[ Music Blasting : No Direction - The Guilt Trip ]

"Once you have loved,you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever"

[ Music Blasting : No Direction - Nostalgia ] [ Mood :-: Sucky ]

Sucky mood? Ngast...just having..this sucky feeling...God knows why cuz I can't even explain it in words. I just heard the thunder and wow...what an emo night..rain and night..WoW! *sigh* Sooner or later,I'll be one lost fuck! In the afternoon..hanged out with a whole bunch of people at Starbucks...celebrating's Mint's birthday and she's 17! Sweet 17..once again..HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINT! Hehehe..hope u had a good time with us.

Pluggy came down just now and I was happy to see her,afterall..we've not met each other for like what..almost 4 months..WoW! Long time ey? So kinda miss her... Seriously..I'm one lost fucked up kid... In denial I am...just asked Nuwul..missing someone u loved,and happy to see her...does that mean that I've not moved on..and Nuwul says..yes....I seriously thought that I've moved on..but fuck! Why?! nuwul says...I love her..waaay too much...I don't know..pluggy..I'm happy to see her with Azri..together..and I'm sure..Pluggy would be happy to see me with someone else too...I should take my stand..and move on! DAMN IT!

After slackin'....went to meet her..hanged out and talked crap and all..and most real.was told something about my bad points...and the truth was revealed...It's confidential..so I can't reveal it..sorry guys. Maybe I'll be meeting her again tomorrow...hehe..to see her parrot or something...Madness...

Went in IRC to chat up...Shammie approached me..and we chatted...and things are all messed up...I'm the cause of it..I suck! I tried fixing things up..but everytime I fix things up...instead of getting better...it will all be fucked up! *sigh* Her decision was to stray away from everyone and all that's in her mind...I asked her to hate me if it stops her suffering...please do...I don't want her to be hurt anymore. And blame me..cuz this time...it's a clear cut that I'm the cause of this. I really don't know what else to do about things...

One tip that I've learnt from a dear friend...Sammy...Never..ever to talk to a new special someone in ur life..about ur EXs...and I blew it...cuz I keep talking about my ex..Pluggy...and that's the cause of things to not go right...I should shut my mouth once and for all! ARGH! Enough,till then...I'm outta here!

"When two friends fall in love,they learn that they're meant for each other but when they fall out of love,they'll realise that they want to keep each other forever"

LYRICS

No Direction - Open Spaces

There's sadness in your eyes
You're not saying the reason why
You're givin' up everything
Remember those times
When we stay awake all night
Just to see the sunrise

Building castles in the sky
Wondering if you're doing fine
Or are you with another guy
Our love is wearing thing
And you fail to see
That we're both in misery

Staring into
Open Spaces
Lost for words to say
Don't leave me

Each day I'll wake up in my empty bed
Realise ur left in my dreams
Till then when we close our eyes again

You know I hate to see you cry
Every single time we fight
Those tears I rather they were mine
And how could you see?
With your eyes shut so tight?
That what you want is to say goodbye

Bring me down with honesty
And tell me that we're not meant to be
I'll make myself leave you behind
Our love is vanishing
And I fail to be
The person you wanted me to be

Staring into
Open Spaces
Lost for words to say
Don't leave me

Each day I'll wake up in my empty bed
Realise your left in my dreams
Till then when we close our eyes again

(Close our eyes again)

LYRICS

No Direction - You,Me & The Coffee Place

Can I take you out?
On a date tonight?
Expensive restaurants
With candelights

A walk in the park
Catching movies in the dark
I'll follow you anywhere
You wanna go

So long as I get to hear your voice
Have my lips make contact with yours
When the night gets colder
Time gets by slower
I wish this night couldd last forever

You shine so bright
Like the stars in the sky
The smile on your face
Can't be denied

The countless things
For you I tried
Still not enough
To make you mine

You said that you're moving out of town
I can't find a way to hold you down
When the night gets colder
Times gets by slower
I wish that you could stay here forever

LYRICS

No Direction - Nostalgia

It's getting late
and I'm still waiting for your call
With every minute that passes by
It seems like we're growing further away

I feel the rain
On my face
As I look into the open sky
And for a second I'll stopped
Perpectuating and wonder (why?)

