Madnessity! Just came back from Mon's Birthday Dinner Party... It was a small time thingy. Just a small group of us. It was mad fun. It was held at B's place... Got some pics taken.

Most real, tried uploadin' some pics but fuck! I can't upload on shutterfly, don't know what happened. Lost the upload programme or somethin' like that. Tried installin' it again and somehow, my window's bein' a bitch or somethin'. My guess is that, I can't upload any pics for this period.

Mon, Tweet, Brandon, Jessie, Min, Sya, B, IK, Inn and Hawa was there. Wow, it was nice to see Hawa, after a period of time. Same old mad girl.. They cooked a lot of stuff... u know.. Pasta (spaghetti), some fried rice, hotdogs, crab sticks, chicken...loads of it.. salad... It was awesome. Awesome food but too bad I was kinda full so I can't eat much. took some crappy pics and the whole load of us hanged out in B's room and watch a DVD (Austin Power Goldmember) and it was halfway cuz time doesn't let us. And with everybody havin' somethin' to do the next day... School, work and other stuff... Oh yeah, Fidah & D'Omar popped up for a while... Mon got sabo-ed... Hehehe, Chocolate cake right in da' face! It was insane. It was nice to hang out in a big bunch in one small room... Felt cosy...

Jess, Min & IK stayed behind to crash at B's. I wished I could join' 'em... If it wasn't for my stupid work... I would have joined them. Aight... most real, I'm feelin' kinda shagged up... gotta go and rest my eyes...Gotta report to Sembawang Camp tomorrow or should I say later... at 7:45am... Can u believe this? SEMBAWANG?!?! That's like a fuckin' distance for me!

To those who know about this... The chalet's going down this June... Details will be sent to ya through SMS...

Cheers to ya!

Another album of pics that I've just added in...

A Day Out With Miss_D:- Mitre Hotel pics, Karmilawati's Chalet/Broadrick Reunion, Aggro Photography.

Aight... This is a simple entry, got a couple of new pics comin' up... and more new pics comin' up. Well, my pictures ain't as good as Dewi Marie's or any other photographers but it's a watch. I mean, somethin' to kill ur time, lookin' at my lame pics. I'm gonna list out some description of the new pics below, I mean, at the listing... on the left... under pictures... yeah... here we go...

A Day Out With Surya:- Well, like what it says, a day out with Surya, well, not really the whole day, just the afternoon. After that, went jammin' with No Direction in BMC and hung out in town to shoot some pool. Crashed at B's Place and there's some night clouds shot... Awesome pics for the clouds! And some stupid facial expressions by me.

The Day I Stop Jammin' In BMC:- The day I stop jammin' there because of that stupid fuck who takes care of the place. Don't u guys agree? He's a fuckface! I don't think he even know what's music all about. 7 People in the room, he chase us out and asked for 2 bucks from any extra people in there. Can't even stand outside that window thingy to see the bands play? Can u believed that?! He asked us to watch the band from the security monitor? Yeah right, so small, what can I see and what the fuck can I hear?! In the first place, he shouldn't even make those stupid windows if none of us can watch the bands there. Anyways, this load of pictures was the day when First Chapter, Rika and 180 jammed. And also, BK slackin' session.

May 16th!! Hahaha... Happy May 16th ah eh!! Sickness... Two days, I stayed at B's place. Friday night and Saturday night. His home is like my home. I don't know why but I simply love to crash at his place. Good accommodation, TV, bed, Guitars, Loads of magazine for guys (etc. FHM,Maxim...) air-conditioned room... What else would a guy could as for... A place to chill and talk crap. Of course there ain't girls around but who cares... There's DVDs to watch.

Just got back home from yesterday... Went out in the evenin' yesterday and I'm only home tonight... Insane! Didn't do much yesterday, went out with Miss D and it was nice to see her again... just had a simple dinner... hmm.. okay.. neither of us was eatin' yesterday but we sat at S-11 with Sofyn, Jess & B. After hangin' out in S-11, we head down to The Garage to jam. Played all the new materials and we no longer play our old stuff. Damn, missin' some of the old songs somehow... A totally new No Direction with new style of play... I don't know, when we play upstage, u guys have ur say. No more Downside Emotions or From Me To You or some of the other songs we have.

Hanged out at B's till late just now... Watched Starsky & Hutch... & 50 First Dates... Both are good and funny. Watched Starsky & Hutch in the early mornin' and as always, B knocked out first... While I was watchin' it alone... Till about 6pm, we head down to Parkway Parade to hang out with Fyn, ToYoL, Min, B, Tweet & Mon... Had a simple dinner in Banquet. Got myself a bowl of Beef Ball Noodle Dry... It was not bad... Quite tasty. And hanged out at BK later on. Had a good laugh with Tweet & ToYoL's madness... Parkway has change a lot... Seriously, A LOT! It's not like how it was back then, plain and simple.

Brought my cam along but the fucked up thing... didn't bring along my extra batt. Sucky... so there I was, carryin' my cam with no juice in the cam to take pics. Yesterday, met up with Nik & IK in Cineleisure and god damn, we wasted their time. They waited in town from 9 and we came around 12 plus. I feel bad and B feels, extremely bad. It was due to jammin'. Suppose to catch Troy n the movies but the guys told us it was sold out. I hope that Nik & IK ain't pissed or anythin' cuz by the way I look at them, they were lookin' moody. Guys, if ur readin' this, I'm really sorry man, for being late... Nik was pretty beat cuz he didn't sleep for the past few days and IK was tired. They went home after hangin' out for a while.

Aight, that's it for today.. I don't know what else to write about.. Some other time folks... CHEERS!

Okay, here's my mass replies... :-

min~ : Hey min... Thanks for taggin'.. havin' papers ey? What papers? I don't play with those studying theoritical things anymore.. heheh.. now I'm more of the practical shit... Cool min! Cheers to ya! Hope to see ya around!

Alif : Ah! Mad! TENGTAI! hahaha.. bro, missed the session man! i'm missin' session!! MOHAA SESSION! Shit bigtime dude! Wished I could join u guys! ANyways, there's always other time! See u around...

zad : (bubble)... hahahahahaha... Familiar to somethin' ain't it? Hehehe bubble..hmm... Anyways, good whatever-time-ur-reading-this to u! Boredom is the mother of all fuck ups! Hahahaha...
Cheers!

