White light, monitor screen... weird sounds... Cool wind blowin'... Madness...Weekend cut short, Bad start to weekend which ended good..Well.. a brief of how my weekend went.. Anyways, great times.. I just came back from hangin' out with Hallie's family.. My week was okay.. camp.. as usual.. same old shit.. aight.. so there's no need to talk about it.. u know.. it's boring.. pretty much.. dull...Had a bad day on Thursday... well.. more like Thursday night... i mean.. it was 50/50.. half okay.. and half bad.. went to a chalet... and well.. everyone was there.. Somehow, issues was talked about and I was feelin' it.. felt it comin' before I came.. But it's settled.. Things talked out.. and everything's okay for now.. i hope.. I want it to be okay... It's for the future...After that.. everything was back to norm.. Madness.. fun.. laughter.. and well.. sleepiness.. didn't slept the whole night.. cool ain't it? Hehehe.. From 8 on Wednesday till 2 plus in the afternoon on friday.. WOW!! hehehe..Went to B's place to session on Friday eve and then head out to Bugis to fetch Hallie home.. And hung out with her till mornin'... easy to say.. Ton... in the mornin'... head out to her home... hung out at her place with her mom and brother.. fell asleep while I was there.. In the evenin'.. Went out with the whole family and had dinner at Simpang.. And after eatin'.. went cruising around with the family.. Damn.. had great fun!! It was really fun goin' out with her family..
It was a li'l sad when I had to leave.. Cuz normally, on saturday nights.. I would hang out with her.. ton with her... but today, I had to go cuz I got a friggin' duty tomorrow... Damn it.. She was sad and tears were rollin' down her cheeks when I was sayin' goodbye...I love that girl...
Anyways, another week is comin'.. and it's gonna be fuckin' boring.. that's all I can say.. madness.. Aight, my blog's pretty much lame.. And it's like one of those.. lame entries.. "I woke up, ate breakfast.. head out.. meet her.. enjoyed my time.. send her home.. head back.. looking forward to meet her again.. went back home.. had dinner.. bla bla bla.." One of those kinds..
Aight, that's it for today folks..I'm outta here.. gotta sleep.. Cheers to ya'all!
Hamster
Radwimps - Me Me She
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Starin' into the open window, I see the clear skies that's been there durin' daytime durin' our days.. Birds chirpin'... The clutterin' sound of the celin' fan.. The buzzin' sound of the guitar amp and of course, the tapping of the keyboard. Here I am, typin' out this entry. as usual, the weekends are the only time that I'm free to do my entries. I know I've promised u guys pictures and all but fuck, for that, I ain't got the time yet.. Anyways, my week went by.. A Ok.. i guess.. My dad.. well, he's feelin' a li'l better but somehow still got the pains in his chest.. I just hope that he'll be okay...
Not much had happened in camp accept that one of our guys went in again.. u guys should know went in what? If ur in the army and u do shit wrong although u ain't wrong... It's called DB... It was a sad moment.. and I ain't there.. i heard from my from who sent him there. Imagine this, sendin' ur own buddy down to the Detention Barrack.. It can be heart wreckin'... Poor guy, I hope that he's doin' okay.. I mean, i've been there and I know how it's like.. i told him, try to take it easy and don't count the days.. just do the shitty stuff in there.. and let it be done and over with.
Other than that, camp was...BORING... as usual..I mean.. since when camp became cool? Even if the things that happened in camp are not camp stuff.. it's.. not office hours.. so it ain't camp stuff.. okay, right now, somehow, I'm beginning to feel that I'm talkin' crap.. right? Socks! Anyways, went out on a proper date with Hallie last Friday and it was fun.. Hung out with her friends.. Linda, Ain and Nizam.. well.. Linda was fun.. as always.. but the other two..well.. i can't click with them.. Somehow I feel that they're talkin' about stuff that I don't really wanna talk about.. I mean.. we just don't click.. no chemistry in conversation.. so what I do? Just sit down there with them and shut my lips up.. I look at the time and it was 10 plus and that is when I decided to tell Hallie..."Baby, we better go now or we might miss the movie.".. And she agreed..and so.. she saved my boredom by tellin' them that we gotta go.. So yes.. Freedom from the boring conversationists! hahaha.. Whatever that is.. so i went away with Hallie to Cineleisure and wow.. it was friggin' pack.. and I'm talkin' pack pack...oh wait.. that was today.. i mean, that Friday, it ain't that pack.. Surprisingly..it wasn't pack.. Well.. anyways, I caught "Robots".. and it was fuckin' funny! Crappy show with funny jokes.. i mean, Robin Williams was the voice of Fender.. and Fender was one heck of a character.. And Ewan McGregor was the voice of Rodney Copperbottom.. I mean.. ngast.. U guys just have to watch it if u guys are into animation kinda shit.. u know.. not the kiddy kiddy kind.. but more to like..all rounder movie.. meanin'..for kids, adults and all ages kinda shit.. The graphics are good..the animations are smooth..and most real.. the sound was awesome.. okay.. anyways, me and hallie had a good laugh... crappy show...
Head out to East Coast after that and wow.. east coast ain't how it used to be ey? back then, not much people would hang out there.. but now.. madness! It's like.. The Beach That Never Sleeps.. everybody's walkin' about and all that even in the early hours of the morning.. while buyin' fags and drink at 7-11.. i bumped into Dil.. Madster! heehe.. It' s been a while since i saw him..and well, he seem to be perfectly swell! hung out with him and hallie... chattin' old times and old crappy stuff..hehe..missed those slackin' days.. after some time, he decided to join back to his friends.. After all that, I got bored of East Coast so i told hallie.. Let's go someplace else.. so she agreed...
Anyways, that's besides the point.. yesterday, which is a saturday.. I went out witht he boys.. and trust me.. Boys night out! Kecohrable! went jammin' around 7 plus at FYEworks.. and well.. jammin's kinda awesome.. Coverin' some stuff.. hehehe.. And after that, head out to town to hang out with the peeps.. No Direction, Khus, Tengtai, Lordch and Raymond.. What's our purpose there? Well, to catch a movie.. holy cow! We watchewd Boogeyman.. That show was kinda jumpy.. it ain't scary.. just jumpy..and that's from my point of view.. that's it.. it's not that bad.. but just that...the storyline was a li'l complicating.. After the show, we decided to hang out in Mackerz in front of Lido (For those who do not know the meanin'.. Mackerz stands for McDonalds) while walkin' towards Mackerz.. guess who I saw? This is insane.. After three years of now hearin' from him.. Tunggal suddenly runs to bernard and slams him on purpose.. And I was like..."Hey!! Tungster!! Bro! Where the fuck have u been?!" And well, gave him the hand shake with the hug thingy.. Damn... I miss that dude.. It may sound faggish, but me, Tungster and B have gone back a..loooooong way.. Back in the old high School days.. ah...the good ol' school days.. hehe.. Anyways, he still looks the same like how Tanno describes him..."Jagung"..hehe.. which means Corn in malay.. Somehow, i still don't get it on why tanno calls him that.. he doesn't look one bit like a corn.. Saw him with a girl..he said that girl was someone he got to know a few weeks back and that.. was the first time they met.. I asked him whether he have something for this girl.. he said maybe.. So i told him.. good luck bro.. hope to see u smiling again.. tungster.. miss that bugger so friggin' much sia! he's goin' Taiwan next month for some stupid Excercise.. oh yeah, got to learn that he's 1st Guard's Medics... hehehe.. a medic...madness!
Anyways, got meself a new phone.. A Nokia 6170.. together with a new line.. Well, the phone's nice and all.. but it lacks of some features like Mp3 player.. bluetooth.. and cool features like those.. but the design's really trendy.. u know.. just nice fashion... that kinda shit.. Gotta watch my bills this time.. madness.. I don't want it to go boom! Sigh..
anyways, i'm outta here.. Gotta go.. i'm bored as hell.. I might send hallie to work later on. straight from B's place.. oh yeah, forgot about it.. I'm in B's place.. ngast... Aight ya'all.. I'm outta here...Cheers to all! Peace out!
Not much had happened in camp accept that one of our guys went in again.. u guys should know went in what? If ur in the army and u do shit wrong although u ain't wrong... It's called DB... It was a sad moment.. and I ain't there.. i heard from my from who sent him there. Imagine this, sendin' ur own buddy down to the Detention Barrack.. It can be heart wreckin'... Poor guy, I hope that he's doin' okay.. I mean, i've been there and I know how it's like.. i told him, try to take it easy and don't count the days.. just do the shitty stuff in there.. and let it be done and over with.
Other than that, camp was...BORING... as usual..I mean.. since when camp became cool? Even if the things that happened in camp are not camp stuff.. it's.. not office hours.. so it ain't camp stuff.. okay, right now, somehow, I'm beginning to feel that I'm talkin' crap.. right? Socks! Anyways, went out on a proper date with Hallie last Friday and it was fun.. Hung out with her friends.. Linda, Ain and Nizam.. well.. Linda was fun.. as always.. but the other two..well.. i can't click with them.. Somehow I feel that they're talkin' about stuff that I don't really wanna talk about.. I mean.. we just don't click.. no chemistry in conversation.. so what I do? Just sit down there with them and shut my lips up.. I look at the time and it was 10 plus and that is when I decided to tell Hallie..."Baby, we better go now or we might miss the movie.".. And she agreed..and so.. she saved my boredom by tellin' them that we gotta go.. So yes.. Freedom from the boring conversationists! hahaha.. Whatever that is.. so i went away with Hallie to Cineleisure and wow.. it was friggin' pack.. and I'm talkin' pack pack...oh wait.. that was today.. i mean, that Friday, it ain't that pack.. Surprisingly..it wasn't pack.. Well.. anyways, I caught "Robots".. and it was fuckin' funny! Crappy show with funny jokes.. i mean, Robin Williams was the voice of Fender.. and Fender was one heck of a character.. And Ewan McGregor was the voice of Rodney Copperbottom.. I mean.. ngast.. U guys just have to watch it if u guys are into animation kinda shit.. u know.. not the kiddy kiddy kind.. but more to like..all rounder movie.. meanin'..for kids, adults and all ages kinda shit.. The graphics are good..the animations are smooth..and most real.. the sound was awesome.. okay.. anyways, me and hallie had a good laugh... crappy show...
Head out to East Coast after that and wow.. east coast ain't how it used to be ey? back then, not much people would hang out there.. but now.. madness! It's like.. The Beach That Never Sleeps.. everybody's walkin' about and all that even in the early hours of the morning.. while buyin' fags and drink at 7-11.. i bumped into Dil.. Madster! heehe.. It' s been a while since i saw him..and well, he seem to be perfectly swell! hung out with him and hallie... chattin' old times and old crappy stuff..hehe..missed those slackin' days.. after some time, he decided to join back to his friends.. After all that, I got bored of East Coast so i told hallie.. Let's go someplace else.. so she agreed...