Am I oblivious in your eyes? (In Your Eyes)
Or do you dream of me when u sleep at night?
And you'll never understand
That I'll never have that chance
To share one lasting moment by your side

In the dark,I lay in bed
Hoping to see ur silhouette
And everytime I turn away
It's another memory erased

And I could
Get used to
The sweet sound
Of Silence

Just wanna say it across ur face
And watch every move you (make)

Am I oblivious
In you eyes
Or do you dream of me when you sleep at night

You said those rainy are nice
And the stars just speaks at times
Still it wouldn't be the same
Without you here...

[ Music Blasting : The Get Up Kids - Mass Pike ] [ Mood :-: Happy/Lost/Sad/Emo ]

Whoa...talking bout mixed feelings...I'm totally having mixed feelings right now. It's like 10 plus in the morning and I woke up like..around...what? 7 plus and I don't even know why the heck did I wake up so god damn early! Pluggy called me up yesterday night...and she was crying and all..and it was about some problems she had with Azri...but i got her cheered up i guess... And it was nice to be able to talk to her again cuz I really miss her. talking to her on the phone for quite some time...it brought back the good memories I had with her..and damn I miss those times..seriously..i do and I wished that she was still with me..but then..it ain't my luck...
I really can't wait for her to be free so that we can hang out..just like old times and all.. PLUGGY!!! I MISS U SOOO MUCH!!! *sigh*

As for her...she didn't call me yesterday..and she didn't go to her friend's place to overnight or whatever she says... so I don't know what's the truth now..I'm kinda lost. I'm very happy to be able to be with her and all..it was a nice feeling..but somehow..everything..seems to be...so wrong and I really wished that things would go the way I wanted it to go..but then again...ARGH!!! Now the lyrics to the tunes of "The Guilt Trip (Bus 190)" really hits my story... So if u guys wanna know what's it about..read the lyrics on the previous blogs I've entered. Hopefully that she calls me up today..cuz I guess that I missed her... Now..that sounded sooo wrong right? I miss Pluggy and I miss her...hmmm...*sigh*

Today...ain't got much plans..maybe slackin with Didi...and it's been quite a while since me and Didi hanged out.... Since the days..her sister don't hang out with me that often...i sorta neglect Didi..and it's bad...I guess I should hang out with her..get in touch with what's going on with her. Breakfast..hmm...what's there to eat..and what's there to do? chat? Fuck..it's freakin' boring...got tired of dissing people in #melayu...and there's no one that I know right now that's in #ska or #emo. *sigh*....

Aight....I bail out now,gonna have ma' breakfast. Peace!

[ Music Blasting : The Ataris - Summer Winds Was Always Be Our Song ] [ Mood :-: Stoney & Dodgy ]

Yesterday was my greatest day! Woo hoo!! The earlier part of yesterday wasn't that fun cuz I stayed at home with no where to go...and when I woke up...I went to the net and that's when I saw her nick and chatted up with her...She asked me whether i want to follow her to East Coast..so I said..."Sure,I'd love to go with u"...

Around evening time..which is like,5 plus in the evening I went to her place to pick her up and she looked so...WoW! While I looked like one lost airhead! So we took the bus straight down to Marine Parade and walked to East Coast. Hanged out there and chilled out...looking at the sea..the people and all... Hehehe,Made fun of the skimmers on the earlier part of the evening. I thought that we were goin' home...we hanged out till late night and we decided to stay in East Coast...so there I go,another day of torning (However u spell this word...Bluergh!) we just cuddled up and we kissed and all and it was a very fantastic evening we had. Played the alphabet game...(ngast) When there's only two of us but we had fun...heheh!

Rain dropped by heavily around 3 plus in the morning and we took shelter underneath one of those closed shops at Coffee Bean or some cafe. There was shelther and table there..so we sat on that table. She lay down on my lap and took a nap and it was nice to see her sleep cuz she looks so cute. Went back around 6 plus...sent her home till back to her footstep...and then I went home.