_=beLLe=_ : Hey thanks! Cheers to u! And I'll take care if U take care...

zeezee : Hey girl! Miss ya too! Big time! i guess just don't have time to go out again ey? And argue about red day! Hahah... FRIDAY, is RED DAY! Remember that... And nemo, was awesome! haha..madness..that was like... last year! HAHAHA.. Cheers!

jeebs : Hey dude! Thanks for hoppin' by! Nice layout? Ur kiddin'?! This is the lamest layout ever! There's many other nice layouts that's waaaaay better than mine.. Look at urs example? I find that cool, simple yet stylish. Simplicity is always best! Anyways, go ahead with the link up, I'll link u up too. Cheers! Hope to see u around again...

shikin : Hmm... Miss_D... heh heh heh... STAY TUNE TO FIND OUT MORE!! IN.... blindedheart.blogspot.com

MiSS_D : Hehehe.. Ur still mysterious girl.... not much people know.. heh... Love ya!

p|uGGy : Most real... i message already.. but then... TYPO AH EH!!! HAHAHA Jangan tak QUENN tau! Man! Quenn satu! Garing garing.. letak sambal lebih kuah sikit! Satu bungkus man! Hahahaha... HEY HO!... ah eh... HAHAHAHA! Cheers!

Mergh! most real.. Yesterday was Sofyn's birthday and we hang out... Didn't buy her any gift.. Hmmm... Runnin' low on cash. ALREADY?! Yes.. it's only like 5 days from my pay day and it's like $24.60 in my bank... Cool ey? Hahaha.. there I go again... declare bankrupcy again.. Gotta watch my budget... Now that I have a new line of my own.. and still havin' my old account to settle.. FUCK! My dad's ain't payin' for me no more! Owing starhub big time... and now I'm signing up with M1? Hahaha.. I'm so insane. My M1 number starts with an 8! Coolness! Weird numbers these days. What if it's a 5... or a 2... or maybe starting with..... 1. Soon ah eh...soon.. when they're like out of numbers or somethin'.

Hanged out till late in town yesterday with the bunch. Fir,Fyn,Fad,Nik,Jess,Mitch,Tweet & Mon... Fad was bein' crappy, as always and we were laughin' out so hard that we sweat, we cried, and we got hard time breathing... just because of laughing due to Fad's action. It was whacked! Fad never fails to make us laugh with his sudden outburst of madness. Crashed at B's place yesterday... Wrote some lyrics on our band's new material... B got a hard time thinkin' of the lyrics.. and I just sat there... Hahaha.. I was brain dead... like always. I only helped him a li'l with scenario to write the song about and a li'l bit of melody guide to help him start... Worked the song till 5 in the mornin'.. and that's when we hit the sack...

Woke up around 11 and B was preparing to meet Sya... He left early to meet Sya while I'm still at his place... alone. His home is like my home... I left around 1 plus and here I am... Typin' this out. Will be jammin' with the boys tonight... but before that, I'm meetin' Miss D for a while... to have dinner and after that, she'll go home.. and I'll go with the boys.

Thought of bookin' a chalet in Costa Sands "Paris"... but I just don't have the time to do so. Damn it! It's one month away and if I book now, I might stand a chance to get it. I must not delay! But how do I book the chalet.... with $24.60 in my bank? That's all I've got for the rest of the month! FUCK! I'm totally FUCKED! i know... if one SAFRA card would give a discount on the rate... Three SAFRA cards would most probably... give us free! So yeah, Fad & B... lend me ur SAFRA card... HAHAHA.. DREAM ON WAN! Like as if that's how the system works... Money is everythin' around here... U need cash to survive! no cash, ur screwed!

Okay, that's it for now.. I'm going off.. I'll be doin' my mass replies in the next entry...

Cheers!

Hey! What a lame blog... I mean, it's so mundane... Thanks to tagboard, I have no more disses. Is it me, or is it that Tagboard's bein' a bitch? Anyways, today was a good day... I guess... Madness.

Since the sandbag area had been done, we have not much thing to do. Just now, I mean, yesterday, earlier in the day, I became the enemy. A bunch of reservist guys went through this security check... And they were given some scenario... To make sure that they check the so called "enemies" thoroughly so that they can pass through. And if they do the procedures right, they pass the test. I was this guy, who wears the No.4 Camo and I'm supposedly a guy who reports to my Clementi Camp and I don't know what's my superior's name that sent me to the camp and that I've lost my 11B. And taped around my body are two rounds of ammo. So they're suppose to look for those rounds. Most of 'em didn't get to search the rounds.. Maybe being the reason that it's well hidden under my layer of fats in my belly... They didn't feel anythin' underneath my clothes. And those reservist dudes are all in the superior stage... u know, officers... 2LT, Full Leftenan... Captains... Those people... And some of 'em were fuckin' rough that they nearly hurt me... Madness...

After my day was done in work, it was most of the time, sleepin' in my bunk... heh heh... After fall out, went back home and meet up with p|uGGy. Damn, it's been a long time since I've hanged out with her and it was fun, although it wasn't the original mad crew. p|uGGy, B, Tweet, Inn, Zad, IK & Fad was there... Tweet and Inn cracked us up big time... It was crappy! Just hanged out around my area and played some games and stuff.. It felt as if it was a long time that we've not been hangin' out...

Most real, a few of 'em knows who's Miss D... D baby, I'm sorry doll, they forced me out to say.. Ur known now... By B, Tweet & p|uGGy... So don't worry, it ain't big. For the rest of ya, still wonderin' who's Miss D? Hehehehe... Enjoy my blog to know... Okay, not really enjoy, just follow up to know who she is... I'll tell u guys when it's time to expose. And dear, I messaged ya, no reply, maybe ur sleepin'... I was a li'l bit too late I guess...

