Sunday...again... Here I am at home... and yesterday was one mad night... I got screened by cops...FOR THE FIRST TIME!! Hahaha..finally...screenin'!
Went jammin' with the boys at Carudi's...created some new songs and workin' on some older songs. Jessie,Sofyn and Fad followed us but Jessie left after a while to meet her boyfriend. So there we were jammin' and god damn..I was sweatin' like a pig! Hot room.. After that jammin' session...went up to Peninsula Plaza to meet up with Nik and his girl...Met up there..move up to S-11 and had our dinner. Same old thing...Fishball Noodles..Dry..hehe...Always eat that when I'm there...and I still can't find the reason why. Chit chatted and laughed cuz Fad and Fir was talkin' crap and doin' funny actions. After dinner...head down to padang and guess what? We saw the rockstar collectives kid hangin' out around the steps area in front of the court...
We hanged out at the seats in the field... Dzul, Inn & IK joined us after a while...so there we were... No Direction,Fad,Inn,Dzul,Nik,Min,Sofyn,Mon..hangin' out there... We got screened..Twice! Like...totally... Screened by one whole van of CIDs...with that amount of people..who wouldn't freaked out...I know I did...They walked towards us and the spread themselves to surround us...it's like wow...we did somethin' bad... Hehe..whatever it is... We played ragam and we laughed out loud...and most real..with IK's floorball ball...they played soccer in the field...I was the only one ain't playin'...it was funny...With fad's loud shouting and actions..with each of their clumsiness...it was crappy fun.. but the fun was disrupted by the security sayin' that we can't play there.. After all those screenin' and stuff..we head out to esplanade..cuz we don't want to be screened again for stayin' there long... Sat down by the side of the curb along the path in esplanade...we created some of our own games...and it was crappy...played "James Bond"...and played the song game...hehehehe..."One night, as I walk and masturbate along the east coastline, I saw a huge man..." HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!" That was somethin'..hahaha... p|uGGy told me that she see if she could join us yesterday and well..she didn't...no contact from her so I guess she didn't want to.. She should have been there... Missin' all the fun and another thing.. it's been a long time since she hanged out with us... She was always there when we have this kind of crappy late night sessions... But too bad...she ain't there... *sigh*...
Aight...gotta go,my body's achin' all over... Cheers!
Hamster
Radwimps - Me Me She
Sunday, February 29, 2004
Here's the entries I wrote while I was in camp last week:-
Wenesday, February 2004
Wow! It's been like three days since I last book in. Had my field camp on Monday and it ended on Tuesday. Okay, Let me rephrase that, it's part two of my field camp and overall, it was fun and learnt a few new things. Whenever we practise our movement, I imagined myself as being one of the guys from Easy Company in the show, "Band Of Brothers". There was one moment that we got our OC really, really mad. We were told to stand in "sedia" position and not move... that's what we did and it ain't a short stand. We stood there, tryin' not to move a single muscle for almost half an hour. It may sound as if it's nothin' but try this, stand still and not move in a sedia position for almost 30 mins... with webbin' on ur back, helmet on ur head and rifle slinged to the side. Durin' that 30 mins... one by one fell out due to the pressure and not being able to take it. I almost joined in but I endured and I nearly fainted. Thank god that nothin' did happen.
In the night at the field in my "basha" and in between the rows of rubber trees, I looked up into the sky and it was the best sight ever. Not even monet can buy that beautiful moment. It was a clear sky, no clouds coverin' that blacken sky and the grounds was ,lighted up by both moonlight and stars. It was beautiful, stars scattered all over the sky as if an artist sprinkle glitters onto his canvas as a background or somethin'. Bright stars, faded stars and other kinds of stars, you name it, it was there. There were a few that formed up in a line. You can't get this view from mainland, okay, maybe not can't get but once in a while.
While gazin' up, I no ticed the very same stars that 've been lookin' out for, for the past two years. It's still there, same formation and everythin' except that there are a few new stars formed up around them. These few stars are the stars that I gazed up with p|uGGy when I was with her, two years ago and that was in Bedok Skate Park. That was where those stars were first sighted by us.
My spirit was downed earlier in the day when I got a message fromp|uGGy. I messaged her sarcasticly that she always have to go and she's always busy to even reply me with one message. Okay, it's my own bad failt to say that to her and when she replied back by sayin' sorry to ignore me cuz she don't want complications to rise up again. I understand what she meant by that. What made me down was when she SMSed me,"Don't message me unless I message you..." That... Somehow broke my heart. I know it ain't a big deal to some but it's a big one for me. Is she pushin' me off? Is she goin' away? Drift apart and forget me? Maybe what she's doing is for our good? To help us both not have that feelin' anymore or should I say.. To help ME move on and forget what we had?
I know that I've been writin' about this for a long time and some of you guys might get bored of it but that's how I feel for her. I loved her and always will, even though I know I can't.
Maybe those new stars formed up near the stars that I gazed with her have meanings? Tellin' me to move on? There's others out there tryin' to "form" up betwen me and her... Question is, when will that one star appear and be here for me? Time will tell or maybe that I've already found her, it's just that I'm too blind to see?