Anyways, that's besides the point.. yesterday, which is a saturday.. I went out witht he boys.. and trust me.. Boys night out! Kecohrable! went jammin' around 7 plus at FYEworks.. and well.. jammin's kinda awesome.. Coverin' some stuff.. hehehe.. And after that, head out to town to hang out with the peeps.. No Direction, Khus, Tengtai, Lordch and Raymond.. What's our purpose there? Well, to catch a movie.. holy cow! We watchewd Boogeyman.. That show was kinda jumpy.. it ain't scary.. just jumpy..and that's from my point of view.. that's it.. it's not that bad.. but just that...the storyline was a li'l complicating.. After the show, we decided to hang out in Mackerz in front of Lido (For those who do not know the meanin'.. Mackerz stands for McDonalds) while walkin' towards Mackerz.. guess who I saw? This is insane.. After three years of now hearin' from him.. Tunggal suddenly runs to bernard and slams him on purpose.. And I was like..."Hey!! Tungster!! Bro! Where the fuck have u been?!" And well, gave him the hand shake with the hug thingy.. Damn... I miss that dude.. It may sound faggish, but me, Tungster and B have gone back a..loooooong way.. Back in the old high School days.. ah...the good ol' school days.. hehe.. Anyways, he still looks the same like how Tanno describes him..."Jagung"..hehe.. which means Corn in malay.. Somehow, i still don't get it on why tanno calls him that.. he doesn't look one bit like a corn.. Saw him with a girl..he said that girl was someone he got to know a few weeks back and that.. was the first time they met.. I asked him whether he have something for this girl.. he said maybe.. So i told him.. good luck bro.. hope to see u smiling again.. tungster.. miss that bugger so friggin' much sia! he's goin' Taiwan next month for some stupid Excercise.. oh yeah, got to learn that he's 1st Guard's Medics... hehehe.. a medic...madness!
Anyways, got meself a new phone.. A Nokia 6170.. together with a new line.. Well, the phone's nice and all.. but it lacks of some features like Mp3 player.. bluetooth.. and cool features like those.. but the design's really trendy.. u know.. just nice fashion... that kinda shit.. Gotta watch my bills this time.. madness.. I don't want it to go boom! Sigh..
anyways, i'm outta here.. Gotta go.. i'm bored as hell.. I might send hallie to work later on. straight from B's place.. oh yeah, forgot about it.. I'm in B's place.. ngast... Aight ya'all.. I'm outta here...Cheers to all! Peace out!
Saturday, March 05, 2005
okay... it's been a while since I've last updated my blog.. yeah yeah, I know some of u guys and gals do want to see my updates.. Sorry about it cuz I've been busy and well, not enough time to update my blog. Weekends are too precious for me that I'm like out most of the time. Today, i'm still at home and it's like 4:30pm...and it's a Saturday.. holy cow, it's a god damn Saturday and I'm still home at this hour.. many things had happened since my last entry.. And yeah, some of u people read my entry and well.. thought that it was an up to date emo feeling I'm havin'..
Shits had happened... Got into another accident.. this time, it ain't a minor one...Was cruisin' along BKE and it's near the exit of KJE... That's where it all happened.. The exit was congested.. always had been in the mornings.. always jam up.. So there I was, followin' the car in front at normal distance and normal speed.. Suddenly, about four of five cars ahead... gave a good sudden break, followed by the car behind.. and followed by the other car behind.. And it then it was me.. I hit the breaks.. as hard as I fuckin' could... but it wasn't in time.. I hit the car in front and then the car in front hit the other car in front... leading to... chain collision.. Altogether four vehicles was involved. My 5 ton Truck followed by three civillian cars.. The car I hit was wrecked.. The bonnet of the car was totally crushed in.. another words, the car in front was sandwiched.. It was fucked up! The feelin' was indescribable.. Stunned..shaken... worried.. scared.. If it was a normal civilian car that I'm drivin', I wouldn't be that scared.. it's because that it was a military vehicle that got me shaken... Stupid cars... I'm still under investigation and I'm under suspension now.. I can only drive in camp.. I made a police report... Damn.. my profile's being busted cuz of this... Enough of this accident shit...
Ain't much in camp.. same old shit everyday.. except that it's much more slacker now..cuz back then we were doin' the LRI (Logistic Readiness Inspection) thingy.. so back then it was like.. fall out at late timing.. but now it's back to norm... okay, enough of Camp..
Handphones... Hmm... I got a phone, yeah.. i do have it.. Got a SIM card..yeah.. but it's a friggin' Pre-Paid.. i mean, thanks to Hallie for lettin' me use her pre paid... Somehow, pre-paids are good.. for budgeting ur money issues... but once ur value is down.. that's it.. u can't reach anyone.. and vice versa.. People can't get to ya when they need ya.. All u can get.. is the SMSes.. Even so, u can't reply.. feel helpless at times.. If u have the dough, it's okay, u can always top it up..but if u don't.. like what I'm experiencing right now... Can't do anythin' till my next pay.. damn it.. i might be gettin' a line again (Oh yeah, right hezwan, a line.. everytime u got a friggin' line, u'll end up havin' trouble payin' 'em off...) yeah yeah, i know.. but what can I do.. i need a new phone.. and I need a line.. So i'm resorting to Starhub.. i hope I can maintain it.. cuz this time, if I'm into the bill shit again, my dad's ain't payin' for me no more...
Fags prices went up.. i mean.. like up, UP!... Fuckin' hell.. it's like 11 bucks for one pack.. Soon, everybody will be smokin' one of those Roll 'em Up cigarettes... Even so, those Roll 'em Up Fags are going up too.. Soon, we all will be smokin' grass.. and I ain't talkin' about weed.. u know.. Take the leaf, and some grass..roll it up.. and light it.. there u go.. Nature's way of smokin'... That's why i'm going into outside import... u know what I mean.. Supplier and stuff.. Cartons.. and yada yada... it's better than buyin' here....
Me and Hallie, we're doin' swell! I'm loving her more every single day... The best thing that ever happened to me.. for now.. i mean, i met her parents and she met my parents.. and yada yada.. Got to say that I actually met my girlfriend's parents formally.. usually..it's either by accidental.. or by coincidence outside when I'm hangin' out... but this one.. it's formal.. I followed her family to some family gathering in Pasir Ris Beach..and it was awesome.. her dad was super cool! He broke the ice by crackin' me up with jokes.. Seriously, they made me feel welcome... I love my girl.. My baby's workin' today.. and i might fetch her home from work if I ain't hangin' out with the guys at night...
Talkin' about dad.. my dad is sick right now and he ain't like how he used to be.. He was brought to hospital last week when i wasn't at home.. but he didn't want to be warded.. Right now, he's sleepin'.. and he seems okay.. One whole week i didn't call home.. cuz i didn't have much time, eveytime after I fall out, I would fall asleep in bunk once I'm back in... Yesterday when I was headin' home, the whole journey I was thinkin' about my dad.. worried that something might happen.. u know.. u know what I mean... and to my relief.. he was okay when I got home.. I shooked his hand and kissed it like I never did it before.. usually i would "salam" him with a light grip and kiss his hands halfway... But yesterday.. i held his hands tight and kissed it proper... I was so relief that he was there... Undescribable feeling, only those who went through this before would know how it's like... I just hope he'll get better... I ain't ready yet if anything were to happen.. Not yet...
The band's pretty much okay, been gettin' gigs these days.. and well.. it seems that our name's up again.. but I'm sure that we ain't that known like how some other bands are.. but it's okay.. we play cuz we love playin' our music.. We play for the kids, not for ourselves.. i love my band, I love the guys.. they're like my second family.. brothers in music... Coolest and maddest bunch of goons I've hung out with.. hehehe...
And miss D, sorry for not updating... i've just been busy..anyways, about the treat.. i ain't sure when girl.. i'll try to reach ya one day.. Anyways, note down ur number in ur mail.. don't tag.. Mail me in my hotmail aight?
pluGGy.. where the heck are u gal? Been missin' ey? well, i missed ya.. so do sms me if u need anythin'.. aight? u got my number, don't be shy now... Cheers to ya!
To the rest of the people, sorry for not updating.. aight.. A thousand apologies...
Anyways, new pics comin' up.. i know some of ya been lookin' forward for the pics..but I just didn't have the time.. i'm doin' it after this.. So yeah.. do come back and check out if my pic section is up.. Aight, that's it.. till don't know when.. CHEERS TO YA ALL!!!
Shits had happened... Got into another accident.. this time, it ain't a minor one...Was cruisin' along BKE and it's near the exit of KJE... That's where it all happened.. The exit was congested.. always had been in the mornings.. always jam up.. So there I was, followin' the car in front at normal distance and normal speed.. Suddenly, about four of five cars ahead... gave a good sudden break, followed by the car behind.. and followed by the other car behind.. And it then it was me.. I hit the breaks.. as hard as I fuckin' could... but it wasn't in time.. I hit the car in front and then the car in front hit the other car in front... leading to... chain collision.. Altogether four vehicles was involved. My 5 ton Truck followed by three civillian cars.. The car I hit was wrecked.. The bonnet of the car was totally crushed in.. another words, the car in front was sandwiched.. It was fucked up! The feelin' was indescribable.. Stunned..shaken... worried.. scared.. If it was a normal civilian car that I'm drivin', I wouldn't be that scared.. it's because that it was a military vehicle that got me shaken... Stupid cars... I'm still under investigation and I'm under suspension now.. I can only drive in camp.. I made a police report... Damn.. my profile's being busted cuz of this... Enough of this accident shit...
Ain't much in camp.. same old shit everyday.. except that it's much more slacker now..cuz back then we were doin' the LRI (Logistic Readiness Inspection) thingy.. so back then it was like.. fall out at late timing.. but now it's back to norm... okay, enough of Camp..
Handphones... Hmm... I got a phone, yeah.. i do have it.. Got a SIM card..yeah.. but it's a friggin' Pre-Paid.. i mean, thanks to Hallie for lettin' me use her pre paid... Somehow, pre-paids are good.. for budgeting ur money issues... but once ur value is down.. that's it.. u can't reach anyone.. and vice versa.. People can't get to ya when they need ya.. All u can get.. is the SMSes.. Even so, u can't reply.. feel helpless at times.. If u have the dough, it's okay, u can always top it up..but if u don't.. like what I'm experiencing right now... Can't do anythin' till my next pay.. damn it.. i might be gettin' a line again (Oh yeah, right hezwan, a line.. everytime u got a friggin' line, u'll end up havin' trouble payin' 'em off...) yeah yeah, i know.. but what can I do.. i need a new phone.. and I need a line.. So i'm resorting to Starhub.. i hope I can maintain it.. cuz this time, if I'm into the bill shit again, my dad's ain't payin' for me no more...
Fags prices went up.. i mean.. like up, UP!... Fuckin' hell.. it's like 11 bucks for one pack.. Soon, everybody will be smokin' one of those Roll 'em Up cigarettes... Even so, those Roll 'em Up Fags are going up too.. Soon, we all will be smokin' grass.. and I ain't talkin' about weed.. u know.. Take the leaf, and some grass..roll it up.. and light it.. there u go.. Nature's way of smokin'... That's why i'm going into outside import... u know what I mean.. Supplier and stuff.. Cartons.. and yada yada... it's better than buyin' here....
Me and Hallie, we're doin' swell! I'm loving her more every single day... The best thing that ever happened to me.. for now.. i mean, i met her parents and she met my parents.. and yada yada.. Got to say that I actually met my girlfriend's parents formally.. usually..it's either by accidental.. or by coincidence outside when I'm hangin' out... but this one.. it's formal.. I followed her family to some family gathering in Pasir Ris Beach..and it was awesome.. her dad was super cool! He broke the ice by crackin' me up with jokes.. Seriously, they made me feel welcome... I love my girl.. My baby's workin' today.. and i might fetch her home from work if I ain't hangin' out with the guys at night...