And p|uGGy! It was an awesome hang out... Been a while ey? Nice to see u again... heheheh, The Queen Of The Road... HAHAHAHA... Relak aje cross road... It was a mad view from across the street... hope to see ya more often durin' our slackin' sessions but I know that somehow, u can't... cuz ur workin' and all.

To all readers... Okay, maybe not to all... to those usual bunch... There might be a plan.. planned up this June... U'll get a message on ur phone if the plan is established...

Aight, gotta go now... Cheers to all!

Whoa~!! This is whacked man.. I was tryin' to update my blog and BHAM! New layout... What the socks?! Okay, what ever it is... it's kinda cool...

Today, was an okay day... Didn't do much work in camp, in fact, we were doin' some "acting"... The malays would call it, "wayang"... We pretend to do work but we didn't... Heh... It was awesome. Everybody felt lazy, so that's why we didn't do much work.

Talked with Miss.D and we had quite a long talk... It was nice. Just can't wait to see her again. U guys might be wonderin' ey? "Who's Miss.D?" Well, I ain't sayin' much... Gonna let u guys find out urself.. So that's that...

Hey p|uGGy! Thanks! but girl, I think the tags ur readin'... are the old tags... I don't know what's up, but the tagboard's being a bitch... So what ur readin' are the old tags... Anyways, thanks girl...

Aight, ain't much no more... Cheer!

To be continued...

ARGH! Tired...I'm so god damn tired... I think I need some sleep. Tomorrow's workin' again. God damn work... okay, it's more like, Forced Labour.. Fuckin' hell... Had a borin' day yesterday... didn't do much though.

Stayed home till evenin' time and that's when I went out to meet B, Yan, Tweet, D'Omar & Fidah at Simpang Bedok. Hang out there and chatted up some crappy stuff and had a few good laughs. Talked about LOTR Exhibition with Tweet and we came up with this lame mixture of lines from movies... hehehe... u know, that sort of a mix and match thing...

MIxed up LOTR, Troy & Van Helsing.. It may not be funny when u read it from here cuz u have to hear and be there to laugh it out... Example..."What does an elf, a man & a dwarf got to do with the Riddermark? Speak Quickly!" Then u have the Troy line comin' in, suddenly..."Is there anyone else?.......Is there anyone else?!" And there is the other scene where Aragon was trying to make the Dead Army (or whatever u call those guys) to join him in the attack..."What say u? What say u?!" "Is there anyone else?! Is there anyone else?!?!" Suddenly Van Helsing's line come in..."No! No one can kill Count Dracula..." Hahahaha... had a good laugh though.. Okay, my guess is that u guys are not laughin'... okay... ur so not laughin'... it's okay...

Anyways, called Miss D when I got home... and she was asleep! Oh boy.. bothered her sleep cuz she was sleepin' when I called.. I'm sorry hun, for wakin' u up. Anyways, lookin' forward for our next date... I'll call u when I'm free aight? Luv ya! Kisses!

p|uGGy-O! If ur readin' this, how about that pillow thing, girl? I mean, we nede to settle it right? Damn, I've been busy and ur busy... And that account thing... I don't trust in that... who knows, the cash might just go someplace else? Oh kay, I'll try to do somethin' but I can guarantee u... Call my dad, talk to him aight? I'm gonna be busy next week... don't be shy girl, just call my dad... Anyways, do call me sometime aight? Hope to see ya someday.. whenever...u feel like slackin' or what lah.. aight? Cheers to my old mate!

Damn, got my pay already and I think I'm gonna keep it on the low... Tight budget, u know. with my bills not paid fully and things to buy and do... I CAN'T DO OUTGOING WITH MY PHONE! Fuck! It feels fucked up when u can't reply a message when u really really want to reply so badly... and u can't call people when ur somewhere when there's no phone... ARGH! Cheebye! Gotta settle it as soon as I can...

Next, I'm gettin' that new phone... Nokia something something...I have no idea on what the model number is but I'm gettin' it. With $66 per month... it's worth the instalment.. It's this cool phone with many cool functions... Hell yeah, I'm gettin' it.. even if my budget is tight..I"m gettin' it... WOO HOO!!

Lastly, Miss. D... Love ya! hehehe..just wanna say that...

CHEERS TO ALL!

Insane! It's a friggin' Sunday and I'm and home! Can't believe I'm wastin' my Sunday away... Fuck man! Yesterday, I had an awesome day! It was awesome...so awesome... that the word awesome doesn't describe awesome anymore... It's called... Emosewa... Okay... That was crappy...Anyways...Here's what happened....

Once upon a friggin' time... back in the jungle... Tarzan was a.... Okay..wrong show..ehem...

Okay, so it was yesterday... stayed home for the first halve of the day... around 3 plus, I went off to meet up with Miss. D... Met up with her at borders and we sorta had a date... So we hanged out in town for a while... Showed her Mitre Hotel and well, that building is still up and I saw Raja there... For those who went Mitre durin' the Mitre Hotel days.... u guys should know who's Raja..."Siapa Raja?" "KITALAH RAJA!!" Well, same old indian guy who parks his Merc up front at the porch... Mitre no longer sells drinks or beers... Okay they still sell drinks but beer...I ain't sure...Read a sign in front at the gate... we can bring in food or any drinks we want but we have to pay them for usage of the space in that building... U know, the old seats and couches and sofas area... The area where we had Tummy War...Hehehe... God damn, that place brings back loads of memories... Yeah... memories... heh, it's mad... So yeah, we hung out at Mitre and I took some shots and after that... well took the bus home with Miss D.... Well, i'm lookin' forward to go out with her more... And D, if ur readin' this... Love ya, doll! Call me aight? Or wait... maybe I should call u.. yeah... hehehe.. Kisses baby...

After going out with her, I head down to East Coast alone... well... to meet up with my old friends from Broadrick... Wati,Jun,Liza,Aaron,Ah Soon,Shahfillah... That was the only bunch.. It was a chalet... to celebrate Wati's birthday... It was fun, did some catchin' up and had a good laugh at jokes and things... It was mad... Ik & Inn joined me after the gig at Sentosa ended... they came to join me at East Coast.. at the chalet.. Heheh, there were loads of free food! Hehehe... And most real, yesterday was the day that I never seen IK and Inn being so quiet... Okay, maybe IK was kinda normal... but Inn, totally quiet... hehehe... Lordch Bitch... Da' man... Hahahah... So yeah, hanged out in East Coast till the first bus came... Played pool, hung out at McCafe... and most real, East Coast is Badong... not much thing to do..