Anyways, I'll be havin' on OC night tomorrow and I'll be performin' in a Dikir Barat group, can you believe this? Dikir Barat? ME?! Well, believe it, cuz I'm doin' it. There's like so many guys in my company that's from different Dikit Barat groups out there, so...it ain't a problem. There'll be other races joinin' in the show tomorrow, Indians & Chinese... Cool ey?
Thursday, 26th February 2004
Phew! The performance's done for. First time performin' in a Dikir group and it was a totally new experience. Used to hate dikir barat the last time due to th face that I find it..kinda lame and I know that is bad cuz it's like my own Malay culture but now, I find it nice and beautiful in a way. It ain't that easy cuz you have to memorise lyrics and steps. It's one thing that I now respect and it's one of my own culture which is... Dikir Barat.
That ain't the only thing I performed today, the Dikir Barat thing was the company's performance and the famous New Zealand All Black Haka dance was the other thing I did. I don't know how we looked like from the eyes of the other guys from the company that's watchin' our show. After all of the performance, we had fun and we so called, "party"... It was like in a club an that "club" was a basketball court. Loud music playin' from the stereo... hip Hop, RnB, Techno and a few other kind of music. It was madness and that wasn't the only madness... All of the recruits were busy lookin' for their own sergeants and leftenants to sabo. Each and everyone of the officers and instructors in our company got "sabo"-ed by us. Usin' black camo cream to wipe their faces and usin' water to get them really wet. It was fun, for a while.
Tomorrow, will just be another normal day. Back to our daily routines again. I heard that there'll be a 12 km route march this Saturday and that, we'll be bookin' out around 2 in the afternoon. Boring!
After the event today, I began to wonder and think... would these guys who suffered, laughed and had fun together with me fro the past two months or so still keep in touch with one another or would they just be another passer by in part of my life, just for memories? What my friends told me... is so true... "BMT is the best moment you'll have durin' your NS days, it's somethin' you'll never forget, so do treasure them.." Lookin' at each one of 'em, I told myself, "I'm gonna miss these bunch one day."
"From strangers to brothers, together we stand"
- 19th Echo 1 Slogan
Friday, 27th February 2004
Same bed, same window, same locker and same people. It's dead borin' here I tell ya. Be goin' for my route march tomorrow and it's a 12 click and that is one holy distance. Anyways, that ain't the thing that I wanna write about. It's about p|uGGy.. I was god damn happy when she called me... I get to chit chat with her for a while in the afternoon, right after I had my lunch. She called me up to ask for Alwee's number (Alwee is the guy that I hate for what he did to p|uGGy and he was the guy that was with her before me). p|uGGy wanted to fuck Alwee up for what he's doin' to her friend. He's talkin' cock & bull stories to this girl and causin' some problem. p|uGGy didn't like what he's doin' It's somethin' about Alwee makin' the girl look bad or somethin'. Whatever it is, I know that p|uGGy will fuck him up for what he did.
p|uGGy made my day... she made me smile somehow and boy, it was great to be able to talk crap with her for some time. Aight, gotta go... gotta have my rest, tomorrow's the BIG walk...
Wenesday, February 2004
Wow! It's been like three days since I last book in. Had my field camp on Monday and it ended on Tuesday. Okay, Let me rephrase that, it's part two of my field camp and overall, it was fun and learnt a few new things. Whenever we practise our movement, I imagined myself as being one of the guys from Easy Company in the show, "Band Of Brothers". There was one moment that we got our OC really, really mad. We were told to stand in "sedia" position and not move... that's what we did and it ain't a short stand. We stood there, tryin' not to move a single muscle for almost half an hour. It may sound as if it's nothin' but try this, stand still and not move in a sedia position for almost 30 mins... with webbin' on ur back, helmet on ur head and rifle slinged to the side. Durin' that 30 mins... one by one fell out due to the pressure and not being able to take it. I almost joined in but I endured and I nearly fainted. Thank god that nothin' did happen.
In the night at the field in my "basha" and in between the rows of rubber trees, I looked up into the sky and it was the best sight ever. Not even monet can buy that beautiful moment. It was a clear sky, no clouds coverin' that blacken sky and the grounds was ,lighted up by both moonlight and stars. It was beautiful, stars scattered all over the sky as if an artist sprinkle glitters onto his canvas as a background or somethin'. Bright stars, faded stars and other kinds of stars, you name it, it was there. There were a few that formed up in a line. You can't get this view from mainland, okay, maybe not can't get but once in a while.
While gazin' up, I no ticed the very same stars that 've been lookin' out for, for the past two years. It's still there, same formation and everythin' except that there are a few new stars formed up around them. These few stars are the stars that I gazed up with p|uGGy when I was with her, two years ago and that was in Bedok Skate Park. That was where those stars were first sighted by us.
My spirit was downed earlier in the day when I got a message fromp|uGGy. I messaged her sarcasticly that she always have to go and she's always busy to even reply me with one message. Okay, it's my own bad failt to say that to her and when she replied back by sayin' sorry to ignore me cuz she don't want complications to rise up again. I understand what she meant by that. What made me down was when she SMSed me,"Don't message me unless I message you..." That... Somehow broke my heart. I know it ain't a big deal to some but it's a big one for me. Is she pushin' me off? Is she goin' away? Drift apart and forget me? Maybe what she's doing is for our good? To help us both not have that feelin' anymore or should I say.. To help ME move on and forget what we had?