Talkin' about dad.. my dad is sick right now and he ain't like how he used to be.. He was brought to hospital last week when i wasn't at home.. but he didn't want to be warded.. Right now, he's sleepin'.. and he seems okay.. One whole week i didn't call home.. cuz i didn't have much time, eveytime after I fall out, I would fall asleep in bunk once I'm back in... Yesterday when I was headin' home, the whole journey I was thinkin' about my dad.. worried that something might happen.. u know.. u know what I mean... and to my relief.. he was okay when I got home.. I shooked his hand and kissed it like I never did it before.. usually i would "salam" him with a light grip and kiss his hands halfway... But yesterday.. i held his hands tight and kissed it proper... I was so relief that he was there... Undescribable feeling, only those who went through this before would know how it's like... I just hope he'll get better... I ain't ready yet if anything were to happen.. Not yet...
The band's pretty much okay, been gettin' gigs these days.. and well.. it seems that our name's up again.. but I'm sure that we ain't that known like how some other bands are.. but it's okay.. we play cuz we love playin' our music.. We play for the kids, not for ourselves.. i love my band, I love the guys.. they're like my second family.. brothers in music... Coolest and maddest bunch of goons I've hung out with.. hehehe...
And miss D, sorry for not updating... i've just been busy..anyways, about the treat.. i ain't sure when girl.. i'll try to reach ya one day.. Anyways, note down ur number in ur mail.. don't tag.. Mail me in my hotmail aight?
pluGGy.. where the heck are u gal? Been missin' ey? well, i missed ya.. so do sms me if u need anythin'.. aight? u got my number, don't be shy now... Cheers to ya!
To the rest of the people, sorry for not updating.. aight.. A thousand apologies...
Anyways, new pics comin' up.. i know some of ya been lookin' forward for the pics..but I just didn't have the time.. i'm doin' it after this.. So yeah.. do come back and check out if my pic section is up.. Aight, that's it.. till don't know when.. CHEERS TO YA ALL!!!
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Days had past and many things had happened... Things that I didn't want to happen.. but it just.. did.. Thoughts are cloudin' up my mind and messin' up my head... Can't have clear thoughts. Difference in things after what had happened. Don't feel good, don't feel like usual.
Missin' old people, missin' the fun I once had, missin' the ol' mad bunch of BK, missin' the ol' chatters... missin' almost everythin'... People come and go, people come and stay... People who treasure, people who's forgotten, people who left but not forgotten... People who wanna take time off, people who simply, want to disappear... People who's leadin' their own lifes, people who's sick of things, people who just wants new things in life...
Days had past, weeks, months and years... Changes are inevitable... People go, people who go for good.. behaviour in people, attitude towards people and attitude of people towards u... Some change for the better and some change for the worst... Circle of friends who change almost every season...
Mistakes that was done, some may be forgiven but some... may not... Awkward feelings between two beings after an arguement or after truth reveals... Love, hate... the cruelty of life...
Paranoid, a certain feeling when one began to feel insecure in a certain something... Stress, depression, sadness, low morale... words that describes the downfall in life of a person...
Those are just simplified version of my thoughts.. it's more like..brief points.. Right now, I'm in a downfall of life... i mean, yeah.. I got a band, got a family and got a girl whom I love and trust.. but still.. not all things go the way u want them to... right? Problems rises.. situation formed... stress reveals it's cruelty to a person.. I'm experiencing somethin' like that... Insecurity, guilt, hurt, paranoid, stupidity, dumbfounded, betrayal.... Some of the bad feelings I'm havin' now.. Can't say out cuz it's personal...
puGGy's disappearing... she's going away... driftin' away not only from me but from the group as well.. that's sad but it's her choice... she'll miss us and I'm certain that she will.. Maybe, it's just that she need some new friends to hang out with? She's choosin' her path... after the confusion that she had... I hope that she choose the right one... Until today, i still care for her and worry for her like how I did before... But things gotta change... things....gotta change...
Hallie's been actin' strangely lately, I have no idea why. She doesn't want to say things yet but I know, something's wrong... I can't do much except to worry and just be there for her... Miss her a lot... Meetin' her tomorrow and hangin' out with her and her friends... Simply love this girl and I hope that her problems would be solve as soon as possible cuz I'm gettin' really worried.. not only for her.. for us as well...
Those are my thoughts for today... i shall part and rest my thoughts as I need sleep...To my fellow bloggers and readers... till then, i shall bid u all farewell...
Missin' old people, missin' the fun I once had, missin' the ol' mad bunch of BK, missin' the ol' chatters... missin' almost everythin'... People come and go, people come and stay... People who treasure, people who's forgotten, people who left but not forgotten... People who wanna take time off, people who simply, want to disappear... People who's leadin' their own lifes, people who's sick of things, people who just wants new things in life...
Days had past, weeks, months and years... Changes are inevitable... People go, people who go for good.. behaviour in people, attitude towards people and attitude of people towards u... Some change for the better and some change for the worst... Circle of friends who change almost every season...
Mistakes that was done, some may be forgiven but some... may not... Awkward feelings between two beings after an arguement or after truth reveals... Love, hate... the cruelty of life...
Paranoid, a certain feeling when one began to feel insecure in a certain something... Stress, depression, sadness, low morale... words that describes the downfall in life of a person...
Those are just simplified version of my thoughts.. it's more like..brief points.. Right now, I'm in a downfall of life... i mean, yeah.. I got a band, got a family and got a girl whom I love and trust.. but still.. not all things go the way u want them to... right? Problems rises.. situation formed... stress reveals it's cruelty to a person.. I'm experiencing somethin' like that... Insecurity, guilt, hurt, paranoid, stupidity, dumbfounded, betrayal.... Some of the bad feelings I'm havin' now.. Can't say out cuz it's personal...
puGGy's disappearing... she's going away... driftin' away not only from me but from the group as well.. that's sad but it's her choice... she'll miss us and I'm certain that she will.. Maybe, it's just that she need some new friends to hang out with? She's choosin' her path... after the confusion that she had... I hope that she choose the right one... Until today, i still care for her and worry for her like how I did before... But things gotta change... things....gotta change...
Hallie's been actin' strangely lately, I have no idea why. She doesn't want to say things yet but I know, something's wrong... I can't do much except to worry and just be there for her... Miss her a lot... Meetin' her tomorrow and hangin' out with her and her friends... Simply love this girl and I hope that her problems would be solve as soon as possible cuz I'm gettin' really worried.. not only for her.. for us as well...
Those are my thoughts for today... i shall part and rest my thoughts as I need sleep...To my fellow bloggers and readers... till then, i shall bid u all farewell...
Thursday, January 20, 2005
Hey ho everyone! it's been a while since i've last typed in.. yeah yeah, I know.. it's like as if it's the same old scripts I've been usin' to start off my blog.. well.. What can i say.. i'm a borin' guy with a repeated life cycle.. i mean.. same ol shit every single day... same shit, different days..
Met Tiffany the other day.. she brought her friend along.. Donna.. i brought B along and well we hung out and we showed them around.. Kinda interestin'.. i mean.. it's interestin' to exchange cultures amongst ourselves.. u know, the way we live.. the way we do things.. almost the same... only some minor differences.. And Tiff did say some things about us Singaporeans.. i mean, she read it from the book "Culture Shock: Singapore".. She read it and she told us on what the book said... It says somethin' about Singaporeans being Conservative.. and things like we're not allowerd to show affection in public.. or things like, we're not suppose to wear revealin' clothes (for girls that is) and we do not curse or swear here... So she thought that Singaporeans are really well discpilined and when she heard about the "Not-To-Wear-Revealing-Clothes", She and her friend, Donna wore t-shirts and jeans..and they were all decent.. But when they saw the girls in Orchard Road wearin' Tank tops and stuff like that.. they were shocked.. That's when they learned that it was okay to dress like that.. And whatever the book says, it's the opposite here.. Come on, I mean.. guys.. over here.. couples make out in public, dressin' up in revealin' clothes.. and Tiffany was surprised when her friend in the University over here cursed.. Cuz to her thoughts.. we don't do all that.. I told her..That book is bullshit.. U gotta know us... FROM us... well, she was interested..interested to learn malay..and some chinese from Bernard.. and well.. it's bad of me.. i thought her some swear words in malay..hehe.. She told us that she wants to hang out again some time.. but I ain't sure when cuz B's workin' this weekend..so no B.. They're cool.. seriously.. they're cool...
Many things had happened over the days.. me goin' back to details..me fallin' in love and lovin' that girl deeply.. HALLIE I LOVE YOU!! Yeah..that girl makes me smile.. every day... u guys should know how it's like..i mean.. u look at the girl u love and she smile back at ya.. it simply makes ur day... that one li'l smile means so much.. whatever it is, I'm hopin' and wishin' that her face would be the face that I'll see everyday till I grow old.. Another words, I'm serious about this girl and I want us to work out... She's awesome!
Currently I'm attached to PLC which is Pasir Laba Camp and I'm a stand by driver there... meanin? Well, meanin' that whenever they call me..I'll be activated... which means that I have to report back to camp within' 2 hours... So this weekend, I'm on standby mode..But it's heaven for me... Cuz it's like, no one bothers u there... first of all i'm from another unit.. and it's awesome! The feeling's awesome cuz they won't bother u! And u basically sleeps the whole time when u don't have detail to do.. and if u have nothin' for the afternoon till evening... u can go home! IT'S FANTASTIC! hahahaha....
okay.. i'm gettin' bored...cuz I got nothin' much to say... So yeah.. i'm outta here.. Gotta go and fetch my girl later on...
Cheers to all!!
Met Tiffany the other day.. she brought her friend along.. Donna.. i brought B along and well we hung out and we showed them around.. Kinda interestin'.. i mean.. it's interestin' to exchange cultures amongst ourselves.. u know, the way we live.. the way we do things.. almost the same... only some minor differences.. And Tiff did say some things about us Singaporeans.. i mean, she read it from the book "Culture Shock: Singapore".. She read it and she told us on what the book said... It says somethin' about Singaporeans being Conservative.. and things like we're not allowerd to show affection in public.. or things like, we're not suppose to wear revealin' clothes (for girls that is) and we do not curse or swear here... So she thought that Singaporeans are really well discpilined and when she heard about the "Not-To-Wear-Revealing-Clothes", She and her friend, Donna wore t-shirts and jeans..and they were all decent.. But when they saw the girls in Orchard Road wearin' Tank tops and stuff like that.. they were shocked.. That's when they learned that it was okay to dress like that.. And whatever the book says, it's the opposite here.. Come on, I mean.. guys.. over here.. couples make out in public, dressin' up in revealin' clothes.. and Tiffany was surprised when her friend in the University over here cursed.. Cuz to her thoughts.. we don't do all that.. I told her..That book is bullshit.. U gotta know us... FROM us... well, she was interested..interested to learn malay..and some chinese from Bernard.. and well.. it's bad of me.. i thought her some swear words in malay..hehe.. She told us that she wants to hang out again some time.. but I ain't sure when cuz B's workin' this weekend..so no B.. They're cool.. seriously.. they're cool...
Many things had happened over the days.. me goin' back to details..me fallin' in love and lovin' that girl deeply.. HALLIE I LOVE YOU!! Yeah..that girl makes me smile.. every day... u guys should know how it's like..i mean.. u look at the girl u love and she smile back at ya.. it simply makes ur day... that one li'l smile means so much.. whatever it is, I'm hopin' and wishin' that her face would be the face that I'll see everyday till I grow old.. Another words, I'm serious about this girl and I want us to work out... She's awesome!