Fuckin' stoned when I got back and the first thing that came into my mind... SLEEP... so yeah, after I had my shower, I hit the sack as soon as I step into my room... Finally, some shut eyes....

July's gig comin' up soon... And well, ND's been practising... and most real... if we ever play our new stuff... be surprise for a change... I hope the crowd won't really mind the change. We feel that there's a need for a change in our music... So yeah, hopefully we'll play our new songs... So just stay on and hear out for it folks... As for First Chapter, well, it's a total change... big time. With this new line up, they wanna play somethin' harder and faster... So yeah, I'll try...

Aight, that's it for now... and the fuckin' tagboard's out... Temporary Error... I mean.. What's up with that? Can't wait to read up those disses again... Bring it on folks! DISS THIS TISS.... okay.. I made that up.. just to let it...ermm.....rhyme... Yeah... Diss this tiss...What the fuck was I thinkin'... Anyways, keep those rage tags, diss tags, comment tags, nice tags... or any kind of tags comin' in... I love readin' 'em! Okay.. but first, tagboard gotta make their system work... THen u guys can do that... Aight?

Cheers!

*sigh*... The first thing I can say when I open up my page... Ngast! Didn't go to work today, got myself "sick" so that I can report sick in camp... Too lazy to work cuz what I feel is that we're doing shitload there... And it's not somethin' worth doing..it's just some crappy stupid job... SAF... more like SAFo...Serve And Fuck Off... So yeah, endurance play it's part here...

Hey BeLLe....finally know who u are...Emelia... The Gel Bottle... I'll remember that... Thanks for all the messages and stuff.... Still have it...still smellin' good...

p|uGGy... Nice chattin' up with ya yesterday... Hehehe.. Madness ain't it? "Hi...Hey...Hmm...Hello?...Hmm..." Hahahaha.. Old school siak! Ah most real, the thing about u... well, Since u made a promise that there won't be any cash involve if we were to meet up... I'll tell ya. Deal? Heheh... Most real ah, I can't do outgoing calls or messages! SIAN EH!!! Okay p|uGGy-O, see u... say... next week right? We slack like old times... With the usual BK Slackers... Okay, maybe not the old BK SLackers... but u know the guys...Lordch Bitch, Frodo Baggins or Enrique, Mr.Batman (Fad)... Nik-o..and many others... I'll try to get them to slack next saturday... or if ur free..this Saturday... So yeah, u know my number, feel free to call ya? CHeers to u great ol' p|uGGy-O! Maybe I'll call ya some day...

To those who diss... thanks... It's coffee in the mornin' for me when I read it... U know what I mean...Oh yeah, my replies...

think:- The word famous, doesn't even come into my mind... Why are U the one that's puttin' thoughts that never exist in my mind? I never want to be famous... and I play in the band not for fame... I play cuz I love music and I simply love to play for the kids to listen although some may not like my band's music but what I know... I have fun when I do so on stage... And u got it wrong when p|uGGy said about fans...u got it all wrong cuz she told me about my blog thingy and we talked about this... so yeah, ur assuming... but anyways, thanks for taggin'...

Noraliza Idris:- Oh, ur that malay singer... I mean, ur name... not u... Fu! p|uGGy berbual ngan aku... FUIYO! Terbeliak giler babi siak mata aku... Serious! Tak bedek sial.... Jantan Shiok sendiri... hmm... Boleh jugak... Apa apa kau nak panggil aku.. carry on... Like I've said before... everybody have their own views and I can't have EVERYBODY liking me... hate me if u want to... cuz once again.. u have ur own opinion... Cheers!

Most real, this blog is becomin' like audioreload's forum page... disses... what is the god forsaken world becomin' to? Anyways, pics will be up (yeah, like I've not been sayin' that for a million times...Pics up..pics will be up..bla bla bla..yet..it's still ain't up)... but seriously, It'll be up...later...

Yours Crapilly,
Sibbie

Whoa~~ I was like away for only a few hours and my tagboard's all filled up... Awesome! U know what guys? It's really nice to read up ur views and opinions on things... be it good or bad, it's like a feedback or somethin'... Some of u hate me and some of u well... just like readin' my stuff but don't really like or hate and to some... cuz they're friends of mine? Whatever it is, I have no grudges on anyone, I mean... hey, everybody have their own individual views and their options to agree or disagree with me. All these while that I've been typin' here about p|uGGy or whoever... I didn't say anythin' about me being right and I never did ask any of u guys to be on my side. It's up to u guys to choose... So whatever it is, keep thos tags comin' in... Hate or like, just show me the lights...

Head out to Tamp just now to have a short CS session... Yeah yea, I know that CS is so, old school... But it was just to have fun with my mates. Nik,Dzafir,Fyn,Suhayl,Inn and Rabia were the bunch for tonight. It was kinda mad and all... Had fun though... Saw Muhammad just now, in Tampines Mackerz (McDonald's)... He looked different but somehow, he's still the same old Mohammad I remembered... The funny guy of the class. He was from my Secondary school... Broadrick... After three years, met him... Madness...

Lookin' at the Tagboard... p|uGGy have a fair share of fans, that's cool! To those who've sent messages to her, I'll tell her... I'll ask her to reply to u guys through my tagboard. She would love to reply...

Aight, it's time for those replies again... MASS REPLIES!!