I know that I've been writin' about this for a long time and some of you guys might get bored of it but that's how I feel for her. I loved her and always will, even though I know I can't.
Maybe those new stars formed up near the stars that I gazed with her have meanings? Tellin' me to move on? There's others out there tryin' to "form" up betwen me and her... Question is, when will that one star appear and be here for me? Time will tell or maybe that I've already found her, it's just that I'm too blind to see?
Anyways, I'll be havin' on OC night tomorrow and I'll be performin' in a Dikir Barat group, can you believe this? Dikir Barat? ME?! Well, believe it, cuz I'm doin' it. There's like so many guys in my company that's from different Dikit Barat groups out there, so...it ain't a problem. There'll be other races joinin' in the show tomorrow, Indians & Chinese... Cool ey?
Thursday, 26th February 2004
Phew! The performance's done for. First time performin' in a Dikir group and it was a totally new experience. Used to hate dikir barat the last time due to th face that I find it..kinda lame and I know that is bad cuz it's like my own Malay culture but now, I find it nice and beautiful in a way. It ain't that easy cuz you have to memorise lyrics and steps. It's one thing that I now respect and it's one of my own culture which is... Dikir Barat.
That ain't the only thing I performed today, the Dikir Barat thing was the company's performance and the famous New Zealand All Black Haka dance was the other thing I did. I don't know how we looked like from the eyes of the other guys from the company that's watchin' our show. After all of the performance, we had fun and we so called, "party"... It was like in a club an that "club" was a basketball court. Loud music playin' from the stereo... hip Hop, RnB, Techno and a few other kind of music. It was madness and that wasn't the only madness... All of the recruits were busy lookin' for their own sergeants and leftenants to sabo. Each and everyone of the officers and instructors in our company got "sabo"-ed by us. Usin' black camo cream to wipe their faces and usin' water to get them really wet. It was fun, for a while.
Tomorrow, will just be another normal day. Back to our daily routines again. I heard that there'll be a 12 km route march this Saturday and that, we'll be bookin' out around 2 in the afternoon. Boring!
After the event today, I began to wonder and think... would these guys who suffered, laughed and had fun together with me fro the past two months or so still keep in touch with one another or would they just be another passer by in part of my life, just for memories? What my friends told me... is so true... "BMT is the best moment you'll have durin' your NS days, it's somethin' you'll never forget, so do treasure them.." Lookin' at each one of 'em, I told myself, "I'm gonna miss these bunch one day."
"From strangers to brothers, together we stand"
- 19th Echo 1 Slogan
Friday, 27th February 2004
Same bed, same window, same locker and same people. It's dead borin' here I tell ya. Be goin' for my route march tomorrow and it's a 12 click and that is one holy distance. Anyways, that ain't the thing that I wanna write about. It's about p|uGGy.. I was god damn happy when she called me... I get to chit chat with her for a while in the afternoon, right after I had my lunch. She called me up to ask for Alwee's number (Alwee is the guy that I hate for what he did to p|uGGy and he was the guy that was with her before me). p|uGGy wanted to fuck Alwee up for what he's doin' to her friend. He's talkin' cock & bull stories to this girl and causin' some problem. p|uGGy didn't like what he's doin' It's somethin' about Alwee makin' the girl look bad or somethin'. Whatever it is, I know that p|uGGy will fuck him up for what he did.
p|uGGy made my day... she made me smile somehow and boy, it was great to be able to talk crap with her for some time. Aight, gotta go... gotta have my rest, tomorrow's the BIG walk...
Sunday, February 22, 2004
This next few entries will be an account from my diary when I was in camp:-
Monday, January 16th 2004
Here I am again, lying on my bed in the dark. It's 10:09 right now and the bunk lights are off. We're having an early lights off today cuz we'll be having IPPT Evaluation tomorrow and the sargeants wants us to rest. I Heard from the guys that we'll be havin' lessons on trench diggin' this Wednesday and boy,I can't wait for that shit to end. Same goes for field camp... wanna end that shit as soon as it can end. Some of the guys in my bunk ain't asleep yet... Same goes to the other bunks I guess. Currently, as I lay down on my bed or any free moments I have here... I've been thinkin' a lot about things...
Thinking about Emelia, about how I get to know her and how we met up and have our date. I'm havin' doubts on whether I should go on with her or wait... Wait for the moment that I've always wished for and look out to. For that past Valentine's Day, I wished for that one girl to go out with me. The girl that I know, I would have fun and enjoy my moments with for that special day. It's really bad of me to say all this but I simply can't click with my date for that day. If only she were to open her mouth and talk more, it would be okay. Let's just see where wuold we go from here.
The show's comin' up soon and it's this Saturday. First Chapter will be playing for the first time and it'll be my first time performin' on stage as a drummer. Can't wait for that and I really wished that I could book out early this comin' Saturday...
"" If only you'd come back to me, this place would be a better place to live in... But that's all impossible... for now...
Tuesday, February 17th 2004
Only one day had past and it's going by so slowly... always had been since the first day I came in here. Right now, Layin' on my bed with no one to message and it's pretty borin'. Only source of contact with the outside world. Got a few messages though, from those whom I look forward to get from. Missin' people back home, anticipatin' for weekends to go back home and spend time with those who I missed. Gettin' sick of this shitty place, wished for all this to end quickly... but that's impossible. P.O.P is comin' up soon and that is in about 5 more weeks to go. THe worst ain't over yet.
