Sunday blardee Sunday!!!! Old skool song by U2... And most real...watched "Hellyboy" Yesterday with the bunch... Dzafir,Sofyn,Nik,Ik & Dzul... Hellboy is a funny show... well, the heroic character himself is kinda cocky and funny... I like the action, loads of action and cool moves and all but the storyline wise..it's more of the comic... But I give a rating of 7 out of 10 for that show... Why 7? Well, It's funny, cool costumes and designs, nice backdrops and setting and lastly, nice fighting scenes. I recommend this to whoever likes action comedy movie and especially to those who's into comics...
p|uGGy slacked with us yesterday and that was the... second or third time I saw her in her office wear... Wow, she's lookin' all grown up... Workin' lady now. asked her along to the movies with us but she didn't want to, instead, she went down to Hendrix with Azri and friends... Can see that she's all stressed up with work and thanks to work, her level of fun is like going down although she's still that mad girl I know. She's more serious now... So yeah, she went to Hendrix to let it lose for a while... Stressed up girl.. ngast...
Camp...currently I'm attached to Clementi Camp... PDF unit (People Defence Force)... It's a reservist camp so one thing I can say, it's one hell of a fuckin' slacked camp. No marching needed...no head dress needed... It's a simple nice army camp with not much facilities around. But the fucked up thing, the ten of us from the Driver Vocation were sent there to be "Sai Kang" warriors, U know... Sai kang...meaning... Be a cheap labour and do extra work...Thursday was my first day there..didn't do much cuz tmie didn't allow it... Saturday, which was yesterday, we slacked cuz they gave us our bunks... Bunks = Possible Stay In... So they let us sit in our bunks, put on bedsheet and pillow case.. I might be stayin' in.. and I don't want that..it sucks! But the coolest thing is... we can smoke in our bunks...awesome! Heard the news given by our Warrant Officer that Monday, which is tomorrow, is the beginning of our Sai Kang duties... Carryin' timber logs and shifting them to wherever they want us to shift it. Darn...
There's a gig today in Substation, not quite sure about the bands that's playin'... If I'm not wrong, Elisabelle's Tears, My Squared Circle, Death Of Elizabeth Monarch are part of the list of bands playing. Before that, I'll be headin' down to The Garage to jam with ND. I'll be takin' pictures att he gig today, so do look out for new pics...
Aight, for now, I gotta go and head down to B's place... Gotta do somethin' there...
Cheers to all!
Hamster
Radwimps - Me Me She
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
BLARGH! I'm back again... See a few interested readers of my blog. U guys are really curious ey? Hehehe, that's a good thing right? I mean, it helps u guys to kill ur boredom or somethin'... Funny... I feel as if my blog is like a book or something... It's a good thing, I love u guys comin' in here and read my blog.. Whether it's a diss or ur pleased... It's cool.
Three days had past since my first day in Sembawang Camp. I thought we drivers gonna learn to drive straight away or somethin' when we first reach there BUT...no... That camp is like somesort of a holding point for drivers before we're pushed out to our own units out there... U know, 3 SIR, Guards and all that... If u guys wanna know what I did for the first three days... Hmm.. Well, basically, it's slackin' all day long... From the time we book in (Which is at 8 in the morning) to the time we knock off (that is..5:30 in the evenin')... Reach there, count strength and all.. and go inside the MPH (Multi Purpose Hall) and just sit there.. LIterally.. Just SIT THERE and do nothin'. Some of the guys chit chat, some of 'em, sleeps and some just simply..dazed around... As for me, I would just sit down alone and just be sleepy and tired... U'll sit there till ur butt would be all cramped up and ur legs will feel all tired till u don't even wanna sit down no more... It's fuckin' borin'... 8 till about 9 or 10 plus..that's when we'll have our canteen break, meanin'... u can go to the canteen, eat whatever there is there or u can go smoke... Each break would last around half an hour and when ur back to the hall, u continue sittin' there. Around 12... u'll go for lunch (free food given by SAF)... so we'll eat..and then smoke... normally.. one hour.. by 1, ur back in that hall again. Back to doin' nuthin'... By 2 or 3, they would have talks by some people... Yesterday, they had NKF comin' over and today, they had NTUC Income Insurance people comin' over... bla bla bla... I think only 5% or less out of about 400 over people are listenin' to whatever they're blabbering about... I was one of the 95% who didn't listen... Most of us are either sleepin'...or chit chattin' or simply doing our own stuff... Waste of time... Have to book in' again' tomorrow.. god damn.. Boring routine... OUr supposedly long weekend got burnt, by the Camp's Live Run.. Meanin', all staff there, goes for a 3.5km run... Going back there on a Saturday, just to run? WASTE OF TIME! We're drivers! Why run? hahahahaha... But maybe it'll help in maintainin' our weight... Heh...
Hanged out yesterday at BK Century Square with some of the #emo kids in my uniform... Can u believe this? In my uniform...it was weird. Hanged out there till late (well not THAT late...say.. 11 plus...) And talked crap there, as usual.. I mean, u guys should know, when u hang out... it's surely some crappy stuff...
It's been three days since p|uGGy started her job and from what I see, she's sort of havin' a hard time... I wish I could help her with her job but I can't... The thing I'm proud of... she's really into this job and that's a good thing. I know she'll be fine there.. she has a strong character... she'll be fine...
Emelia asked me to call her up just now, right before I met B before he had to book back in to his camp... It was a short 8 mins convo with her... She asked me whether I was at the Youth Park gig last Saturday and so I told her... yeah.. and she was there too! Heheh... she didn't see me and I didn't see her... cuz there were too many people... She seemed to be talkin' in her normal tone so I don't know if she no longer mad at me or somethin' but from what I did and what I feel... she is mad at me... okay, maybe I assume... but that's what I'm feelin'... come on, I mean..who wouldn't be pissed? I'm being a jerk... Sometimes I hate myself, for hurtin' another soul and for doing all this... I'll never learn... *sigh*... I'm so fucked up at times...
Once again, to those who keep on comin' back to read up... Thanks and carry on in doing so... Enjoy readin' my lame collection of life stories...
Aight, gotta go now, have my rest for another day of "slackin" in camp... Cheers to all! Oh wait.. one more thing, keep those tags comin' in, I'll reply to u guys when I'm free...
"Until the day I die...I'll spill my heart for u..."
Three days had past since my first day in Sembawang Camp. I thought we drivers gonna learn to drive straight away or somethin' when we first reach there BUT...no... That camp is like somesort of a holding point for drivers before we're pushed out to our own units out there... U know, 3 SIR, Guards and all that... If u guys wanna know what I did for the first three days... Hmm.. Well, basically, it's slackin' all day long... From the time we book in (Which is at 8 in the morning) to the time we knock off (that is..5:30 in the evenin')... Reach there, count strength and all.. and go inside the MPH (Multi Purpose Hall) and just sit there.. LIterally.. Just SIT THERE and do nothin'. Some of the guys chit chat, some of 'em, sleeps and some just simply..dazed around... As for me, I would just sit down alone and just be sleepy and tired... U'll sit there till ur butt would be all cramped up and ur legs will feel all tired till u don't even wanna sit down no more... It's fuckin' borin'... 8 till about 9 or 10 plus..that's when we'll have our canteen break, meanin'... u can go to the canteen, eat whatever there is there or u can go smoke... Each break would last around half an hour and when ur back to the hall, u continue sittin' there. Around 12... u'll go for lunch (free food given by SAF)... so we'll eat..and then smoke... normally.. one hour.. by 1, ur back in that hall again. Back to doin' nuthin'... By 2 or 3, they would have talks by some people... Yesterday, they had NKF comin' over and today, they had NTUC Income Insurance people comin' over... bla bla bla... I think only 5% or less out of about 400 over people are listenin' to whatever they're blabbering about... I was one of the 95% who didn't listen... Most of us are either sleepin'...or chit chattin' or simply doing our own stuff... Waste of time... Have to book in' again' tomorrow.. god damn.. Boring routine... OUr supposedly long weekend got burnt, by the Camp's Live Run.. Meanin', all staff there, goes for a 3.5km run... Going back there on a Saturday, just to run? WASTE OF TIME! We're drivers! Why run? hahahahaha... But maybe it'll help in maintainin' our weight... Heh...
Hanged out yesterday at BK Century Square with some of the #emo kids in my uniform... Can u believe this? In my uniform...it was weird. Hanged out there till late (well not THAT late...say.. 11 plus...) And talked crap there, as usual.. I mean, u guys should know, when u hang out... it's surely some crappy stuff...
It's been three days since p|uGGy started her job and from what I see, she's sort of havin' a hard time... I wish I could help her with her job but I can't... The thing I'm proud of... she's really into this job and that's a good thing. I know she'll be fine there.. she has a strong character... she'll be fine...
Emelia asked me to call her up just now, right before I met B before he had to book back in to his camp... It was a short 8 mins convo with her... She asked me whether I was at the Youth Park gig last Saturday and so I told her... yeah.. and she was there too! Heheh... she didn't see me and I didn't see her... cuz there were too many people... She seemed to be talkin' in her normal tone so I don't know if she no longer mad at me or somethin' but from what I did and what I feel... she is mad at me... okay, maybe I assume... but that's what I'm feelin'... come on, I mean..who wouldn't be pissed? I'm being a jerk... Sometimes I hate myself, for hurtin' another soul and for doing all this... I'll never learn... *sigh*... I'm so fucked up at times...
Once again, to those who keep on comin' back to read up... Thanks and carry on in doing so... Enjoy readin' my lame collection of life stories...
Aight, gotta go now, have my rest for another day of "slackin" in camp... Cheers to all! Oh wait.. one more thing, keep those tags comin' in, I'll reply to u guys when I'm free...
"Until the day I die...I'll spill my heart for u..."
Sunday, April 04, 2004
What?! It's already one week? GOd damn!! Just as I thought I was beginnin' to enjoy this kinda life... suddenly.. It's already one week! God damn! Tomorrow's my reportin' day... have to wake up early and one thing is still on my "to-do" list... laundry... my uniforms and clothes for the army had not been washed yet... Slobbish..ain't it? Since last Friday... WOO HOO!!! Got all the time in the world and I did nothin'. Been slackin' for one week and somehow... I feel that I'm gainin' weight again... GOD DAMN!!! HELP ME PLEASE!! Hahaha.. I'm gonna be a driver soon... learnin' how to drive..for FREE! BUAHAHAHA..of course with some "payment" in return.. u know.. army crap.. have to put up with the army bullshit... Punishment..charges...damn..gotta watch my ass in there...
Went to the M.O.S.H Compilation gig yesterday in Youth Park and god damn... So many new kids! I went with Tweet at first and it seems that we were the first to arrive among other kids that we knew.. So we thought, yeah.. why not wait. Going to a gig this time sure does make me feel like a friggin' newbie... It felt like it was 7 years ago when I first went to a gig and I know no one.. Seriously, it was awkward feeling... Normally, if we were to arrive at any gigs, there'll be lots of hands to shake and lots of people that we know or maybe, people know us and even though u don't know that person.. but u know that he or she is a familiar face in gigs.. but this time, it wasn't like that... it was a confirmed shit that all those kids are on the rise.. the new ones... none of them I knew... I guess it's time for the new generation to take over ey? LIke how I did the last time... Turned left, new face... turned right... new face turned everywhere, it was all... new faces.. A li'l later that evening... saviours came... Finally.. some familiar faces. Inn, Sofyn, Dzafir, Wan (Dyfectra), Shain (MSC), Lutfi (MSC), Yam, Dee-Dee & Nik was there... Missed the old times whereby almost everyone, knows everyone at gigs... *sigh* Times are changing...
There were a few bands that stands out at the gig and one or two that sucks... The gig was a li'l mundane at the beginning... The crowd was dead.. the music was dead..there wasn't any energy.... And the sound was fucked up yesterday... Soundman didn't do his stuff well... Vocals were too loud.. snare mics was not turned up... bass drum can't hardly hear... bass guitars was waay loud... So one thing.. a bad soundman, makes the band look bad...
I was all ears when November Iris played (Hope that I spelled out the band's name correctly)... and they have that energy.. and their music's not bad... Have a potential to go far though... Another band that got my head bobbibg to the beat...Turn A Tap.. or something like that... Good vocals, good drummings and guitars...they were awesome... And there was this one band that really makes me wanna shuv a thunderstick up their asses... A couple of young kids, in punk "uniform" or some sort, thinking that they're going to rock the stage or something... Firstly, their guitars were fuckly tuned up.. I think, none of those guitars were in tune... Drums... was crappy... and vocals..oh yeah.. the vocals was a bonus... It sounds like as if ur blender was stuffed with a metal pipe and u grind it or something... When they played, their "people" stood up and went up front... u know..Punks..skins... bla bla bla.. and they were the new generation of course.. So there they go.. playing..and singing crap.. "Huabablabla,yaba..bla bla..." whatever that guy was singing... And he was all fuck this..cheebye that..bla bla..trying to be all "anarchist" and it was as if the whole god damn world owes him something... *sigh*... Wow.. I'm a critic..SHIT! I'm a god damn critic!! HAHAHAHA..whatever it is... had fun yesterday...
Hanged out with the bunch till late.. bla bla bla.. stayed at B's place.. bla bla bla... and then went home earlier today.. bla bla.. Okay, this episode had to cut short cuz I ain't got the time to type out.. okay.. I HAVE the time.. but I'm just feeling lazy..so...."Make sure to catch the next episode of: Days Of BIGguy.. same time, same place...same old fucked up face...blindedheart.blogspot.com"
Oh yeah, forgot to mention, new pics are up! Enjoy those pics...they'll be on the bottom left of ur window screen...scroll down... U'll see it... u won't miss it...
Cheers!
Went to the M.O.S.H Compilation gig yesterday in Youth Park and god damn... So many new kids! I went with Tweet at first and it seems that we were the first to arrive among other kids that we knew.. So we thought, yeah.. why not wait. Going to a gig this time sure does make me feel like a friggin' newbie... It felt like it was 7 years ago when I first went to a gig and I know no one.. Seriously, it was awkward feeling... Normally, if we were to arrive at any gigs, there'll be lots of hands to shake and lots of people that we know or maybe, people know us and even though u don't know that person.. but u know that he or she is a familiar face in gigs.. but this time, it wasn't like that... it was a confirmed shit that all those kids are on the rise.. the new ones... none of them I knew... I guess it's time for the new generation to take over ey? LIke how I did the last time... Turned left, new face... turned right... new face turned everywhere, it was all... new faces.. A li'l later that evening... saviours came... Finally.. some familiar faces. Inn, Sofyn, Dzafir, Wan (Dyfectra), Shain (MSC), Lutfi (MSC), Yam, Dee-Dee & Nik was there... Missed the old times whereby almost everyone, knows everyone at gigs... *sigh* Times are changing...