Shikin:- Nah, it's just a simple way of speakin' my thoughts outloud... Anyways, thanks!

passerbye:- I agree with ya 100% passerbye... Like i said, she's the straight to the point kinda girl and yes, that oughta get respect. If u know her, she's cool... Cheers!

ahli fikir:- Aku takleh lupa dia, sebab pada aku, dia yang paling gerek.. Dah jumpa dah pompuan lain yang bagus dari dia cuma aku masih tersangkut kat dia... Aku nak lupakan dia? Susah brudder, members paling gerek... Kecoh, gila... simply said, MAD GIRL! And she's understanding. Ego? Hmm, itu aku tak tahulah sebab aku takleh kata aku ni ego atau tak ego. Itu terserah kepada individu sendiri... And about her choosin' Azri, yes... She made a good choice, rather than being with me cuz I feel that he's better. In terms of being able to take care of her and make her happier than what I did and I've been writin'... I'm glad that she's with Azri, rather than some other jerks who don't take care of her well... Thanks for the feedback ahli fikir... Take care!

think:- I have to agree on that "Kau merapek" part... Cuz yeah, I am lame. And about that pretending to be ok... it's true, everyday I'm wearin' a mask when all these while... I ain't happy the way it is. Come on, everybody does this... They be happy in front of others so not to let others be down just because of one person. U know how a person can simply change others' mood simply by pulling a sad face or a long face... I'll pass the message to her to read up ur tag, aight? Have a good one...Cheers!

MusH`:- I'll try to keep it up bro and thanks for sayin' that although I feel that this is a lame blog... "Oh, have u ever read that lame emo guy who calls himself bigguy? He's so fuckin' lame..." That kinda thing... Anyways, thanks for the compliments...........if that is a compliment...... CHEERS!

NiNa:- Hey Nina! It's been a while ey? Well, I'll take care if u do... Just be safe when ur riding that Vespa of urs or whenever ur driving... Do take care... See u around...

Okay, that's the end of the mass reply... Damn, workin' again... I ain't sleepin' tonight... Gonna hog the comp all night long. Aight guys...I'll be uploading the pics real soon.. have loads of 'em to upload. Remember, keep those tags comin' in... Cheers!

Yours Sincerely,
Fwghds...

Fuck! Everytime I book out... when I get home, surely something back home will spoil my mood... Thanks to my mom... and now..my brother. Fuck him, never like that fuck ass shit head since I was young... Hate his fuckin' behaviour... Asshole... He thinks that his all good and great to the family... Fuck that asshole... WHy doesn't he just get married to that chinese girl and fuck off from this house? If it was possible, I would fuck off myself from this place... Get my own apartment or somethin'...but that all boils back to the word...if it was POSSIBLE... Shouldn't have went back home today, should have just stayed in. Comin' back home is like going back to some deathwish or somethin'... I was plannin' to stay in for the whole week but I went back home... Not to get back to this home to see my family.. but actually... to get back home and go out, supposedly to go out with Surya but now... I have no idea on where the heck is she... Messaged her a dozen times but ain't got a reply and called her phone... but it says, number not in use... So where could she be? But anyways, I'm headin' out to meet the boys in Tamp to have some CS Session but the thing is... I'm fuckin' broke. Ain't got a fuckin' dough! 6 more days to survive till my pay day...if only I didn't get caught red handed taking my dad's money from his wallet...that was a few good hundred dollars in all that I took from my family without them knowing...hehehe...sigh...but what the hell...Looks like I ain't comin' back home, just wanna stay in camp... That would be better..no worries, no one to shout at me.. just be alone in that bunk... Gettin' used to that lonely life in camp I guess. Great, mom & dad arguing over a stupid matter... Awesome ain't it? This ain't a home, it's a fuckin' funfair...

Heard in camp that my course will be startin' soon... Some say that it's this week and some say it's two weeks later... so the thing is, I ain't got a clue on when the hell will my course be done. The stupid trainin' shed is lookin' all good and neat now... Just a few more days to survive...Cool!

Lookin' at my tagboard... WoW! p|uGGy hit me....hit me hard! She's back online? Hmm... Maybe she's usin' someone's comp... Whatever it is, that's one thing I like about her... Honesty... She'll tell u straight in the face, without beatin' around the bush. See what I mean by me liking her? She's awesome. Well p|uGGy, I know u told me to move on and well... I've tried, believe me... I've tried but I simply can't move on. Askin' someone to do a thing and consoling someone is easy but when it happens to u, it's really hard to do it... U know what I mean... Yeah, I admit that I was a li'l bit off when u neglected me.. and that day when u called me up, I lied about sayin' that it ain't u... But actually, it was about u... U know me too well for me to lie... Ur a great pal and a buddy... was a better girlfriend... And about me comparing my companions with ya? Well, true, I can't answer to that.. I can't answer on how they or u feel cuz it ain't me... Each individual, have their own speciality and character.. but I find urs the best.. What can I do? I can't help it... My feelings took over me even if I said no. Whatever was in the mind may escape...but what's in ur heart will be kept... There u go, it's somethin' like that. U asked me to meet ya yesterday and u said u wanted to settle stuff with me and I know that it's about this... Some day we'll meet up... some day.... Last thing I ever wanted is to lose u, as a friend cuz I've already lost u once, as a girlfriend... I've been an asshole, a jerk, a butthead, a fuck ass, lame ass stupid fuck.... Why was I made this way? Where the hell I know?! Ask god! Maybe he wanted the story to be this way... The ending? He knows... all of us, simply don't know, how it would all end... Cheers to u p|uGGy! Thanks for being there when I needed someone to talk to or simply hang out... For now till whenever... Farewell... I see u when I see u and hear u when I hear u, Cheers!

To all those peeps in tagboard... I'd like to say thanks...u guys shouldn't waste ur time readin' my blog cuz seriously, it's a repeated thing. It goes on and on and on and on...like one of those energizer batteries... Same shit, over and over... BUt I really appreciate u guys for even takin' ur precious time off just to read... And to all those who's tryin' to cheer me up... well... thanks!

Here are my mass replies:-

DaNeIsHa:- Hey there! Thanks for messagin' me! Hehehe... It's been a while... Hope to see u around someday...

Alif:- Hey Alif! Thanks for messagin' dude! U know what... Maybe we can have more of this... LAN GAME..thingy... MOHAA is best! U know...ask the same guys.. Haniff...tengtai master...heh..tweet... And maybe a few others..we'll have big of a madness fun! What say u?! Hit me back in my tag dude!! CHEERS!

Sofyn:- Hey girl! Pics ain't up yet... Cuz u know, it takes a bloody long time just to download pics and I'm lazy to compress the size..bla bla bla....but it'll be up............some day....