We're suppose to see each other again today but I didn't got the call from her...so I guess...she can't make that call. But it's okay...I guess that she's staying the night at her friend's place today. Ngast.... As for today,nothin' much happened...i slept the whole time! Buahahahaha... Aight...gotta go!

Cheers Mate!

Feeling guilty,lost and confused about the situation..I stood still in my living hall and staring out of the window,wondering and thinking..what have I done wrong? Still figuring out what it is...but to avail...nothing pops out.

Tried to make things right again,but choices made are not welcomed by the other party...Things are meant to be this way? Or can it be mended to make ends meet? Conclusions made are too hasty,cuz things seems to be too early to say. Should I give up? Move on? Or carry on pursuing what I wanted to do with this situation...? Choices have to be made again...

Lost...lost...lost
Confused...Confused...Confused
Hope...hope...hope

[ Music Blasting : My Squared Circle - Alone ] [ Mood :-: Dodgy ]

madness..what am I doin' up so early..as always..I stay up till late mornings... Sent Bernard in the morning..and it was kind of a sad goodbye...we hugged and all...seeing them go off into the bus... Hehehe...merely a farewell but it felt as if they would be gone long... *sigh* madness.

Hanged out aroun Tamp area after sending B and Yan off...and then went jamming with First Chapter..for one hour. Saw the kids of Underedge...they were jamming. So we jammed..hang out..again...at bedok...saw sammy...and his friend..and we hanged out..and stuff..bla bla bla...talked crap...

ah madness..there's soccer going on right now..i heard that Man U 4 Real Madrid 1? I ain't sure..but fuck it..i ain't a soccer freak... anyways...I'm outta here..chatting away in IRC....peace out!

CHEERS!

Hey ho everyone! How ur doing? I'm up damn early today...slept around 1 plus and got up around 5:15am. Gotta meet up with Tweet at 6:45 soon... at Bedok Interchange. Why we're up so early? Bernard's going into NS today and we're seeing him off at Pasir Ris. He's going Tekong. Damn..it felt like only yesterday that he got the letter of enlistment. And damn..it's so fast that it got to his enlistment date. Soon..it'll be my turn...madness. yesterday when I hanged out with the gang...played the last MOHAA together...it was fun. Fidah,Dzafir,Jessie,Lutfi,Shain,Bernard,Dilah,Sammy and me...the 9 of us..playin' the game..killing one another in teams of two... Fun until mad. After the game..slacked with Bernard for a while and talked a li'l bit about things..about the band and all...

As soon as his mom came...We said our goodbyes...and I was feeling sad...this...sudden I'm-going-to-miss-him kinda feeling. *sigh* That's the sad part...i guess..things gonna get a li'l bit quieter at his place..cuz..normally..we go there to hang out..or do recordings till morning..and we're always noisy..hehe.. miss those times...but hey..it's only NS...he'll be back soon.

Well then,gotta go now...or else I'm late to send him off...take care!

No Direction's Update : The recording is currently on hold as both Yan & Bernard is going in NS..today...23rd April 2003.... with four vocal tracks left to do...it is now..on hold. Current progression - about 80% (With four vocal tracks,mixing & mastering left to complete)

Gig Update : Currently No Direction has no gigs due to the circumstances...No Direction might be playin' in gigs around late 2003,so hang on peeps..they'll be back.

[ Music Blasting : N/A ] [ Mood :-: Hmph ]

Hey!! It's a freakin' Monday!! Woo hoo!! Monday blues ya'all! Fookin' hell..the gig yesterday..was somewhat..boring. Ain't that fun at all. And it seems that Far East Square now..ain't like Far East Square before. The last time I remembered...which was the first time I went there...when Code 13 came down from the states....That was the happening gig! But now...it's simply lame. And for goodness sake..what's with the sudden rise of rudies around here? Trend? Influence? Or is it just cool to be one? Fuck it,those KIDS...I stress that out again...KIDS...and I seriously mean kids. They're like..what..12? 13? year olds... *sigh* Sad to say..ska sells ey? 59 Minutes Late was good but only the vocals was a bit weird... As for Cesspit...well..they played good live...but...it sucks and sad to see..the crowd...When only Cesspit plays..that the crowd began to go while up front..skanking away. *sigh*... Ah..fuck it...had a good laugh at the end of the gig...