There were a few bands that stands out at the gig and one or two that sucks... The gig was a li'l mundane at the beginning... The crowd was dead.. the music was dead..there wasn't any energy.... And the sound was fucked up yesterday... Soundman didn't do his stuff well... Vocals were too loud.. snare mics was not turned up... bass drum can't hardly hear... bass guitars was waay loud... So one thing.. a bad soundman, makes the band look bad...
I was all ears when November Iris played (Hope that I spelled out the band's name correctly)... and they have that energy.. and their music's not bad... Have a potential to go far though... Another band that got my head bobbibg to the beat...Turn A Tap.. or something like that... Good vocals, good drummings and guitars...they were awesome... And there was this one band that really makes me wanna shuv a thunderstick up their asses... A couple of young kids, in punk "uniform" or some sort, thinking that they're going to rock the stage or something... Firstly, their guitars were fuckly tuned up.. I think, none of those guitars were in tune... Drums... was crappy... and vocals..oh yeah.. the vocals was a bonus... It sounds like as if ur blender was stuffed with a metal pipe and u grind it or something... When they played, their "people" stood up and went up front... u know..Punks..skins... bla bla bla.. and they were the new generation of course.. So there they go.. playing..and singing crap.. "Huabablabla,yaba..bla bla..." whatever that guy was singing... And he was all fuck this..cheebye that..bla bla..trying to be all "anarchist" and it was as if the whole god damn world owes him something... *sigh*... Wow.. I'm a critic..SHIT! I'm a god damn critic!! HAHAHAHA..whatever it is... had fun yesterday...
Hanged out with the bunch till late.. bla bla bla.. stayed at B's place.. bla bla bla... and then went home earlier today.. bla bla.. Okay, this episode had to cut short cuz I ain't got the time to type out.. okay.. I HAVE the time.. but I'm just feeling lazy..so...."Make sure to catch the next episode of: Days Of BIGguy.. same time, same place...same old fucked up face...blindedheart.blogspot.com"
Oh yeah, forgot to mention, new pics are up! Enjoy those pics...they'll be on the bottom left of ur window screen...scroll down... U'll see it... u won't miss it...
Cheers!
Saturday, April 03, 2004
Am I hangin' on for hope? This song that is playin' right now... is awesome, some really slow nice music for a change ey? Simple but meaningful lyrics somehow... Am I hanging on for hope? I feel that I do... been hangin' on ever since... is it wrong? Or should I do something for my own good? Lookin' for that light at the end of the long tunnel... an end that never seem to exist. *Sigh*.... And what's with people hating one another? A lot has changed since I've been in Tekong... Now that I'm here for one week, my god... the changes, it's like... whoa... Maybe it's minor changes to some but to me... a lot changed...
Changes in people, their character, their style, their way of life and people they hang out with... the place itself, new stuff, new buildings and new this and new that... Wow... stayed in there for four months and BAM!!... major changes without me realizing... #emo had been taken over and god damn, I didn't even know...
Changes in people... everybody's growin' up and it seems like it's no longer how it was the last time. Circle of friends changed, some stayed and some went away. Those who were once close are now... drifted apart and those who were once distant.. are close.. Weird ain't it? Changes... Weird... but it sure is happening... Without realizing... it's happening...
Kris Roe's words in one of his songs... (Can't remember the song title) " Being grown up is just half as fun as growing up, these are the best days of our lives..." And it's true... As i'm growin' older, I feel myself changing as well, it may not be noticable to some and it may be noticable to few... but I sure do feel changes in me. It's funny how life express itself...
p|uGGy will be starting her job this Monday, congrats to the girl and may everything goes well for her... I'll be here if u need me p|uGGy-o! U know the dial, hit those numbers to reach me, aight? From a skater to a slacker and now, an office gal... Like I said, changes...
She went for her 2nd Interview yesterday and we met up in town to hang out with my platoon mates... There were a few of us at first but in the end, everybody splits and it was left me, p|uGGy & my buddy.. Hang out at Liat Tower's BK and chatted away crap. Azri came to meet her a li'l late that night... so yeah.. after they went shopping they said their goodbyes to me and my buddy... So there was only the two of us left... Just me & Fai... my buddy. Hanged out there and left around 11 plus... Did some girls watchin', hehe... but it was all pure admiration with no intention of knowing any of those girls... Somehow I seem to lose interest and I don't know why... *sigh*... Maybe I'm just tired of things? Maybe I'm hanging on for hope too much?
Two more days to go to my reporting time... PRIVATE. Hezwan reporting for driver duties... Hahahaha... Socks... Aight, to all that's reading, Cheers! And drink up the beers! To anyone who might feel offended, I'm sorry... To those who keep on comin' back to my blog to read up my lame life, I'd like to say thanks... thanks for being my so-called..."fans"... Heh...that's weird...Fans...IN UR DREAMS BIGGUY!!! Whatever it is, thanks guys...
So... keep on comin' back to read my stories... (Suddenly, a voice in the background: " Next week on Days Of BIGguy's Life, will he survive his days in his new bunk and with his new mates? Find out in the next episode of:- Days Of BIGguy's Life on blindedheart.blogspot.com"
Once again... CHEERS!
Changes in people, their character, their style, their way of life and people they hang out with... the place itself, new stuff, new buildings and new this and new that... Wow... stayed in there for four months and BAM!!... major changes without me realizing... #emo had been taken over and god damn, I didn't even know...
Changes in people... everybody's growin' up and it seems like it's no longer how it was the last time. Circle of friends changed, some stayed and some went away. Those who were once close are now... drifted apart and those who were once distant.. are close.. Weird ain't it? Changes... Weird... but it sure is happening... Without realizing... it's happening...
Kris Roe's words in one of his songs... (Can't remember the song title) " Being grown up is just half as fun as growing up, these are the best days of our lives..." And it's true... As i'm growin' older, I feel myself changing as well, it may not be noticable to some and it may be noticable to few... but I sure do feel changes in me. It's funny how life express itself...
p|uGGy will be starting her job this Monday, congrats to the girl and may everything goes well for her... I'll be here if u need me p|uGGy-o! U know the dial, hit those numbers to reach me, aight? From a skater to a slacker and now, an office gal... Like I said, changes...
She went for her 2nd Interview yesterday and we met up in town to hang out with my platoon mates... There were a few of us at first but in the end, everybody splits and it was left me, p|uGGy & my buddy.. Hang out at Liat Tower's BK and chatted away crap. Azri came to meet her a li'l late that night... so yeah.. after they went shopping they said their goodbyes to me and my buddy... So there was only the two of us left... Just me & Fai... my buddy. Hanged out there and left around 11 plus... Did some girls watchin', hehe... but it was all pure admiration with no intention of knowing any of those girls... Somehow I seem to lose interest and I don't know why... *sigh*... Maybe I'm just tired of things? Maybe I'm hanging on for hope too much?
Two more days to go to my reporting time... PRIVATE. Hezwan reporting for driver duties... Hahahaha... Socks... Aight, to all that's reading, Cheers! And drink up the beers! To anyone who might feel offended, I'm sorry... To those who keep on comin' back to my blog to read up my lame life, I'd like to say thanks... thanks for being my so-called..."fans"... Heh...that's weird...Fans...IN UR DREAMS BIGGUY!!! Whatever it is, thanks guys...
So... keep on comin' back to read my stories... (Suddenly, a voice in the background: " Next week on Days Of BIGguy's Life, will he survive his days in his new bunk and with his new mates? Find out in the next episode of:- Days Of BIGguy's Life on blindedheart.blogspot.com"
Once again... CHEERS!
Friday, April 02, 2004
Woo hoo!! Yesterday was a mad day! In the early afternoon, went out with p|uGGy, followed her to her job interview and guess what? She got the job! I'm so happy for her! I mean, she was waaay beyond happy and she was all excited... I was happy to see that and what's best, she got a job now... Hehehe.. Ironic though.. A girl who used to skate, who is a slacker and who goes to gigs... is workin' in an office.. Can't believe that, office girl! HAHAHAhA....Whatever it is...I'm just glad she's happy.
After all that, head down to Tamp to have dinner... and met Anah there and my god, Anah is now a guy! Hahaha.. I mean, she dress up totally like a guy, whatever happened to the old Anah? Phsyced! Mat Hard Rock... hehe.. that's what we call her... Hanged out at BK for a while.. didn't talk much though.. Cuz p|uGGy was all sleepy.. so yeah, I let her rest... We did talk, about how she would dress up for the office work, and we chatted about stuff... AFter that, we set off, she heads back home to take some stuff and I head down to BMC to check out Rika jamming. I thought that it was only Rika jamming, suddenly, it was like a gathering for bands or something... 180 was jamming, Losing streak is jamming, rika's jamming and a few others were jamming. I mean, wow! Mini gig or something? Hehehe. Had fun though... Had fun singing and screamin' for Rika... Jammed with Dzul,Ik,p|uGGy for fun... It was crappy but hell, it was fun... Azri came down a li'l later to fetch p|uGGy home I guess... while the others.. went back cuz of some stuff.. while a few stayed to slack around in Tamp for a while. I got pics for u guys to see... So feel free to check it out on the left...
Got my posting today and guess what?? DRIVER!!! Hell yeah! I got my posting as a driver! That's my vocation! Driving around! Free lessons on driving!! WOO HOO!! Monday, I have to report to Sembawang Camp in the morning... Yeah!! I'm so happy that I'm a driver...
Aight, anyways, I might be slackin' again today, with my platoon mates... So yeah... See how it goes, might ditch them if other plans comes out... So yeah... CHEERS TO ALL!
After all that, head down to Tamp to have dinner... and met Anah there and my god, Anah is now a guy! Hahaha.. I mean, she dress up totally like a guy, whatever happened to the old Anah? Phsyced! Mat Hard Rock... hehe.. that's what we call her... Hanged out at BK for a while.. didn't talk much though.. Cuz p|uGGy was all sleepy.. so yeah, I let her rest... We did talk, about how she would dress up for the office work, and we chatted about stuff... AFter that, we set off, she heads back home to take some stuff and I head down to BMC to check out Rika jamming. I thought that it was only Rika jamming, suddenly, it was like a gathering for bands or something... 180 was jamming, Losing streak is jamming, rika's jamming and a few others were jamming. I mean, wow! Mini gig or something? Hehehe. Had fun though... Had fun singing and screamin' for Rika... Jammed with Dzul,Ik,p|uGGy for fun... It was crappy but hell, it was fun... Azri came down a li'l later to fetch p|uGGy home I guess... while the others.. went back cuz of some stuff.. while a few stayed to slack around in Tamp for a while. I got pics for u guys to see... So feel free to check it out on the left...
Got my posting today and guess what?? DRIVER!!! Hell yeah! I got my posting as a driver! That's my vocation! Driving around! Free lessons on driving!! WOO HOO!! Monday, I have to report to Sembawang Camp in the morning... Yeah!! I'm so happy that I'm a driver...
Aight, anyways, I might be slackin' again today, with my platoon mates... So yeah... See how it goes, might ditch them if other plans comes out... So yeah... CHEERS TO ALL!
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
Hey ho Digity! A very good _____ (Fill in the blanks on whichever time ur reading this) to everyone who's reading this entry! Few days had passed since POP and well... my legs are still somehow, busted up but walkin' ain't much of a hassle no more although it still hurts when I step on the ground too long. Suppose to be headin' to KL yesterday with my platoon mates but I didn't, thinkin' of the hassle. Exit permit not taken, passport not extended and lastly, my feet had not recovered. Worried of what's to become if I'm there and my leg suddenly go bonk on me... It ain't my homeground and it would be god damn troublesome, so final call... Stay homegrown.
Hanged out with p|uGGy & Aliff a.k.a Owl Boy (My bunk mate) at Lion City's MacDonald's and talked crap there. It was a simple slackin' session just to kill off my boredom and stuff. Ain't much happened yesterday...
As for today, went out in the afternoon with p|uGGy to accompany her for a job interview, somewhere in Paya Lebar Road. After that, head back down to Grandlink, which was around my area to meet up with Aliff. He was playin' Counter-Strike and he had been playin' for like what?... almost 3 hours when we came. I wanted to join but nah... ain't got the dough to play. Asked him along to slack with us today but he wanted to play that game cuz he have not been playin' that game for a long time so it's like... just lettin' that eagerness out to play that game. (At this point, I feel that I'm typing out crap! but who cares?) After a while, left him there to play CS with those other kids who was playin' that game.
Me & p|uGGy took the bus and head down to City Hall to meet up with B & Jessie who was waitin' for us there. Met them, slacked a while till Jessie had to go and when that happen... Tweet came. So there we were, the four of us slackin' in City Hall with nothin' to do and in the end, we head down to Citylink Mall's HMV to check out for any latest albums by any of the bands we know. Checked out Get Up Kid's latest album and god! What ever happened to the old Get Up Kids? They sound weird in this album and it's not like what they were before. While checkin' out the CDs... Azri came, so he joined us. Tweet bought Story Of The Year's latest album and he was havin' a hard time on which CDs to get cuz all of his choices are good choices. (Okay, seriously, my entry is gettin' bored so I'll skipped some parts...)
After all of that, p|uGGy & Azri went to eat at one of the cafes along the stretch of Citylink Mall and I forgot what was the name of that Cafe. Me,B & Tweet went to sit down somewhere while waitin' for Sofyn. Tweet left soon after that cuz he went to fetch Mon from school...I think...
Sofyn came and so we take the train down to Tanah Merah to meet up with Dzafir and from there we walked down to Simpang Bedok to meet up with Yan, D'Omar & Fidah. Had our supper there and talked some crappy shit and stuff... I had Mee Hongkong and god damn it was awesome! For $3, it was wholesome! Fills up my hunger totally... Had Milo Dino and it was somethin' that I've been wantin' to drink for a long time (I know that Milo Dino can be done at home but what the heck, I'm too lazy to do it...) After all of that, head back home to B's place and here I am! Stayin' the night here cuz it's been a long time since I've been here. Whatever it is, gotta be back home early tomorrow cuz I'll be going out with p|uGGy again to go for another interview. Some music store or somethin'... Sofyn pushed the offer to her. If I ain't servin' NS, I would take the offer but god damn... I'm in this stupid NS shit. So...aight folks! That's the end of the boring entry of the year... CHEERS TO ALL!!
(Seriously, I feel that was the lamest entry I've ever done...among all the other lame entries I've done... okay...whatever...GOD DAMN IT!!! I'M SO LAME!!!) Buahahahahahahahahahaplehsquirrel!!
"What is the mammal of the sea called?"
-="WHALE! WHALE!"=-
Hanged out with p|uGGy & Aliff a.k.a Owl Boy (My bunk mate) at Lion City's MacDonald's and talked crap there. It was a simple slackin' session just to kill off my boredom and stuff. Ain't much happened yesterday...