Currently I'm attached to PLC which is Pasir Laba Camp and I'm a stand by driver there... meanin? Well, meanin' that whenever they call me..I'll be activated... which means that I have to report back to camp within' 2 hours... So this weekend, I'm on standby mode..But it's heaven for me... Cuz it's like, no one bothers u there... first of all i'm from another unit.. and it's awesome! The feeling's awesome cuz they won't bother u! And u basically sleeps the whole time when u don't have detail to do.. and if u have nothin' for the afternoon till evening... u can go home! IT'S FANTASTIC! hahahaha....
okay.. i'm gettin' bored...cuz I got nothin' much to say... So yeah.. i'm outta here.. Gotta go and fetch my girl later on...
Cheers to all!!
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Huergh! Back in the sacks... Yeah, boredom... I came back home just to get my stuff so here I am.. At home, on a Tuesday.. Called my girl but couldn't get through cuz her hi-card is low.. i'm goin' to top it up for her... hopefully her phone's with her.. damn, i miss her already.. Although I spend time with her like.. Three days straight this previous weekend.. Hehe... really really nice, a warm and comfortable feelin'.. yeah yeah.. I know some of u might say.. "People in love, of course lah!".. Come on guys, I mean.. u guys should know how it feels right? Being with ur loved one... Just spendin' time together even though u don't say anythin'.. Havin' ourselves in each others' arms is simple enough to say everythin'.. I guess she's workin' today...
New Year's comin' up soon.. God damn, i ain' t got a fuckin' plan.. Last year.. I spent my fuckin' new year in Sunplaza Park with the boys.. hehehe.. It was crappy but I sure had fun.. Town in new year's eve... bad idea.. Lotsa people.. Crowded to the max and u'll be walkin' like as if u got some feet problem.. 0.5cm per second kinda walk.. Got the preview back then in Christmas.. I mean, it's Christmas and the crowd was already like... WHOA!~~~ So where should I go? I told Hallie that I'd meet her this weekend and it's this Friday.. Where should I go? Hmm... Well, let's see...
Supposedly, today's the day when Tiffany arrive here in Singapore.. But I ain't got news from her in my message box... Now I ain't sure if she's comin' or not... But i feel that she's comin' here allright.. Anyways, Tiffany is a friend of mine who I got to know from MySpace and she's from California... She's comin' down here to study for one semester.. i don't know under what programme or what thing... Well, hopfully I could see her.. Kinda excited cuz this is the first time a friend from overseas comin' down here...
Camp is pretty much borin'.. Not much shit happened... The same old thing.. every single fuckin' day since I cannot drive any vehicle outside.. So fuck! Pretty bored.. Well, ain't much on the topic camp.. Don't even wanna talk about it.. Tsk...
Called up pluGGy yesterday and thought of chattin' up with her but then.. I don't know what's wrong.. it seems that her phone's down or she lost her phone or maybe she just don't wanna pick up the phone.. well, sad to hear voicemail cuz I thought I would hear her voice instead.. I guess she's busy.. So whatever it is, just hope she's well and all.. Kinda miss that girl... pluGGy, if u read this message, call B or anyone.. Especially B aight? cuz I would reach him if there's anythin'... If u wanna reach me, call him on weekends.. Cuz u should know, I'm out with him almost every weekends... Take care pluGGy...
Aight, that's it for today.. I'll be back this weekend to write more.. hopefully.. And I have a few new pics to upload.. oh yeah, there's already some new pics for u guys to check out.. One more thing, if u guys feel that my webbie is kinda lame.. tell me so i know, so I can do somethin' about it... maybe re-vamP? Or maybe just do minor adjustments? heh... Aight, take care and cheers to all!
New Year's comin' up soon.. God damn, i ain' t got a fuckin' plan.. Last year.. I spent my fuckin' new year in Sunplaza Park with the boys.. hehehe.. It was crappy but I sure had fun.. Town in new year's eve... bad idea.. Lotsa people.. Crowded to the max and u'll be walkin' like as if u got some feet problem.. 0.5cm per second kinda walk.. Got the preview back then in Christmas.. I mean, it's Christmas and the crowd was already like... WHOA!~~~ So where should I go? I told Hallie that I'd meet her this weekend and it's this Friday.. Where should I go? Hmm... Well, let's see...
Supposedly, today's the day when Tiffany arrive here in Singapore.. But I ain't got news from her in my message box... Now I ain't sure if she's comin' or not... But i feel that she's comin' here allright.. Anyways, Tiffany is a friend of mine who I got to know from MySpace and she's from California... She's comin' down here to study for one semester.. i don't know under what programme or what thing... Well, hopfully I could see her.. Kinda excited cuz this is the first time a friend from overseas comin' down here...
Camp is pretty much borin'.. Not much shit happened... The same old thing.. every single fuckin' day since I cannot drive any vehicle outside.. So fuck! Pretty bored.. Well, ain't much on the topic camp.. Don't even wanna talk about it.. Tsk...
Called up pluGGy yesterday and thought of chattin' up with her but then.. I don't know what's wrong.. it seems that her phone's down or she lost her phone or maybe she just don't wanna pick up the phone.. well, sad to hear voicemail cuz I thought I would hear her voice instead.. I guess she's busy.. So whatever it is, just hope she's well and all.. Kinda miss that girl... pluGGy, if u read this message, call B or anyone.. Especially B aight? cuz I would reach him if there's anythin'... If u wanna reach me, call him on weekends.. Cuz u should know, I'm out with him almost every weekends... Take care pluGGy...
Aight, that's it for today.. I'll be back this weekend to write more.. hopefully.. And I have a few new pics to upload.. oh yeah, there's already some new pics for u guys to check out.. One more thing, if u guys feel that my webbie is kinda lame.. tell me so i know, so I can do somethin' about it... maybe re-vamP? Or maybe just do minor adjustments? heh... Aight, take care and cheers to all!
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Boo yah!! Hey ho all! i'm back again.. woo! Got a long weekend this weekend... most real, it's Christmas today! Happy holidays to all of those that's celebratin' Christmas! Anyways, 1 week had past and well, my days are borin' in camp.. since i camp drive outside.. All i can do is to book in vehicles for Inspection... Madness i tell ya... It's gettin' bored in there.. Fuck man, when will I ever be a free civilian again... most of the guys I know are gettin' that key to civilian-ness already.. nevermind, one more year to go... Just one more year...
One news for ya'all... Me & Hallie.. we're together now.. officially, together.. So yeah, that's one news.. I felt that I should let u guys know.. Just to update things.. talkin' about hallie, i just came back from her place.. I mean, her void deck that is.. I fetched her home and hung out with her till late mornin'.. Awesome feelin'.. It's been awhile since I got this... sincere feeling of lovin' and being loved... I'm lookin' forward for the days that I'll be hangin' out with her.. Love that girl!!
Whoa, read my tagboard and there are some people taggin'... pluGGy, pluGGy, my dear old pluGGy... Don't worry about it girl... I was taken aback that day when u talked that way.. kinda disapointed too... but girl, u should know me.. Heck, we've known each other for a long time and there was even a period where we were even this close (Doing the finger stick together thingy).. i know ur style, u always talk that way whenever ur feelin' Fucked up.. Another words, one of those LaL moods of urs... heh.. old skool siak! hahaha... Aight, just take care of urself okay? Lookin' forward to see ya again sometime.. Catch up with things and do stupid things like what we always did back then? Cheers pluGGy!
Aight, that's it for this mornin'.. Later on, I'll be sendin' hallie to work.. that is if I wake up.. hopefully I will.. yeah.. take care u guys! Cheers to all!
P.S. Shammie, if ur readin' this or to anyone that knows Shammie... I've been lookin' all over for ya but i guess u pull urself out from friendster and myspace cuz somehow ur profile is not in there and when i went to ur site.. it's no longer around and I lost ur number... i was lookin' for u cuz I wanted to wish ya.. A happy birthday... Well, looks like it's more like... A Happy Belated Birthday to ya shammie! Take care of urself! Cheers!
One news for ya'all... Me & Hallie.. we're together now.. officially, together.. So yeah, that's one news.. I felt that I should let u guys know.. Just to update things.. talkin' about hallie, i just came back from her place.. I mean, her void deck that is.. I fetched her home and hung out with her till late mornin'.. Awesome feelin'.. It's been awhile since I got this... sincere feeling of lovin' and being loved... I'm lookin' forward for the days that I'll be hangin' out with her.. Love that girl!!
Whoa, read my tagboard and there are some people taggin'... pluGGy, pluGGy, my dear old pluGGy... Don't worry about it girl... I was taken aback that day when u talked that way.. kinda disapointed too... but girl, u should know me.. Heck, we've known each other for a long time and there was even a period where we were even this close (Doing the finger stick together thingy).. i know ur style, u always talk that way whenever ur feelin' Fucked up.. Another words, one of those LaL moods of urs... heh.. old skool siak! hahaha... Aight, just take care of urself okay? Lookin' forward to see ya again sometime.. Catch up with things and do stupid things like what we always did back then? Cheers pluGGy!
Aight, that's it for this mornin'.. Later on, I'll be sendin' hallie to work.. that is if I wake up.. hopefully I will.. yeah.. take care u guys! Cheers to all!
P.S. Shammie, if ur readin' this or to anyone that knows Shammie... I've been lookin' all over for ya but i guess u pull urself out from friendster and myspace cuz somehow ur profile is not in there and when i went to ur site.. it's no longer around and I lost ur number... i was lookin' for u cuz I wanted to wish ya.. A happy birthday... Well, looks like it's more like... A Happy Belated Birthday to ya shammie! Take care of urself! Cheers!
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Hey ho to all... I'm back.. After 7 days of fucked up life in DB... All u see are the four walls in ur cell.. And each time u go out is only in the mornin' to do a stupid PT set... One set consists of 20 jumpin' jacks, 20 sit ups, 20 push-ups and 20 sec of leg raise... And altogether we have to do 4 sets each mornin'... after that, 20 rounds around the "parade" square carryin' two sandbags in the fieldpack, each weighin' about 10 kg... After that shit, u'll do about half hour of foot drills... After that, u go for lunch in ur cell.. And the food in there... SUCKS TO THE CORE... u can't taste a fuckin' taste in ur food and the soup... taste like crap.. it's like water and they just add a li'l bit of flavourin'.. And the veges on the "dish"... it's even worse..it's like, soggy and left there for a long time.. and it somehow make u lose ur appetite.. I've only been in there for 7 days and it was fucked up in there... After lunch, u do nothin' but sit in ur cell until dinner time... and dinner's at 4.. can u believe that? And after that, u do the same shit, just sit in there.. And think of the wrongs u've done... until it's lights off time... luckily I ain't alone in there.. I was in there together with 4 other cellmates... Among them, I was the only one with a 7 day sentence while the rest was with a 30 or 40 days sentence.. And i respect them cuz they can hang on... by today, some of 'em are out already cuz they did their time... It's really fucked up in there... And can u believe this? I have to call a Lance Coporal, "sir" when I'm in there... And they act all fucked up just because they're from the PROVOST unit... but some of 'em are okay but some are like stuck up... Whatever it is, I know that I'm outta there... This time, i'll watch my steps real close. So to those NSF or NSF-To-Be... Never.. i say again, NEVER GO IN DB...
Anyways, i'm back to my normal days again... And everything's goin' fine with Hallie... Slowly, I'm beginnin' to understand her and i guess that she's beginnin' to understand me... Hmm.. She's awesome, she's the light at the end of that long tunnel which keeps me goin' on even when I'm down. I love this girl so much! i'll be meetin' her later in the day... To hang out maybe... or watch movie.. or stuff like that...
Thanks to the DB fuck that I didn't get to perform with my band the other day.. It was the most fucked up feelin'...really fucked up...
