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[ Time : 7:48 am ]

.:: This Is Not Madness, This Is Sparta! ::.

Hey ho to everyone! It's been a while since I've updated my blog... Well, been a li'l busy with school, gf and the studio... so yeah, no time for the net to blog and all that... I just got home from the movies... well, not really just... but got home at around 6 plus coming to 7... Waited for the first bus to come...

This is the first time I went to the movies with 30 people... Imagine that, 30 people! Basically the whole row was occupied by us... There's this movie called "300" and most of the guys were so excited to watch it and there were some that even followed us just to watch it again. It was sort of a last minute thing... I mean, they did plan about it and I never thought that I'd go but in the end, the guys asked me along and they were saying it's a once in a while thing where the whole bunch of us go out together to catch a movie and stuff.. they offered me to pay for the tickets.. so in the end, I went... The whole of the Bella Luna crew was there... well, not all, but most... Yan couldn't make it cuz he had to work that night and a few others who was working so yeah...

Bernard, Dzafir, Tweet, Mon, Lin, Ain, Ian, Syadie, Syafiq a.k.a Thomas, Gerald (hopefully I spelled it correctly), Shahrul a.k.a Pretty Boy, Rik, Ewick, Ewick's friend, Asyraf, Sammy, Zanna, Borhan, Syikin, Zad, Suhayl, Inn, Ikay, Nik, Dila (Nik's GF), Azim a.k.a Boy Sundal, Hidir, Elfrey, Fad and of course, myself...

And that was insane! It was as if it was some kind of a gathering of some sort... and it was zany, the mad bunch was basically.. crazy... Nik bought the ticket for most of us and as for me, they bought it a li'l later and I watched the movie with the Prince Isobelle guys, the four of us in another theatre while the rest went to the other theatre... We watched it in the same cinema (Plaza Singapura) and at the same timing (0040hrs) but it's just that... a different theatre... I gotta tell u guys, the movie was awesome! The effects on it was amazing... It's like matrix but it's in the medieval era... it was uber cool.. I recommend u guys to watch it...

After the movies, some of them left for home, some went jamming (more like Alfrey only), and the rest of us went to eat at carpage (is that the spelling?) Hung out at the Coffee Shop till it's like 4 plus in the morning just now.. and we walked all the way back to Plaza Singapura's McDonald's and hung out there till the first bus arrived and right now, I'm still stoned...

.:: Not Trusting The Truth ::.

While I was in the cinema, Hallie messaged me, askin' me to call her... and so I did... And here's the thing, I told her the truth and I didn't lie or anything... and the thing is, she thought I was lying... and the "bestest" part... She thought I went to the movie with some girl... Wow! It's more like with 29 other people... She thought that I didn't want to tell her that I went to the movies.. well, she's wrong, I wanna tell her but she got to me before I did... The best part, I messaged her in the afternoon and there wasn't any replies from her at all... Messaged her when I was at home (after I woke up from my accidental sleep when I got back from the studio) and I messaged her again, telling her that I'm going off to the studio... and when I was at the studio, I called her, a few times but no answer... And that was the point of time which I wanted to tell her that I'll be going to the cinema with the bunch to watch the movie and I kept calling but still she didn't answer and I wasn't pissed or anything.. just worried... It comes to the point where I forgotten to call her to inform her.. and that was when she got me first, by askin' me to call her...

She messaged me with stuff like, don't message or call her again... or stuff like not seeing her... I mean, come on.. just because I forgot to tell her that I'm going to the movies? Guys, come on, don't u guys agree with me that's a li'l irrational? Where's the trust in our relationship? I gave her my all and she's half trusting me? She's workin' in the airport, for goodness sake, the AIRPORT, where it's full of those "buayas" out there wanting to know girls and my girlfriend happens to be one of the beautiful ones around... And I trust her, I trust her with all my heart that she doesn't do anything at work like flirting and all that, cuz I know she won't and I trust her... and she can't even trust me?

After the movie, I tried calling her with Bernard's phone and she doesn't pick up... maybe she's busy or maybe she did that on purpose... I borrowed Nik's phone to call, and the same thing happened.. Again, she didn't pick up my call... So I'm trying to think that she fell asleep or something... so yeah.. If possible, I wanted to borrow everyone's phone to call her just to prove that I'm really with the bunch but what's the point when she doesn't even pick up any of my calls... It saddens me when she's in this mode of hers...

The night before, she wrote something really sweet and it touches me deep in that I felt like crying with tears of joy, it was so sweet of her and that particular message makes me smile and love her even more and suddenly today, she's all mean and mad at me... I just don't understand this point about her... I'm tryin' to mellow myself down and not be my older self where I was so aggro about li'l things and get all pissed at her...

Baby, if ur reading this, I just don't understand why are u so mad at me for? Please don't be too irrational baby? I love u a lot and I will never leave u... We've been together for a long time that u have became a part of me and a day without u feels like something's missing... somehow like a note missing from a song... I grew closer to u and love u even more, every hour and every minute of each day. Our relationship became stronger everytime we argued about li'l things and I'm trying my best to understand u and not be mad at u at li'l things... Please baby, all I'm askin' from u is trust.. how can it be love when u can't even trust me when I'm speaking the truth...? Isn't love all about trust? Please baby, I'm really sorry for not letting u know... I tried hard by calling u over and over again just to inform u but I just couldn't reach u...

Be all mad at me if u want to... all I can do is to say sorry my love... and hope that u'll understand and forgive me...

.:: Big End To The Second Module ::.

One more week and it's the big exam... just one subject that is... And there goes the long holiday... WEE HOO!! Well.. that's about that... heh...

.:: End Of The Line ::.

Well folks, if u've read this... please keep it in here and let it stay here, do not speak any of these entries to anyone for those who have read it... I hope my lovely angel will forgive me....somehow... Take care everyone and have a good day ahead... Cheers!

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