As for today, went out in the afternoon with p|uGGy to accompany her for a job interview, somewhere in Paya Lebar Road. After that, head back down to Grandlink, which was around my area to meet up with Aliff. He was playin' Counter-Strike and he had been playin' for like what?... almost 3 hours when we came. I wanted to join but nah... ain't got the dough to play. Asked him along to slack with us today but he wanted to play that game cuz he have not been playin' that game for a long time so it's like... just lettin' that eagerness out to play that game. (At this point, I feel that I'm typing out crap! but who cares?) After a while, left him there to play CS with those other kids who was playin' that game.
Me & p|uGGy took the bus and head down to City Hall to meet up with B & Jessie who was waitin' for us there. Met them, slacked a while till Jessie had to go and when that happen... Tweet came. So there we were, the four of us slackin' in City Hall with nothin' to do and in the end, we head down to Citylink Mall's HMV to check out for any latest albums by any of the bands we know. Checked out Get Up Kid's latest album and god! What ever happened to the old Get Up Kids? They sound weird in this album and it's not like what they were before. While checkin' out the CDs... Azri came, so he joined us. Tweet bought Story Of The Year's latest album and he was havin' a hard time on which CDs to get cuz all of his choices are good choices. (Okay, seriously, my entry is gettin' bored so I'll skipped some parts...)
After all of that, p|uGGy & Azri went to eat at one of the cafes along the stretch of Citylink Mall and I forgot what was the name of that Cafe. Me,B & Tweet went to sit down somewhere while waitin' for Sofyn. Tweet left soon after that cuz he went to fetch Mon from school...I think...
Sofyn came and so we take the train down to Tanah Merah to meet up with Dzafir and from there we walked down to Simpang Bedok to meet up with Yan, D'Omar & Fidah. Had our supper there and talked some crappy shit and stuff... I had Mee Hongkong and god damn it was awesome! For $3, it was wholesome! Fills up my hunger totally... Had Milo Dino and it was somethin' that I've been wantin' to drink for a long time (I know that Milo Dino can be done at home but what the heck, I'm too lazy to do it...) After all of that, head back home to B's place and here I am! Stayin' the night here cuz it's been a long time since I've been here. Whatever it is, gotta be back home early tomorrow cuz I'll be going out with p|uGGy again to go for another interview. Some music store or somethin'... Sofyn pushed the offer to her. If I ain't servin' NS, I would take the offer but god damn... I'm in this stupid NS shit. So...aight folks! That's the end of the boring entry of the year... CHEERS TO ALL!!
(Seriously, I feel that was the lamest entry I've ever done...among all the other lame entries I've done... okay...whatever...GOD DAMN IT!!! I'M SO LAME!!!) Buahahahahahahahahahaplehsquirrel!!
"What is the mammal of the sea called?"
-="WHALE! WHALE!"=-
Monday, March 29, 2004
okay okay...U guys have no idea what's going on. Yes, u guys are right about the part whereby there's a girl that's so-called...together with me but it seems that we have no connections. It's hard for me to click and Emelia, if ur reading this, I'm sorry... I've been wanting to tell ya this but I just don't know how to. I thought that we could go somewhere but as days goes by... it seems that we just don't have much thing to click about. It's like two totally different world meeting up at a point. Ur a nice girl, yes... u are... And I'm the bad one, go ahead... U can choose to hate me if u want to or u can choose to be just friends cuz what I feel is that we're better off friends. I'm sure there's someone out there who would be the one just right for ya.
For those of u who gave advice and to those who commented on my tagboard...Thanks and I'm really sorry if u guys have to read out what I typed in but all of this are what I'm feeling and this blogspot is to say out my feelings. It ain't a private blog.. it's an open blog. I wanna share what I feel and share how I spend my lame days. I'm really sorry if I've offended anyone who read my blog. I gotta clear this out... Cuz right now, I'm sure there's people cursing and swearing at this very moment they're reading my blog...
Apologies to all, hope that I'm forgiven for all that I've done sin...
For those of u who gave advice and to those who commented on my tagboard...Thanks and I'm really sorry if u guys have to read out what I typed in but all of this are what I'm feeling and this blogspot is to say out my feelings. It ain't a private blog.. it's an open blog. I wanna share what I feel and share how I spend my lame days. I'm really sorry if I've offended anyone who read my blog. I gotta clear this out... Cuz right now, I'm sure there's people cursing and swearing at this very moment they're reading my blog...
Apologies to all, hope that I'm forgiven for all that I've done sin...
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Wow...come to think of it, it's been a while since I've updated this blog. Tagboard's all filled up ey? And I see there's hatred in it too, cool! Say whatever u wanna say, I mean, u choose to hate me or like me and that's ur choice. Everybody have their point of view or their own thing to say about so I don't really care. If everybody were to like and love everybody, this world would have been perfect and it would be like a scene from one of those cartoons, happiness is like an everyday thing... There wouldn't be war, there wouldn't be hatred and there wouldn't be any complications. So, it's like a balance of good and evil. I know that some of the people out there hates me but hey... if that's what they want to do, go ahead cuz it's their own choice and there ain't any right or wrong in decisions...
Finally, I POP-ed from BMT life last Friday... time does fly somehow, it slides past swiftly without u realizing. It was a shagged out week for the last week of BMT. First four days was jammed with rehearsals for the Passing Out Parade and god damn, we really put it so much effort for it. Marching that parade square, over and over just to get a good run and under the hot tekong sunny weather, it really cooked us good. If u were to crack open an egg and just drop it on the floor, I can guaran-damn-tee u that it will get cooked. It's one degree higher than mainland. Anyways, back to the POP... so we rehearsed and another thing, we didn't have much rest although they said that we'll get some rest.. MY ASS! They kept on calling us to "heads out" to listen to instructions and do things when we're suppose to be resting. The last day was a 24km route march and boy... it was major shagness! Thursday, they let us sleep although we didn't.. cuz we had to pack our stuff for getting back home and also stuff to prepare for the parade. So there we were, had our early dinner then we head back to company line to prepare to fall in for our route march. we started marching off to the small parade square around 6 plus in the evening and we gathered there to count strength and all. 8 companies in all, doing that route march.. The PTP (Physical Training Phase) batch, Enhance Batch and the Obese Batch. Charlie,Delta,Echo,Foxtrot,Gryphon,Hawk,Jaguar & Kilo.. all at once doing the route march. Echo was leading the pack followed by Gryphon & Kilo for the obese batch while Charlie,Delta,Foxtrot,Hawk,Jaguar head out on another route.
The route march kicked off around 8 and troopers started marching off one company after another... For the obese batch, it was marching around the whole BMTC compound, and one round is about 2km so altogether we had to go for about 12 rounds to complete. At first, everyone was in high spirits and we were loud, my god, we were loud and so full of energy. Marching while singing and trying to wake the other companies who's still serving their BMT there up we go off... For the first 2km, we get to rest for 5 mins and the next 2 which is 4km is 15mins and the cycle goes on like that. 1 round, 2 rounds, 3 rounds... and slowly we were losing our energy although the other platoons are still going strong and loud but my platoon, we were slowly dying except for some of them who still have energy. When we reached into the resting point, the other companies were singing our cheer.. I was like, wow! They were givin' support to us like... I don't know, words can't describe... All of the other companies sang our cheer, the echo cheer and we were touched somehow and motivated to go on... And it's true, Echo Coy is somehow the most respected company, being big boys and all but still, we have the high spirit to go on and keep on trying. So we did, we marched on. On the 5th or 6th round, I was shagged out, feeling fatigue, sleepy and the pain on the soles of my two feet, I wanted to fall out but the boys motivated me and pushed me to go on and I was touched by that... They kept one shouting..."Come on Barney, u can do it! Mind over matter barney!" "Lagi sikit ajer barney, jangan fikir pasal kaki kau, jalan ajer!"... (Barney's my nickname in my platoon and not to mention the whole company, they know me as Barney cuz I did the stupid "I love you" song in Barney's voice when I first came in...) So I kept on marching, feeling the heat built up underneath my pants and shirt and feeling the blisters forming up under my feet, I pushed myself. So I kept on qoing, like a zombie walking around.. Time goes by and it was 3 plus in the morning and it was our last round... Reaching to the end point, everybody was back to life again, knowing that it was the last few distance before we earned our POP... We marched in strong, singing our Echo trademark song... And without knowing, we finally reached the end point. When the other obese companies came in we gathered in front cuz the sir wanted to speak to us. He was proud of us, so we sorta celebrated and we were shouting and cheering at that small parade square and well, gotta say things were a li'l bit emotional. Some of us cried and so did I... We hugged one another and I was going around saying thanks to those who pushed me to go on and tears rolled down because, we did it... All of us did. It was a moment and experience that no money can buy. After all of that, we head back to company line to put down our stuff and rest. They let us sleep.
That very afternoon after the route march, we got prepared to leave our bunk... said our last goodbyes to the bunk and had our last area inspection by our instructors we head off... carrying our belongings to the parade square. While waiting for the moment for us to march into that parade square and to show our families and friends the best parade their sons can ever do, we were all nervous and excited at the same time. The weather slowly changed, from sunny to cloudy to bad weather.. Saw the first lightning when it was only like a few more minutes before our march in and soon after that, the alarm sound off..."CAT 1....CAT 1..." and when that happens, all trainings are to stop and instructors are to put us under shelter. Droplets of rainwater formed up on the road.. slowly it painted the ground and soon, the next thing we know... heavy rain poured on us. Our heart broke somehow... I mean, we rehearsed so god damn hard for this very day and the rain just poured on us... why doesn't it rain when we were doing the rehearsal? Some were sad cuz to some of 'em, it's like something they wanted, to Pass Out with pride and not simply by walking back to families and go home. I was a li'l happy though, cuz my feet was all busted up and I don't think I can do the marching well and secondly I was impatient to just get home. Standing at the waiting point, we sang... we sang all the songs that we were suppose to sing during the parade and we sing that famous Echo cheer song.. and we sang many other songs.. The other companies joined in and I can tell u, that moment was a moment that showed how united we were... it was simply a beautiful experience. "Excercise cut" was confirmed and so... we head back to get our Duffle Bags and head back to the parade square to meet up with our own families. Everyone was saying their last goodbyes to their instructors and officers, who had taken care of them for the past four months. They may not show it but I'm sure they'll miss us like how they would miss the other batches of recruits they have... I went to the grandstand, saw my mom, my dad and p|uGGy... She followed my parents to see me Pass Out. It was cool, knowing she's there.
After we boarded the ferry and then the bus back to Pasir Ris... my parents asked Lina along to dinner at Magic Wok, the Thai restaurant. ate dinner there and it was fun.. and she followed me back home to see my kittens and after that hang out with B and Yan at MacDonald's near my place. Hang out, talk crap... and stuff. around 1 plus or 2 plus, we went our seperate ways. I sent p|uGGy home cuz I kinda worry for her to go home alone at that hour. And boy, the area she stays in, eerie.. I mean, it ain't that eerie but for a girl, it's kinda dangerous.. It's kinda dark and there was some renovation going on and stuff and u know..foreign workers walking around... so yeah..it's dangerous. Brought her safely back to her home, had a smoke with her and chatted for a while.. and then I got home.. At all this time, my feet was hurting like fuck! Right now, it's all swollen and there's like puss coming out.. It's, messed up.. Can't even walk properly and I can't even stand too long now.. it fuckin' hurts..
Aight...that's all..CHEERS TO ALL!
Pictures will be up soon... new pictures...
Finally, I POP-ed from BMT life last Friday... time does fly somehow, it slides past swiftly without u realizing. It was a shagged out week for the last week of BMT. First four days was jammed with rehearsals for the Passing Out Parade and god damn, we really put it so much effort for it. Marching that parade square, over and over just to get a good run and under the hot tekong sunny weather, it really cooked us good. If u were to crack open an egg and just drop it on the floor, I can guaran-damn-tee u that it will get cooked. It's one degree higher than mainland. Anyways, back to the POP... so we rehearsed and another thing, we didn't have much rest although they said that we'll get some rest.. MY ASS! They kept on calling us to "heads out" to listen to instructions and do things when we're suppose to be resting. The last day was a 24km route march and boy... it was major shagness! Thursday, they let us sleep although we didn't.. cuz we had to pack our stuff for getting back home and also stuff to prepare for the parade. So there we were, had our early dinner then we head back to company line to prepare to fall in for our route march. we started marching off to the small parade square around 6 plus in the evening and we gathered there to count strength and all. 8 companies in all, doing that route march.. The PTP (Physical Training Phase) batch, Enhance Batch and the Obese Batch. Charlie,Delta,Echo,Foxtrot,Gryphon,Hawk,Jaguar & Kilo.. all at once doing the route march. Echo was leading the pack followed by Gryphon & Kilo for the obese batch while Charlie,Delta,Foxtrot,Hawk,Jaguar head out on another route.
The route march kicked off around 8 and troopers started marching off one company after another... For the obese batch, it was marching around the whole BMTC compound, and one round is about 2km so altogether we had to go for about 12 rounds to complete. At first, everyone was in high spirits and we were loud, my god, we were loud and so full of energy. Marching while singing and trying to wake the other companies who's still serving their BMT there up we go off... For the first 2km, we get to rest for 5 mins and the next 2 which is 4km is 15mins and the cycle goes on like that. 1 round, 2 rounds, 3 rounds... and slowly we were losing our energy although the other platoons are still going strong and loud but my platoon, we were slowly dying except for some of them who still have energy. When we reached into the resting point, the other companies were singing our cheer.. I was like, wow! They were givin' support to us like... I don't know, words can't describe... All of the other companies sang our cheer, the echo cheer and we were touched somehow and motivated to go on... And it's true, Echo Coy is somehow the most respected company, being big boys and all but still, we have the high spirit to go on and keep on trying. So we did, we marched on. On the 5th or 6th round, I was shagged out, feeling fatigue, sleepy and the pain on the soles of my two feet, I wanted to fall out but the boys motivated me and pushed me to go on and I was touched by that... They kept one shouting..."Come on Barney, u can do it! Mind over matter barney!" "Lagi sikit ajer barney, jangan fikir pasal kaki kau, jalan ajer!"... (Barney's my nickname in my platoon and not to mention the whole company, they know me as Barney cuz I did the stupid "I love you" song in Barney's voice when I first came in...) So I kept on marching, feeling the heat built up underneath my pants and shirt and feeling the blisters forming up under my feet, I pushed myself. So I kept on qoing, like a zombie walking around.. Time goes by and it was 3 plus in the morning and it was our last round... Reaching to the end point, everybody was back to life again, knowing that it was the last few distance before we earned our POP... We marched in strong, singing our Echo trademark song... And without knowing, we finally reached the end point. When the other obese companies came in we gathered in front cuz the sir wanted to speak to us. He was proud of us, so we sorta celebrated and we were shouting and cheering at that small parade square and well, gotta say things were a li'l bit emotional. Some of us cried and so did I... We hugged one another and I was going around saying thanks to those who pushed me to go on and tears rolled down because, we did it... All of us did. It was a moment and experience that no money can buy. After all of that, we head back to company line to put down our stuff and rest. They let us sleep.