Called pluGGy up early yesterday to talk to her and somehow, I feel that she changed... She ain't the same ol' pluGGy that she used to be... i just miss the old pluGGy... I can't change her, she becomes who she wants to be... Whatever it is, I'm am tryin' hard to see her as the same pluGGy that I knew 4 years ago... pluGGy, if ur readin' this... miss ya and good luck in choosin' ur path... (Oh...kay.. I don't really get what I'm tryin' to say.. but I hope u guys understand what I mean...)
Aight, that's it for today, I'm outta here... Cheers to all!
Anyways, i'm back to my normal days again... And everything's goin' fine with Hallie... Slowly, I'm beginnin' to understand her and i guess that she's beginnin' to understand me... Hmm.. She's awesome, she's the light at the end of that long tunnel which keeps me goin' on even when I'm down. I love this girl so much! i'll be meetin' her later in the day... To hang out maybe... or watch movie.. or stuff like that...
Thanks to the DB fuck that I didn't get to perform with my band the other day.. It was the most fucked up feelin'...really fucked up...
Called pluGGy up early yesterday to talk to her and somehow, I feel that she changed... She ain't the same ol' pluGGy that she used to be... i just miss the old pluGGy... I can't change her, she becomes who she wants to be... Whatever it is, I'm am tryin' hard to see her as the same pluGGy that I knew 4 years ago... pluGGy, if ur readin' this... miss ya and good luck in choosin' ur path... (Oh...kay.. I don't really get what I'm tryin' to say.. but I hope u guys understand what I mean...)
Aight, that's it for today, I'm outta here... Cheers to all!
Monday, December 06, 2004
Aight aight... Forgot one more thing ya'all... This Saturday, No Direction's playin' RP (Republic Poly)... Last band.. I was lookin' forward to get this down but dang, this shit is messin' me up.. But ND's playin', with or without me... Just to let ya'all know... I can't make it but guys, do come down and support the band aight? I can't believe I'm missin' a show..
Feelin' fucked up and afraid of what's to become tomorrow...
Feelin' fucked up and afraid of what's to become tomorrow...
Hey all... How's it hangin'... i've been away for a while and for sure that I've been missin'... November this year, is the worst month I ever had in 2004... I crashed twiced, didn't turn up for detail (through miscommunication with my Staff Sargeant), woke up late for detail (Unintentionally), lost my phone line, lost contact with my girl and now... lost my phone... It's really fucked up! I guess that many of u been wonderin' on why I've not been around... Too many shit has been goin' on... I'm at home today (Monday) cuz I got a halfday off today.. My sargeant broke the news on my case (Chargin' me)... And well, after waitin' for two weeks, I'm bein' charged tomorrow... 8am... Smartest four, kiwi-ed boots... Punishment is still unknown... My sargeant gave me an off cuz he wanted me to spend time at home and try not to think before I turn up for tomorrow... It's either a 7 days DB or a 21 days SOL (Suspension Of Leave)... I'm so fucked... That's for sure!
I got my baby back.. Found her and hung out with her last Saturday.. It was an awesome feelin'.. Gettin' to see her and all.. And hang out... It was simply undescribable... I love u baby! and guys, just to clear things out... Me & Hallie, we're just datin' and we ain't officially a couple yet.. So don't assume that we are together aight? Hangin' out with her that day really made me smile again after all this shitness that had been goin' on... I simply love this girl... Baby, if ur readin' this, I love ya!
I feel so fucked up right now knowin' that I'll either be goin' to DB or SOL tomorrow... My parents know nuts about what's goin' on and I don't intend to tell 'em... Just wanna lay low and pretend that I'm in camp doin' okay... I don't want them to worry that much.. The ND crew knows about this and I feel that pluGGy should know this too.. I don't have her number but pluGGy, if ur readin' this, I'll be goin' missin' for a while, aight? Hope to see u around again...
Aight dawgs... I'ma outta here, gonna smoke the weed... Word? Peace out!
I got my baby back.. Found her and hung out with her last Saturday.. It was an awesome feelin'.. Gettin' to see her and all.. And hang out... It was simply undescribable... I love u baby! and guys, just to clear things out... Me & Hallie, we're just datin' and we ain't officially a couple yet.. So don't assume that we are together aight? Hangin' out with her that day really made me smile again after all this shitness that had been goin' on... I simply love this girl... Baby, if ur readin' this, I love ya!
I feel so fucked up right now knowin' that I'll either be goin' to DB or SOL tomorrow... My parents know nuts about what's goin' on and I don't intend to tell 'em... Just wanna lay low and pretend that I'm in camp doin' okay... I don't want them to worry that much.. The ND crew knows about this and I feel that pluGGy should know this too.. I don't have her number but pluGGy, if ur readin' this, I'll be goin' missin' for a while, aight? Hope to see u around again...
Aight dawgs... I'ma outta here, gonna smoke the weed... Word? Peace out!
Saturday, November 27, 2004
Ola to all! I'm back at home.. Finally.. I got a detail for tomorrow (Sunday) But Hell, I don't wanna go! I told my Staff Sargeant that I got plans... I understand that it's hard for him to find replacements.. First of all, he ain't the detailin' Spec... Some other guy.. Which doesn't know how to do detailin'.. Everybody's tired of camp.. They're sick of the details that they get... Tons of details but less off days... Empty promises... We work overtime but get the same friggin' pay... If it was an outside job, we would earn god knows how much extra dollars just to work at those extra time... The indented vehicles was put at a different timing but when the actual thing happens, it always turns out later.. Like yesterday, my detail started at 5:30am... For the recruits' grenade throwin' at the live range in Pasir Laba Camp... So yeah, the 5 of us reported there at 5:30 on the dot... But the guys in Infantry wasn't ready to move out... In the end, we ended up movin' off around 6:30... Reached at the ground around 7 plus... Got there, waited for those dumbos to end their trainin'.. All in all, it ended around 6pm... Move out from there, head back to camp... And guess what? I got another detail! This time, it's coverin' safety in East Coast Park for their 14 click route march! How awesome can it be? So there I go again with two other drivers... Reach back camp around 7pm.. And those in Infantry decided to move out at 7:45pm... So There I go again.. Head out to East Coast... Waited there.. Coverin' safety... Sit in my Rover together with one of the medics... And what time it ended? 5:30am, the next day... And in my detail sheet.. Supposedly to have another detail at 6am... I didn't have enough sleep! So when I got back in camp, I spoke to my Staff Sargeant that I can't do it... I might doze off while drivin' and cause some accident... So he got a replacement for me... And here I am! I got home... Finally.. It's fucked up to be in camp... Most of the people that doesn't know much about what's goin' on, they might think that drivers are the slackiest vocation u can get in the army... But it ain't.. It can stress u up in the mind... I'm tryin' to hold on...
On Thursday, I went down to Bugis... Went to this Cafe where Hallie is workin'.. Hopin' to see her at the counter when I got down.. But all hopes fails when there was no sight of her... Wanted to approach the staffs there but I just didn't have the guts to ask... I mean, what would they think? So, my efforts were all burnt... Met up with B.. Hung out and he spoke to me... When he met me, he said..."We need to talk..." And that talk was bad news... When I typed in my previous entry, I said somethin' about What Could Be Worse? This is it... I'm in the hot zone... I can't say it out here cuz it's confidential.. But what he told me really got me... Bad Details, No Phone, Missin' Girlfriend and now this? I got a few people eyes turned red...
That's it for today... i can't type in much no more... Outta here...
On Thursday, I went down to Bugis... Went to this Cafe where Hallie is workin'.. Hopin' to see her at the counter when I got down.. But all hopes fails when there was no sight of her... Wanted to approach the staffs there but I just didn't have the guts to ask... I mean, what would they think? So, my efforts were all burnt... Met up with B.. Hung out and he spoke to me... When he met me, he said..."We need to talk..." And that talk was bad news... When I typed in my previous entry, I said somethin' about What Could Be Worse? This is it... I'm in the hot zone... I can't say it out here cuz it's confidential.. But what he told me really got me... Bad Details, No Phone, Missin' Girlfriend and now this? I got a few people eyes turned red...
That's it for today... i can't type in much no more... Outta here...
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Hey ho to all! I guess it's peaceful these days ey? I've not been home for almost two weeks... Madness ain't it? Last week, my weekend was burnt cuz I had to send those recruits to Mandai 300m Range, it's somewhere near the Night Safari. And guess what? I had to stay there from 8 in the mornin' till 12am the next day? Wake up at 6am, head out to the company, pick up those recruits and head down to the range... Reach there roughly around 7 plus in the mornin'.. and once we're there, we sleep... All in all there's 8 drivers includin' me... We sleep till lunch time then we wake up again... eat our lunch, talk shit with each other, then go back to sleep... dinner time, wake up, talk shit.. then sleep again... wake up at night to go back to camp.. Once we're in camp, it's like 12 plus in the mornin' the next day... Same repeated cycle for Friday, Saturday and Sunday... That ain't bad.. the thing that I was fucked up about was that, the detail was a cock up! I planned up for the Raya outin' last weekend and boom! I got the detail sheet on Friday sayin' that I'm going for range.. Ain't that awesome?! Everybody was lookin' forward to go out that day includin' myself cuz that was the only day my dear Hallie can go out with me and my friends... I had never felt so fucked up! Not only that, I hit a rover with a 5 tonner while movin' out of the parkin' lot.. what can be worse? It was night time, it was rainin' heavily... My side view mirrors were all covered up with rain drops and my side window was fogged up due to the air con in the cabin of my tonner.. So another words, I can't see shit! So bang, there I go, half of the front bumper of the rover was scraped off... big time! Right now, I'm the topic for the season in MT Line... "Popular" and the "In-Thing" for the season.. Fucked up.. Okay, enough of that.. After comin' back on Sunday, I check out my detail for Monday... Okay, so it's In-Camp aread, coverin' safety... Meanin', I'll be stayin' in camp and do safety for the soldiers... So there I go, reportin' there... The next thing I know.. BOOM.. I'm in Tekong... How cock up can the details be? Supposedly, I'm to be in Tekong for 5 days... but I went back to mainland cuz the Sargeant that I was attached to, got replacements for me... And not only that, my rover brokedown when I was in Tekong... I was really at the point of breakin'.. I feel that I could lose my mind anytime...
That wasn't it... My line had been cut off, so right now, contact is difficult for everyone, includin' myself... That ain't the worst... I called up Hallie when I was in Tekong usin' the Public Phone and guess what? M1 cut off her line too! Both with the same reason, unpaid bills... Right now, I'm missin' her dearly... Cuz I don't know how to reach her and I guess that she doesn't know how to reach me too... I don't have her home number.. and the only contact was her phone.. I was hoping that she'd pick up the phone but all I hear when I dialled her number was..."The M1 customer that ur callin' is temporarily out of service..." I was like dragged down to the ground and if possible, pushed down into the soil and dug in... I was feelin' waaaay fucked up that day.. I worry on Hallie and I'm misisn' her so much... The only way is to either wait for her at her place...hopefully we would meet at the lift lobby... or go to her work place and hope that she's workin' on that day... or go up to her house (although I have no idea on which unit she's stayin' in, maybe I can try knockin' at every Malay house on that floor!)... Hallie baby, if ur readin' this, I want u to know that I'm missin' u and I really really wanna meet up with u! And I'm really sorry for everything dear...
Currently, I'm typin' out this blog in the DO's Office (Duty Officer) cuz I'm the duty driver for today... So right now, chillin' out at the office typin' out this blog.. Boredom... Simply lookin' forward for my weekend...I miss my girl, I got no line, I'm the bull's eye of my MT Line... POWER GEDEGAH!!! Madness!!! ARGH!!!
