentally... I was once emotionally wounded by girls that I dated and it sucked, big time and there was one point where I hated girls... a lot! It was because of them that I didn't want to date anymore but after a while.. after some thoughts.. i realised that not all girls are that way, there must be others out there who are splendid, who are not the bad ones and not all girls are the same... right? After years and many dates later..I found Hallie, my sweet Hallie... She's almost perfect.. Love that baby of mine...

Well, people come in many forms, shapes and sizes and we're made on earth to be in pairs, ain't it? There are the big ones (i'm one of them), the skinny ones, the weird looking ones, the beautiful ones, the handsome ones, the tall ones, the short ones and the list goes on and on and on... And well, some group wouldn't favour the big dudes or girls out there but there are still those who loves them... there are those who don't like the skinny ones but there's still people who loves them... and the crazy, insane and outgoing girls.. there are those who would go like..."Dude, I won't date that crazy chick.. she's too out going.." But I"m sure there are some dudes out there who loves to have his future girlfriend to be insaned and fun and crazy... Ok ok, u guys get my point right? So yeah... To those who might be reading this and wanna give up on the opposite sex or love... well don't, try looking it in a different angle cuz it will only then broaden ur views about life...

It's funny how life is.. when good things happen, they don't seem to complain or talk about it and enjoy the moment when it lasted but when things turns sour or bad... They will start saying things like, life's unfair or why me god? or things like I wanna kill myself... Why's that so? I couldn't understand it myself either but somehow, we have our own ways to handle things... Like I always say... it's all about an individuality.

And another thing, have u guys ever wonder about how Fate works? Ok, here is how it is...

Take it Guy A, is currently in this school and met all the people in his class... Hangs out with them, knowing the people better and starting to realise that they somehow connect with their other friends...

Now u take the "What If" context... Guy A didn't go to this school at all... and didn't meet up with this group B bunch... But somehow, in life, they do see each other's face or pass by one another but yet, they never even know one another... Ok, most probably u guys are lost now...ok ok, one example from my own account...

I went to ITE Simei, I met this dude Shark... he's a metalhead.. he goes to gig, yada yada.. I play in a band and I'm in gigs too.. yada yada... At that point, we have not met but somehow, we're in the same gig... He doesn't know me and I don't know him..but somehow, we saw each other before... and years later.. we met again, a total stranger... Bargh! It's hard to explain guys but I hope u guys get the point...

So my conclusion.. life is a funny thing... full of complications which we all don't understand but yet, we somehow manage to live through it, day by day...

Phase Test

Total madness! I have a phase test tomorrow and I heard it's a practical... It's MFD... well, at least it's a subject which I can somehow understand... So I hope that all goes well... for those who's taking the test with me.. all the best ah eh!

Heavy Eyes, Cold Floors

I'm like totally stoned ya'all and fuck! I've not taken out my lens yet... Better do it. Well peeps, for those of u who read my stuff, I hope u guys like it... Just some views on things... I can't take it dudes and dudettes.. gotta hit the sack..or should I say...the cold floor... aight, peace outsiding to the left of the corner sideways under!

Till then, Cheers!

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

[ MooD :-: Zombified ]

Stoned Beyond Stoned

I'm back again and the news to the job thingy.. I've completed it at night.. It was crazy and my ears was like fuckin' strained out man.. superly strained out... After completing my work, I head out to the studio and hung out with the boys... It's been a while since I've seen Sammy and he was there yesterday.. Hung out with Sam, Zanna and B at Beer Garden... Talked about army life since he's enterin' his new unit today... Well, all the best to u dude!

Right now, I'm like fuckin' stoned... superly stoned... I didn't sleep the whole night, chatted with Hallie and was doin' some 3D shit on 3Dmax... I'm in school right now...

Typing Without Any Structure

Okay, seriously dudes, I'm like fuckin' stoned.. superly stoned... And I'll be meeting my baby later on.. Hallie baby, here I come... Can't wait to see my sweet angel... Love that baby.. Love u honey!

okay guys, seriously, I"m stoned..I might take a nap for a while..OH SHIT! I just remembered somethin'... Haven't messaged my baby yet... Aight aight, write again some day.. cheers!

Monday, February 19, 2007

Hey hey hey! i'm back! Hahahaha... Insaned.. And guess what, a plan that was planned like two days ago had been altered, by who? Well, by someone who sleeps... Suppose to meet up with an old friend but somehow that someone happens to be tired and sleeps... I'm not literally pissed about that person being tired but the fact that the person beats around the bush and stallin time about not going... What was said that sleepiness kicks in and was feeling fatigue.. and time was dragged on... Well, one thing's for sure, it ain't my lost...

Well, here I am now, waitin' for that reply but I guess it won't be appearin' anytime soon cuz what I feel is that... the person is asleep right now.. so yeah... But I'm still going off to see my old friend, a camp mate of mine... A promise is a promise... So yeah.. there u go, without having the need for me to explain things.. So yeah... I'm still wondering, where the heck are my archives.. god damn it!

Well, whatever it is, gotta go off soon and buy food for my mom and dad and after that I'll be off to Toa Payoh... And guess what? I've yet to do that transcribing thing... should have done it just now.. so yeah.. Going to burn the late night oil tonight..