That very afternoon after the route march, we got prepared to leave our bunk... said our last goodbyes to the bunk and had our last area inspection by our instructors we head off... carrying our belongings to the parade square. While waiting for the moment for us to march into that parade square and to show our families and friends the best parade their sons can ever do, we were all nervous and excited at the same time. The weather slowly changed, from sunny to cloudy to bad weather.. Saw the first lightning when it was only like a few more minutes before our march in and soon after that, the alarm sound off..."CAT 1....CAT 1..." and when that happens, all trainings are to stop and instructors are to put us under shelter. Droplets of rainwater formed up on the road.. slowly it painted the ground and soon, the next thing we know... heavy rain poured on us. Our heart broke somehow... I mean, we rehearsed so god damn hard for this very day and the rain just poured on us... why doesn't it rain when we were doing the rehearsal? Some were sad cuz to some of 'em, it's like something they wanted, to Pass Out with pride and not simply by walking back to families and go home. I was a li'l happy though, cuz my feet was all busted up and I don't think I can do the marching well and secondly I was impatient to just get home. Standing at the waiting point, we sang... we sang all the songs that we were suppose to sing during the parade and we sing that famous Echo cheer song.. and we sang many other songs.. The other companies joined in and I can tell u, that moment was a moment that showed how united we were... it was simply a beautiful experience. "Excercise cut" was confirmed and so... we head back to get our Duffle Bags and head back to the parade square to meet up with our own families. Everyone was saying their last goodbyes to their instructors and officers, who had taken care of them for the past four months. They may not show it but I'm sure they'll miss us like how they would miss the other batches of recruits they have... I went to the grandstand, saw my mom, my dad and p|uGGy... She followed my parents to see me Pass Out. It was cool, knowing she's there.
After we boarded the ferry and then the bus back to Pasir Ris... my parents asked Lina along to dinner at Magic Wok, the Thai restaurant. ate dinner there and it was fun.. and she followed me back home to see my kittens and after that hang out with B and Yan at MacDonald's near my place. Hang out, talk crap... and stuff. around 1 plus or 2 plus, we went our seperate ways. I sent p|uGGy home cuz I kinda worry for her to go home alone at that hour. And boy, the area she stays in, eerie.. I mean, it ain't that eerie but for a girl, it's kinda dangerous.. It's kinda dark and there was some renovation going on and stuff and u know..foreign workers walking around... so yeah..it's dangerous. Brought her safely back to her home, had a smoke with her and chatted for a while.. and then I got home.. At all this time, my feet was hurting like fuck! Right now, it's all swollen and there's like puss coming out.. It's, messed up.. Can't even walk properly and I can't even stand too long now.. it fuckin' hurts..
Aight...that's all..CHEERS TO ALL!
Pictures will be up soon... new pictures...
Friday, March 05, 2004
Ha! The first thing I read when I came back..which is today, just now... is my tag board..and somebody really hates me.. Okay maybe not hate but simply disagree with what I type in and yeah..it's my blog... why can't I type in what I want? MOved on or not... love her or love her not..does it really bother u? Kiddie, who the fuck are u to tell me this? I ain't ur son..not even close to a family so why should u care? It's my own fuckin' business if I want to move on or not. Hate me if u want to I couldn't care less. Psyched!
Whatever it is... I'm just a shadow now, ain't much of my existence left here... Soon, I'll disappear and enter my own world. Kiddie, hate me... I'm beggin' u..please.. hate me...
Whatever it is... I'm just a shadow now, ain't much of my existence left here... Soon, I'll disappear and enter my own world. Kiddie, hate me... I'm beggin' u..please.. hate me...
Sunday, February 29, 2004
Sunday...again... Here I am at home... and yesterday was one mad night... I got screened by cops...FOR THE FIRST TIME!! Hahaha..finally...screenin'!
Went jammin' with the boys at Carudi's...created some new songs and workin' on some older songs. Jessie,Sofyn and Fad followed us but Jessie left after a while to meet her boyfriend. So there we were jammin' and god damn..I was sweatin' like a pig! Hot room.. After that jammin' session...went up to Peninsula Plaza to meet up with Nik and his girl...Met up there..move up to S-11 and had our dinner. Same old thing...Fishball Noodles..Dry..hehe...Always eat that when I'm there...and I still can't find the reason why. Chit chatted and laughed cuz Fad and Fir was talkin' crap and doin' funny actions. After dinner...head down to padang and guess what? We saw the rockstar collectives kid hangin' out around the steps area in front of the court...
We hanged out at the seats in the field... Dzul, Inn & IK joined us after a while...so there we were... No Direction,Fad,Inn,Dzul,Nik,Min,Sofyn,Mon..hangin' out there... We got screened..Twice! Like...totally... Screened by one whole van of CIDs...with that amount of people..who wouldn't freaked out...I know I did...They walked towards us and the spread themselves to surround us...it's like wow...we did somethin' bad... Hehe..whatever it is... We played ragam and we laughed out loud...and most real..with IK's floorball ball...they played soccer in the field...I was the only one ain't playin'...it was funny...With fad's loud shouting and actions..with each of their clumsiness...it was crappy fun.. but the fun was disrupted by the security sayin' that we can't play there.. After all those screenin' and stuff..we head out to esplanade..cuz we don't want to be screened again for stayin' there long... Sat down by the side of the curb along the path in esplanade...we created some of our own games...and it was crappy...played "James Bond"...and played the song game...hehehehe..."One night, as I walk and masturbate along the east coastline, I saw a huge man..." HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!" That was somethin'..hahaha... p|uGGy told me that she see if she could join us yesterday and well..she didn't...no contact from her so I guess she didn't want to.. She should have been there... Missin' all the fun and another thing.. it's been a long time since she hanged out with us... She was always there when we have this kind of crappy late night sessions... But too bad...she ain't there... *sigh*...
Aight...gotta go,my body's achin' all over... Cheers!
Went jammin' with the boys at Carudi's...created some new songs and workin' on some older songs. Jessie,Sofyn and Fad followed us but Jessie left after a while to meet her boyfriend. So there we were jammin' and god damn..I was sweatin' like a pig! Hot room.. After that jammin' session...went up to Peninsula Plaza to meet up with Nik and his girl...Met up there..move up to S-11 and had our dinner. Same old thing...Fishball Noodles..Dry..hehe...Always eat that when I'm there...and I still can't find the reason why. Chit chatted and laughed cuz Fad and Fir was talkin' crap and doin' funny actions. After dinner...head down to padang and guess what? We saw the rockstar collectives kid hangin' out around the steps area in front of the court...
We hanged out at the seats in the field... Dzul, Inn & IK joined us after a while...so there we were... No Direction,Fad,Inn,Dzul,Nik,Min,Sofyn,Mon..hangin' out there... We got screened..Twice! Like...totally... Screened by one whole van of CIDs...with that amount of people..who wouldn't freaked out...I know I did...They walked towards us and the spread themselves to surround us...it's like wow...we did somethin' bad... Hehe..whatever it is... We played ragam and we laughed out loud...and most real..with IK's floorball ball...they played soccer in the field...I was the only one ain't playin'...it was funny...With fad's loud shouting and actions..with each of their clumsiness...it was crappy fun.. but the fun was disrupted by the security sayin' that we can't play there.. After all those screenin' and stuff..we head out to esplanade..cuz we don't want to be screened again for stayin' there long... Sat down by the side of the curb along the path in esplanade...we created some of our own games...and it was crappy...played "James Bond"...and played the song game...hehehehe..."One night, as I walk and masturbate along the east coastline, I saw a huge man..." HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!" That was somethin'..hahaha... p|uGGy told me that she see if she could join us yesterday and well..she didn't...no contact from her so I guess she didn't want to.. She should have been there... Missin' all the fun and another thing.. it's been a long time since she hanged out with us... She was always there when we have this kind of crappy late night sessions... But too bad...she ain't there... *sigh*...
Aight...gotta go,my body's achin' all over... Cheers!
Here's the entries I wrote while I was in camp last week:-
Wenesday, February 2004
Wow! It's been like three days since I last book in. Had my field camp on Monday and it ended on Tuesday. Okay, Let me rephrase that, it's part two of my field camp and overall, it was fun and learnt a few new things. Whenever we practise our movement, I imagined myself as being one of the guys from Easy Company in the show, "Band Of Brothers". There was one moment that we got our OC really, really mad. We were told to stand in "sedia" position and not move... that's what we did and it ain't a short stand. We stood there, tryin' not to move a single muscle for almost half an hour. It may sound as if it's nothin' but try this, stand still and not move in a sedia position for almost 30 mins... with webbin' on ur back, helmet on ur head and rifle slinged to the side. Durin' that 30 mins... one by one fell out due to the pressure and not being able to take it. I almost joined in but I endured and I nearly fainted. Thank god that nothin' did happen.
In the night at the field in my "basha" and in between the rows of rubber trees, I looked up into the sky and it was the best sight ever. Not even monet can buy that beautiful moment. It was a clear sky, no clouds coverin' that blacken sky and the grounds was ,lighted up by both moonlight and stars. It was beautiful, stars scattered all over the sky as if an artist sprinkle glitters onto his canvas as a background or somethin'. Bright stars, faded stars and other kinds of stars, you name it, it was there. There were a few that formed up in a line. You can't get this view from mainland, okay, maybe not can't get but once in a while.
While gazin' up, I no ticed the very same stars that 've been lookin' out for, for the past two years. It's still there, same formation and everythin' except that there are a few new stars formed up around them. These few stars are the stars that I gazed up with p|uGGy when I was with her, two years ago and that was in Bedok Skate Park. That was where those stars were first sighted by us.
My spirit was downed earlier in the day when I got a message fromp|uGGy. I messaged her sarcasticly that she always have to go and she's always busy to even reply me with one message. Okay, it's my own bad failt to say that to her and when she replied back by sayin' sorry to ignore me cuz she don't want complications to rise up again. I understand what she meant by that. What made me down was when she SMSed me,"Don't message me unless I message you..." That... Somehow broke my heart. I know it ain't a big deal to some but it's a big one for me. Is she pushin' me off? Is she goin' away? Drift apart and forget me? Maybe what she's doing is for our good? To help us both not have that feelin' anymore or should I say.. To help ME move on and forget what we had?
I know that I've been writin' about this for a long time and some of you guys might get bored of it but that's how I feel for her. I loved her and always will, even though I know I can't.
Maybe those new stars formed up near the stars that I gazed with her have meanings? Tellin' me to move on? There's others out there tryin' to "form" up betwen me and her... Question is, when will that one star appear and be here for me? Time will tell or maybe that I've already found her, it's just that I'm too blind to see?
Anyways, I'll be havin' on OC night tomorrow and I'll be performin' in a Dikir Barat group, can you believe this? Dikir Barat? ME?! Well, believe it, cuz I'm doin' it. There's like so many guys in my company that's from different Dikit Barat groups out there, so...it ain't a problem. There'll be other races joinin' in the show tomorrow, Indians & Chinese... Cool ey?
Thursday, 26th February 2004
Phew! The performance's done for. First time performin' in a Dikir group and it was a totally new experience. Used to hate dikir barat the last time due to th face that I find it..kinda lame and I know that is bad cuz it's like my own Malay culture but now, I find it nice and beautiful in a way. It ain't that easy cuz you have to memorise lyrics and steps. It's one thing that I now respect and it's one of my own culture which is... Dikir Barat.
That ain't the only thing I performed today, the Dikir Barat thing was the company's performance and the famous New Zealand All Black Haka dance was the other thing I did. I don't know how we looked like from the eyes of the other guys from the company that's watchin' our show. After all of the performance, we had fun and we so called, "party"... It was like in a club an that "club" was a basketball court. Loud music playin' from the stereo... hip Hop, RnB, Techno and a few other kind of music. It was madness and that wasn't the only madness... All of the recruits were busy lookin' for their own sergeants and leftenants to sabo. Each and everyone of the officers and instructors in our company got "sabo"-ed by us. Usin' black camo cream to wipe their faces and usin' water to get them really wet. It was fun, for a while.
Tomorrow, will just be another normal day. Back to our daily routines again. I heard that there'll be a 12 km route march this Saturday and that, we'll be bookin' out around 2 in the afternoon. Boring!
After the event today, I began to wonder and think... would these guys who suffered, laughed and had fun together with me fro the past two months or so still keep in touch with one another or would they just be another passer by in part of my life, just for memories? What my friends told me... is so true... "BMT is the best moment you'll have durin' your NS days, it's somethin' you'll never forget, so do treasure them.." Lookin' at each one of 'em, I told myself, "I'm gonna miss these bunch one day."
"From strangers to brothers, together we stand"
- 19th Echo 1 Slogan
Friday, 27th February 2004
Same bed, same window, same locker and same people. It's dead borin' here I tell ya. Be goin' for my route march tomorrow and it's a 12 click and that is one holy distance. Anyways, that ain't the thing that I wanna write about. It's about p|uGGy.. I was god damn happy when she called me... I get to chit chat with her for a while in the afternoon, right after I had my lunch. She called me up to ask for Alwee's number (Alwee is the guy that I hate for what he did to p|uGGy and he was the guy that was with her before me). p|uGGy wanted to fuck Alwee up for what he's doin' to her friend. He's talkin' cock & bull stories to this girl and causin' some problem. p|uGGy didn't like what he's doin' It's somethin' about Alwee makin' the girl look bad or somethin'. Whatever it is, I know that p|uGGy will fuck him up for what he did.
p|uGGy made my day... she made me smile somehow and boy, it was great to be able to talk crap with her for some time. Aight, gotta go... gotta have my rest, tomorrow's the BIG walk...
Wenesday, February 2004
Wow! It's been like three days since I last book in. Had my field camp on Monday and it ended on Tuesday. Okay, Let me rephrase that, it's part two of my field camp and overall, it was fun and learnt a few new things. Whenever we practise our movement, I imagined myself as being one of the guys from Easy Company in the show, "Band Of Brothers". There was one moment that we got our OC really, really mad. We were told to stand in "sedia" position and not move... that's what we did and it ain't a short stand. We stood there, tryin' not to move a single muscle for almost half an hour. It may sound as if it's nothin' but try this, stand still and not move in a sedia position for almost 30 mins... with webbin' on ur back, helmet on ur head and rifle slinged to the side. Durin' that 30 mins... one by one fell out due to the pressure and not being able to take it. I almost joined in but I endured and I nearly fainted. Thank god that nothin' did happen.