We'll be havin' trench diggin' tomorrow and listenin' to the briefin' earlier on by our Lt somehow brought my morale down. I feel that it's going to be a super mega tirin' day cuz we're going to dig up for almost half a day... SHAGNESS!!
Aight, I guess I better have my rest and do a li'l bit of messaging with Emelia... I'll write in again the enxt day... Cheers!
Wednesday, February 18th 2004
Wow! It was one hell of a fucked up day today. I was tired as fucked. Early in the morning, had this shit called Aqua Aerobics and yeah, I know, it sounds stupid... well... it IS. Got punished for so many times and I think that we did almost 200 jumping jacks in the water and soon after that, 50 more outside. That shagged us all. In the later morning, we went to this place, an open space land roughly about 6 clicks away from our company line. This is where we did... Trench diggin' and that adds on to our tiredness. It ain't easy to dig one trench. We start off by diggin' this trench called Shellscrape, it looks a li'l bit like a grave block except this one, ur suppose to prone in it and not be seen by the enemy... or, somethin' like that. The other one we did, it's called the fire trench. This one was worse to dig and it really shagged us all.
Glad that all of that trench shit if over. Right now, I'm on my bed, as always... thinkin' about that someone again. She's actin' all weird and she doesn't message like how she would always message me the last time. I'm very sure that somethin's ain't right but she just do not want to say it out. Whatever it is, I know that she's one person that I truly and dearly miss. I hope that she'll be okay.
Aight gotta go now,havin' a parade tomorrow, some parade called the OC Master Parade...
Cheers!
Thursday, February 19th 2004
Today went out fine not until our sargeants told us the complains my platoon got. Some of us ain't happy about those complains cuz we know that we didn't do those things. Whatever it is... It's god damn demoralizing. Now, I don't even have the confidence to go for that stupid field camp this comin' Monday...
We had some kind of a parade this morning and well, it ain't that bad, everythin' went out good. But somehow, I was feelin' kinda low, thinkin' about things back home. People I miss worries me... It's hard to explain it in words, u have to be me to know what I'm feelin' right now. Only one more day to endure before I fuck off for the weekend.
The gig's comin' up, real fast. Feelin' nervous for it. Hope that everythin' will go fine. Gotta go, lights off already.
Friday, February 20th 2004
I came to a conclusion that if u don't count the days, the week would end quickly and well...it did. It seems like only yesterday was the day of my enlistment but the true fact is that... I'm almost at my two months mark here. Lookin' at the new enlistees, reminds me of the time when I first enter here... Lost, alone and have no fuckin' idea of what to do or where to go. 2 months later, take a look at us... "Veterans" of Tekong. We know where to go and what to do and these guys that's with me now, who were once strangers are now brothers to me. Together we get fucked, together we laughed and enjoy and together we suffer. If u guys watched "Band Of Brothers" on Episode 1 "Curahee"... It's somethin' like that.
Right now, as I lay down on my bed, we're havin' admin time right now. I've been thinkin' of that someone ever since my last book in. I'm wonderin', thinkin' and hopin'... hopin' that the same star would shine brightly high above again. I ain't got much to say except to keep low and quiet and wait and be there for her and I'll try to make sure that she's happy.
"May the soul she was searching for be found so that she won't be confused no more..."
Monday, January 16th 2004
Here I am again, lying on my bed in the dark. It's 10:09 right now and the bunk lights are off. We're having an early lights off today cuz we'll be having IPPT Evaluation tomorrow and the sargeants wants us to rest. I Heard from the guys that we'll be havin' lessons on trench diggin' this Wednesday and boy,I can't wait for that shit to end. Same goes for field camp... wanna end that shit as soon as it can end. Some of the guys in my bunk ain't asleep yet... Same goes to the other bunks I guess. Currently, as I lay down on my bed or any free moments I have here... I've been thinkin' a lot about things...
Thinking about Emelia, about how I get to know her and how we met up and have our date. I'm havin' doubts on whether I should go on with her or wait... Wait for the moment that I've always wished for and look out to. For that past Valentine's Day, I wished for that one girl to go out with me. The girl that I know, I would have fun and enjoy my moments with for that special day. It's really bad of me to say all this but I simply can't click with my date for that day. If only she were to open her mouth and talk more, it would be okay. Let's just see where wuold we go from here.
The show's comin' up soon and it's this Saturday. First Chapter will be playing for the first time and it'll be my first time performin' on stage as a drummer. Can't wait for that and I really wished that I could book out early this comin' Saturday...
"" If only you'd come back to me, this place would be a better place to live in... But that's all impossible... for now...
Tuesday, February 17th 2004
Only one day had past and it's going by so slowly... always had been since the first day I came in here. Right now, Layin' on my bed with no one to message and it's pretty borin'. Only source of contact with the outside world. Got a few messages though, from those whom I look forward to get from. Missin' people back home, anticipatin' for weekends to go back home and spend time with those who I missed. Gettin' sick of this shitty place, wished for all this to end quickly... but that's impossible. P.O.P is comin' up soon and that is in about 5 more weeks to go. THe worst ain't over yet.
