So hey! I'm back...got an early fall out today..12 plus...we're done... The whole trainin' shed now has been cleared...sand pit on the left...bags on the right...so yeah..from packed up place..to a nice,neat and organised place... Thanks to "brave" 8 young men who works hard every single day... Brave...hmm..yeah..brave the sand,brave from hitting the sandbags when they throw to the sand pit to clear...uhmm..brave from getting hit on the bar hanging on top of that training shed...okay...that was lame..whatever it is..job's almost done... On Monday, just have to clear that shit out...

Got into an arguement with my best friend...I was in my LaL mood and I was havin' loads of thoughts so let's just say...my day was kinda fucked up... I was downed...downed to earth, man... I felt bad after arguing with my friend... Last thing I ever want is to lose her as a friend... Me and my LaL Moods.... Fuck me...I suck in life...

To all those tagged me..I'd like to say thanks... so here it is..my replies...

Zad: Hey bro..yeah! Stwong bad...Duh~~ Suh~~ HAAHAHAH!!! Yeah, he rocks my socks to oblivient...uhmm...obliviant...oblivo...uhmm...however u spell it...u know what I mean...

Alif: Ur awesome...Tengtai mana punya? Tengtai banyak! East,south,west,north or others...? Hah! Thanks dude...

Shammie: Hey Girl! Thanks for taggin'! Thanks for wanting to cheer me up, I appreciate it... Take care aight? I'll try to do some chinning up... oh...kay...If I raised my chin really high, wouldn't that be..egoistic? heh...I know what u mean..just jokin'...CHEERS!

Kitty Babe: Look at that...Kitty Babe...what kind of a kitten would be named...babe? I mean, babe is a pig in the show Babe... but a kitten? Ah heck...I know u but u don't wanna reveal ur name...Then how in the name of Ken Bettie...would I know u?! Currently? Single? Hmm....status might be changing..I ain't sure..Currently..in the stages of dating..I think... yeah..so there u go... Ur answer..

So there u go...my replies for this moment...CHEERS TO ALL!!!

May the socks be with u!

Hey ho everyone....uhmm...okay..I'm back..So I realise, there's a hate tag on my tagboard..uhmm... okay... So that guy or gal hates me..Or maybe...he or she is trying to make a point. So yeah, thanks GiGoEr... Of course I know she's attached.. Like duh! She talks to me about him.. and he knows..when I go out with her... So yeah... I know she's attached... Look...I'm a loser, okay? So if u wanna read this loser's so called, episode of non-ending stories...just like Days Of Our Lives..carry on... If u guys don't like it, well... just forget the address... blindedheart.blogspot.com...

So, okay, it's been weeks since I've been in camp and well, progress on that place is going smoothly. Sandbags slowly going down and that trainin' shed... now looks like a trainin' shed... or more..uhmm..or less..whatever it is. I stayed in on Monday... Alone, yes....alone..with no one in my bunk... Of course there were people in the camp, with all those reservist guys in their own bunks..while I was alone..in my bunk... So from there, my thoughts starts running... U know, same old shit... What am I doin' here? Why must I serve? What have I missed out? Am I really irritatin'? Bla bla bla bla... Stupid questions ran through my mind...