Heard about the SARS thingy? It's god damn gettin' worse! Fuck this SARS shit...I heard that the market in Pasir Panjang or somewhere is closed down because of SARS...But then..I don't give a flyin' fuck..I still go on with what I always do..like any other days...SARS SHMARS...With or without..who cares!

Whoa...come to think of it..I miss Pluggy a lot these days..I don't know why..maybe it's just that...long time never see her ah...u know..never hang out and all... Maybe after her exams I get to hang out with her. I wonder if she misses me too? Hmmm....

As for Shammie...I don't know if she's okay or not...but I guess..it should be. I mean,we chat in IRC like normal..so i take it..as it's okay...but somehow..somewhat..something tells me that she's not okay... But one thing I do hope...although things didn't work out for us..I hope that we can be good friends... but what i see now..it's like..that's fading away..I mean..we no longer talk on the phone as often as before and all.. Hmm...it takes some time.

As for today...hmm..today...well..goin' out with the band..spending some quality time together..WOO HOO!! Bernard and Yan is goin' into NS in two days time...which is..this Wednesday..so we're spending time with them today.yeap...

Well then..i think that should be enough for this entry...*sigh* BORED!! ARGH!!~~~~~~~~HiLaNg!!!

No Direction's Update : It's finishing soon! WOO HOO!!! i mean..the recording that is..not mixing and mastering..no sir..nope nope...But it'll be done soon...A few more vocals to go.

No Direction's Gig Update : Currently...none at the moment and we'll be away from the scene for a while...We'll be back..as soon as we can!

[ Music Blasting : Eminem - Lose Yourself ] [ Mood :-: HiLaNg!! ]

What's that? Eminem? Hip to the hop of the mop ah eh... Madness! And without realizing...it's been quite a while since I've last blogged! Woo hoo!! Many things had happened for the past few days..like me turning into gay..that's one example............UR NUTS OR WHAT?!?! I AIN'T GAY! oh wait...gay means...happy..right? Woo hoo! Damn i'm crappy this morning! Sitting in front of the comp with my out-of-bed-yet-wanna-sleep-again look. Staring at the screen and blankly typing things out in the comp...ain't that just great? Hmm....I'm missing that someone suddenly...and old friend...and old story. (Chey,like what only...)

Pluggy's the name....It's been a long time since I've last seen her. She's been busy with stuff I guess...juggling school,friends and Azri...hmm.. Just missed hanging out with her..like old times. Currently she have exams to concentrate on and once she's done with exams...I have her to slack with!! WOO HOO!!! And Azri's goin' off to Brunei...WOO HOO!! hehehe..madness...Then i can hang out with her like old times..together with her mad sis..Didi....

*sigh* sadly to say,for that Shammie issue...I just don't have the words to describe what's going on anymore. If she finds it best on not to say much whenever I call or chat with her...then be it..that's the way she wants it..I can't force her to talk. But then...missed the old Shammie though...Miss that old Shammie who always talks to me on the phone but now a days...I think it's best for the both of us not to talk to each other for a while...until things settle down. I feel awkward that day when I called her up cuz she didn't say much and I felt this...cold treatment sorta shit when I was talkin' to her. So...what the heck...life's a bitch,ain't it?

Today's a god damn Tuesday and i ain't got much to do,supposedly to jam with First Chapter but Zaid ain't confirmed yet...and...CaX....where is Zaid? Damn it...can't jam in the afternoon cuz the rest of the guys are working! Today,I ain't got a schedule..but tomorrow i do! Woo hoo! Goin' out with Sabrina to accompany her to get a job at Toys'R'Us and maybe some other places to hunt for jobs. And later in the evening tomorrow..it's recording time again...

Well dudes and dudettes...gotta go...

CHEERS!

No Direction's Update : Bernard's going in NS real soon. 23rd April is the date and No Direction won't be playin' at any gigs for the moment. As for the recording,we still have four more songs for vocals to finish up with. Total progress = about 75%...