In the night at the field in my "basha" and in between the rows of rubber trees, I looked up into the sky and it was the best sight ever. Not even monet can buy that beautiful moment. It was a clear sky, no clouds coverin' that blacken sky and the grounds was ,lighted up by both moonlight and stars. It was beautiful, stars scattered all over the sky as if an artist sprinkle glitters onto his canvas as a background or somethin'. Bright stars, faded stars and other kinds of stars, you name it, it was there. There were a few that formed up in a line. You can't get this view from mainland, okay, maybe not can't get but once in a while.
While gazin' up, I no ticed the very same stars that 've been lookin' out for, for the past two years. It's still there, same formation and everythin' except that there are a few new stars formed up around them. These few stars are the stars that I gazed up with p|uGGy when I was with her, two years ago and that was in Bedok Skate Park. That was where those stars were first sighted by us.
My spirit was downed earlier in the day when I got a message fromp|uGGy. I messaged her sarcasticly that she always have to go and she's always busy to even reply me with one message. Okay, it's my own bad failt to say that to her and when she replied back by sayin' sorry to ignore me cuz she don't want complications to rise up again. I understand what she meant by that. What made me down was when she SMSed me,"Don't message me unless I message you..." That... Somehow broke my heart. I know it ain't a big deal to some but it's a big one for me. Is she pushin' me off? Is she goin' away? Drift apart and forget me? Maybe what she's doing is for our good? To help us both not have that feelin' anymore or should I say.. To help ME move on and forget what we had?
I know that I've been writin' about this for a long time and some of you guys might get bored of it but that's how I feel for her. I loved her and always will, even though I know I can't.
Maybe those new stars formed up near the stars that I gazed with her have meanings? Tellin' me to move on? There's others out there tryin' to "form" up betwen me and her... Question is, when will that one star appear and be here for me? Time will tell or maybe that I've already found her, it's just that I'm too blind to see?
Anyways, I'll be havin' on OC night tomorrow and I'll be performin' in a Dikir Barat group, can you believe this? Dikir Barat? ME?! Well, believe it, cuz I'm doin' it. There's like so many guys in my company that's from different Dikit Barat groups out there, so...it ain't a problem. There'll be other races joinin' in the show tomorrow, Indians & Chinese... Cool ey?
Thursday, 26th February 2004
Phew! The performance's done for. First time performin' in a Dikir group and it was a totally new experience. Used to hate dikir barat the last time due to th face that I find it..kinda lame and I know that is bad cuz it's like my own Malay culture but now, I find it nice and beautiful in a way. It ain't that easy cuz you have to memorise lyrics and steps. It's one thing that I now respect and it's one of my own culture which is... Dikir Barat.
That ain't the only thing I performed today, the Dikir Barat thing was the company's performance and the famous New Zealand All Black Haka dance was the other thing I did. I don't know how we looked like from the eyes of the other guys from the company that's watchin' our show. After all of the performance, we had fun and we so called, "party"... It was like in a club an that "club" was a basketball court. Loud music playin' from the stereo... hip Hop, RnB, Techno and a few other kind of music. It was madness and that wasn't the only madness... All of the recruits were busy lookin' for their own sergeants and leftenants to sabo. Each and everyone of the officers and instructors in our company got "sabo"-ed by us. Usin' black camo cream to wipe their faces and usin' water to get them really wet. It was fun, for a while.
Tomorrow, will just be another normal day. Back to our daily routines again. I heard that there'll be a 12 km route march this Saturday and that, we'll be bookin' out around 2 in the afternoon. Boring!
After the event today, I began to wonder and think... would these guys who suffered, laughed and had fun together with me fro the past two months or so still keep in touch with one another or would they just be another passer by in part of my life, just for memories? What my friends told me... is so true... "BMT is the best moment you'll have durin' your NS days, it's somethin' you'll never forget, so do treasure them.." Lookin' at each one of 'em, I told myself, "I'm gonna miss these bunch one day."
"From strangers to brothers, together we stand"
- 19th Echo 1 Slogan
Friday, 27th February 2004
Same bed, same window, same locker and same people. It's dead borin' here I tell ya. Be goin' for my route march tomorrow and it's a 12 click and that is one holy distance. Anyways, that ain't the thing that I wanna write about. It's about p|uGGy.. I was god damn happy when she called me... I get to chit chat with her for a while in the afternoon, right after I had my lunch. She called me up to ask for Alwee's number (Alwee is the guy that I hate for what he did to p|uGGy and he was the guy that was with her before me). p|uGGy wanted to fuck Alwee up for what he's doin' to her friend. He's talkin' cock & bull stories to this girl and causin' some problem. p|uGGy didn't like what he's doin' It's somethin' about Alwee makin' the girl look bad or somethin'. Whatever it is, I know that p|uGGy will fuck him up for what he did.
p|uGGy made my day... she made me smile somehow and boy, it was great to be able to talk crap with her for some time. Aight, gotta go... gotta have my rest, tomorrow's the BIG walk...
Sunday, February 22, 2004
This next few entries will be an account from my diary when I was in camp:-
Monday, January 16th 2004
Here I am again, lying on my bed in the dark. It's 10:09 right now and the bunk lights are off. We're having an early lights off today cuz we'll be having IPPT Evaluation tomorrow and the sargeants wants us to rest. I Heard from the guys that we'll be havin' lessons on trench diggin' this Wednesday and boy,I can't wait for that shit to end. Same goes for field camp... wanna end that shit as soon as it can end. Some of the guys in my bunk ain't asleep yet... Same goes to the other bunks I guess. Currently, as I lay down on my bed or any free moments I have here... I've been thinkin' a lot about things...
Thinking about Emelia, about how I get to know her and how we met up and have our date. I'm havin' doubts on whether I should go on with her or wait... Wait for the moment that I've always wished for and look out to. For that past Valentine's Day, I wished for that one girl to go out with me. The girl that I know, I would have fun and enjoy my moments with for that special day. It's really bad of me to say all this but I simply can't click with my date for that day. If only she were to open her mouth and talk more, it would be okay. Let's just see where wuold we go from here.
The show's comin' up soon and it's this Saturday. First Chapter will be playing for the first time and it'll be my first time performin' on stage as a drummer. Can't wait for that and I really wished that I could book out early this comin' Saturday...
"" If only you'd come back to me, this place would be a better place to live in... But that's all impossible... for now...
Tuesday, February 17th 2004
Only one day had past and it's going by so slowly... always had been since the first day I came in here. Right now, Layin' on my bed with no one to message and it's pretty borin'. Only source of contact with the outside world. Got a few messages though, from those whom I look forward to get from. Missin' people back home, anticipatin' for weekends to go back home and spend time with those who I missed. Gettin' sick of this shitty place, wished for all this to end quickly... but that's impossible. P.O.P is comin' up soon and that is in about 5 more weeks to go. THe worst ain't over yet.
We'll be havin' trench diggin' tomorrow and listenin' to the briefin' earlier on by our Lt somehow brought my morale down. I feel that it's going to be a super mega tirin' day cuz we're going to dig up for almost half a day... SHAGNESS!!
Aight, I guess I better have my rest and do a li'l bit of messaging with Emelia... I'll write in again the enxt day... Cheers!
Wednesday, February 18th 2004
Wow! It was one hell of a fucked up day today. I was tired as fucked. Early in the morning, had this shit called Aqua Aerobics and yeah, I know, it sounds stupid... well... it IS. Got punished for so many times and I think that we did almost 200 jumping jacks in the water and soon after that, 50 more outside. That shagged us all. In the later morning, we went to this place, an open space land roughly about 6 clicks away from our company line. This is where we did... Trench diggin' and that adds on to our tiredness. It ain't easy to dig one trench. We start off by diggin' this trench called Shellscrape, it looks a li'l bit like a grave block except this one, ur suppose to prone in it and not be seen by the enemy... or, somethin' like that. The other one we did, it's called the fire trench. This one was worse to dig and it really shagged us all.
Glad that all of that trench shit if over. Right now, I'm on my bed, as always... thinkin' about that someone again. She's actin' all weird and she doesn't message like how she would always message me the last time. I'm very sure that somethin's ain't right but she just do not want to say it out. Whatever it is, I know that she's one person that I truly and dearly miss. I hope that she'll be okay.
Aight gotta go now,havin' a parade tomorrow, some parade called the OC Master Parade...
Cheers!
Thursday, February 19th 2004
Today went out fine not until our sargeants told us the complains my platoon got. Some of us ain't happy about those complains cuz we know that we didn't do those things. Whatever it is... It's god damn demoralizing. Now, I don't even have the confidence to go for that stupid field camp this comin' Monday...
We had some kind of a parade this morning and well, it ain't that bad, everythin' went out good. But somehow, I was feelin' kinda low, thinkin' about things back home. People I miss worries me... It's hard to explain it in words, u have to be me to know what I'm feelin' right now. Only one more day to endure before I fuck off for the weekend.
The gig's comin' up, real fast. Feelin' nervous for it. Hope that everythin' will go fine. Gotta go, lights off already.
Friday, February 20th 2004
I came to a conclusion that if u don't count the days, the week would end quickly and well...it did. It seems like only yesterday was the day of my enlistment but the true fact is that... I'm almost at my two months mark here. Lookin' at the new enlistees, reminds me of the time when I first enter here... Lost, alone and have no fuckin' idea of what to do or where to go. 2 months later, take a look at us... "Veterans" of Tekong. We know where to go and what to do and these guys that's with me now, who were once strangers are now brothers to me. Together we get fucked, together we laughed and enjoy and together we suffer. If u guys watched "Band Of Brothers" on Episode 1 "Curahee"... It's somethin' like that.
Right now, as I lay down on my bed, we're havin' admin time right now. I've been thinkin' of that someone ever since my last book in. I'm wonderin', thinkin' and hopin'... hopin' that the same star would shine brightly high above again. I ain't got much to say except to keep low and quiet and wait and be there for her and I'll try to make sure that she's happy.
"May the soul she was searching for be found so that she won't be confused no more..."
Monday, January 16th 2004
Here I am again, lying on my bed in the dark. It's 10:09 right now and the bunk lights are off. We're having an early lights off today cuz we'll be having IPPT Evaluation tomorrow and the sargeants wants us to rest. I Heard from the guys that we'll be havin' lessons on trench diggin' this Wednesday and boy,I can't wait for that shit to end. Same goes for field camp... wanna end that shit as soon as it can end. Some of the guys in my bunk ain't asleep yet... Same goes to the other bunks I guess. Currently, as I lay down on my bed or any free moments I have here... I've been thinkin' a lot about things...
Thinking about Emelia, about how I get to know her and how we met up and have our date. I'm havin' doubts on whether I should go on with her or wait... Wait for the moment that I've always wished for and look out to. For that past Valentine's Day, I wished for that one girl to go out with me. The girl that I know, I would have fun and enjoy my moments with for that special day. It's really bad of me to say all this but I simply can't click with my date for that day. If only she were to open her mouth and talk more, it would be okay. Let's just see where wuold we go from here.
The show's comin' up soon and it's this Saturday. First Chapter will be playing for the first time and it'll be my first time performin' on stage as a drummer. Can't wait for that and I really wished that I could book out early this comin' Saturday...
"" If only you'd come back to me, this place would be a better place to live in... But that's all impossible... for now...
Tuesday, February 17th 2004
Only one day had past and it's going by so slowly... always had been since the first day I came in here. Right now, Layin' on my bed with no one to message and it's pretty borin'. Only source of contact with the outside world. Got a few messages though, from those whom I look forward to get from. Missin' people back home, anticipatin' for weekends to go back home and spend time with those who I missed. Gettin' sick of this shitty place, wished for all this to end quickly... but that's impossible. P.O.P is comin' up soon and that is in about 5 more weeks to go. THe worst ain't over yet.
We'll be havin' trench diggin' tomorrow and listenin' to the briefin' earlier on by our Lt somehow brought my morale down. I feel that it's going to be a super mega tirin' day cuz we're going to dig up for almost half a day... SHAGNESS!!
Aight, I guess I better have my rest and do a li'l bit of messaging with Emelia... I'll write in again the enxt day... Cheers!
Wednesday, February 18th 2004
Wow! It was one hell of a fucked up day today. I was tired as fucked. Early in the morning, had this shit called Aqua Aerobics and yeah, I know, it sounds stupid... well... it IS. Got punished for so many times and I think that we did almost 200 jumping jacks in the water and soon after that, 50 more outside. That shagged us all. In the later morning, we went to this place, an open space land roughly about 6 clicks away from our company line. This is where we did... Trench diggin' and that adds on to our tiredness. It ain't easy to dig one trench. We start off by diggin' this trench called Shellscrape, it looks a li'l bit like a grave block except this one, ur suppose to prone in it and not be seen by the enemy... or, somethin' like that. The other one we did, it's called the fire trench. This one was worse to dig and it really shagged us all.
Glad that all of that trench shit if over. Right now, I'm on my bed, as always... thinkin' about that someone again. She's actin' all weird and she doesn't message like how she would always message me the last time. I'm very sure that somethin's ain't right but she just do not want to say it out. Whatever it is, I know that she's one person that I truly and dearly miss. I hope that she'll be okay.
Aight gotta go now,havin' a parade tomorrow, some parade called the OC Master Parade...
Cheers!
Thursday, February 19th 2004
Today went out fine not until our sargeants told us the complains my platoon got. Some of us ain't happy about those complains cuz we know that we didn't do those things. Whatever it is... It's god damn demoralizing. Now, I don't even have the confidence to go for that stupid field camp this comin' Monday...
We had some kind of a parade this morning and well, it ain't that bad, everythin' went out good. But somehow, I was feelin' kinda low, thinkin' about things back home. People I miss worries me... It's hard to explain it in words, u have to be me to know what I'm feelin' right now. Only one more day to endure before I fuck off for the weekend.
The gig's comin' up, real fast. Feelin' nervous for it. Hope that everythin' will go fine. Gotta go, lights off already.
Friday, February 20th 2004
I came to a conclusion that if u don't count the days, the week would end quickly and well...it did. It seems like only yesterday was the day of my enlistment but the true fact is that... I'm almost at my two months mark here. Lookin' at the new enlistees, reminds me of the time when I first enter here... Lost, alone and have no fuckin' idea of what to do or where to go. 2 months later, take a look at us... "Veterans" of Tekong. We know where to go and what to do and these guys that's with me now, who were once strangers are now brothers to me. Together we get fucked, together we laughed and enjoy and together we suffer. If u guys watched "Band Of Brothers" on Episode 1 "Curahee"... It's somethin' like that.
Right now, as I lay down on my bed, we're havin' admin time right now. I've been thinkin' of that someone ever since my last book in. I'm wonderin', thinkin' and hopin'... hopin' that the same star would shine brightly high above again. I ain't got much to say except to keep low and quiet and wait and be there for her and I'll try to make sure that she's happy.
"May the soul she was searching for be found so that she won't be confused no more..."