Have u guys ever had this feeling? U know... somehow like u've been used...or maybe..u've been like..uhmm... cheated..or maybe...just maybe...uhmm..okay I got no more ideas..but whatever it is..the main key...used...cheated...abused...okay maybe not abused...by anyone..guys or gals...it doesn't matter. I was sittin' in my bunk yesterday... and I was thinkin'...why? Okay... there's no reason on why... Aight..easy said, U feel like ur a Plaster Of Boredom. That's how I felt... U know, some people, when they're need u..they come to u..like askin' "Hey, how's ur day?" Or maybe.."Hey, how have u been?" FOr goodness sake! Where were u all these while? Suddenly u pop up askin' me on how I'm doin'? Wow..that's awesome! Oh kay..back to topic... And after askin' the basic questions like how ur doing...have u eaten..bla bla bla...the next line would be..."Hey, I need a favour from u..." or maybe..."Can u help me out?".. I mean, suddenly, out of no where, u weren't around..and the next thing... u popped out and asked me all this... wow! Well, if people really need help...I see the situation and see if I can help with what I have... Had a friend who needed cash...so yeah.. I loaned to that person... I don't care about it..it's 30 bucks...That person says that she would pay back...well..guess what...till today.. no... And that person just keeps... and when she needs cash again..she calls me up... Wow! I'm some kind of sugar daddy?! I only earned 350 per month...I ain't no bank! She's an old friend of mine..way back to 7 years ago.. surprising ain't it? After say...5 years she had not called me..suddenly she popped up and say all those what I've just lay out... Whoa...Weird... So I conclude..I AM A PLASTER OF BOREDOM! Thank u guys for making me that... Okay...to some of u people...besides the guys I hang out with... they're cool..I hang out with them..cuz I wanna hang out.. so yeah...

Lastly...My equation...

1. An Army Officer + A Rose + A Girl Who's Attached + A Bar = Birth of Paranoia in Boyfriend

2. An Army Officer + A Day Out With Girl Who's Attached + Movies = Boyfriend Gets Worried Over his Relationship When He Discovered About The Date

3. Girl Who's Attached + Confusion + Doubts + Break Up = Emotionally Wounded Which Leads You To A Broken Heart

So there u go...my lame conclusion...My point... Clubbing is a waste of time...Ha ha....ha....ha ha ha.... ha ha ha..hahaha.... ha.. haha... uhah... ha.. hahaha... Okay..bye?

CHEERS TO ALL!

Ah...the mornin'...of a Friday. Days had past and I've been doin' the same thing in camp, playin' with sand. A few of us got bored, so we did a trap in the sand pit and somehow, it claimed it's first victim, one of our bunkmates. It was funny, he was wrestling with this guy and he somehow stepped onto the sealed hole.. Ngast! This strangers somehow got closer with one another and we're like buddies who've known each other for a long time.

I've been feelin' fucked up somehow for this past few days. Feelin' as if life is meaningless... Just got bored of everythin' I guess... There was this someone that I hanged out with and it was awesome... Got the whole of almost two weeks with her and that made me happy. Simply hangin' out, talkin' crap, accompanying her to places... just like ol' times... But suddenly, these past few days... that everyday messagin' or callin' stopped and I have no idea why... Maybe she's busy? Maybe...ermm...she's avoiding me? *sigh*... I have no idea... I don't know what I'm feelin'... A mixture of feelings all blend into one. Sadness, anger, lost... I wonder what else would come to mind.

I'm plannin' to get a new phone by next month but I don't know if those handphone shops accept instalment payments... Thought of gettin' an N-Gage... or mabye a 6100... I don't know...the main thing is to know if they accept instalment payment... Gotta ask later on.

Same ol' thing today, headin' down to camp, report in camp and do same shit... And what I heard that our warrant officer is givin' us a day off this Saturday, which is...tomorrow... We earned it! Ngast...aight, gotta go...

CHEERS TO ALL!

Sickness! Today is just another Sunday...just like any other fuckin' day... As many would say, Same Shit...Different Days... Ain't it peeps? Life, ur basically doin' the same thing, repeatedly, over and over. It's only how u spend it & how u finish off the day makes a difference to the sentence, Same Shit, Different Days... I'm feelin' so LaL for today, I don't know why but simply lal. Each day passes and when each day passes... the more I hang out with the usual slackin' crew... The more I feel that I'm getting lamer, boring and quieter... Felt so out of place when they joke and me not knowing anything... and somehow I do feel a li'l bit uncomfortable to speak. Maybe the reason being that I've not been hangin' out with them that often no more... I'm a problem to society? Maybe...