We'll be havin' trench diggin' tomorrow and listenin' to the briefin' earlier on by our Lt somehow brought my morale down. I feel that it's going to be a super mega tirin' day cuz we're going to dig up for almost half a day... SHAGNESS!!
Aight, I guess I better have my rest and do a li'l bit of messaging with Emelia... I'll write in again the enxt day... Cheers!
Wednesday, February 18th 2004
Wow! It was one hell of a fucked up day today. I was tired as fucked. Early in the morning, had this shit called Aqua Aerobics and yeah, I know, it sounds stupid... well... it IS. Got punished for so many times and I think that we did almost 200 jumping jacks in the water and soon after that, 50 more outside. That shagged us all. In the later morning, we went to this place, an open space land roughly about 6 clicks away from our company line. This is where we did... Trench diggin' and that adds on to our tiredness. It ain't easy to dig one trench. We start off by diggin' this trench called Shellscrape, it looks a li'l bit like a grave block except this one, ur suppose to prone in it and not be seen by the enemy... or, somethin' like that. The other one we did, it's called the fire trench. This one was worse to dig and it really shagged us all.
Glad that all of that trench shit if over. Right now, I'm on my bed, as always... thinkin' about that someone again. She's actin' all weird and she doesn't message like how she would always message me the last time. I'm very sure that somethin's ain't right but she just do not want to say it out. Whatever it is, I know that she's one person that I truly and dearly miss. I hope that she'll be okay.
Aight gotta go now,havin' a parade tomorrow, some parade called the OC Master Parade...
Cheers!
Thursday, February 19th 2004
Today went out fine not until our sargeants told us the complains my platoon got. Some of us ain't happy about those complains cuz we know that we didn't do those things. Whatever it is... It's god damn demoralizing. Now, I don't even have the confidence to go for that stupid field camp this comin' Monday...
We had some kind of a parade this morning and well, it ain't that bad, everythin' went out good. But somehow, I was feelin' kinda low, thinkin' about things back home. People I miss worries me... It's hard to explain it in words, u have to be me to know what I'm feelin' right now. Only one more day to endure before I fuck off for the weekend.
The gig's comin' up, real fast. Feelin' nervous for it. Hope that everythin' will go fine. Gotta go, lights off already.
Friday, February 20th 2004
I came to a conclusion that if u don't count the days, the week would end quickly and well...it did. It seems like only yesterday was the day of my enlistment but the true fact is that... I'm almost at my two months mark here. Lookin' at the new enlistees, reminds me of the time when I first enter here... Lost, alone and have no fuckin' idea of what to do or where to go. 2 months later, take a look at us... "Veterans" of Tekong. We know where to go and what to do and these guys that's with me now, who were once strangers are now brothers to me. Together we get fucked, together we laughed and enjoy and together we suffer. If u guys watched "Band Of Brothers" on Episode 1 "Curahee"... It's somethin' like that.
Right now, as I lay down on my bed, we're havin' admin time right now. I've been thinkin' of that someone ever since my last book in. I'm wonderin', thinkin' and hopin'... hopin' that the same star would shine brightly high above again. I ain't got much to say except to keep low and quiet and wait and be there for her and I'll try to make sure that she's happy.
"May the soul she was searching for be found so that she won't be confused no more..."
Another book out...another book in...Damn...my weekends always feels as if they're like a nights off or somethin'...time really flies when ur enjoyin' things don't they? Spoilers at times. Here I am again at home...Ain't goin' out today..cuz there ain't anybody to go out with...okay..maybe it's not that..there's no one..it's just that..I wanna stay home. Everytime I book out,I'll always be out...so i guess it's time for me to at least stay home once in a while ey?
There was a lot of gigs going on yesterday...I played in two...and I heard from others sayin' that there's gigs in Lasalle & Sentosa... i mean...WOW! It's one of those gig seasons again! I played for two bands...Both First Chapter & No Direction... The first one was First Chapter..in Marina Promenade...And fuck..I totally screwed up.. It was my first time playin' drums live... And I heard comments sayin' that I should hit the crash harder...Damn...I was too gentle with the drums... But I totally sucked...I played hopelessly on drums...maybe I'm not meant to be a drummer? Maybe I'm just one of those..play drums-during-jamming-sessions kinda guy? But the weird part is...people who hear...they said that it was okay...it ain't bad..Are those statements really true? Maybe out of Sympathy...who knows ey?
Later that evenin'...went to ANA Hotel to play for the Rock Star Collectives's It Takes A Kid To Know gig...I love that play..nice cosy lounge... Sofas and everythin'...it was nice..and the air-con..cool! AWesomely cool...So there we were...gettin' upstage...played our music..and came to a conclusion..that I played suckily...we all did... See kids...this is what will happen if u don't jam often...it's not that ND don't wanna jam..it's just that..we don't have the time to jam...STUPID NS BULLSHIT! So there u go...no time to jam..and everythin' sucks! I got lots of mistakes yesterday...and once again...people say that we were okay...hmm...sympathy again? i can't say...so..shut up hezwan!