*Sigh*... that's it, I'm outta here... Till then... Offheidesen!
P.S. Hallie baby, I've put ur pics out of my blog... Now u don't have to worry aight? Love ya!
That wasn't it... My line had been cut off, so right now, contact is difficult for everyone, includin' myself... That ain't the worst... I called up Hallie when I was in Tekong usin' the Public Phone and guess what? M1 cut off her line too! Both with the same reason, unpaid bills... Right now, I'm missin' her dearly... Cuz I don't know how to reach her and I guess that she doesn't know how to reach me too... I don't have her home number.. and the only contact was her phone.. I was hoping that she'd pick up the phone but all I hear when I dialled her number was..."The M1 customer that ur callin' is temporarily out of service..." I was like dragged down to the ground and if possible, pushed down into the soil and dug in... I was feelin' waaaay fucked up that day.. I worry on Hallie and I'm misisn' her so much... The only way is to either wait for her at her place...hopefully we would meet at the lift lobby... or go to her work place and hope that she's workin' on that day... or go up to her house (although I have no idea on which unit she's stayin' in, maybe I can try knockin' at every Malay house on that floor!)... Hallie baby, if ur readin' this, I want u to know that I'm missin' u and I really really wanna meet up with u! And I'm really sorry for everything dear...
Currently, I'm typin' out this blog in the DO's Office (Duty Officer) cuz I'm the duty driver for today... So right now, chillin' out at the office typin' out this blog.. Boredom... Simply lookin' forward for my weekend...I miss my girl, I got no line, I'm the bull's eye of my MT Line... POWER GEDEGAH!!! Madness!!! ARGH!!!
*Sigh*... that's it, I'm outta here... Till then... Offheidesen!
P.S. Hallie baby, I've put ur pics out of my blog... Now u don't have to worry aight? Love ya!
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Hey hey hey! Hey ho to all of ya! And today, being the first new day of the Islamic calendar...I wanna wish ya'all... "Selamat Hari Raya"!!!! I would like to apologise to everyone out there, anyone that I've wronged... Hopefully u would forgive me... Right now, I'm feelin' really bad...
Promised Hallie that I'd bought her the Honey Chicken that they're sellin' in Geylang... And I did.. She told me to get two but I bought her extras... Well, to give some to her family... So there I was, buyin' the Honey Chicken... After that, I hung out with the bunch... The so called, usual bunch with some of the old chatters joinin' us after not meetin' for a long time.. So yeah.. Hung out, chatted and laugh away... And after that, went to play MOHAA in Grandlink... All this time, I totally forget about Hallie... The thing is, I called her before we went to play MOHAA... But she didn't pick up my call. So I take it that she's busy helpin' out at home with Raya preparation. I promised her and yet I didn't make it... It's not that I didn't but it, I did... After MOHAA, I called her a few dozen times but to no avail... She switch off her phone. I guess that she's either mad at me or she's busy or she's sleepin'... But I take it that she's mad at me... Wild guess but the probable chances are that. I'm feelin' so fuckin' bad right now and I don't know how i'm gonna make it up to her... I hope that she would forgive me...
Anyways, hung out with the bunch and puGGy was one of them... It was fun, hangin' out with the old bunch and most real, have not hung out with puGGy for quite some time and well, hangin' out with her again.. Was madness.. Hehehe... Just like the old times.. The chatter days..
Geylang was packed (Like always, every fuckin' year)... but these days, it ain't the same no more.. The place, simply disgust me.. Okay, not the place, the place is nice... but the people there... Most of 'em.. Make me not want to go there at all.. It's hot, it's jam packed and u walk like 1cm/sec... small li'l tiny steps to make ur move... Being a big guy, it was hard to manouver in between tight spaces... Met some old friends (I think).. or was it saw... Met my camp mates... and bla bla bla.. the usual shit when u go Geylang.. If u were a regular there... U'll meet people u didn't even meet for ages... and suddenly, boom.. they're right in front of ya. So my conclusion, Geylang is 50/50 on the good and bad side.. (Whatever I meant... SOCKS!)...
That's it for today, don't feel like typin' out no more cuz I'm feelin' super bad... Cheers to all!
"Kami dari Carlsberg hendak mengucapkan, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua umat umat Islam... Berayalah bersama, Carlsberg...Probably the best beer in the world." - Made up by Fan...
Promised Hallie that I'd bought her the Honey Chicken that they're sellin' in Geylang... And I did.. She told me to get two but I bought her extras... Well, to give some to her family... So there I was, buyin' the Honey Chicken... After that, I hung out with the bunch... The so called, usual bunch with some of the old chatters joinin' us after not meetin' for a long time.. So yeah.. Hung out, chatted and laugh away... And after that, went to play MOHAA in Grandlink... All this time, I totally forget about Hallie... The thing is, I called her before we went to play MOHAA... But she didn't pick up my call. So I take it that she's busy helpin' out at home with Raya preparation. I promised her and yet I didn't make it... It's not that I didn't but it, I did... After MOHAA, I called her a few dozen times but to no avail... She switch off her phone. I guess that she's either mad at me or she's busy or she's sleepin'... But I take it that she's mad at me... Wild guess but the probable chances are that. I'm feelin' so fuckin' bad right now and I don't know how i'm gonna make it up to her... I hope that she would forgive me...
Anyways, hung out with the bunch and puGGy was one of them... It was fun, hangin' out with the old bunch and most real, have not hung out with puGGy for quite some time and well, hangin' out with her again.. Was madness.. Hehehe... Just like the old times.. The chatter days..
Geylang was packed (Like always, every fuckin' year)... but these days, it ain't the same no more.. The place, simply disgust me.. Okay, not the place, the place is nice... but the people there... Most of 'em.. Make me not want to go there at all.. It's hot, it's jam packed and u walk like 1cm/sec... small li'l tiny steps to make ur move... Being a big guy, it was hard to manouver in between tight spaces... Met some old friends (I think).. or was it saw... Met my camp mates... and bla bla bla.. the usual shit when u go Geylang.. If u were a regular there... U'll meet people u didn't even meet for ages... and suddenly, boom.. they're right in front of ya. So my conclusion, Geylang is 50/50 on the good and bad side.. (Whatever I meant... SOCKS!)...
That's it for today, don't feel like typin' out no more cuz I'm feelin' super bad... Cheers to all!
"Kami dari Carlsberg hendak mengucapkan, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua umat umat Islam... Berayalah bersama, Carlsberg...Probably the best beer in the world." - Made up by Fan...
Friday, October 29, 2004
Whoa... Not been in here for quite some time.. And god damn.. People hate me huh? What can I do? There's no such thing as everybody likin' u... So yeah, there's the haters and there's the likers and there's the neutral party... I don't know, after readin' the tagboard, I seriously don't know what I've done wrong and seriously, why must we resort to violence ey? Why can't humans talk in a peaceful manner? I mean, vulgarities and all and bein' intimidatin'... I mean, about Dzafir, i don't know, just ignore him for a while.. He's pushin' it... Dzaf, please, stop the taggin'... For cryin' out loud Fir, it's my blog... Chill out for a while aight?
I'm givin' up... Lal... Aight, tired of typin' for a while... Be back.. whenever I'm back.. So yeah, offheidesen!
Guten tag und tut mir!
I'm givin' up... Lal... Aight, tired of typin' for a while... Be back.. whenever I'm back.. So yeah, offheidesen!
Guten tag und tut mir!
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Hey ho all! how's it been? I know that it's been quite a while since I've last typed in my entry... Some of u may be wonderin', what's goin' on? nothin' much... Don't have much time anymore for anythin'.. I mean, i don't even write in my diary no more... Cuz everytime my day's done in camp, I would be too tired to write... Can't even think straight.. The number of details I'm havin' is increasin'.. And guess what? I even have detail on Sunday and that is today... My first weekend detail.. Fucked up ain't it? I'll make sure they pay me back with one off day... Fuckin' weekend and they take it away... Whatever it is, it's good, cuz I can get my mileage.. I'll be sendin' the recruits to bedok camp... I have no idea for what... And what's best, this will be my first troop lift... insane...And I have another detail tomorrow... power packed! hehehe...
Allright, many things happened since i last wrote... My & puGGy, we've not been talkin' much or even SMS cuz I guess she's busy and all.. And same goes to me.. I don't want to bother her... Miss her.. Yes I do, big time.. But i can't do much about it... And I guess that I'm movin' on... Memories remains...
I've found someone... Someone of my choice... after dates and dates.. I found the right one... She's nice, she's sweet, she's adorably cute and she's cool... She cares and she worries for me... And I like her...a lot! We've known each other for quite some time now and well... I guess we're datin'... In my terms, it's datin', I don't know about hers... Hallie's her name... My beautiful sweet angel... Sweet Angel With A Cool Atittude! hehehe...
Aight, I guess I should stop talkn' about her, u guys might get bored of it... Anyways, ain't much left to say.. so u know what? I'm outta here... I'll write in again whenever I'll write in...
Miss D - hey, I ain't mad at ya... Don't worry.. aight? Cheers!
Allright, many things happened since i last wrote... My & puGGy, we've not been talkin' much or even SMS cuz I guess she's busy and all.. And same goes to me.. I don't want to bother her... Miss her.. Yes I do, big time.. But i can't do much about it... And I guess that I'm movin' on... Memories remains...
I've found someone... Someone of my choice... after dates and dates.. I found the right one... She's nice, she's sweet, she's adorably cute and she's cool... She cares and she worries for me... And I like her...a lot! We've known each other for quite some time now and well... I guess we're datin'... In my terms, it's datin', I don't know about hers... Hallie's her name... My beautiful sweet angel... Sweet Angel With A Cool Atittude! hehehe...
Aight, I guess I should stop talkn' about her, u guys might get bored of it... Anyways, ain't much left to say.. so u know what? I'm outta here... I'll write in again whenever I'll write in...
Miss D - hey, I ain't mad at ya... Don't worry.. aight? Cheers!
Sunday, October 03, 2004
I'm a director now, folks... A director to some kind of a sick cheap thrill show on the net.. It's called "Dissers From Hell"... Nice "Hi"... Heh... i'm sick of the taggin' shit.. but I just let 'em run the show... Let taggers kill taggers.. Why should I fuckin' bother? Ngast...
Anyways, Friday went out okay, except that it went a li'l bit borin'... Head out to meet up with Surya and I was late (as always)... So we met up, hung out in Starbucks... Ik joined a li'l later.. Head out to Hereen's to shop for somethin' then soon after that head out to Far East cuz IK wants to eat.. So we did.. Along the way to Far East, B joined us. So yeah.. Walkin' to far east, Surya left.. So the three of us walked on. Hang out in Lido, B bought tickets to Resident Evil: Apocalypse.. only two tickets cuz IK's goin' somewhere else. So it's left with only me & B.. God damn! Fags! Hahaha... Anyways, Resident Evil was okay.. Some hot chicks kickin' the shit out of zombies.. and shit like that.. It was okay... Storyline wasn't a big "Hoo Ha!" but the action was good. Pretty much like that game itself... After the movie, hung out with Tweet & his classmates and well, nearly got beaten by some gangsters after I suggested a prank to Faliq... We did some Jackass shit in the middle of Orchard Road, a packed, Friday night, Orchard Road.. Alongside Wisma... I told him to throw a tantrum some sort when he walks near a person.. He did it the first time, he pulled it off, but the second time.. A guy approached us, and he was like sayin' in Malay..."Lu ingat kelakar apa lu kacau gua peh members? Lu mau main Omega apa?" translation "U think it's funny pulling off shit like that tu my friend? U wanna give Omega a try?" and at that point, we were like whoa.. Luckily Khai or Khus and me, we told the guy that Faliq had some sort of a Tantrum problem, he can't control his nerves when he gets shocked or stunned... So yeah, fortunately, the guy bought it, and he walks away.. It's either that, or he saw security talkin' to us (Because we were sittin' in the middle of the stairs going up to Wisma)... Phew! Close shave... but it sure was funny!