Another fuckin' week had past and it's so fuckin' borin' in camp. Ain't much to do... besides playin' with sand and gettin' injured for no fuckin' reason why... Book in and book out... every single fuckin' day. Although in a way, it's good...cuz it's a so called...JOB... Forced Labour with low income... Whatever it is, I just wanna serve and fuck off.

Head down to the gig in NYP last Friday and I missed both my mates bands... Subtle Revenge and Shoe Size 9... Thanks to work, I dropped by late resulting in seeing nothing else but metal bands. Not sayin' that those bands are bad or anythin'..it's just that... the main key for going to NYP, was to see the two bands I just mentioned...play... Saw a lot of people that I know there, well...not really a LOT..but a handful of people... after the gig, or should I say, halfway through the gig, we left... Who's we? 3/4 of the November Iris boys,Dil,Firdaus,Din,Fad,Inn,Rafiee.. Head out to Sengkang to slack. Sat there, had some fun and laughter... IK & B joined us a li'l bit later... the day ends simply by everybody going home happily...

Yesterday...hmm, let's see now.. What the hell did I do yesterday? Oh yeah, went to work, did some stupid things... book out... head back home... went to meet up with First Chapter to have an accoustic session. (F.Y.I :- First Chapter now have a new line up after Tweet & Rafiee quitted the band for some reason of their own... Replacements for the two guitarist - Zad (November Iris) & IK (Subtle Revenge). Sat there for a while before I left off to see Rika jam at BMC. Went to see Rika jammed and they were awesome and I was there being a li'l extra by grabbing the mic and sing and scream some any-o-how lyrics. After their session, I went back to Tamp to join up with First Chapter again. Heard their modification of FC's original, Fading Star... Well, it was a total change... Basic construction of the music is still there but playing wise... totally changed. More to that, hardcore sound... More Screamo, less Emo... I don't know, this kind of genre, may be a li'l hard for me on drums but I'll try... After all that, ton with Inn & IK behind Sogo and around 2 plus in the morning, I crashed at Suhayl's place till 3pm today... did nothin' much... played games and that's it...but as always, Suhayl's the number one guy under the Hospitality Department... Good host...

Today..hmm..what did I do... After reachin' home around 4 plus... stayed home, and just used the comp for a while... Supposed to go to some dinner with my whole family but I choose not to cuz I'm lazy. I don't know, many would say that I'm a fucked up child for not being with the family more but I don't know, that's the way I am I guess... I was simply lazy to go. At night, head out to Tamp for a while, without my family knowing that I went out... Met up with the slackers of BK... Inn, Irma, Fad, IK, Tweet, Dzafir, Sofyn, Mitch, p|uGGy, Brandon & Jessie. Bla bla bla, the same thing, jokes, laughter and crappiness fun... Head back home early cuz I wanna reach home before my family does... So I did... Here I am...

If u guys wanna visualize on what I did on saturday... pics will be up... Enjoy! For now, I'm outta here... Life just became more boring...

CHEERS TO ALL!!!

"You make me believe that today is worth living and tomorrow is worth waiting for because you'll be there for me today, tomorrow and everyday for the rest of my life..." - A short poem written by my first ex-girlfriend to me, it's nice but somehow, I once believed those empty promises...

It's been two days for the second week of life in Clementi Camp... Began work yesterday... It was hectic and fuckin' tirin'! Came in the mornin'...around 7:30 and reported to my Warrant Officer... After that, had a canteen break and then we started our work:- Some free cheap forced labour jobs... Carryin' loads of wooden logs... And it' ain't light. So we carry it, and reorganized that place so that it'll look neat and easy for the forklift to pick it up. Lots of splinters in the hand... and some unnoticed cuts... But unit life, as a temporary storeman is kinda cool... I mean, u can slack and u can rest whenever u wanna rest..u can smoke whenever u wanna smoke but not anywhere... Have to take cover just to smoke..heh... Finished the job around 5:30 in the evenin' yesterday. Time passes, kinda quick yesterday and it was the same for today... For today, we did sandbags...loads and loads of sand... And one sandbag...ain't that light, it's like... fuckin' heavy! got ourselves sandy and our once shiny boots all sandy and greyish in colour. it was tirin', my hands are like feelin' the muscle straining or somethin'...