LYRICS

No Direction - The Guilt Trip

As I walk you down your corridor
That look you gave me just took my breathe away
Before I knew it you were closing in
Left me wondering
What's happening this time

i'm boarding the late night bus and heading home
The kiss you gave me is still fresh on my face
Knowing he's waiting on the other side
If loving you is wrong then how can love be right?

I'm on a complicated guit trip
These feelings can't hold on anymore
It's slowly eating me out

I have so much to say to you
For once to think that he is not real
If only I've known you at a different time
Perhaps you'll have a change in mind

I'm wrong for feeding off you innocence
And I'm the cause that you're letting him down
It's right to put me in your memories and forget me
Just to put my fire out

You said that you're in love
I'm sure that guy was never me
Well it's time for me to leave

[ Mood :-: Pissed ]

ARGH! Madness! Today played in the gig and we all sucked today. Cuz firstly,I've made a lot of mistakes and seriously..A LOT! I don't feel good about it but I was making my self happy by taking it as having fun on stage. And I feel pissed..cuz of a lot of things and I'm lazy to type out... I'm pissed at myself for a lot of reasons...For hurting people..for neglecting people and for causing pain to people... I hate myself and that's a fact.

I just wished that things in life are not so complicated...but hey,I guess that everyone's have to accept that...cuz it's life..A part and parcel of life. Somehow,somewhat...I just wished that things are the way as they were before...Not much problems..not much this..not much of that. *BLARGH*~~~ I feel so fucked up these days...Cuz i don't know why...Things? Her? The band? Home? Family? I don't know... just feel fucked up. Should I ever lock myself up? Nah..no freedom...can't live with that.

Ah...lazy to type out...

CHEERS!

[ Music Blasting : Penfold - Amateur Standing ] [ Mood :-: Groggy ]

Why am I groggy? Cuz I just woke up so I'm still sorta blur. Went for slacking and then to recording yesterday...so my day was kinda okay yesterday. About a few songs was done and re-done again and I'm very disspointed at myself cuz I can't fuckin' sing my own song! My voice didn't really wanna sing the way I wanted it and yesterday, Bernard and Yan was encouraging me to do it again cuz they know I can sing better than the take I did yesterday. The song that I'm suppose to sing is held back till we're recording again...DARN!

Changed my greeting to the newly recorded "Downside Emotions" like how I promised that someone I would change. I hope she listens to my greeting cuz it's her favourite line. The sentence that she quote from the lyrics and put it in her blog the last time...it's in my greeting. Yesterday, I told her that I wanted to distance myself from her for the better of the both of us and and therefore the fading of my existance. I said that I would be at the back of the line and all but after some thoughts yesterday,I couldn't do it. I just can't cuz I know that I'll be missing her...a lot. I just can't distance myself from her cuz she means something to me. So after some thoughts yesterday,I've reached to a conclusion that I'll stick by her the way I've always did before. Being close and all. I called her up in late morning just now to tell her how I felt and at first...her tone was kinda...pissed but after that it was more like..."Okay...that's it?" Kinda tone. I hope that she's okay with it. Once again,I hope that everything will go back to usual like last time.

[ Music Blasting : Coldplay - In My Place ] [ Mood :-: Still groggy ]

Ah....Coldplay...amazing! Later on, I gotta make a move on to BMC Bedok to jam with No Direction. And wow! Without realizing...it's been like freakin' 1 month plus that we've not jammed! And later, we'll be jammin' at Bedok...WoW! Cuz Tweet is working,therefore we can't jam in the afternoon at B's place so we have to jam at night in BMC. Evening time, "The Garage" (A name we call for our studio) is totally out of bounce cuz it'll disturb the neighbours...thus...resulting in coomplains.

God damn! I'm still feeling groggy! And I think I'd better go off...

Cheers!

It's the afternoon and I feel so lal! It's a Tuesday and I'll be having a recording session later at the studio to do some of the vocals. Right now I'm feeling shitty after hurting someone. It sucks...but that's how I feel. Didn't mean to hurt her that way.