I'll be bookin' in again this evenin'...around 6 plus... damn it..and it's field camp again..tomorrow..fuck! It's fuckin' borin'! Allright..I'm done with today's entry...Anyways...there's new pics and I'm lazy to put descriptions.so...pandai pandai eh tengok... enjoy the pics... CHEERS!
There was a lot of gigs going on yesterday...I played in two...and I heard from others sayin' that there's gigs in Lasalle & Sentosa... i mean...WOW! It's one of those gig seasons again! I played for two bands...Both First Chapter & No Direction... The first one was First Chapter..in Marina Promenade...And fuck..I totally screwed up.. It was my first time playin' drums live... And I heard comments sayin' that I should hit the crash harder...Damn...I was too gentle with the drums... But I totally sucked...I played hopelessly on drums...maybe I'm not meant to be a drummer? Maybe I'm just one of those..play drums-during-jamming-sessions kinda guy? But the weird part is...people who hear...they said that it was okay...it ain't bad..Are those statements really true? Maybe out of Sympathy...who knows ey?
Later that evenin'...went to ANA Hotel to play for the Rock Star Collectives's It Takes A Kid To Know gig...I love that play..nice cosy lounge... Sofas and everythin'...it was nice..and the air-con..cool! AWesomely cool...So there we were...gettin' upstage...played our music..and came to a conclusion..that I played suckily...we all did... See kids...this is what will happen if u don't jam often...it's not that ND don't wanna jam..it's just that..we don't have the time to jam...STUPID NS BULLSHIT! So there u go...no time to jam..and everythin' sucks! I got lots of mistakes yesterday...and once again...people say that we were okay...hmm...sympathy again? i can't say...so..shut up hezwan!
I'll be bookin' in again this evenin'...around 6 plus... damn it..and it's field camp again..tomorrow..fuck! It's fuckin' borin'! Allright..I'm done with today's entry...Anyways...there's new pics and I'm lazy to put descriptions.so...pandai pandai eh tengok... enjoy the pics... CHEERS!
Sunday, February 15, 2004
I can't believe this? One week of not being around...many things happened. I read the comments in Losing Streak's guestbook and I'm kinda dissapointed at the critics... Well,I can't say much cuz hey...it's their own fuckin' views..what can I do? right? So I have to accept both good comments and bad comments. But it was really hurting to know and read that there are people out there who hates us to the core and I still don't get it why. *sigh*...it really sucks to get news like that when u book out... But whatever it is,it's their views and I can't say much (that is so..repeated) Those who put out critism on my band..thanks for being honest rather than being two faced... No offense.. Whatever it is...
Yesterday was Valentine's Day...and that one person who I wished to be with can't be with me... I went out with this girl..Emelia (formerly known as Nisya...she hides her real name for security reasons) and well...I sucked. As in..I totally suck..I felt that I can't communicate with her or something...Maybe she ain't comfortable with,maybe she don't like it..I don't know... She gave me a gift and that was very sweet of her..she made it herself... Original plan..was to catch a movie...but god damn..the whole cinema's packed up...went to another cinema...same fuckin' thing...In the end..walked around..end up to a spot..where both of us..were quiet..and eventually..we went off...She left with her cousins and I met up with the guys ( and girls)...Went to Zouk to celebrate Dzafir's birthday and boy...it was an experience. I ain't a clubber..so going to a club is like trying to fly a spacecraft out of the atmosphere... After going through the whole security..payment..bla bla bla..everything went great... And never before..I repeat..never before u see bigguy dancin'! I did! I can't believe it myself! I fuckin' danced to trance beats...Don't even know how to dance,so what I did...bounced to the beat and just moved my hand around (Somewhat like one of those stupid para para moves). A punk rocker..looked like a hip hop (Cuz I had to wear pants and before that I was wearing berms,so I bought this jeans that cost me 60 bucks at Far East Plaza) and danced like an ah-beng...Wow! Had fun with my friends...it was awesome.
Last week in camp... went for my grenade throw and it was awesome...*BOOM*...the sound was as loud as the 21 gun salute blast from those canons durin' National Day Parade... At first,it was nerve wreckin'..I mean..Come on..it's a life grenade which will blow when the lever is let off..and when that happens...about 2000 over small ball bearings spreading all over..piercing almost anything along it's path... So yeah..that's the reason why,I was nervous. After the throw and hearing the boom sound..it was great... Sound was loud and the shock wave was like..whoa~~! Imagine this,ur standing in the pool...half body totally in the pool and someone push waves towards u with full force...now..it's something like that..
One more field camp to go (Actually..it's 5 days..but it got split up into two..3 days camp had passed..now I'm left with two days) and soon after that...everything's done..except for marches and things like that... prepare for the POP... (Pop...Passing Out Parade) So yeah...life's a BIT much better now in camp...but most real..I miss home so god damn much!
Aight..gotta go and rest...had not slept since yesterday... Take care everyone...and one more thing...to those who had been supporting my band (No Direction) in any way..either in music wise or friendship wise..or for the band's sake...any way u can think of...I would like to say..thanks for the support and I really appreciate it.. Love u guys!
Cheers to all!