What I heard from p|uGGy is that she's havin' a hard time at her place... She's stressed out and it's drivin' her insane somehow... It ain't physically tiring but mentally tiring... I can see that whenever I meet her after work or somethin'. Hope that she won't quit her job cuz it has a good pay and it's quite a good job although it can drive u crazy at times... but by the looks of it, I think she'll quit this job. Even if she quits, I can't force her to stay, it's her decision. *sigh*...she could use a li'l bit of that hard earn money for herself... I wish I could help her big time... I just wished... Hope to see her around one day and maybe we can hang out again..

Got home early today cuz my staff sergeant let us off early... There's many more sandbags to go, GOD DAMN!! Aight, anyways, gonna get back to my game... America's Army... It's an awesome game! Cheers to all!

HUERGH!

Hey ho! Let's go! Go where? I don't know... MOst real, had fun today... Loads of it.. and there was like lots of people around. The mornin' went out like any other day... at home... So yeah, played my game on the comp and soon after that, around late mornin', set off to B's place. Fixed up his new guitar strings and off we go... to jammin' at The Garage in North Canal Road (I hope I got the road name right). Oh yeah, wait up, before I go further... When I woke up this mornin', I realised that my Ray Ben specs broke... The ear hook broke, I was like... "What the fuck?!" I soon learned that I actually lay down on my specs by accident durin' my night of sleep... Luckily, super glue did it's work... The damage ain't that bad so yeah.. it was fixable. Anyways, back to the day's story...

After B's place, we set off to jammin'...bla bla bla.. at The Garage... Played a few of our new songs and old. Yan came along with us to see us jam... After the jammin', we head down to Guiness Theatre to check out the gig. Got there just in time to catch November Iris play, so we got our tickets and checked them out first before we set off to eat at S-11. As usual, had my fishball noodle dry... (I still have no idea on why I kept eatin' that same thing whenever I'm there...hmm...) Going to the gig this time... wasn't like the one in Youth Park whereby there were a whole lot of newbies around and there's like no one we knew around. It sure felt like old times, almost everybody knows everybody... That's the way it is, the old kids were all there. It was fun, seein' the guys moshed and me joining the rest in sabo-ing people to body surf by surprising them from the back and lifting them up to body surf... It was fun! Saw Sa-Bitch-Na there... Ermm.. I mean.. Sabrina... and god damn! She's gettin' fatter! And she's with her boyrfriend who she claimed broke up with her when I was datin' her when the actual fact that he went away as a peace keeper somewhere overseas... But what do I care? I don't know her anymore, she doesn't exist... breakin' my heart into a thousand pieces and totally wasted my time... Fuck that shit, why the hell am I talkin' about her? SockS! '

It was one hell of a gig! All of 'em were awesome bands... Favourite bands like My Squared Circle, Elisabelle's Tears, Death Of Illisabelle Mo'narch, November Iris, Forget Me Not, Sky and other bands... They were all awesome although the last band was a bad dissapointment... Not the band, but these few young NEW punks who dissed that last band. They shouted out "Eh, Change ur drummer ah!" and there was this girl supporting the band who shouted back "Shut the fuck up, I would like to see u guys play better than them! At least they're up there playing!" Or, somethin' like that... The drummer was good... it's not as if he was a totally big time bad drummer... Kids these days, don't know how to judge good from bad... *sigh*... But most real, almost everyone there I know... Azmi, Inn, Hafiz, Aaron, Nurl, Sya, Min, IK, Mon, Tweet, B, Dzafir, Dzul, Mitch, Jessie, Sofyn, Iman, Han, few of the Underedge guys, MSC guys, Zohriah, Fan, Firdaus, Raihan & many more.. It was awesome!