NiK`-:- Dude! I missed u too man! Damn, my girly man has not been hangin' out with us lately... God damn it! *sigh* but I'll see some day dude! Maybe this weekend? Yeah.. maybe this weekend, the usual mad Saturday Night Crew...

p|uGGy:- Oh... I've already replied to u... Sorry for repeatin'....

_=BeLLe=_:- Hey BeLLe! I've been seein' ur nick around but seriously... I still have no clue on who u are... Thanks for comforting me.... or is it called..cheering me on... Hmm... I ain't feelin' sad...just... okay...it is sad...kind of... But I'm takin' things easy... Yeah... Move on, where did I hear that before? Hmm... Oh yeah, like whatever many others had told me to do... No wonder it's familiar... My point is my dear BeLLe... I've been tryin'... But it's really hard man... Damn this feelings... Anyways, keep on comin' to see if I've moved on or not... So... CHEERS!

Alif.....AGAIN:- Hey! Yeah, tengtai is the biggest bitch! Only depends on scope... Damn that tengtai master... He shall die with my handgun butt! HAH! Cheers!

kitty babe:- Hey there! Don't get it all wrong, I didn't mean to diss ya... It has nothin' got to do with ya... It's just that babe name... I don't know, felt like makin' somethin'... BUt I swear to GOD and hope to die by getting hit by a big lorry if I lied on this that I meant no offense to u... I swear! I ain't jealous of ur nick... I have my own nick, why would I get jealous? I apologies to u if it may seem offensive but girl, chill aight? No offense... I don't know if after this reply to u, u still wanna loathe me or u would be okay... It's ur choice, I can't forced ya to like me or be my fan or things like that... it's ur choice... Anyways, u said I know u, but I still have no idea...on who u are... And once again.. I'm sorry, keep those tags comin' in...

Allright, to the rest of u who never made ur existence in my tag or u've been readin' but u made ur presence unknown... I wanna say thanks... and those who had never tried taggin'... try it today! Try it now in fact! Why wait?! Simply scroll down, and get to the tag area... and start taggin'! First ur name and then ur website or e-mail... and then...Ur message.. It's that easy! Only 3 easy step and ur done! So try it now! Taggin'... life has never been more fun...

Cheers to all!
"Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever..."

So hey! I'm back...got an early fall out today..12 plus...we're done... The whole trainin' shed now has been cleared...sand pit on the left...bags on the right...so yeah..from packed up place..to a nice,neat and organised place... Thanks to "brave" 8 young men who works hard every single day... Brave...hmm..yeah..brave the sand,brave from hitting the sandbags when they throw to the sand pit to clear...uhmm..brave from getting hit on the bar hanging on top of that training shed...okay...that was lame..whatever it is..job's almost done... On Monday, just have to clear that shit out...

Got into an arguement with my best friend...I was in my LaL mood and I was havin' loads of thoughts so let's just say...my day was kinda fucked up... I was downed...downed to earth, man... I felt bad after arguing with my friend... Last thing I ever want is to lose her as a friend... Me and my LaL Moods.... Fuck me...I suck in life...

To all those tagged me..I'd like to say thanks... so here it is..my replies...

Zad: Hey bro..yeah! Stwong bad...Duh~~ Suh~~ HAAHAHAH!!! Yeah, he rocks my socks to oblivient...uhmm...obliviant...oblivo...uhmm...however u spell it...u know what I mean...

Alif: Ur awesome...Tengtai mana punya? Tengtai banyak! East,south,west,north or others...? Hah! Thanks dude...

Shammie: Hey Girl! Thanks for taggin'! Thanks for wanting to cheer me up, I appreciate it... Take care aight? I'll try to do some chinning up... oh...kay...If I raised my chin really high, wouldn't that be..egoistic? heh...I know what u mean..just jokin'...CHEERS!

Kitty Babe: Look at that...Kitty Babe...what kind of a kitten would be named...babe? I mean, babe is a pig in the show Babe... but a kitten? Ah heck...I know u but u don't wanna reveal ur name...Then how in the name of Ken Bettie...would I know u?! Currently? Single? Hmm....status might be changing..I ain't sure..Currently..in the stages of dating..I think... yeah..so there u go... Ur answer..

So there u go...my replies for this moment...CHEERS TO ALL!!!

May the socks be with u!

Hey ho everyone....uhmm...okay..I'm back..So I realise, there's a hate tag on my tagboard..uhmm... okay... So that guy or gal hates me..Or maybe...he or she is trying to make a point. So yeah, thanks GiGoEr... Of course I know she's attached.. Like duh! She talks to me about him.. and he knows..when I go out with her... So yeah... I know she's attached... Look...I'm a loser, okay? So if u wanna read this loser's so called, episode of non-ending stories...just like Days Of Our Lives..carry on... If u guys don't like it, well... just forget the address... blindedheart.blogspot.com...

So, okay, it's been weeks since I've been in camp and well, progress on that place is going smoothly. Sandbags slowly going down and that trainin' shed... now looks like a trainin' shed... or more..uhmm..or less..whatever it is. I stayed in on Monday... Alone, yes....alone..with no one in my bunk... Of course there were people in the camp, with all those reservist guys in their own bunks..while I was alone..in my bunk... So from there, my thoughts starts running... U know, same old shit... What am I doin' here? Why must I serve? What have I missed out? Am I really irritatin'? Bla bla bla bla... Stupid questions ran through my mind...