Anyways, there was a gig yesterday and I didn't know about it.. Not till Nik called me up askin' me to hang out.. So yeah, head out to Substation Garden.. and saw the last band played (I think it was Cassandra) and they fuckin' rock.. Heavy sound to the max... Well, met the guys there then soon after that we head out to Esplanade.. I need not say much, let the pictures do the explaining... So yeah, Saturday was...okay..i guess..Had fun.. The thing is, Zad was really happy and laughin' about the gift.. A small dancin' toy that Irma & Nik give to Inn for his belated birthday... Zad cracks up everytime he winds up the toy..and watch it dance... Cuz it's fuckin' cute.. A fuckin' cute toy which dances in a fuckin' cute way... Just see the pictures...
Aight, I'm outta here... Cheers to all!
Anyways, Friday went out okay, except that it went a li'l bit borin'... Head out to meet up with Surya and I was late (as always)... So we met up, hung out in Starbucks... Ik joined a li'l later.. Head out to Hereen's to shop for somethin' then soon after that head out to Far East cuz IK wants to eat.. So we did.. Along the way to Far East, B joined us. So yeah.. Walkin' to far east, Surya left.. So the three of us walked on. Hang out in Lido, B bought tickets to Resident Evil: Apocalypse.. only two tickets cuz IK's goin' somewhere else. So it's left with only me & B.. God damn! Fags! Hahaha... Anyways, Resident Evil was okay.. Some hot chicks kickin' the shit out of zombies.. and shit like that.. It was okay... Storyline wasn't a big "Hoo Ha!" but the action was good. Pretty much like that game itself... After the movie, hung out with Tweet & his classmates and well, nearly got beaten by some gangsters after I suggested a prank to Faliq... We did some Jackass shit in the middle of Orchard Road, a packed, Friday night, Orchard Road.. Alongside Wisma... I told him to throw a tantrum some sort when he walks near a person.. He did it the first time, he pulled it off, but the second time.. A guy approached us, and he was like sayin' in Malay..."Lu ingat kelakar apa lu kacau gua peh members? Lu mau main Omega apa?" translation "U think it's funny pulling off shit like that tu my friend? U wanna give Omega a try?" and at that point, we were like whoa.. Luckily Khai or Khus and me, we told the guy that Faliq had some sort of a Tantrum problem, he can't control his nerves when he gets shocked or stunned... So yeah, fortunately, the guy bought it, and he walks away.. It's either that, or he saw security talkin' to us (Because we were sittin' in the middle of the stairs going up to Wisma)... Phew! Close shave... but it sure was funny!
Anyways, there was a gig yesterday and I didn't know about it.. Not till Nik called me up askin' me to hang out.. So yeah, head out to Substation Garden.. and saw the last band played (I think it was Cassandra) and they fuckin' rock.. Heavy sound to the max... Well, met the guys there then soon after that we head out to Esplanade.. I need not say much, let the pictures do the explaining... So yeah, Saturday was...okay..i guess..Had fun.. The thing is, Zad was really happy and laughin' about the gift.. A small dancin' toy that Irma & Nik give to Inn for his belated birthday... Zad cracks up everytime he winds up the toy..and watch it dance... Cuz it's fuckin' cute.. A fuckin' cute toy which dances in a fuckin' cute way... Just see the pictures...
Aight, I'm outta here... Cheers to all!
Friday, October 01, 2004
Ngast! After readin' my tagboard (again)... So many things had happened.. I mean.. New tags comin' in... Ginger, thanks for the advice but I ain't lookin' for sympathy it's just how I feel... ain't this a blogger? Isn't this the place where people type in their thoughts and sort of a journal? So there u go, I know many would say go on... Come on, lotsa people tell me that... I'm tryin' to but I don't know why I just can't... I pushed myself,tryin' hard to forget but girl, u don't know what's in my head and my feelings... To those who've been readin' my blog and thinks that I'm doin' this pluGGy thing on purpose... if only u guys can be me just for once and feel how it's like..only then u guys would understand why, I'm me... To those who don't favour me, or maybe hate me (Most probably, some of u guys DO hate me but just doesn't show it)... I'm sorry in any way if I make u guys look me in another way..I'm sorry if I've offended anyone in anyway, I'm sorry for being me... But that's just how it is.. I am, who I am, can't change that... If u feel that readin' my blog will make ur blood boil, by all means, stop comin' to blindedheart and if u link me up, un-link... To those who hate me...Just erase me off ur minds.. Take it as I don't exist...
Anyways, back to my entry... Ain't much been goin' on in camp... The stores are finally done and over with... Today's the store check.. But I ain't in camp, I got a one day off due to the AHM '04 thingy... So I claimed it today... which is a friday... Off on a Friday = Long Weekend... So there u have it... I'll be meetin' the guys today to hang out and stuff... B wants to catch a movie.. And I think it's Resident Evil... (Darn!)... Let's see how it goes.. Anyways, gotta go and pick someone up now (And it ain't B)... She's finishin' class around 12 plus... So yeah... I'll be fillin' in more entry tomorrow after I come back from B's... So... Cheers to all!
Anyways, back to my entry... Ain't much been goin' on in camp... The stores are finally done and over with... Today's the store check.. But I ain't in camp, I got a one day off due to the AHM '04 thingy... So I claimed it today... which is a friday... Off on a Friday = Long Weekend... So there u have it... I'll be meetin' the guys today to hang out and stuff... B wants to catch a movie.. And I think it's Resident Evil... (Darn!)... Let's see how it goes.. Anyways, gotta go and pick someone up now (And it ain't B)... She's finishin' class around 12 plus... So yeah... I'll be fillin' in more entry tomorrow after I come back from B's... So... Cheers to all!
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Thursday, September 23rd, 2004,
10:46pm - Holy shit! You guys wouldn't believe the dream I had yesterday... It was super weird. That must have been the best sleep I ever had. To those who remembers or know Melanie...Melanie Yandina Pohl, the German/Indon mix chick from my school (SHATEC) and who was my classmate... Yes, that hot, caucasian whammax with that firm ass... The gal that went back home to Germany already.. I dreamt of her, again... Second time and it's the same dream I had, maybe a year ago. The exact same dream, somewhat like I put in a VCD and play it or somethin'... Same faces, same place, same names, same situation but with a slight twist in the storyline... In that dream, we had somethin' goin' on... We were datin'... The boys from my band was there too... It was whacked! Twice, same exact dream... Coincidence? Or was my dream tryin' to show some kind of a sign? If I happen to dream about it again, I'll freaked out! Sheesh!!
pluGGy called me and she has a job now, I'm happy that she got another job since that last incident, I'm sure she'll be happy... She love that kinda job. Congratulations pluGGy!
A few minutes after talkin' to pluGGy, Surya called me up and boy, I sure miss her. She aked me out since she knows that Tuesdays and Thursdays are my nights off but she asked me a li'l too late... She told me that she misses me and wished to see me. I better hang out with her before she moves out of Singapore to stay somewhere else. Yes, she's migratin'. Sweet doll...
Tasha's been missin' but I'll just lay low cuz she said that she's busy with school stuff... Can't wait to chat up with her again.
Got a detail for today, did some store run and yes, got to drive after sittin' around in camp for too long... Selarang to Pasir Ris Camp to Ayer Rajah Camp back to Pasir Ris and back to Selarang... In total, I clocked 94km today... At least it's somethin', all in all, I've clocked about 528km... Ain't much yet but slowly...
Aigh, that's it...Outta here!
"He feels that their bond is drifting apart, she... had distant away from him..."
(END :- 11:07pm)
Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
9:56pm - *Sigh* What a way to start off my entry, by sighin'... Anyways, I still wonder, is it wrong for guys to write diaries? What's wrong with guys writin' in shits and feelings and memories that they had, to remember their years? Most guys finds it lame or even gay but I don't, it's like a photo album except that this one, it's in words and once you read it, visual department from your memory bank will sorta "load" up the data and by then, you would be sittin' there with the book in your hand or on the table as you stare blankly and you would go into this stage called "day Dreamin'"... And you'll have a short 10 to 15 minutes "movie" experience as your head plays back those memories...
Wow, that's a long one, just on "diary" itself. Back to my daily brin' "routine" life stories. Ain't much today except that my Staff Sergeant opened up another store to do stock checks and re-arrangin'. I fuckin' hate this. It's the storeman's job, ain't us drivers but fuck, we had to do what we had to do. The store's only halfway done and we have to get back there again tomorrow to do that mess again.
My life's pretty much borin' these days, ain't got any new shit happenin'... If you guys watched "Groundhog Day" before, it's a li'l somethin' like that. Here's my daily routine:-
Monday: - Wake up, Go "Life" run, Work till 6pm, Rest in bunk...Sleep.
Tuesday:- Wake up, Work till 6pm, Rest in bunk, Go out if anyone asked me to (Nights Off),
Report back by 11:30pm...Sleep.
Wednesday:- Wake up, Go "Life" run, Work till 6pm, Rest in bunk...Sleep.
Thursday:- Wake up, Work till 6pm, Go out if anyone asked me to (Nights Off), Report back by
11:30pm... Sleep.
Friday:- Wake up, Go "Life" run, work till 6pm, Go home, Go out and hang out... Most of the
time, I stay out from home.
Saturday:- wake up, use computer, Check mails or messages, Watch TV... Go out till late, crash
at B's place.
Sunday:- Wake up from B's place, Head home (Normally in afternoon or evenin'), Rest at home
(For a while), Go out again, head back home then head back to camp.
See what I mean... After Sunday, it goes back to Monday... My life's a fuckin' tape... It's like as if it's put on a repeat play. Over and over.
Enough of that, pluGGy messaged me and that's nice... SMS Chatted with her for a while but now, she didn't reply... Hmm... Busy I guess.
I wrote too long... Till then...
"So much effort was put in yet he wasn't noticed by the girl he truly loves as she goes on with her life..."
(END:- 10:23pm)
Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
11:52pm - Aight! It's a fuckin' Tuesday and I'm relieved because that shit that happened yesterday? You know, the sleepin' thing, bla bla... i guess my staff is droppin' that shit. I might not go DB afterall. Got my 11 B back... Jeez...
Did nothin' much today besides that fucked up store shit in 9 DISCOM. It was a whole load of shit! Luckily it rained cuz we didn't do much then... So we rested... A lot!
Got my nights off today, went out with the guys in my bunk. Hung out in Tampines. Ain't much shit... But well, for a hang out session with camp mates for the first time, was quite an experience. Kinda fun... The guys are playin' cards right now while I'm on my bed, writin' this diary. I think I'm hittin' the sack now... Cheers!
(END:- 12:15am)
Monday, September 20th, 2004
10:50pm - Zoikz! Fuck to the maximus! Started the week with a super bad note! I overslept in my bunk, didn't go for the mornin' "Life" run and what's worse... I didn't fall in... And that cost me and my bunkmates some big time shitsness. Our staff sergeant was super pissed with us and he took our 11 Bs and he said that he wants to charge us and maybe send us to DB (Detention Barrack) under the offence of sleepin' durin' workin' hours and no fallin' in to count strength... Fuck dudes and dudettes! I mean, DB for this small shit?! Whatever it is, I'm havin' a hard time to book out since my 11 B is with him. Whatever it is, FUCK IT! I ain't stressin' myself with what's to become.