After all of that, had dinner at S-11 (Again! but this time, I had Fried Rice)... and after eating and talkin'... all of us went home... So here I am now, typin' out this blog. Gotta book in.. in a li'l while and that sucks! only 4 hours to sleep... damn! But what can I do... Must go... Aight, gotta go...

Movie & Gig pics will be up soon, once I'm done with the uploading... So come back to check it out, ur face might be amongst the people in the crowd... CHeers!

Sunday blardee Sunday!!!! Old skool song by U2... And most real...watched "Hellyboy" Yesterday with the bunch... Dzafir,Sofyn,Nik,Ik & Dzul... Hellboy is a funny show... well, the heroic character himself is kinda cocky and funny... I like the action, loads of action and cool moves and all but the storyline wise..it's more of the comic... But I give a rating of 7 out of 10 for that show... Why 7? Well, It's funny, cool costumes and designs, nice backdrops and setting and lastly, nice fighting scenes. I recommend this to whoever likes action comedy movie and especially to those who's into comics...

p|uGGy slacked with us yesterday and that was the... second or third time I saw her in her office wear... Wow, she's lookin' all grown up... Workin' lady now. asked her along to the movies with us but she didn't want to, instead, she went down to Hendrix with Azri and friends... Can see that she's all stressed up with work and thanks to work, her level of fun is like going down although she's still that mad girl I know. She's more serious now... So yeah, she went to Hendrix to let it lose for a while... Stressed up girl.. ngast...

Camp...currently I'm attached to Clementi Camp... PDF unit (People Defence Force)... It's a reservist camp so one thing I can say, it's one hell of a fuckin' slacked camp. No marching needed...no head dress needed... It's a simple nice army camp with not much facilities around. But the fucked up thing, the ten of us from the Driver Vocation were sent there to be "Sai Kang" warriors, U know... Sai kang...meaning... Be a cheap labour and do extra work...Thursday was my first day there..didn't do much cuz tmie didn't allow it... Saturday, which was yesterday, we slacked cuz they gave us our bunks... Bunks = Possible Stay In... So they let us sit in our bunks, put on bedsheet and pillow case.. I might be stayin' in.. and I don't want that..it sucks! But the coolest thing is... we can smoke in our bunks...awesome! Heard the news given by our Warrant Officer that Monday, which is tomorrow, is the beginning of our Sai Kang duties... Carryin' timber logs and shifting them to wherever they want us to shift it. Darn...

There's a gig today in Substation, not quite sure about the bands that's playin'... If I'm not wrong, Elisabelle's Tears, My Squared Circle, Death Of Elizabeth Monarch are part of the list of bands playing. Before that, I'll be headin' down to The Garage to jam with ND. I'll be takin' pictures att he gig today, so do look out for new pics...

Aight, for now, I gotta go and head down to B's place... Gotta do somethin' there...

Cheers to all!

BLARGH! I'm back again... See a few interested readers of my blog. U guys are really curious ey? Hehehe, that's a good thing right? I mean, it helps u guys to kill ur boredom or somethin'... Funny... I feel as if my blog is like a book or something... It's a good thing, I love u guys comin' in here and read my blog.. Whether it's a diss or ur pleased... It's cool.