I feel that by distancing myself,it will only help out in something. I don't like it when I see her getting hurt or even stressed out because of me. So to avoid that again...I'm distancing myself for a while,sorta a vacation. I guess what she says is kinda true...This thing keeps happening over and over. All she's askin' is friendship from me and I can't offer that cuz my feelings for her...ain't friendship. It's more than that. So it's really hard to offer her that cuz I would only treat her..more than a friend rather than just friends. So for this short period...I'll be at the back of the line...low profiled.. but I'll still be there for her whenever she needs me. Until I see that the time is right for me to appear again...I'll go upfront to be by her side again. *sigh* I don't know even know why this shits are happening to the both of us. I'll guess that I'll just get away for a while..and we'll see what happens...

Later on, I'll be slackin' with the maddies at Tampines Starbucks around 3 plus. Mint,Anah,Nuwul,Irma,Dil,Sammy and a few others joining... so it's kinda big bunch. After that around 6 plus I'll be heading out to the studio to do my recording. *sigh* i don't feel so good... It sucks to hurt someone unintentionally...

Till then I bit u farewell!


"Just as my feelings are growing more for you, you're fading away that feeling by not reacting to the way I pictured you would...why?"

[ Music Blasting : Brandtson - Cherokee Red ] [ Mood :-: Hyper ]

Damn...got into an arguement with Shammie...I don't know what the hell is going on? All i did was just expressing my feelings cuz I can't help it but to tell her how I feel. She kept saying that I don't understand her..but I'm just expressing my feelings..I know that she doesn't want any commitments with anyone and she only treats me as a friend..okay...but i seriously do love her..and I wish that she was with me..

I guess for now...I have to walk away. She doesn't want to hear my feelings anymore..so okay..I'll just stick by and keep quiet...And maybe I should distance myself from her...She's been askin' me no to have any feelings for her..but seriously..It's hard for me! We had sorta an arguement on the IRC just now... Dil was trying to help us both out but it ain't going anywhere... Sheesh! I should just distance myself from now on...Keep less contact..and still be there for her when she needs me. I guess it would be better that way..but one things for sure..I would miss her.........badly. Those times we've spent..talking crap on the phone..and the outings I had with her...It'll be all in my memory. I can't forget that..and I can't wash away my feelings...DAMN!

"Hoping for something that will never come true...Hope....Hope...Hope......"

[ Music Blasting : Penfold - Reflexivity ] [ Mood :-: Tired ]

Ah mad!! Ahmad? Ngast! Today was kind of a tiring day for me... Madness! Went jammin' around 11 plus. I was the first to reach at the studio in BMC and the rest was late. I reached there around 11:20 and they were still not there.... *Sigh* It's the second time I reached there early and I want to talk much...NGAST! Everyone came soon after that and Dzafir was there too! He came by to meet up with Tweet to get something from him. He sat down and watched us jammed for a while. "The First Chapter"... Consisting of me on drums,Zaid on Vocals,Tweet on Lead guitar and 2nd vocal,Firdaus on bass and Rafie on guitar. While jammin' halfway, Fidah came...

After jammin',Zaid left to meet up with Lina and Tweet,Firdaus,Fidah and me... We set out to Tweet's place to hang out for a while...Well,actually to get his uniform of that place he's working at and change it cuz the size is kinda big or something. Tweet fried rice and it was awesome! Fidah left halfway while we're at Tweet's place. After that Tweet,Firdaus and me,we left for City Hall. Then to marina cuz Tweet wanted to get something for Mon.

After everything was done we went back home. When I reached home,I talked to Shammie for a while cuz she kinda...accidently called me or something... She was to call Rene but instead she reach me... So..I was left blanked when she asked for Rene...

I guess somehow in the midst of the conversation,I got Shammie's pissed. I didn't mean to... but I guess I did. Damn!

PMS + Irritating person on the next line = FRUSTRATION

Damn! I shouldn't have done that! Shammie,if ur reading this...I'm really really sorry.. I didn't mean to do that! U said "apa apa ah eh" and "whatever" So I said what I wanted to say... hehe.. I'm sorry,please.

Well i guess,that's it for today!

No Direction's Update : Recording session tomorrow on vocals,some of the tracks...we have to re-do. So progress is slowed down a li'l.