Yesterday was Valentine's Day...and that one person who I wished to be with can't be with me... I went out with this girl..Emelia (formerly known as Nisya...she hides her real name for security reasons) and well...I sucked. As in..I totally suck..I felt that I can't communicate with her or something...Maybe she ain't comfortable with,maybe she don't like it..I don't know... She gave me a gift and that was very sweet of her..she made it herself... Original plan..was to catch a movie...but god damn..the whole cinema's packed up...went to another cinema...same fuckin' thing...In the end..walked around..end up to a spot..where both of us..were quiet..and eventually..we went off...She left with her cousins and I met up with the guys ( and girls)...Went to Zouk to celebrate Dzafir's birthday and boy...it was an experience. I ain't a clubber..so going to a club is like trying to fly a spacecraft out of the atmosphere... After going through the whole security..payment..bla bla bla..everything went great... And never before..I repeat..never before u see bigguy dancin'! I did! I can't believe it myself! I fuckin' danced to trance beats...Don't even know how to dance,so what I did...bounced to the beat and just moved my hand around (Somewhat like one of those stupid para para moves). A punk rocker..looked like a hip hop (Cuz I had to wear pants and before that I was wearing berms,so I bought this jeans that cost me 60 bucks at Far East Plaza) and danced like an ah-beng...Wow! Had fun with my friends...it was awesome.
Last week in camp... went for my grenade throw and it was awesome...*BOOM*...the sound was as loud as the 21 gun salute blast from those canons durin' National Day Parade... At first,it was nerve wreckin'..I mean..Come on..it's a life grenade which will blow when the lever is let off..and when that happens...about 2000 over small ball bearings spreading all over..piercing almost anything along it's path... So yeah..that's the reason why,I was nervous. After the throw and hearing the boom sound..it was great... Sound was loud and the shock wave was like..whoa~~! Imagine this,ur standing in the pool...half body totally in the pool and someone push waves towards u with full force...now..it's something like that..
One more field camp to go (Actually..it's 5 days..but it got split up into two..3 days camp had passed..now I'm left with two days) and soon after that...everything's done..except for marches and things like that... prepare for the POP... (Pop...Passing Out Parade) So yeah...life's a BIT much better now in camp...but most real..I miss home so god damn much!
Aight..gotta go and rest...had not slept since yesterday... Take care everyone...and one more thing...to those who had been supporting my band (No Direction) in any way..either in music wise or friendship wise..or for the band's sake...any way u can think of...I would like to say..thanks for the support and I really appreciate it.. Love u guys!
Cheers to all!
Sunday, February 01, 2004
I'm back! Hahaha..it's a Sunday..and I can believe I spent the whole day...at home! Fuckin' hell,I know that it's good to stay home and bond with the family..bla bla bla...but I ain't the stay-home kinda person. So here I am. Just washed my dirty laundry...Loads of it. Muddy uniforms and stuff... My boots are are still a li'l bit wet.
Last week,I had my field camp... and boy...it sure was an experience. Out of the three days,two days it rained... Poured heavily on us. Built up our Basha (It's like a simple version of the tent) on the open space in between rows of rubber trees. So... rain + soil = MUD... I like the weather though...Cooling,wetness...I don't know,I simply love the rain. And the whole area was covered with mud..and it ain't normal mud it's like...thos sticky..deep kinda mud... At first it was kinda weird and eeky to sit or whatever but after a while...no one gives a fuck about the mud... We sat,lay down,rolled in the mud... so mud was our friend... There were fucked up moments and fun moments altogether... Our officers and sargeants showed their true colours... They were evil... But it was all for the good. Learnt a few new things and gained an experience only NSmen would experience. Seriously,I was a panick wuss...At night...especially..cuz I can't see shit and my torch was givin' me problems...so walkin' in the dark where u can't see much of anything...was a true obsticle... It ain't much of a physical stress...it's more on mental.
The food we ate there...Combat Rations, food that's packed up in this green packs...and how u eat it? Fuck with the plates,forks and spoon... We tear the pack and we squeeze the food out and just munch it like that... Some of it taste good..and some..well..a okay,ain't bad,ain't good...but after some time..u'll get sick of it. Don't wanna talk much on this stupid field camp shit cuz I have two more days to go when I book in and that sucks...
Yesterday was my gig,it was awesome! The crowd was a big turnout but as usual...u people who go to gigs,would know...Skinheads,punk and rudies are there...they sorta dominate the space. But most real,most of 'em are newbies. U can fuckin' see that their faces doesn't have that I'M-A-FAMILIAR-FACE-AT-GIGS look... As young as what...12? 14? God damn...and I mean young,already dressing up like that. What do they think? A gig means Fashion Parade? Fuck that shit... Especially the rudies,with their NOT-ENOUGH-CLOTH pants and their coats looking all rich and stuff..but hell,they ain't got a merz or a cadillac...They pay a few cent on this big vehicle with a driver,driving many people around...and this vehicle is called..the bus...which is,public transport.. God! And yet,they're supposed to be WORKING CLASS? ha! A joke to society. Anyways,played at the gig and the bands were awesome...Riddermark made their debut appearance and they were awesome... Shoe size nine,improving greatly on backing vocals and skills on guitars... Losing streak,Great showmanship and with Dila in the band,seeing him playing the guitar and singing for the first time...Hehe,normally,Dila would either play the guitar only or play the drums on stage...but not singing... ND's set was okay although a mistakes was made...only known to ourselves..hopefully the crowd didn't notice... I was really dissapointed with the crowd cuz they sat down...can u believe that? They SAT DOWN when the punk rock or emo bands played... but..they actually got the freakin' energy to raise that heavy butts of theirs and RUN up to the front to SKANK when the SKA BANDS are playing...can u believe that? And yet they say,SUPPORT THE LOCAL SCENE...MY HAIRY MALAY ASS!! Really dissapointed. The crowd ain't how it was back then,when SKA don't really EXIST in the scene... NO ONE LISTENS TO SKA ANYMORE...hahahahaha..Fuck that shit,that's their own problem.. What I know,Every of those other bands have friends or followers to back them up including my band...