Three days had past since my first day in Sembawang Camp. I thought we drivers gonna learn to drive straight away or somethin' when we first reach there BUT...no... That camp is like somesort of a holding point for drivers before we're pushed out to our own units out there... U know, 3 SIR, Guards and all that... If u guys wanna know what I did for the first three days... Hmm.. Well, basically, it's slackin' all day long... From the time we book in (Which is at 8 in the morning) to the time we knock off (that is..5:30 in the evenin')... Reach there, count strength and all.. and go inside the MPH (Multi Purpose Hall) and just sit there.. LIterally.. Just SIT THERE and do nothin'. Some of the guys chit chat, some of 'em, sleeps and some just simply..dazed around... As for me, I would just sit down alone and just be sleepy and tired... U'll sit there till ur butt would be all cramped up and ur legs will feel all tired till u don't even wanna sit down no more... It's fuckin' borin'... 8 till about 9 or 10 plus..that's when we'll have our canteen break, meanin'... u can go to the canteen, eat whatever there is there or u can go smoke... Each break would last around half an hour and when ur back to the hall, u continue sittin' there. Around 12... u'll go for lunch (free food given by SAF)... so we'll eat..and then smoke... normally.. one hour.. by 1, ur back in that hall again. Back to doin' nuthin'... By 2 or 3, they would have talks by some people... Yesterday, they had NKF comin' over and today, they had NTUC Income Insurance people comin' over... bla bla bla... I think only 5% or less out of about 400 over people are listenin' to whatever they're blabbering about... I was one of the 95% who didn't listen... Most of us are either sleepin'...or chit chattin' or simply doing our own stuff... Waste of time... Have to book in' again' tomorrow.. god damn.. Boring routine... OUr supposedly long weekend got burnt, by the Camp's Live Run.. Meanin', all staff there, goes for a 3.5km run... Going back there on a Saturday, just to run? WASTE OF TIME! We're drivers! Why run? hahahahaha... But maybe it'll help in maintainin' our weight... Heh...

Hanged out yesterday at BK Century Square with some of the #emo kids in my uniform... Can u believe this? In my uniform...it was weird. Hanged out there till late (well not THAT late...say.. 11 plus...) And talked crap there, as usual.. I mean, u guys should know, when u hang out... it's surely some crappy stuff...

It's been three days since p|uGGy started her job and from what I see, she's sort of havin' a hard time... I wish I could help her with her job but I can't... The thing I'm proud of... she's really into this job and that's a good thing. I know she'll be fine there.. she has a strong character... she'll be fine...

Emelia asked me to call her up just now, right before I met B before he had to book back in to his camp... It was a short 8 mins convo with her... She asked me whether I was at the Youth Park gig last Saturday and so I told her... yeah.. and she was there too! Heheh... she didn't see me and I didn't see her... cuz there were too many people... She seemed to be talkin' in her normal tone so I don't know if she no longer mad at me or somethin' but from what I did and what I feel... she is mad at me... okay, maybe I assume... but that's what I'm feelin'... come on, I mean..who wouldn't be pissed? I'm being a jerk... Sometimes I hate myself, for hurtin' another soul and for doing all this... I'll never learn... *sigh*... I'm so fucked up at times...

Once again, to those who keep on comin' back to read up... Thanks and carry on in doing so... Enjoy readin' my lame collection of life stories...

Aight, gotta go now, have my rest for another day of "slackin" in camp... Cheers to all! Oh wait.. one more thing, keep those tags comin' in, I'll reply to u guys when I'm free...


"Until the day I die...I'll spill my heart for u..."

What?! It's already one week? GOd damn!! Just as I thought I was beginnin' to enjoy this kinda life... suddenly.. It's already one week! God damn! Tomorrow's my reportin' day... have to wake up early and one thing is still on my "to-do" list... laundry... my uniforms and clothes for the army had not been washed yet... Slobbish..ain't it? Since last Friday... WOO HOO!!! Got all the time in the world and I did nothin'. Been slackin' for one week and somehow... I feel that I'm gainin' weight again... GOD DAMN!!! HELP ME PLEASE!! Hahaha.. I'm gonna be a driver soon... learnin' how to drive..for FREE! BUAHAHAHA..of course with some "payment" in return.. u know.. army crap.. have to put up with the army bullshit... Punishment..charges...damn..gotta watch my ass in there...