Another book out...another book in...Damn...my weekends always feels as if they're like a nights off or somethin'...time really flies when ur enjoyin' things don't they? Spoilers at times. Here I am again at home...Ain't goin' out today..cuz there ain't anybody to go out with...okay..maybe it's not that..there's no one..it's just that..I wanna stay home. Everytime I book out,I'll always be out...so i guess it's time for me to at least stay home once in a while ey?
There was a lot of gigs going on yesterday...I played in two...and I heard from others sayin' that there's gigs in Lasalle & Sentosa... i mean...WOW! It's one of those gig seasons again! I played for two bands...Both First Chapter & No Direction... The first one was First Chapter..in Marina Promenade...And fuck..I totally screwed up.. It was my first time playin' drums live... And I heard comments sayin' that I should hit the crash harder...Damn...I was too gentle with the drums... But I totally sucked...I played hopelessly on drums...maybe I'm not meant to be a drummer? Maybe I'm just one of those..play drums-during-jamming-sessions kinda guy? But the weird part is...people who hear...they said that it was okay...it ain't bad..Are those statements really true? Maybe out of Sympathy...who knows ey?
Later that evenin'...went to ANA Hotel to play for the Rock Star Collectives's It Takes A Kid To Know gig...I love that play..nice cosy lounge... Sofas and everythin'...it was nice..and the air-con..cool! AWesomely cool...So there we were...gettin' upstage...played our music..and came to a conclusion..that I played suckily...we all did... See kids...this is what will happen if u don't jam often...it's not that ND don't wanna jam..it's just that..we don't have the time to jam...STUPID NS BULLSHIT! So there u go...no time to jam..and everythin' sucks! I got lots of mistakes yesterday...and once again...people say that we were okay...hmm...sympathy again? i can't say...so..shut up hezwan!
I'll be bookin' in again this evenin'...around 6 plus... damn it..and it's field camp again..tomorrow..fuck! It's fuckin' borin'! Allright..I'm done with today's entry...Anyways...there's new pics and I'm lazy to put descriptions.so...pandai pandai eh tengok... enjoy the pics... CHEERS!
There was a lot of gigs going on yesterday...I played in two...and I heard from others sayin' that there's gigs in Lasalle & Sentosa... i mean...WOW! It's one of those gig seasons again! I played for two bands...Both First Chapter & No Direction... The first one was First Chapter..in Marina Promenade...And fuck..I totally screwed up.. It was my first time playin' drums live... And I heard comments sayin' that I should hit the crash harder...Damn...I was too gentle with the drums... But I totally sucked...I played hopelessly on drums...maybe I'm not meant to be a drummer? Maybe I'm just one of those..play drums-during-jamming-sessions kinda guy? But the weird part is...people who hear...they said that it was okay...it ain't bad..Are those statements really true? Maybe out of Sympathy...who knows ey?
Later that evenin'...went to ANA Hotel to play for the Rock Star Collectives's It Takes A Kid To Know gig...I love that play..nice cosy lounge... Sofas and everythin'...it was nice..and the air-con..cool! AWesomely cool...So there we were...gettin' upstage...played our music..and came to a conclusion..that I played suckily...we all did... See kids...this is what will happen if u don't jam often...it's not that ND don't wanna jam..it's just that..we don't have the time to jam...STUPID NS BULLSHIT! So there u go...no time to jam..and everythin' sucks! I got lots of mistakes yesterday...and once again...people say that we were okay...hmm...sympathy again? i can't say...so..shut up hezwan!
I'll be bookin' in again this evenin'...around 6 plus... damn it..and it's field camp again..tomorrow..fuck! It's fuckin' borin'! Allright..I'm done with today's entry...Anyways...there's new pics and I'm lazy to put descriptions.so...pandai pandai eh tengok... enjoy the pics... CHEERS!
Sunday, February 15, 2004
I can't believe this? One week of not being around...many things happened. I read the comments in Losing Streak's guestbook and I'm kinda dissapointed at the critics... Well,I can't say much cuz hey...it's their own fuckin' views..what can I do? right? So I have to accept both good comments and bad comments. But it was really hurting to know and read that there are people out there who hates us to the core and I still don't get it why. *sigh*...it really sucks to get news like that when u book out... But whatever it is,it's their views and I can't say much (that is so..repeated) Those who put out critism on my band..thanks for being honest rather than being two faced... No offense.. Whatever it is...
Yesterday was Valentine's Day...and that one person who I wished to be with can't be with me... I went out with this girl..Emelia (formerly known as Nisya...she hides her real name for security reasons) and well...I sucked. As in..I totally suck..I felt that I can't communicate with her or something...Maybe she ain't comfortable with,maybe she don't like it..I don't know... She gave me a gift and that was very sweet of her..she made it herself... Original plan..was to catch a movie...but god damn..the whole cinema's packed up...went to another cinema...same fuckin' thing...In the end..walked around..end up to a spot..where both of us..were quiet..and eventually..we went off...She left with her cousins and I met up with the guys ( and girls)...Went to Zouk to celebrate Dzafir's birthday and boy...it was an experience. I ain't a clubber..so going to a club is like trying to fly a spacecraft out of the atmosphere... After going through the whole security..payment..bla bla bla..everything went great... And never before..I repeat..never before u see bigguy dancin'! I did! I can't believe it myself! I fuckin' danced to trance beats...Don't even know how to dance,so what I did...bounced to the beat and just moved my hand around (Somewhat like one of those stupid para para moves). A punk rocker..looked like a hip hop (Cuz I had to wear pants and before that I was wearing berms,so I bought this jeans that cost me 60 bucks at Far East Plaza) and danced like an ah-beng...Wow! Had fun with my friends...it was awesome.
Last week in camp... went for my grenade throw and it was awesome...*BOOM*...the sound was as loud as the 21 gun salute blast from those canons durin' National Day Parade... At first,it was nerve wreckin'..I mean..Come on..it's a life grenade which will blow when the lever is let off..and when that happens...about 2000 over small ball bearings spreading all over..piercing almost anything along it's path... So yeah..that's the reason why,I was nervous. After the throw and hearing the boom sound..it was great... Sound was loud and the shock wave was like..whoa~~! Imagine this,ur standing in the pool...half body totally in the pool and someone push waves towards u with full force...now..it's something like that..
One more field camp to go (Actually..it's 5 days..but it got split up into two..3 days camp had passed..now I'm left with two days) and soon after that...everything's done..except for marches and things like that... prepare for the POP... (Pop...Passing Out Parade) So yeah...life's a BIT much better now in camp...but most real..I miss home so god damn much!
Aight..gotta go and rest...had not slept since yesterday... Take care everyone...and one more thing...to those who had been supporting my band (No Direction) in any way..either in music wise or friendship wise..or for the band's sake...any way u can think of...I would like to say..thanks for the support and I really appreciate it.. Love u guys!
Cheers to all!
Yesterday was Valentine's Day...and that one person who I wished to be with can't be with me... I went out with this girl..Emelia (formerly known as Nisya...she hides her real name for security reasons) and well...I sucked. As in..I totally suck..I felt that I can't communicate with her or something...Maybe she ain't comfortable with,maybe she don't like it..I don't know... She gave me a gift and that was very sweet of her..she made it herself... Original plan..was to catch a movie...but god damn..the whole cinema's packed up...went to another cinema...same fuckin' thing...In the end..walked around..end up to a spot..where both of us..were quiet..and eventually..we went off...She left with her cousins and I met up with the guys ( and girls)...Went to Zouk to celebrate Dzafir's birthday and boy...it was an experience. I ain't a clubber..so going to a club is like trying to fly a spacecraft out of the atmosphere... After going through the whole security..payment..bla bla bla..everything went great... And never before..I repeat..never before u see bigguy dancin'! I did! I can't believe it myself! I fuckin' danced to trance beats...Don't even know how to dance,so what I did...bounced to the beat and just moved my hand around (Somewhat like one of those stupid para para moves). A punk rocker..looked like a hip hop (Cuz I had to wear pants and before that I was wearing berms,so I bought this jeans that cost me 60 bucks at Far East Plaza) and danced like an ah-beng...Wow! Had fun with my friends...it was awesome.
Last week in camp... went for my grenade throw and it was awesome...*BOOM*...the sound was as loud as the 21 gun salute blast from those canons durin' National Day Parade... At first,it was nerve wreckin'..I mean..Come on..it's a life grenade which will blow when the lever is let off..and when that happens...about 2000 over small ball bearings spreading all over..piercing almost anything along it's path... So yeah..that's the reason why,I was nervous. After the throw and hearing the boom sound..it was great... Sound was loud and the shock wave was like..whoa~~! Imagine this,ur standing in the pool...half body totally in the pool and someone push waves towards u with full force...now..it's something like that..
One more field camp to go (Actually..it's 5 days..but it got split up into two..3 days camp had passed..now I'm left with two days) and soon after that...everything's done..except for marches and things like that... prepare for the POP... (Pop...Passing Out Parade) So yeah...life's a BIT much better now in camp...but most real..I miss home so god damn much!
Aight..gotta go and rest...had not slept since yesterday... Take care everyone...and one more thing...to those who had been supporting my band (No Direction) in any way..either in music wise or friendship wise..or for the band's sake...any way u can think of...I would like to say..thanks for the support and I really appreciate it.. Love u guys!
Cheers to all!
Sunday, February 01, 2004
I'm back! Hahaha..it's a Sunday..and I can believe I spent the whole day...at home! Fuckin' hell,I know that it's good to stay home and bond with the family..bla bla bla...but I ain't the stay-home kinda person. So here I am. Just washed my dirty laundry...Loads of it. Muddy uniforms and stuff... My boots are are still a li'l bit wet.
Last week,I had my field camp... and boy...it sure was an experience. Out of the three days,two days it rained... Poured heavily on us. Built up our Basha (It's like a simple version of the tent) on the open space in between rows of rubber trees. So... rain + soil = MUD... I like the weather though...Cooling,wetness...I don't know,I simply love the rain. And the whole area was covered with mud..and it ain't normal mud it's like...thos sticky..deep kinda mud... At first it was kinda weird and eeky to sit or whatever but after a while...no one gives a fuck about the mud... We sat,lay down,rolled in the mud... so mud was our friend... There were fucked up moments and fun moments altogether... Our officers and sargeants showed their true colours... They were evil... But it was all for the good. Learnt a few new things and gained an experience only NSmen would experience. Seriously,I was a panick wuss...At night...especially..cuz I can't see shit and my torch was givin' me problems...so walkin' in the dark where u can't see much of anything...was a true obsticle... It ain't much of a physical stress...it's more on mental.
The food we ate there...Combat Rations, food that's packed up in this green packs...and how u eat it? Fuck with the plates,forks and spoon... We tear the pack and we squeeze the food out and just munch it like that... Some of it taste good..and some..well..a okay,ain't bad,ain't good...but after some time..u'll get sick of it. Don't wanna talk much on this stupid field camp shit cuz I have two more days to go when I book in and that sucks...
Yesterday was my gig,it was awesome! The crowd was a big turnout but as usual...u people who go to gigs,would know...Skinheads,punk and rudies are there...they sorta dominate the space. But most real,most of 'em are newbies. U can fuckin' see that their faces doesn't have that I'M-A-FAMILIAR-FACE-AT-GIGS look... As young as what...12? 14? God damn...and I mean young,already dressing up like that. What do they think? A gig means Fashion Parade? Fuck that shit... Especially the rudies,with their NOT-ENOUGH-CLOTH pants and their coats looking all rich and stuff..but hell,they ain't got a merz or a cadillac...They pay a few cent on this big vehicle with a driver,driving many people around...and this vehicle is called..the bus...which is,public transport.. God! And yet,they're supposed to be WORKING CLASS? ha! A joke to society. Anyways,played at the gig and the bands were awesome...Riddermark made their debut appearance and they were awesome... Shoe size nine,improving greatly on backing vocals and skills on guitars... Losing streak,Great showmanship and with Dila in the band,seeing him playing the guitar and singing for the first time...Hehe,normally,Dila would either play the guitar only or play the drums on stage...but not singing... ND's set was okay although a mistakes was made...only known to ourselves..hopefully the crowd didn't notice... I was really dissapointed with the crowd cuz they sat down...can u believe that? They SAT DOWN when the punk rock or emo bands played... but..they actually got the freakin' energy to raise that heavy butts of theirs and RUN up to the front to SKANK when the SKA BANDS are playing...can u believe that? And yet they say,SUPPORT THE LOCAL SCENE...MY HAIRY MALAY ASS!! Really dissapointed. The crowd ain't how it was back then,when SKA don't really EXIST in the scene... NO ONE LISTENS TO SKA ANYMORE...hahahahaha..Fuck that shit,that's their own problem.. What I know,Every of those other bands have friends or followers to back them up including my band...
To those who stand in front of the stage and looking up to the bands and supporting them while others sat down...I wanna say thanks! Keep doing that to pump up the spirit of the bands up there playing...
I've got to say,I was damn nervous before the show cuz it's been a while since I've last played in a gig...I was actually shakin'... Thanks to u guys who stand in front or by the sides of the stage...Ur screaming or plainly shouting out jokes..simply boost my morale up and got me back straight to focusing on playing without the word NERVOUS on my mind... Once again,THANKS!
I'll be bookin' in tomorrow evening..and boy..it sucks,those who went through NS before should know...to those who haven't...U guys will know the feeling when u guys go in...
That's all I have to say...Take care everyone...See u guys around again...PEACE!
CHEERS!
Last week,I had my field camp... and boy...it sure was an experience. Out of the three days,two days it rained... Poured heavily on us. Built up our Basha (It's like a simple version of the tent) on the open space in between rows of rubber trees. So... rain + soil = MUD... I like the weather though...Cooling,wetness...I don't know,I simply love the rain. And the whole area was covered with mud..and it ain't normal mud it's like...thos sticky..deep kinda mud... At first it was kinda weird and eeky to sit or whatever but after a while...no one gives a fuck about the mud... We sat,lay down,rolled in the mud... so mud was our friend... There were fucked up moments and fun moments altogether... Our officers and sargeants showed their true colours... They were evil... But it was all for the good. Learnt a few new things and gained an experience only NSmen would experience. Seriously,I was a panick wuss...At night...especially..cuz I can't see shit and my torch was givin' me problems...so walkin' in the dark where u can't see much of anything...was a true obsticle... It ain't much of a physical stress...it's more on mental.
The food we ate there...Combat Rations, food that's packed up in this green packs...and how u eat it? Fuck with the plates,forks and spoon... We tear the pack and we squeeze the food out and just munch it like that... Some of it taste good..and some..well..a okay,ain't bad,ain't good...but after some time..u'll get sick of it. Don't wanna talk much on this stupid field camp shit cuz I have two more days to go when I book in and that sucks...