Have u guys ever had this feeling? U know... somehow like u've been used...or maybe..u've been like..uhmm... cheated..or maybe...just maybe...uhmm..okay I got no more ideas..but whatever it is..the main key...used...cheated...abused...okay maybe not abused...by anyone..guys or gals...it doesn't matter. I was sittin' in my bunk yesterday... and I was thinkin'...why? Okay... there's no reason on why... Aight..easy said, U feel like ur a Plaster Of Boredom. That's how I felt... U know, some people, when they're need u..they come to u..like askin' "Hey, how's ur day?" Or maybe.."Hey, how have u been?" FOr goodness sake! Where were u all these while? Suddenly u pop up askin' me on how I'm doin'? Wow..that's awesome! Oh kay..back to topic... And after askin' the basic questions like how ur doing...have u eaten..bla bla bla...the next line would be..."Hey, I need a favour from u..." or maybe..."Can u help me out?".. I mean, suddenly, out of no where, u weren't around..and the next thing... u popped out and asked me all this... wow! Well, if people really need help...I see the situation and see if I can help with what I have... Had a friend who needed cash...so yeah.. I loaned to that person... I don't care about it..it's 30 bucks...That person says that she would pay back...well..guess what...till today.. no... And that person just keeps... and when she needs cash again..she calls me up... Wow! I'm some kind of sugar daddy?! I only earned 350 per month...I ain't no bank! She's an old friend of mine..way back to 7 years ago.. surprising ain't it? After say...5 years she had not called me..suddenly she popped up and say all those what I've just lay out... Whoa...Weird... So I conclude..I AM A PLASTER OF BOREDOM! Thank u guys for making me that... Okay...to some of u people...besides the guys I hang out with... they're cool..I hang out with them..cuz I wanna hang out.. so yeah...

Lastly...My equation...

1. An Army Officer + A Rose + A Girl Who's Attached + A Bar = Birth of Paranoia in Boyfriend

2. An Army Officer + A Day Out With Girl Who's Attached + Movies = Boyfriend Gets Worried Over his Relationship When He Discovered About The Date

3. Girl Who's Attached + Confusion + Doubts + Break Up = Emotionally Wounded Which Leads You To A Broken Heart

So there u go...my lame conclusion...My point... Clubbing is a waste of time...Ha ha....ha....ha ha ha.... ha ha ha..hahaha.... ha.. haha... uhah... ha.. hahaha... Okay..bye?

CHEERS TO ALL!

Ah...the mornin'...of a Friday. Days had past and I've been doin' the same thing in camp, playin' with sand. A few of us got bored, so we did a trap in the sand pit and somehow, it claimed it's first victim, one of our bunkmates. It was funny, he was wrestling with this guy and he somehow stepped onto the sealed hole.. Ngast! This strangers somehow got closer with one another and we're like buddies who've known each other for a long time.

I've been feelin' fucked up somehow for this past few days. Feelin' as if life is meaningless... Just got bored of everythin' I guess... There was this someone that I hanged out with and it was awesome... Got the whole of almost two weeks with her and that made me happy. Simply hangin' out, talkin' crap, accompanying her to places... just like ol' times... But suddenly, these past few days... that everyday messagin' or callin' stopped and I have no idea why... Maybe she's busy? Maybe...ermm...she's avoiding me? *sigh*... I have no idea... I don't know what I'm feelin'... A mixture of feelings all blend into one. Sadness, anger, lost... I wonder what else would come to mind.

I'm plannin' to get a new phone by next month but I don't know if those handphone shops accept instalment payments... Thought of gettin' an N-Gage... or mabye a 6100... I don't know...the main thing is to know if they accept instalment payment... Gotta ask later on.

Same ol' thing today, headin' down to camp, report in camp and do same shit... And what I heard that our warrant officer is givin' us a day off this Saturday, which is...tomorrow... We earned it! Ngast...aight, gotta go...

CHEERS TO ALL!

Sickness! Today is just another Sunday...just like any other fuckin' day... As many would say, Same Shit...Different Days... Ain't it peeps? Life, ur basically doin' the same thing, repeatedly, over and over. It's only how u spend it & how u finish off the day makes a difference to the sentence, Same Shit, Different Days... I'm feelin' so LaL for today, I don't know why but simply lal. Each day passes and when each day passes... the more I hang out with the usual slackin' crew... The more I feel that I'm getting lamer, boring and quieter... Felt so out of place when they joke and me not knowing anything... and somehow I do feel a li'l bit uncomfortable to speak. Maybe the reason being that I've not been hangin' out with them that often no more... I'm a problem to society? Maybe...

Another fuckin' week had past and it's so fuckin' borin' in camp. Ain't much to do... besides playin' with sand and gettin' injured for no fuckin' reason why... Book in and book out... every single fuckin' day. Although in a way, it's good...cuz it's a so called...JOB... Forced Labour with low income... Whatever it is, I just wanna serve and fuck off.

Head down to the gig in NYP last Friday and I missed both my mates bands... Subtle Revenge and Shoe Size 9... Thanks to work, I dropped by late resulting in seeing nothing else but metal bands. Not sayin' that those bands are bad or anythin'..it's just that... the main key for going to NYP, was to see the two bands I just mentioned...play... Saw a lot of people that I know there, well...not really a LOT..but a handful of people... after the gig, or should I say, halfway through the gig, we left... Who's we? 3/4 of the November Iris boys,Dil,Firdaus,Din,Fad,Inn,Rafiee.. Head out to Sengkang to slack. Sat there, had some fun and laughter... IK & B joined us a li'l bit later... the day ends simply by everybody going home happily...

Yesterday...hmm, let's see now.. What the hell did I do yesterday? Oh yeah, went to work, did some stupid things... book out... head back home... went to meet up with First Chapter to have an accoustic session. (F.Y.I :- First Chapter now have a new line up after Tweet & Rafiee quitted the band for some reason of their own... Replacements for the two guitarist - Zad (November Iris) & IK (Subtle Revenge). Sat there for a while before I left off to see Rika jam at BMC. Went to see Rika jammed and they were awesome and I was there being a li'l extra by grabbing the mic and sing and scream some any-o-how lyrics. After their session, I went back to Tamp to join up with First Chapter again. Heard their modification of FC's original, Fading Star... Well, it was a total change... Basic construction of the music is still there but playing wise... totally changed. More to that, hardcore sound... More Screamo, less Emo... I don't know, this kind of genre, may be a li'l hard for me on drums but I'll try... After all that, ton with Inn & IK behind Sogo and around 2 plus in the morning, I crashed at Suhayl's place till 3pm today... did nothin' much... played games and that's it...but as always, Suhayl's the number one guy under the Hospitality Department... Good host...