To those who stand in front of the stage and looking up to the bands and supporting them while others sat down...I wanna say thanks! Keep doing that to pump up the spirit of the bands up there playing...
I've got to say,I was damn nervous before the show cuz it's been a while since I've last played in a gig...I was actually shakin'... Thanks to u guys who stand in front or by the sides of the stage...Ur screaming or plainly shouting out jokes..simply boost my morale up and got me back straight to focusing on playing without the word NERVOUS on my mind... Once again,THANKS!
I'll be bookin' in tomorrow evening..and boy..it sucks,those who went through NS before should know...to those who haven't...U guys will know the feeling when u guys go in...
That's all I have to say...Take care everyone...See u guys around again...PEACE!
CHEERS!
Last week,I had my field camp... and boy...it sure was an experience. Out of the three days,two days it rained... Poured heavily on us. Built up our Basha (It's like a simple version of the tent) on the open space in between rows of rubber trees. So... rain + soil = MUD... I like the weather though...Cooling,wetness...I don't know,I simply love the rain. And the whole area was covered with mud..and it ain't normal mud it's like...thos sticky..deep kinda mud... At first it was kinda weird and eeky to sit or whatever but after a while...no one gives a fuck about the mud... We sat,lay down,rolled in the mud... so mud was our friend... There were fucked up moments and fun moments altogether... Our officers and sargeants showed their true colours... They were evil... But it was all for the good. Learnt a few new things and gained an experience only NSmen would experience. Seriously,I was a panick wuss...At night...especially..cuz I can't see shit and my torch was givin' me problems...so walkin' in the dark where u can't see much of anything...was a true obsticle... It ain't much of a physical stress...it's more on mental.
The food we ate there...Combat Rations, food that's packed up in this green packs...and how u eat it? Fuck with the plates,forks and spoon... We tear the pack and we squeeze the food out and just munch it like that... Some of it taste good..and some..well..a okay,ain't bad,ain't good...but after some time..u'll get sick of it. Don't wanna talk much on this stupid field camp shit cuz I have two more days to go when I book in and that sucks...
Yesterday was my gig,it was awesome! The crowd was a big turnout but as usual...u people who go to gigs,would know...Skinheads,punk and rudies are there...they sorta dominate the space. But most real,most of 'em are newbies. U can fuckin' see that their faces doesn't have that I'M-A-FAMILIAR-FACE-AT-GIGS look... As young as what...12? 14? God damn...and I mean young,already dressing up like that. What do they think? A gig means Fashion Parade? Fuck that shit... Especially the rudies,with their NOT-ENOUGH-CLOTH pants and their coats looking all rich and stuff..but hell,they ain't got a merz or a cadillac...They pay a few cent on this big vehicle with a driver,driving many people around...and this vehicle is called..the bus...which is,public transport.. God! And yet,they're supposed to be WORKING CLASS? ha! A joke to society. Anyways,played at the gig and the bands were awesome...Riddermark made their debut appearance and they were awesome... Shoe size nine,improving greatly on backing vocals and skills on guitars... Losing streak,Great showmanship and with Dila in the band,seeing him playing the guitar and singing for the first time...Hehe,normally,Dila would either play the guitar only or play the drums on stage...but not singing... ND's set was okay although a mistakes was made...only known to ourselves..hopefully the crowd didn't notice... I was really dissapointed with the crowd cuz they sat down...can u believe that? They SAT DOWN when the punk rock or emo bands played... but..they actually got the freakin' energy to raise that heavy butts of theirs and RUN up to the front to SKANK when the SKA BANDS are playing...can u believe that? And yet they say,SUPPORT THE LOCAL SCENE...MY HAIRY MALAY ASS!! Really dissapointed. The crowd ain't how it was back then,when SKA don't really EXIST in the scene... NO ONE LISTENS TO SKA ANYMORE...hahahahaha..Fuck that shit,that's their own problem.. What I know,Every of those other bands have friends or followers to back them up including my band...
To those who stand in front of the stage and looking up to the bands and supporting them while others sat down...I wanna say thanks! Keep doing that to pump up the spirit of the bands up there playing...
I've got to say,I was damn nervous before the show cuz it's been a while since I've last played in a gig...I was actually shakin'... Thanks to u guys who stand in front or by the sides of the stage...Ur screaming or plainly shouting out jokes..simply boost my morale up and got me back straight to focusing on playing without the word NERVOUS on my mind... Once again,THANKS!
I'll be bookin' in tomorrow evening..and boy..it sucks,those who went through NS before should know...to those who haven't...U guys will know the feeling when u guys go in...
That's all I have to say...Take care everyone...See u guys around again...PEACE!
CHEERS!
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