Yesterday was an awesome day! Had loads of fun! Those who were there with me that day... We trashed the set big time! Yeah!! And to the guys of the "Anyhow Band", Awesome crappy emo session in BMC! Amaciam? Cut our first album next week ah?! Surely the song "When The Mic Drops" will become our number one hit! Hahaha!!
Anyways, have not been talkin' to Tasha lately and I miss that zany girl. She's busy with her exams and stuff... Hope to hear from her again.
To that someone who was there on Sunday, I'm sorry if I behaved that way towards you... I regretted doin' that...
Aight, that's it for today, Cheers!
"I tried hating you but you're just too beautiful of a being created by god for me to hate and another thing, you mean so much to me..."
(END:- 11:03pm)
10:46pm - Holy shit! You guys wouldn't believe the dream I had yesterday... It was super weird. That must have been the best sleep I ever had. To those who remembers or know Melanie...Melanie Yandina Pohl, the German/Indon mix chick from my school (SHATEC) and who was my classmate... Yes, that hot, caucasian whammax with that firm ass... The gal that went back home to Germany already.. I dreamt of her, again... Second time and it's the same dream I had, maybe a year ago. The exact same dream, somewhat like I put in a VCD and play it or somethin'... Same faces, same place, same names, same situation but with a slight twist in the storyline... In that dream, we had somethin' goin' on... We were datin'... The boys from my band was there too... It was whacked! Twice, same exact dream... Coincidence? Or was my dream tryin' to show some kind of a sign? If I happen to dream about it again, I'll freaked out! Sheesh!!
pluGGy called me and she has a job now, I'm happy that she got another job since that last incident, I'm sure she'll be happy... She love that kinda job. Congratulations pluGGy!
A few minutes after talkin' to pluGGy, Surya called me up and boy, I sure miss her. She aked me out since she knows that Tuesdays and Thursdays are my nights off but she asked me a li'l too late... She told me that she misses me and wished to see me. I better hang out with her before she moves out of Singapore to stay somewhere else. Yes, she's migratin'. Sweet doll...
Tasha's been missin' but I'll just lay low cuz she said that she's busy with school stuff... Can't wait to chat up with her again.
Got a detail for today, did some store run and yes, got to drive after sittin' around in camp for too long... Selarang to Pasir Ris Camp to Ayer Rajah Camp back to Pasir Ris and back to Selarang... In total, I clocked 94km today... At least it's somethin', all in all, I've clocked about 528km... Ain't much yet but slowly...
Aigh, that's it...Outta here!
"He feels that their bond is drifting apart, she... had distant away from him..."
(END :- 11:07pm)
Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
9:56pm - *Sigh* What a way to start off my entry, by sighin'... Anyways, I still wonder, is it wrong for guys to write diaries? What's wrong with guys writin' in shits and feelings and memories that they had, to remember their years? Most guys finds it lame or even gay but I don't, it's like a photo album except that this one, it's in words and once you read it, visual department from your memory bank will sorta "load" up the data and by then, you would be sittin' there with the book in your hand or on the table as you stare blankly and you would go into this stage called "day Dreamin'"... And you'll have a short 10 to 15 minutes "movie" experience as your head plays back those memories...
Wow, that's a long one, just on "diary" itself. Back to my daily brin' "routine" life stories. Ain't much today except that my Staff Sergeant opened up another store to do stock checks and re-arrangin'. I fuckin' hate this. It's the storeman's job, ain't us drivers but fuck, we had to do what we had to do. The store's only halfway done and we have to get back there again tomorrow to do that mess again.
My life's pretty much borin' these days, ain't got any new shit happenin'... If you guys watched "Groundhog Day" before, it's a li'l somethin' like that. Here's my daily routine:-
Monday: - Wake up, Go "Life" run, Work till 6pm, Rest in bunk...Sleep.
Tuesday:- Wake up, Work till 6pm, Rest in bunk, Go out if anyone asked me to (Nights Off),
Report back by 11:30pm...Sleep.
Wednesday:- Wake up, Go "Life" run, Work till 6pm, Rest in bunk...Sleep.
Thursday:- Wake up, Work till 6pm, Go out if anyone asked me to (Nights Off), Report back by
11:30pm... Sleep.
Friday:- Wake up, Go "Life" run, work till 6pm, Go home, Go out and hang out... Most of the
time, I stay out from home.
Saturday:- wake up, use computer, Check mails or messages, Watch TV... Go out till late, crash
at B's place.
Sunday:- Wake up from B's place, Head home (Normally in afternoon or evenin'), Rest at home
(For a while), Go out again, head back home then head back to camp.
See what I mean... After Sunday, it goes back to Monday... My life's a fuckin' tape... It's like as if it's put on a repeat play. Over and over.
Enough of that, pluGGy messaged me and that's nice... SMS Chatted with her for a while but now, she didn't reply... Hmm... Busy I guess.
I wrote too long... Till then...
"So much effort was put in yet he wasn't noticed by the girl he truly loves as she goes on with her life..."
(END:- 10:23pm)
Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
11:52pm - Aight! It's a fuckin' Tuesday and I'm relieved because that shit that happened yesterday? You know, the sleepin' thing, bla bla... i guess my staff is droppin' that shit. I might not go DB afterall. Got my 11 B back... Jeez...
Did nothin' much today besides that fucked up store shit in 9 DISCOM. It was a whole load of shit! Luckily it rained cuz we didn't do much then... So we rested... A lot!
Got my nights off today, went out with the guys in my bunk. Hung out in Tampines. Ain't much shit... But well, for a hang out session with camp mates for the first time, was quite an experience. Kinda fun... The guys are playin' cards right now while I'm on my bed, writin' this diary. I think I'm hittin' the sack now... Cheers!
(END:- 12:15am)
Monday, September 20th, 2004
10:50pm - Zoikz! Fuck to the maximus! Started the week with a super bad note! I overslept in my bunk, didn't go for the mornin' "Life" run and what's worse... I didn't fall in... And that cost me and my bunkmates some big time shitsness. Our staff sergeant was super pissed with us and he took our 11 Bs and he said that he wants to charge us and maybe send us to DB (Detention Barrack) under the offence of sleepin' durin' workin' hours and no fallin' in to count strength... Fuck dudes and dudettes! I mean, DB for this small shit?! Whatever it is, I'm havin' a hard time to book out since my 11 B is with him. Whatever it is, FUCK IT! I ain't stressin' myself with what's to become.
Yesterday was an awesome day! Had loads of fun! Those who were there with me that day... We trashed the set big time! Yeah!! And to the guys of the "Anyhow Band", Awesome crappy emo session in BMC! Amaciam? Cut our first album next week ah?! Surely the song "When The Mic Drops" will become our number one hit! Hahaha!!
Anyways, have not been talkin' to Tasha lately and I miss that zany girl. She's busy with her exams and stuff... Hope to hear from her again.
To that someone who was there on Sunday, I'm sorry if I behaved that way towards you... I regretted doin' that...
Aight, that's it for today, Cheers!
"I tried hating you but you're just too beautiful of a being created by god for me to hate and another thing, you mean so much to me..."
(END:- 11:03pm)
Insane! If u guys wanna read my past entries..it's at the bottom, I've just updated the shit... Anyways, ain't much goin' on..Ain't got plans for today and no one called me yet.. So I'm stayin' home till somebody comes up with some plans and anybody wants me along..I'll go...just call me..anyone.. anyways.. One guy asked me in my tagboard if pluggy's ain't angry with me takin' her pic...Dude..of course she ain't..Happily, she wants to take the pic as well.. And can't u see the pics? She was lookin' AT the camera.. She doesn't mind.. And why do u care? I don't get it, why u people are so bothered by other people's life... Go be a jackass and fuck urself up ur own ass with a 9 iron... Jeez... Give it a break... Aren't u tired?
Anyways, to the rest of the people who's readin' this site... pictures will be up soon... Just hang on...
That's it..I'm outta here...
Anyways, to the rest of the people who's readin' this site... pictures will be up soon... Just hang on...
That's it..I'm outta here...
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Wow..it's been like weeks that I've not been checkin' in cuz I've been too busy in camp. And besides..everytime I got home, I go out again, so never get the chance to check my shit... And what I've found...War of Words goin' on in my blog...Madness... i don't get it, why do u guys hate us so much...what's the friggin' reason? Explain to us... Don't just blurt out senseless words and meaningless crap without makin' us understand what have we done wrong... It's friggin' obvious that u dissers are uncivilised...Brought up by bunch of barbarians who never thought manners and ways of civilisation... *sigh*... Anyways, I'm still at lost on why u guys hate us... Please...explain...
"Finding reasons to hate will only make u lose the opportunity to love... With that, U only live as a person full of hate..."
Okay, I don't know where the hell did I get that from...
Anyways, hung out with the bunch last week and I mean..the bunch..a whole lot of us..Hangin' out and talkin' crap and watched "The Ghost"... That show ain't that scary..The ghost itself...Ain't that freaky..it's the sounds that makes u jump... U know..One of those sudden.."JRENG!!!!" Kinda thing? Anyways, the story was okay..but it's too predictable....U'll know when the scary parts come...But the storyline was good...twsited end... It makes ya confused...
Amidst the hangin' out, I realized that one person... I truly care..is finally back with that other person... U guys would know who... Well, as much as it drags me to say...It's great for them, I guess they're meant for each other... It's just me... all this while, never learn to let go... Finding it hard... But sometimes, u just gotta let go and let others cherish their own moments with what u once had... I'd say I let go but I'll always remember what we shared... A piece of my heart is somehow, still there... as a friend and someone who will always care... Cheers to both of 'em...
That's it for this entry...I don't know when will there ever be a next entry...cuz I'm not on the comp most of the time these days... To all... Cheers! And yeah, one more info...I ain't sure about this shit but we might be playin' tomorrow... (Sunday)... At Tampines Interchange..or somethin' like that... (TAmpines int?!?! What the hell?!) So yeah... I'm outta here! Cheers!
"Finding reasons to hate will only make u lose the opportunity to love... With that, U only live as a person full of hate..."
Okay, I don't know where the hell did I get that from...
Anyways, hung out with the bunch last week and I mean..the bunch..a whole lot of us..Hangin' out and talkin' crap and watched "The Ghost"... That show ain't that scary..The ghost itself...Ain't that freaky..it's the sounds that makes u jump... U know..One of those sudden.."JRENG!!!!" Kinda thing? Anyways, the story was okay..but it's too predictable....U'll know when the scary parts come...But the storyline was good...twsited end... It makes ya confused...
Amidst the hangin' out, I realized that one person... I truly care..is finally back with that other person... U guys would know who... Well, as much as it drags me to say...It's great for them, I guess they're meant for each other... It's just me... all this while, never learn to let go... Finding it hard... But sometimes, u just gotta let go and let others cherish their own moments with what u once had... I'd say I let go but I'll always remember what we shared... A piece of my heart is somehow, still there... as a friend and someone who will always care... Cheers to both of 'em...
That's it for this entry...I don't know when will there ever be a next entry...cuz I'm not on the comp most of the time these days... To all... Cheers! And yeah, one more info...I ain't sure about this shit but we might be playin' tomorrow... (Sunday)... At Tampines Interchange..or somethin' like that... (TAmpines int?!?! What the hell?!) So yeah... I'm outta here! Cheers!
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