Yesterday was my gig,it was awesome! The crowd was a big turnout but as usual...u people who go to gigs,would know...Skinheads,punk and rudies are there...they sorta dominate the space. But most real,most of 'em are newbies. U can fuckin' see that their faces doesn't have that I'M-A-FAMILIAR-FACE-AT-GIGS look... As young as what...12? 14? God damn...and I mean young,already dressing up like that. What do they think? A gig means Fashion Parade? Fuck that shit... Especially the rudies,with their NOT-ENOUGH-CLOTH pants and their coats looking all rich and stuff..but hell,they ain't got a merz or a cadillac...They pay a few cent on this big vehicle with a driver,driving many people around...and this vehicle is called..the bus...which is,public transport.. God! And yet,they're supposed to be WORKING CLASS? ha! A joke to society. Anyways,played at the gig and the bands were awesome...Riddermark made their debut appearance and they were awesome... Shoe size nine,improving greatly on backing vocals and skills on guitars... Losing streak,Great showmanship and with Dila in the band,seeing him playing the guitar and singing for the first time...Hehe,normally,Dila would either play the guitar only or play the drums on stage...but not singing... ND's set was okay although a mistakes was made...only known to ourselves..hopefully the crowd didn't notice... I was really dissapointed with the crowd cuz they sat down...can u believe that? They SAT DOWN when the punk rock or emo bands played... but..they actually got the freakin' energy to raise that heavy butts of theirs and RUN up to the front to SKANK when the SKA BANDS are playing...can u believe that? And yet they say,SUPPORT THE LOCAL SCENE...MY HAIRY MALAY ASS!! Really dissapointed. The crowd ain't how it was back then,when SKA don't really EXIST in the scene... NO ONE LISTENS TO SKA ANYMORE...hahahahaha..Fuck that shit,that's their own problem.. What I know,Every of those other bands have friends or followers to back them up including my band...
To those who stand in front of the stage and looking up to the bands and supporting them while others sat down...I wanna say thanks! Keep doing that to pump up the spirit of the bands up there playing...
I've got to say,I was damn nervous before the show cuz it's been a while since I've last played in a gig...I was actually shakin'... Thanks to u guys who stand in front or by the sides of the stage...Ur screaming or plainly shouting out jokes..simply boost my morale up and got me back straight to focusing on playing without the word NERVOUS on my mind... Once again,THANKS!
I'll be bookin' in tomorrow evening..and boy..it sucks,those who went through NS before should know...to those who haven't...U guys will know the feeling when u guys go in...
That's all I have to say...Take care everyone...See u guys around again...PEACE!
CHEERS!
Sunday, January 25, 2004
Ah hoy! I'm back...yes..back from that stupid hell shit hole! I booked out on TUesday previously...and I'm bookin' in today...fucked up ain't it? It's great to be home and enjoy life as a slacked civilian once again. What do I do when I was free all this while? Well..slacked... Tuesday night..when I got home..I went to B's place...slept there...on wednesday..went out...with ND.or was it #emo kids...and I tonned there at BK century square...on thursday...went jammin' with ND and stayed the night at B's place after that... On Friday...went to play CS with the #emo kids...TWICE...In the evenin'..and at night..how cool? They're back to CS gaming I guess... Friday's slackin'..was kinda fun..lotsa people...
Yesterday...went out with my bunk mates...Fai & Aliff...got our army stuff...and after that..we split up..I went to meet up with the ND boys... S-11 at Substation Garden... Dzafir,Sofyn,B...slacked there..talked shit and went off... Meet up with tweet & Mon at the bus stop. It rained heavily...From the night before...till yesterday night...wow..How I wished..really wished that it would rain that fuckin' much when I'm in tekong..seriously..that's how I wished..."Cat 1...Cat 1" That would be a good sound...So...anyways..after meeting up with Tweet & Mon..we head down to Arab Street to have a li'l sheeha...the usual place was packed...so we head down to retro cafe... Sat down there...ordered some food and drinks.. Sat down,played some of the games they have there (Chess,Dum,Uno)..till about 2 plus...after that I went home...and when I got home..chatted with Nisya on the phone till like 5 plus in the morning...only then I slept... So okay..anyways..gotta go...take care...CHEERS!
Yesterday...went out with my bunk mates...Fai & Aliff...got our army stuff...and after that..we split up..I went to meet up with the ND boys... S-11 at Substation Garden... Dzafir,Sofyn,B...slacked there..talked shit and went off... Meet up with tweet & Mon at the bus stop. It rained heavily...From the night before...till yesterday night...wow..How I wished..really wished that it would rain that fuckin' much when I'm in tekong..seriously..that's how I wished..."Cat 1...Cat 1" That would be a good sound...So...anyways..after meeting up with Tweet & Mon..we head down to Arab Street to have a li'l sheeha...the usual place was packed...so we head down to retro cafe... Sat down there...ordered some food and drinks.. Sat down,played some of the games they have there (Chess,Dum,Uno)..till about 2 plus...after that I went home...and when I got home..chatted with Nisya on the phone till like 5 plus in the morning...only then I slept... So okay..anyways..gotta go...take care...CHEERS!
Sunday, January 18, 2004
This next few entries are from the diary I wrote...Enjoy reading...
Monday, January 12th, 2004
*sigh* Another day in the army,life is pretty fucked up when ur in camp. Tekong's kinda nice but some things...simply ain't as nice as being at home. I dragged myself to Pasir Ris Interchange yesterday for the booking in. Now I know how B feels when he was in BMT. It really sucks. Jammed with No Direction yesterday at Carudi's in Boat Quey and the feeling of not being able to slack with them really sucks. Saying goodbye was kinda sad cuz I only get to see them once a week now. Seeing lesser of everyone and I really missed them.
No Direction Family,#emo kids,BK Slackers,First Chapter... Missed them all. HOw I wish I could have the time like how I had it the last time... Free as a bird.
Ain't got any news from Nina and it has been almost a month,the same period as how long I've been in here.
Just got a message from Nina right after my lunch break. Right now,I'm having admin time(Admin time,meaning...Free time) till 4:30 and it's only 1:50. Long rest to wonder and think of what's to become. I deserve the treatment Nina's givin' me and she have all the rights to be mad at me. I can't blame her cause it's my fault. I'm missing her...a lot. As days goes by,my morale is slowly going down. I'm stuck in this shit for a few more months before I get posted out to a unit. I don't know what to do,should I keep on trying to work things out with Nina? Or should I drop the idea and move on like what I've been doing for the past few relaionships I had?
Got to know this girl through a wrong message sent on the phone. She was sending a message to her friend but somehow it ended up on my phone. So,I made the move to know her. I learnt that she's 17,livin' in Bukit Batok and schoolin' in ITE Clementi. Could this be some kind of a sign? I don't know and I can't say and I'm afraid to even try to put in effort to begin a new realtionship. Been hurt and been failing. I fell waaay to much and one day...I can't even pick myself up to move on...
Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
Time now is roughly 10:30am,can't see the company's clock from afar. Right now,my platoon is sittin' at the training shack,waitin' to go for our first grenade range. We'll be using dummies...of course.
Earlier in the morning,the whole company was fucked cuz our bunks and toilets were not up to standard. After comin' back from our morning brisk walk,the CSM "Tekan" us big time. Everyone sweated like mad. My morale was brought down once again. Felt like wetting my eyes with tears but I hold it in. I was thinking of home and how I missed everyone.
Right now,I'm feeling a li'l bit better than how I was before. We might be having a stand by bed in a while and if it ain't up to the CSM's standard,we're fucked. Meaning...confinement. No booking out this weekend.
2:00pm:- Just came back from that stupid range and went to lunch. Saw a couple of new enlistees with their families,somehow...that reminded me of the day I enlist. Right now,we're waitin' again to go back to that stupid grenade range. I'm feeling shagged and body's achin' all over the place. I just wished this stupid army shit ends. I wished that they would at least give us a day to rest. I feel as if I'm losin' my mind or somethin'.
Wednesday, January 14th, 2004
11:40am:- Three days had past and this is my third day here,only the third day and boy,it sure does feels so slow and like I've said before,time goes oh-so-slowly. Muslim eaters have to wait cuz the canteen's being used by those enlistees again. 1 o'clock, that's the time to fall in. Everybody's packin' up their stuff for IFC (Individual Field Craft)
I recieved an SMS from p|uGGy after a long time of not hearin' from her. I seriously missed her and I can't do anythin' about it since I'm in this stupid place. Amidst the waitin',I was thinking of the times I had with p|uGGy...memories just sets in my mind of those moments. For now,I guess I have to focus on this shit first... Gotta go and pack up my SBO...I'll write in again...
Thursday, January 15th, 2004
Yesterday was one hell of a day... Trainin' was tough and I was all shagged up. Got a message from p|uGGy yesterday and it was great to hear her voice plus Mik's voice. Cute li'l bugger.
Right now as I'm writin' this entry,I'm in a middle of the forest somewhere in Tekong. Saw two wild boars while marchin' and they were huge! Ran past us like a bullet, glad it didn't ram any of us. This field lessons gonna go on till evenin'...I think...Gotta go and pay attention,I'll write in again...
Just had lunch and boy, the queue was god damn long. New enlistees came in again, so there was their parents and all, that's the reasong why the queue was long. I'm back in the fields again, learnin' how to manouvuer and fire. Everyone in my platoon is goin' through fatigue. It's a long way to go...one more day...
Time now is roughly 10:48 and it's past my lights off time. Everybody in my platoon always look forward to night time cuz that's when we can rest and do whatever we want to. Right now, I'm laying on my bed,messaging Nisya while writin' down this entry. I have only one more day to go...just...one...more...to book out.
Friday, January 16th, 2004
Damn,it feels so god damn slow. Havin' a lecture now,waitin' for the OC to come over and give us a talk. Gettin' kinda noisy in here... It's all about discipline. Discipline this,discipline that...Fuck discipline, we're bein' treated like dogs here. Rushin' time,jammed up schedules... This week had been one hell of a week. Heavy trainin', that's the word. There's more in store... Two more months to go. I'll be havin' IFC again after lunch... There's a test on camouflaging... Which means that we have to pluck out those leaves from our surroundings and blend in so that enemy can't see us. Lasy day to endure before bookin' out. I heard rumours that we're bookin' out in the mornin' tomorrow. I hope that everything goes well. Be back again durin' my free time. Before that, I just learnt that one of my platoon mate is someone who knows Ainun. A familiar name without a face and now, it has. Firdaus, the guy who I chatted with about Ainun years back is no now in the same platoon. Small world huh? Who knows, the next thing...a distant relative or somethin' is in my platoon too? hehehe. Talkin' about Ainun, she'll be turnin' 20 tomorrow. January 17th...her birthday... It's still in my head even after 4 years of not keepin' in touch with her. All the best to her...Once again,Be back..
I'm back again, after a long day. Had that camouflaging test and I, somehow failed on the concealment station. I didn't break the outline of my body well. My whole section was covered up with mud and we were all dirty. Had fun in all, although the aftermath kinda sucked. Had to clean off the mud stains. Some of the guys in my section are asleep while some others are either messagin' or talkin' on the phone or one another. The bond in my section is gettin' stronger each day. Reminds me of the show, Band Of Brothers.
Right now, I'm messagin' Nisya while writin' this entry. SMSed Ainun just now to wish her a happy birthday but I don't think she would even wanna hear from me. Pulled through the week,survived and endured and somehow, I earned this book out... CHEERS!
Monday, January 12th, 2004
*sigh* Another day in the army,life is pretty fucked up when ur in camp. Tekong's kinda nice but some things...simply ain't as nice as being at home. I dragged myself to Pasir Ris Interchange yesterday for the booking in. Now I know how B feels when he was in BMT. It really sucks. Jammed with No Direction yesterday at Carudi's in Boat Quey and the feeling of not being able to slack with them really sucks. Saying goodbye was kinda sad cuz I only get to see them once a week now. Seeing lesser of everyone and I really missed them.
No Direction Family,#emo kids,BK Slackers,First Chapter... Missed them all. HOw I wish I could have the time like how I had it the last time... Free as a bird.
Ain't got any news from Nina and it has been almost a month,the same period as how long I've been in here.
Just got a message from Nina right after my lunch break. Right now,I'm having admin time(Admin time,meaning...Free time) till 4:30 and it's only 1:50. Long rest to wonder and think of what's to become. I deserve the treatment Nina's givin' me and she have all the rights to be mad at me. I can't blame her cause it's my fault. I'm missing her...a lot. As days goes by,my morale is slowly going down. I'm stuck in this shit for a few more months before I get posted out to a unit. I don't know what to do,should I keep on trying to work things out with Nina? Or should I drop the idea and move on like what I've been doing for the past few relaionships I had?
Got to know this girl through a wrong message sent on the phone. She was sending a message to her friend but somehow it ended up on my phone. So,I made the move to know her. I learnt that she's 17,livin' in Bukit Batok and schoolin' in ITE Clementi. Could this be some kind of a sign? I don't know and I can't say and I'm afraid to even try to put in effort to begin a new realtionship. Been hurt and been failing. I fell waaay to much and one day...I can't even pick myself up to move on...
Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
Time now is roughly 10:30am,can't see the company's clock from afar. Right now,my platoon is sittin' at the training shack,waitin' to go for our first grenade range. We'll be using dummies...of course.
Earlier in the morning,the whole company was fucked cuz our bunks and toilets were not up to standard. After comin' back from our morning brisk walk,the CSM "Tekan" us big time. Everyone sweated like mad. My morale was brought down once again. Felt like wetting my eyes with tears but I hold it in. I was thinking of home and how I missed everyone.
Right now,I'm feeling a li'l bit better than how I was before. We might be having a stand by bed in a while and if it ain't up to the CSM's standard,we're fucked. Meaning...confinement. No booking out this weekend.
2:00pm:- Just came back from that stupid range and went to lunch. Saw a couple of new enlistees with their families,somehow...that reminded me of the day I enlist. Right now,we're waitin' again to go back to that stupid grenade range. I'm feeling shagged and body's achin' all over the place. I just wished this stupid army shit ends. I wished that they would at least give us a day to rest. I feel as if I'm losin' my mind or somethin'.
Wednesday, January 14th, 2004
11:40am:- Three days had past and this is my third day here,only the third day and boy,it sure does feels so slow and like I've said before,time goes oh-so-slowly. Muslim eaters have to wait cuz the canteen's being used by those enlistees again. 1 o'clock, that's the time to fall in. Everybody's packin' up their stuff for IFC (Individual Field Craft)
I recieved an SMS from p|uGGy after a long time of not hearin' from her. I seriously missed her and I can't do anythin' about it since I'm in this stupid place. Amidst the waitin',I was thinking of the times I had with p|uGGy...memories just sets in my mind of those moments. For now,I guess I have to focus on this shit first... Gotta go and pack up my SBO...I'll write in again...
Thursday, January 15th, 2004
Yesterday was one hell of a day... Trainin' was tough and I was all shagged up. Got a message from p|uGGy yesterday and it was great to hear her voice plus Mik's voice. Cute li'l bugger.