Went to the M.O.S.H Compilation gig yesterday in Youth Park and god damn... So many new kids! I went with Tweet at first and it seems that we were the first to arrive among other kids that we knew.. So we thought, yeah.. why not wait. Going to a gig this time sure does make me feel like a friggin' newbie... It felt like it was 7 years ago when I first went to a gig and I know no one.. Seriously, it was awkward feeling... Normally, if we were to arrive at any gigs, there'll be lots of hands to shake and lots of people that we know or maybe, people know us and even though u don't know that person.. but u know that he or she is a familiar face in gigs.. but this time, it wasn't like that... it was a confirmed shit that all those kids are on the rise.. the new ones... none of them I knew... I guess it's time for the new generation to take over ey? LIke how I did the last time... Turned left, new face... turned right... new face turned everywhere, it was all... new faces.. A li'l later that evening... saviours came... Finally.. some familiar faces. Inn, Sofyn, Dzafir, Wan (Dyfectra), Shain (MSC), Lutfi (MSC), Yam, Dee-Dee & Nik was there... Missed the old times whereby almost everyone, knows everyone at gigs... *sigh* Times are changing...

There were a few bands that stands out at the gig and one or two that sucks... The gig was a li'l mundane at the beginning... The crowd was dead.. the music was dead..there wasn't any energy.... And the sound was fucked up yesterday... Soundman didn't do his stuff well... Vocals were too loud.. snare mics was not turned up... bass drum can't hardly hear... bass guitars was waay loud... So one thing.. a bad soundman, makes the band look bad...

I was all ears when November Iris played (Hope that I spelled out the band's name correctly)... and they have that energy.. and their music's not bad... Have a potential to go far though... Another band that got my head bobbibg to the beat...Turn A Tap.. or something like that... Good vocals, good drummings and guitars...they were awesome... And there was this one band that really makes me wanna shuv a thunderstick up their asses... A couple of young kids, in punk "uniform" or some sort, thinking that they're going to rock the stage or something... Firstly, their guitars were fuckly tuned up.. I think, none of those guitars were in tune... Drums... was crappy... and vocals..oh yeah.. the vocals was a bonus... It sounds like as if ur blender was stuffed with a metal pipe and u grind it or something... When they played, their "people" stood up and went up front... u know..Punks..skins... bla bla bla.. and they were the new generation of course.. So there they go.. playing..and singing crap.. "Huabablabla,yaba..bla bla..." whatever that guy was singing... And he was all fuck this..cheebye that..bla bla..trying to be all "anarchist" and it was as if the whole god damn world owes him something... *sigh*... Wow.. I'm a critic..SHIT! I'm a god damn critic!! HAHAHAHA..whatever it is... had fun yesterday...

Hanged out with the bunch till late.. bla bla bla.. stayed at B's place.. bla bla bla... and then went home earlier today.. bla bla.. Okay, this episode had to cut short cuz I ain't got the time to type out.. okay.. I HAVE the time.. but I'm just feeling lazy..so...."Make sure to catch the next episode of: Days Of BIGguy.. same time, same place...same old fucked up face...blindedheart.blogspot.com"

Oh yeah, forgot to mention, new pics are up! Enjoy those pics...they'll be on the bottom left of ur window screen...scroll down... U'll see it... u won't miss it...

Cheers!

Am I hangin' on for hope? This song that is playin' right now... is awesome, some really slow nice music for a change ey? Simple but meaningful lyrics somehow... Am I hanging on for hope? I feel that I do... been hangin' on ever since... is it wrong? Or should I do something for my own good? Lookin' for that light at the end of the long tunnel... an end that never seem to exist. *Sigh*.... And what's with people hating one another? A lot has changed since I've been in Tekong... Now that I'm here for one week, my god... the changes, it's like... whoa... Maybe it's minor changes to some but to me... a lot changed...

Changes in people, their character, their style, their way of life and people they hang out with... the place itself, new stuff, new buildings and new this and new that... Wow... stayed in there for four months and BAM!!... major changes without me realizing... #emo had been taken over and god damn, I didn't even know...

Changes in people... everybody's growin' up and it seems like it's no longer how it was the last time. Circle of friends changed, some stayed and some went away. Those who were once close are now... drifted apart and those who were once distant.. are close.. Weird ain't it? Changes... Weird... but it sure is happening... Without realizing... it's happening...