Today..hmm..what did I do... After reachin' home around 4 plus... stayed home, and just used the comp for a while... Supposed to go to some dinner with my whole family but I choose not to cuz I'm lazy. I don't know, many would say that I'm a fucked up child for not being with the family more but I don't know, that's the way I am I guess... I was simply lazy to go. At night, head out to Tamp for a while, without my family knowing that I went out... Met up with the slackers of BK... Inn, Irma, Fad, IK, Tweet, Dzafir, Sofyn, Mitch, p|uGGy, Brandon & Jessie. Bla bla bla, the same thing, jokes, laughter and crappiness fun... Head back home early cuz I wanna reach home before my family does... So I did... Here I am...

If u guys wanna visualize on what I did on saturday... pics will be up... Enjoy! For now, I'm outta here... Life just became more boring...

CHEERS TO ALL!!!

"You make me believe that today is worth living and tomorrow is worth waiting for because you'll be there for me today, tomorrow and everyday for the rest of my life..." - A short poem written by my first ex-girlfriend to me, it's nice but somehow, I once believed those empty promises...

It's been two days for the second week of life in Clementi Camp... Began work yesterday... It was hectic and fuckin' tirin'! Came in the mornin'...around 7:30 and reported to my Warrant Officer... After that, had a canteen break and then we started our work:- Some free cheap forced labour jobs... Carryin' loads of wooden logs... And it' ain't light. So we carry it, and reorganized that place so that it'll look neat and easy for the forklift to pick it up. Lots of splinters in the hand... and some unnoticed cuts... But unit life, as a temporary storeman is kinda cool... I mean, u can slack and u can rest whenever u wanna rest..u can smoke whenever u wanna smoke but not anywhere... Have to take cover just to smoke..heh... Finished the job around 5:30 in the evenin' yesterday. Time passes, kinda quick yesterday and it was the same for today... For today, we did sandbags...loads and loads of sand... And one sandbag...ain't that light, it's like... fuckin' heavy! got ourselves sandy and our once shiny boots all sandy and greyish in colour. it was tirin', my hands are like feelin' the muscle straining or somethin'...

What I heard from p|uGGy is that she's havin' a hard time at her place... She's stressed out and it's drivin' her insane somehow... It ain't physically tiring but mentally tiring... I can see that whenever I meet her after work or somethin'. Hope that she won't quit her job cuz it has a good pay and it's quite a good job although it can drive u crazy at times... but by the looks of it, I think she'll quit this job. Even if she quits, I can't force her to stay, it's her decision. *sigh*...she could use a li'l bit of that hard earn money for herself... I wish I could help her big time... I just wished... Hope to see her around one day and maybe we can hang out again..

Got home early today cuz my staff sergeant let us off early... There's many more sandbags to go, GOD DAMN!! Aight, anyways, gonna get back to my game... America's Army... It's an awesome game! Cheers to all!

HUERGH!

Hey ho! Let's go! Go where? I don't know... MOst real, had fun today... Loads of it.. and there was like lots of people around. The mornin' went out like any other day... at home... So yeah, played my game on the comp and soon after that, around late mornin', set off to B's place. Fixed up his new guitar strings and off we go... to jammin' at The Garage in North Canal Road (I hope I got the road name right). Oh yeah, wait up, before I go further... When I woke up this mornin', I realised that my Ray Ben specs broke... The ear hook broke, I was like... "What the fuck?!" I soon learned that I actually lay down on my specs by accident durin' my night of sleep... Luckily, super glue did it's work... The damage ain't that bad so yeah.. it was fixable. Anyways, back to the day's story...

After B's place, we set off to jammin'...bla bla bla.. at The Garage... Played a few of our new songs and old. Yan came along with us to see us jam... After the jammin', we head down to Guiness Theatre to check out the gig. Got there just in time to catch November Iris play, so we got our tickets and checked them out first before we set off to eat at S-11. As usual, had my fishball noodle dry... (I still have no idea on why I kept eatin' that same thing whenever I'm there...hmm...) Going to the gig this time... wasn't like the one in Youth Park whereby there were a whole lot of newbies around and there's like no one we knew around. It sure felt like old times, almost everybody knows everybody... That's the way it is, the old kids were all there. It was fun, seein' the guys moshed and me joining the rest in sabo-ing people to body surf by surprising them from the back and lifting them up to body surf... It was fun! Saw Sa-Bitch-Na there... Ermm.. I mean.. Sabrina... and god damn! She's gettin' fatter! And she's with her boyrfriend who she claimed broke up with her when I was datin' her when the actual fact that he went away as a peace keeper somewhere overseas... But what do I care? I don't know her anymore, she doesn't exist... breakin' my heart into a thousand pieces and totally wasted my time... Fuck that shit, why the hell am I talkin' about her? SockS! '

It was one hell of a gig! All of 'em were awesome bands... Favourite bands like My Squared Circle, Elisabelle's Tears, Death Of Illisabelle Mo'narch, November Iris, Forget Me Not, Sky and other bands... They were all awesome although the last band was a bad dissapointment... Not the band, but these few young NEW punks who dissed that last band. They shouted out "Eh, Change ur drummer ah!" and there was this girl supporting the band who shouted back "Shut the fuck up, I would like to see u guys play better than them! At least they're up there playing!" Or, somethin' like that... The drummer was good... it's not as if he was a totally big time bad drummer... Kids these days, don't know how to judge good from bad... *sigh*... But most real, almost everyone there I know... Azmi, Inn, Hafiz, Aaron, Nurl, Sya, Min, IK, Mon, Tweet, B, Dzafir, Dzul, Mitch, Jessie, Sofyn, Iman, Han, few of the Underedge guys, MSC guys, Zohriah, Fan, Firdaus, Raihan & many more.. It was awesome!

After all of that, had dinner at S-11 (Again! but this time, I had Fried Rice)... and after eating and talkin'... all of us went home... So here I am now, typin' out this blog. Gotta book in.. in a li'l while and that sucks! only 4 hours to sleep... damn! But what can I do... Must go... Aight, gotta go...

Movie & Gig pics will be up soon, once I'm done with the uploading... So come back to check it out, ur face might be amongst the people in the crowd... CHeers!