Aight, be back by tonight peeps... cheers for now! Take caring...
Holy shit... I just realised how much shit had happened in my life.... I read back from my previous entries and my life is like...whoa! It's kinda fun to read back ol stuff..u know, realising how pathetic I was..or how "smart" I was...or how interesting I was... Lookin' back at some of the entries, some was funny, some was emo, some was touching.. and there were even Poems! wow~! i didn't know I can write stuff like that.. And that was back in 2003.. The days where BK Century was still the "hot" place to hang out at. And guess what, I take a look on my blog that my archives disappeared... and it's like...HOLY SHIT!! Wah liau! Hahaha.. anyways, be back someday to type out my life "stories"... Cheers!
Guess what? It's RIP again... hahaha.. HELLO EVERYBODY!! I'm back online... Well, many people had asked me to come back online.. My baby, Hallie, my classmates... So i guess it's ok to write up again ey? Anyways... it's been like...(look to the left side of the window under the archive segment)... say...4 years? Wow! I mean, I started bloggin' like what? 4 years ago.. And guess what guys? I read up some of my old entries and boy, it sure does bring back the good ol memories..the funny ones, the sad ones, the ones where I felt like givin' up, the ones where I was sooo in love...the ones where I went to NS... It was total memory there... And I can't even recall some of the events... I laughed about the things that I did back then..hahaa..Well, life it self is funny, ain't it?

Things with me and my dearest Hallie are going along just fine if u people wanna know... She's as sweet as ever and of course the occasional arguements that we would have... But hey, I mean, in every relationship, there's bound to be arguments right, I mean.. that's normal..it will only not be normal when a relationship have no arguments at all. I mean, dude! That's like a life of a SIMS character...even SIMs character have complications in their love life..

Imagine a love life without complications... Wow! I mean, that would be like the most ultimate thing everybody wants to have but reality check, that's like impossible.. So yeah, I conclude that it's normal to have arguements in relationships...

Ok.. (Looks back at what had just been typed down)... I guess I sorta drifted a li'l..bit too far... Anyways, back to me and Hallie.. We're doin' fine right now.. And it's really wonderful to have her as my one and only beautiful one in my life...She's fine.. she's close to perfect (can't say perfect cuz....No one's perfect!) And yeah...

Hmm... job u asked? Well... the last time I wrote in was... Coffee Bean right? Well, I quitted Coffee Bean (Yes!....Again!) and currently I'm workin' part time at Screenbox Productions as a transcriber... The pay's ain't much but I guess it's ok though... So yeah.. At least I'm earnin' somethin' right? Rather than not do anything...hehe..

30 bucks per tape... THat's all I'm gettin'... but I ain't complainin'... I mean, hey, got my own office space, my own computer, my own private corner.. air conditioned place...and I got a straight bus to work..so hey.. it's ok... and the job's kinda easy too! The only thing that will make me tired... is the hearing... U really gotta listen properly to things.. that's what the job is all about.. Listenin' and typin' out whatever the actor or interviewer or whoever is talkin in there into the computer...so yeah, that's my job...

As for my school, things are ok I guess...a lot of things happened... Yati got back with someone... for those who knows..well, yeah..she got back with someone.. and there's one or should I say two who's paired up..is now seperated and back to singular... projects..this and that..bla bla bla..seperations in groups..diversity in race..bla bla bla...but overall, I still love my crew... Shark metalemo head guy, zam wail wail or should I say weaow... Hidayah lepak, lin kecik (my favourite adorable li'l one in my crew), yati go lucky a.k.a Yatster ( my home girl ), Nadhirah a.k.a Kennet ( The one with the looks ), Yoda ( cool wise dude), The Cabuters ( Haziq, Nazri & Didi ) and Su & The Gang... I love u peeps! as for the rest... A.K.A... Ehem... Goalie "master", Long Haired Princess of Darkness from the depth of Hell, Mr. Darkman, K.RrrRrrRrr and Mr. Slick-With-Girls-And-Finds-Almost-All-Girls-Attractive... U guys are my side dish.. AKA... Plaster Of Boredom... (Suddenly, I feel the evil inside me..holy madness!!) Well, whatever it is, I love my "crew" very much.. The Parisians, Eunosian, Tampinesians and of course, Woodlanders.. I thank u all for letting me know u people.. If not, I would have been stuck in my Haigians tribe and not explore what's beyond the borders of Geylangotopia... ( Oh...kay...as for this part..it's gettin' a li'l bit....lame... but somehow, it sounded cool, u know..like one of those ol school era..the times of kings and knights..so...yeah)

Together, the Parisians, Eunosians, Tampinesians, Woodlanders & Haigians shall meet every 5 days of the week past their borders and into Simeilenia where they shall sit in a squared room with two other tribe members from Lecturions who will teach them of knowledge beyond knowledge... And together, they shall defeat... the cruel, MAILOTROZ!!!!!! Mailotroz was the ruler of Lameositrous where he bores his people to death with his boring stories but now the time has come for it to end! ( Oh kay, seriously, this is gettin' kinda outta hand...so let us stop with this medieval shit and snap back to reality...ehem...)

ok ok, fine, I'm back aight... but guys, seriously, imagine that was a trailer of some movie to be.. Imagine how singapore can actually be turned into one of those.. U know..LOTR shit... The Hobits, The ORcs.. yada yada..bla bla..u know.... The whole shebangs! ahahah... ok..whatever...

I just got this new tape that I have to do... I have to transcribe and translate this show called "Santai".. for those of u who might know this show...yeah yeah, it's the one that's like on Suria every Sunday.. so yeah.. The episode that I"m holdin' right now is supposed to be played next sunday.. so that's why they need it as soon as possible.. so yeah.. cool! I watched the episode before u people did...nyeah! hahaha...

okaylah, I think my blog's gettin' superly boring.. and too long now...so enough lah..

I'll be meetin' my dearest later on and we'll be visitin' Jae at his mom's shop...it's been a while since I've seen Jae..madness! Aight then... Take care folks... Do pop in once in a while to check my page out..oh wait wait..by the way, I no longer have that Tagboard thingy...cuz u know what..it sucks! Hahahahah! I mean, it doesn't suck literally lah but it can cause major arguments amongst people... So yeah.. So till then...Farewell!

Friday, February 16, 2007

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