Kris Roe's words in one of his songs... (Can't remember the song title) " Being grown up is just half as fun as growing up, these are the best days of our lives..." And it's true... As i'm growin' older, I feel myself changing as well, it may not be noticable to some and it may be noticable to few... but I sure do feel changes in me. It's funny how life express itself...

p|uGGy will be starting her job this Monday, congrats to the girl and may everything goes well for her... I'll be here if u need me p|uGGy-o! U know the dial, hit those numbers to reach me, aight? From a skater to a slacker and now, an office gal... Like I said, changes...

She went for her 2nd Interview yesterday and we met up in town to hang out with my platoon mates... There were a few of us at first but in the end, everybody splits and it was left me, p|uGGy & my buddy.. Hang out at Liat Tower's BK and chatted away crap. Azri came to meet her a li'l late that night... so yeah.. after they went shopping they said their goodbyes to me and my buddy... So there was only the two of us left... Just me & Fai... my buddy. Hanged out there and left around 11 plus... Did some girls watchin', hehe... but it was all pure admiration with no intention of knowing any of those girls... Somehow I seem to lose interest and I don't know why... *sigh*... Maybe I'm just tired of things? Maybe I'm hanging on for hope too much?

Two more days to go to my reporting time... PRIVATE. Hezwan reporting for driver duties... Hahahaha... Socks... Aight, to all that's reading, Cheers! And drink up the beers! To anyone who might feel offended, I'm sorry... To those who keep on comin' back to my blog to read up my lame life, I'd like to say thanks... thanks for being my so-called..."fans"... Heh...that's weird...Fans...IN UR DREAMS BIGGUY!!! Whatever it is, thanks guys...

So... keep on comin' back to read my stories... (Suddenly, a voice in the background: " Next week on Days Of BIGguy's Life, will he survive his days in his new bunk and with his new mates? Find out in the next episode of:- Days Of BIGguy's Life on blindedheart.blogspot.com"

Once again... CHEERS!

Woo hoo!! Yesterday was a mad day! In the early afternoon, went out with p|uGGy, followed her to her job interview and guess what? She got the job! I'm so happy for her! I mean, she was waaay beyond happy and she was all excited... I was happy to see that and what's best, she got a job now... Hehehe.. Ironic though.. A girl who used to skate, who is a slacker and who goes to gigs... is workin' in an office.. Can't believe that, office girl! HAHAHAhA....Whatever it is...I'm just glad she's happy.

After all that, head down to Tamp to have dinner... and met Anah there and my god, Anah is now a guy! Hahaha.. I mean, she dress up totally like a guy, whatever happened to the old Anah? Phsyced! Mat Hard Rock... hehe.. that's what we call her... Hanged out at BK for a while.. didn't talk much though.. Cuz p|uGGy was all sleepy.. so yeah, I let her rest... We did talk, about how she would dress up for the office work, and we chatted about stuff... AFter that, we set off, she heads back home to take some stuff and I head down to BMC to check out Rika jamming. I thought that it was only Rika jamming, suddenly, it was like a gathering for bands or something... 180 was jamming, Losing streak is jamming, rika's jamming and a few others were jamming. I mean, wow! Mini gig or something? Hehehe. Had fun though... Had fun singing and screamin' for Rika... Jammed with Dzul,Ik,p|uGGy for fun... It was crappy but hell, it was fun... Azri came down a li'l later to fetch p|uGGy home I guess... while the others.. went back cuz of some stuff.. while a few stayed to slack around in Tamp for a while. I got pics for u guys to see... So feel free to check it out on the left...

Got my posting today and guess what?? DRIVER!!! Hell yeah! I got my posting as a driver! That's my vocation! Driving around! Free lessons on driving!! WOO HOO!! Monday, I have to report to Sembawang Camp in the morning... Yeah!! I'm so happy that I'm a driver...

Aight, anyways, I might be slackin' again today, with my platoon mates... So yeah... See how it goes, might ditch them if other plans comes out... So yeah... CHEERS TO ALL!