Right now as I'm writin' this entry,I'm in a middle of the forest somewhere in Tekong. Saw two wild boars while marchin' and they were huge! Ran past us like a bullet, glad it didn't ram any of us. This field lessons gonna go on till evenin'...I think...Gotta go and pay attention,I'll write in again...
Just had lunch and boy, the queue was god damn long. New enlistees came in again, so there was their parents and all, that's the reasong why the queue was long. I'm back in the fields again, learnin' how to manouvuer and fire. Everyone in my platoon is goin' through fatigue. It's a long way to go...one more day...
Time now is roughly 10:48 and it's past my lights off time. Everybody in my platoon always look forward to night time cuz that's when we can rest and do whatever we want to. Right now, I'm laying on my bed,messaging Nisya while writin' down this entry. I have only one more day to go...just...one...more...to book out.
Friday, January 16th, 2004
Damn,it feels so god damn slow. Havin' a lecture now,waitin' for the OC to come over and give us a talk. Gettin' kinda noisy in here... It's all about discipline. Discipline this,discipline that...Fuck discipline, we're bein' treated like dogs here. Rushin' time,jammed up schedules... This week had been one hell of a week. Heavy trainin', that's the word. There's more in store... Two more months to go. I'll be havin' IFC again after lunch... There's a test on camouflaging... Which means that we have to pluck out those leaves from our surroundings and blend in so that enemy can't see us. Lasy day to endure before bookin' out. I heard rumours that we're bookin' out in the mornin' tomorrow. I hope that everything goes well. Be back again durin' my free time. Before that, I just learnt that one of my platoon mate is someone who knows Ainun. A familiar name without a face and now, it has. Firdaus, the guy who I chatted with about Ainun years back is no now in the same platoon. Small world huh? Who knows, the next thing...a distant relative or somethin' is in my platoon too? hehehe. Talkin' about Ainun, she'll be turnin' 20 tomorrow. January 17th...her birthday... It's still in my head even after 4 years of not keepin' in touch with her. All the best to her...Once again,Be back..
I'm back again, after a long day. Had that camouflaging test and I, somehow failed on the concealment station. I didn't break the outline of my body well. My whole section was covered up with mud and we were all dirty. Had fun in all, although the aftermath kinda sucked. Had to clean off the mud stains. Some of the guys in my section are asleep while some others are either messagin' or talkin' on the phone or one another. The bond in my section is gettin' stronger each day. Reminds me of the show, Band Of Brothers.
Right now, I'm messagin' Nisya while writin' this entry. SMSed Ainun just now to wish her a happy birthday but I don't think she would even wanna hear from me. Pulled through the week,survived and endured and somehow, I earned this book out... CHEERS!
It's been a week..and god damn..it sure did felt so long. Came back yesterday morning...went out to jamming with both First Chapter & No Direction...It was both..a bad session. FIrst Chapter,it sucks,cuz the fuckin' drums was not in tune and the snare..was fucked...As for No Direction,I'm dissapointed with myself..Seem to forget everything... So,it sucked for me yesterday. After jammin' at Retro Cafe...we head down to East Coast for Jessie's chalet/pit... Had fun though... Was happy to see everyone...I missed them all..big time...especially p|uGGy...Get to hang out with her. And at the chalet,hanged out there till 4 plus...in the morning..that is..and then I went back home. It was whacked to see some of 'em gettin' drunk and talkin' shit... Insane...puking all over...things like that... Today,I'll be going back at 7:45pm...must be in "Paris" by 7:45 that is... Anyways...the next few entries..will be from the account of my one week in camp last week...
Sunday, January 04, 2004
It's a Sunday...There's a gig today,Dzul's playing and I don't get to see 'em. My Precious,Stomping Ground,Dyfectra and a few others. I'll be going for a jammin' session with First Chapter in a while and it's been a long time since we've last jammed. So I ain't sure if I could remember any of it. Tonight's my book in day... Next week,life range...Life or live...fuck...I feel that my english spellings is going to the drains... I seem to forget which one to use and how the spelling goes. It's been two years since I've touched the books.
Right now,I'm sitting in front of the comp with a plate of sardines and a loaf of bread... Still wondering...why did she call me in the morning? I woke up...dissapointed at myself...Cuz I saw my missed call...it read "My AnGeL"...meaning..it's her... Calling at 3 plus in the morning...I wondered...Was it a missed dial,meaning she accidently pressed my number? Was it...she called me up to chat or to ask me on how I'm doing? All of these thoughts came into my mind... I do miss her...But from what I see....I don't think it's workin' out... Efforts put in,wasted...
Went to Mom's wedding yesterday...(Mom a.k.a Arafah) It was great to see her in the bridal clothes and smiling.. Wow,can't believe that she's married. She's my age,20 and she was one of the pioneer chatters of #ska and she's the first among my friends to get married. Simply said,the first friend to get married. I came in my stupid Smart 4 uniform...cuz I was from OCS (Officer Cadet School). I felt weird,being the only one who's wearing that...I felt out. Slacked there...with Dil,Nora,Sofyn,Dzafir,Dzul,Inn & Fad... Played the band game and stuff. After a while,went back while the rest set off to Tamp BK. I went home to change... and I went out again to join up with them.
It was madness...had fun,laughing...Kecohness... a li'l late at night,Tweet joined up... and Nurl was there.... I guess that they met up by accident or something... The madness continues... After a while...everybody went home....
The guys are telling me to go for this one girl....and somehow,they're trying to match me up with her...but I don't know,still have that someone in my mind. If things still stays the same...and continues being stale....I guess the only option...is to move on. Maybe...I should get to know that girl better first...
"You'll laugh thinking of the tears you shed...you'll cry thinking of the laughs you had..."
Right now,I'm sitting in front of the comp with a plate of sardines and a loaf of bread... Still wondering...why did she call me in the morning? I woke up...dissapointed at myself...Cuz I saw my missed call...it read "My AnGeL"...meaning..it's her... Calling at 3 plus in the morning...I wondered...Was it a missed dial,meaning she accidently pressed my number? Was it...she called me up to chat or to ask me on how I'm doing? All of these thoughts came into my mind... I do miss her...But from what I see....I don't think it's workin' out... Efforts put in,wasted...
Went to Mom's wedding yesterday...(Mom a.k.a Arafah) It was great to see her in the bridal clothes and smiling.. Wow,can't believe that she's married. She's my age,20 and she was one of the pioneer chatters of #ska and she's the first among my friends to get married. Simply said,the first friend to get married. I came in my stupid Smart 4 uniform...cuz I was from OCS (Officer Cadet School). I felt weird,being the only one who's wearing that...I felt out. Slacked there...with Dil,Nora,Sofyn,Dzafir,Dzul,Inn & Fad... Played the band game and stuff. After a while,went back while the rest set off to Tamp BK. I went home to change... and I went out again to join up with them.
It was madness...had fun,laughing...Kecohness... a li'l late at night,Tweet joined up... and Nurl was there.... I guess that they met up by accident or something... The madness continues... After a while...everybody went home....
The guys are telling me to go for this one girl....and somehow,they're trying to match me up with her...but I don't know,still have that someone in my mind. If things still stays the same...and continues being stale....I guess the only option...is to move on. Maybe...I should get to know that girl better first...
"You'll laugh thinking of the tears you shed...you'll cry thinking of the laughs you had..."
Thursday, January 01, 2004
Book out days had past...I'm a li'l bit better..but not yet recovered....still coughing and my temperature...rises and falls... Today's the new year...Wow...that fast..it's 2004...
Yesterday was a terrible day... it was okay..but thanks to the fucked up network...people are havin' red eyes on me... I was suppose to meet up with the No Direction Family at night for the new year celebration... Dzafir called me up in the afternoon askin' me if I wanna join..I said maybe...when I get better...and the #emo kids asked me too...I told them the same thing...Well..I did get better...so my plan...was to meet up with the #emo kids evening time and then meet up with ND family till morning....And before that..I did tell Dzafir that I'll call him to through Sofyn to tell him that I'll be comin'. So there I go,meeting up with the #emo kids. Hanged out at BK...went to play CS at Pavilion..with Suhayl,Rabia,Dil,Fad,Dzul and later Inn joined to play... After the CS session..which was roughly around 10 plus I called Sofyn up to ask her..where they are and where to meet...that kinda stuff...So I called..Dialled her number...Three times...but to no success. So I thought that Sofyn purposely didn't wanna pick up...or that the network was fucked up. So I messaged her. While waitin' for the response...Inn & Dzul was askin'..where I'm headin'..I said I don't know,I'm waitin' for Sofyn's reply to tell me where they are...so that I know where to go. Dzul's with anything..and Inn wanted to go town...The others..they just go with the flow. Amidst the waitin' of Sofyn's reply..Mon called me up...askin' me,where should we meet...so I told her..I don't know,I called Sofyn,but she didn't pick up and Mon told me the same thing... In my mind,thinkin' that Sofyn did that on purpose..sorry to say..but I'm being honest here. So yeah..I asked mon..where she's going,she said she's going to meet up with Tweet first...so okay...I told her I'll message her.. In the mean time..my group,walked to Tampines MRT Station,u know..the toilet side..where there's seats. I messages mon again and again... Still no response..now I'm like thinking,are they both,doing this on purpose?
It was 12 plus...and the train from Tamp...had long gone...(Note: Last train from Tamp is 12..from town is 1) A few minutes later..ONLY then those messages came in...FUCKED UP NETWORK! All the replies I got from sofyn and mon..askin' me where am I...and mon saying..meet up at "Durian" place...and another message saying call them when I'm there... And there I was,feeling fucked up..torn apart by two groups... I can't go to esplanade..last train had long gone..and same goes for the buses...I would take the cab..if I had 15 bucks with me,but too bad...I only got few cents in my coin "pouch". And now,They're mad at me... Thinkin' that I did this on purpose..not wanting to see them... LIke I said in my previous entry...call me what u want... If u guys want to believe me...go ahead..and if u guys don't wanna believe me..go ahead...only god knows...
#emo kids..in the end,decided to ton at Sunplaza Park...All dressed up for town..in the end..Sunplaza Park where we go... Nice... Bought food from S-11 in Tampines... brought it over to Sunplaza Park...ate there...playe cards there...laughed there...and I got to highlight..farted a lot there.. Almost everyone...farted...I think it's the food we bought. Played Taitee,Played Bluff and most real..played this card game called "ragam"... We laughed big time...Somehow,that freed my mind away for a while... WEnt back home this morning...around 7 plus..I got home. Slept,cuz I was kinda shagged... woke up at 2. A few more hours,to bookin' in time. Hello tekong again...
To those to read my blog,felt offended,or felt intruded..I'm sorry...but I'm speakin' out my truthful honest opinion...take it...or don't ever read my blog... And to those...who worried about me cuz of my previous entry...don't worry...I'll be fine...I'll talk..when I feel like talkin' about it...for now,Tekong is my only concentration...
"Everytime I'm out...I would spend time with u guys...in fact..since my first book out..it was u guys... I'll make it up to u guys...one whole day..from the time I book out..till the next day...deal? HOpe so...if not,then Lan Lan...it ain't my luck then..."
Yesterday was a terrible day... it was okay..but thanks to the fucked up network...people are havin' red eyes on me... I was suppose to meet up with the No Direction Family at night for the new year celebration... Dzafir called me up in the afternoon askin' me if I wanna join..I said maybe...when I get better...and the #emo kids asked me too...I told them the same thing...Well..I did get better...so my plan...was to meet up with the #emo kids evening time and then meet up with ND family till morning....And before that..I did tell Dzafir that I'll call him to through Sofyn to tell him that I'll be comin'. So there I go,meeting up with the #emo kids. Hanged out at BK...went to play CS at Pavilion..with Suhayl,Rabia,Dil,Fad,Dzul and later Inn joined to play... After the CS session..which was roughly around 10 plus I called Sofyn up to ask her..where they are and where to meet...that kinda stuff...So I called..Dialled her number...Three times...but to no success. So I thought that Sofyn purposely didn't wanna pick up...or that the network was fucked up. So I messaged her. While waitin' for the response...Inn & Dzul was askin'..where I'm headin'..I said I don't know,I'm waitin' for Sofyn's reply to tell me where they are...so that I know where to go. Dzul's with anything..and Inn wanted to go town...The others..they just go with the flow. Amidst the waitin' of Sofyn's reply..Mon called me up...askin' me,where should we meet...so I told her..I don't know,I called Sofyn,but she didn't pick up and Mon told me the same thing... In my mind,thinkin' that Sofyn did that on purpose..sorry to say..but I'm being honest here. So yeah..I asked mon..where she's going,she said she's going to meet up with Tweet first...so okay...I told her I'll message her.. In the mean time..my group,walked to Tampines MRT Station,u know..the toilet side..where there's seats. I messages mon again and again... Still no response..now I'm like thinking,are they both,doing this on purpose?
It was 12 plus...and the train from Tamp...had long gone...(Note: Last train from Tamp is 12..from town is 1) A few minutes later..ONLY then those messages came in...FUCKED UP NETWORK! All the replies I got from sofyn and mon..askin' me where am I...and mon saying..meet up at "Durian" place...and another message saying call them when I'm there... And there I was,feeling fucked up..torn apart by two groups... I can't go to esplanade..last train had long gone..and same goes for the buses...I would take the cab..if I had 15 bucks with me,but too bad...I only got few cents in my coin "pouch". And now,They're mad at me... Thinkin' that I did this on purpose..not wanting to see them... LIke I said in my previous entry...call me what u want... If u guys want to believe me...go ahead..and if u guys don't wanna believe me..go ahead...only god knows...
#emo kids..in the end,decided to ton at Sunplaza Park...All dressed up for town..in the end..Sunplaza Park where we go... Nice... Bought food from S-11 in Tampines... brought it over to Sunplaza Park...ate there...playe cards there...laughed there...and I got to highlight..farted a lot there.. Almost everyone...farted...I think it's the food we bought. Played Taitee,Played Bluff and most real..played this card game called "ragam"... We laughed big time...Somehow,that freed my mind away for a while... WEnt back home this morning...around 7 plus..I got home. Slept,cuz I was kinda shagged... woke up at 2. A few more hours,to bookin' in time. Hello tekong again...
To those to read my blog,felt offended,or felt intruded..I'm sorry...but I'm speakin' out my truthful honest opinion...take it...or don't ever read my blog... And to those...who worried about me cuz of my previous entry...don't worry...I'll be fine...I'll talk..when I feel like talkin' about it...for now,Tekong is my only concentration...
"Everytime I'm out...I would spend time with u guys...in fact..since my first book out..it was u guys... I'll make it up to u guys...one whole day..from the time I book out..till the next day...deal? HOpe so...if not,then Lan Lan...it ain't my luck then..."
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