[ Music Blasting : Penfold - Our First Taste Of Escape ] [ Mood :-: Bored ]

Ah..It's a Sunday afternoon... Weather's doing good and everything else,is just fine. Got no where to go and I've been home for two days and it's killing me slowly! ARGH! BOREDOM IS KILLING ME! There is like no where to go ah..seriously..dying while thinking on where to go. oh wait,got a call...

That was Didi,looking for a second hand handphone...hehe And she was askin' me whether they do have it here in Haig Road. She's comin' down here and now I have to accpomany her to survey for handphones... Looks like I'll be going out later,in my area that is. MADNESS!

Ah mad...I think I wanna give Shammie a call,wonder what she's doin' now. Hmm.... I think I should call her.. Well I will cause it's like i'm missing her right now. Get back at ya bloggy! hhahahaha...Bloggy ah eh!

Peace out everyone...

LYRICS

No Direction - Downside Emotions

Shedding my tears for you
Late at night
When everyone's sleeping
Wiping my tears for you
As dawn breaks
When everyone's waking
I'll be going to bed

*I can't live
This life,for you
You don't understand
How I feel,sometimes
Things I could give
I would give you
As long as you want me to

You said the time isn't right
But who's the other guy?
I saw you
Talking to?

Those mistakes that you have made
It's me to take your fall
To remind you that I'm still
Loving you

*Never knew
How much,I cared instead
Those words that you said
Is like a needle piercing
Through my skin

Don't regret
The day,I'll say I'm living
Then,I'll be gone.

(Back to first *)

LYRICS

No Direction - From Me To You

So you slowly sleeping away
From where I used to have you at
Then you still laughing at my jokes
Now we're failing in every way

I guess there's nothing left to say
We probably found that out too late
Did someone took my place?

And it never crossed your mind?!
How you gave our faith away?!
Those empty promises you never fail to make

Should I try to make you stay?!
Or let things stay this way?!
The consequences that you left behind

The memories you left for me
I can't put them aside
Tell me have I changed a bit
I think you're the one that did

So now I'm the one to blame
I guess I lost the game
Why can't I accept that you're gone?

Shouldn't bother you anymore
Hide my feelings and all my thoughts
I'm no longer special to you
Cause I'm just a slob

[ Music Blasting: The Ataris - Summer Winds Was Always Our Song ] [ Mood :-: Bored ]

It's a freakin' Saturday,it's humid and it's warm...DAMN! I'm bored cuz I'm like stuck at home with nothin' to do. Supposedly to be out with Dil but both of us had no idea
on where to go so we grew tired of thinking on where to go and that's when we decided to stay at home. But seriously,it's like,there's no where else to go these days
and it's like making me bored of everything.

Talked to Shammie yesterday or was it the day before and she told me everything on how she's feeling and I guess that this time,I lost the battle.I can't fight it anymore cuz
that's the way she feels about things. Just not ready to commit into relationship and she wants to treat everyone else as equal and well it's hard for me to do it but I have to
accept it. I still have feelings for her and well I do love her and I guess I have to keep quiet about it. Not to show my feelings,or tell her about how I feel and all just let things
be as the way she wants it to be. But seriously,it's hard... Let's just see how things go...

It's evening time and I'm still at home,god damn!! I'm sweating right now cuz it's like...HOT! Even though the fan's blasting at the back!

No Direction's Update: Vocals recording is currently on the 65% mark,I guess...and there's more to do. We'll be recording again this comin' Tuesday.

Gig Update For No Direction: Got news from Tweety about the gig at Fullmoon Bar in Costa Sands...We might be playing next Thursday there if everyone in the band agrees to play so stay tuned for more updates.

Ah shit...today didn't talk to Shammie on the phone..but I sure did get to chat with her..and that's fair enough. I'm on the net right now and everyone seems to be dead... No one's chatting..NGAST!

I'll be jamming with First Chapter today and after that,I'll be heading out to B's place to do some vocals recording...WOO HOO!! Finally! Ah damn,my tummy's giving me some problem,damn! Gotta go drop off some dark "friends"... PEACE OUT!