Hey Ho! It's been much of a fucked up day today... First Chapter's jammin's cancelled...God knows why and most real, I feel that it should just close down! Cuz it's like no one's serious about FC no more besides Fir... Fir's the only fuel that still wants to play. But fuck, if they ain't puttin' much effort...Fuck it, just shut down the band. All efforts from the original Learnin' Tunes lined up, all down the drain. So far, the original First Chapter was still the best line up.

Feelin' Lal about many things these days, just now, had a fucked up mornin' cuz of my grandma who accused me of somethin'. It's weird ey? When u wanna do good things ur always mistaken for doing bad things. Reason, cuz u've been doing bad things too much that even others wouldn't believe it when u say u wanna do somethin' good. So yeah, somesort like that. Fuck it! Woke up to a bad note and B got one hell of a screamin' from me. I was fuckin' shoutin' all over the place, to my mom, my grandma.. and even to my dad. Fuck ain't it? It ain't a normal shout, it's one of those that sounded like a scream from a band and it's going at louder frequency...I think the whole of next block could hear me. It was unintentional... Fuck it, I was pissed, who cares...all that matters that I let it out by fuckin' shout.

Yesterday was kinda fun.. went out with Surya to watch a movie, "Around The World In 80 Days" starrin' Jackie Chan and many other cast. It was Star Studded! It was whacked! Funny and all. Had fun with her, a simple movie date and we ate ice cream and then we went home... Hahaha.. It was insane, normal mornin' routine (going to Kaki Bukit to my course) and in the afternoon, head out to Tamp to fetch Surya and then head off to town to watch the movie and then head back to Tamps to send surya home and then met Fad there, then head back to Town to meet up with Mon,Tweet,Min,Haniff,Aisha... After that, head back to tamp to meet up with the bunch...Zany!

Anyways, the chalet was a fuckin' success! Although it was sorta last minute but it all worked out!~ Invited a lot of people but didn't expect most of them to turn up! It was awesome! Fuckin' fun! Big crowd in a small crowded room.. Had fun playin' games and all... To those who didn't come, it's okay but one thing, u guys missed all the mad fun! To those who came, I wanna say thanks for making it a happenin' one... And to those who contribute food or any other stuff (ETC Playstation,Radio,Snacks...) I wanna say big thanks to u guys! Without u, it wouldn't ignite... I might be planning to organise another chalet end of year...let's see how ey? CHeers to all! PILE UP!!! And yeah, to the band "Secret Windows"... Thanks for performing at our chalet, u guys rock on Friday night!!!

Whoa, so the many Tags! Madness! Insane! Hahaha, most real, drove my first vehicle for the past few days...but that's only a simulator. Insane part about it, The first few tries, I was okay... but when I was drivin' in the Ang Mo Kio map, I hit a pedestrian! If it was real, I'd be in deep shit! Well, can't blame me, he dashed out of the street from a cab! There was a few tries whereby I drove up the curb...hehe..it was fun! Insanely fun! I'll be drivin' the real thing next week, Monday.

The chalet's goin' on right now and yesterday, being the first night, was already mad enough!! Roughly about 15 of us in that one room! All snuggling up and sharin' spaces playin' Sammy's PS2! It was mad, the whole lot of us just sit in that room, lights all turned off and curtains drawned...and we played...Fatal Frame.. It was scary funny madness experience! The game itself is already fuckin' spooky and Inn was makin' noises at first but not until he was taken by surprise by the ghost in the game. we all freaked out! Especially the girls, we were screamin' and freakin' out and Khus was on control. Poor guy, he was stressed out by us I guess... What do ya expect? I know it's a game but with dimmed lighting effects of the game and freaky camera angles plus the freakin' sounds and music...It does make ur hair stands! What's worse? When the ghost appears right in front of ya or let's say when ur on the second floor and the camera angle was like half top floor and half facin' ground floor... The character Khus was controlling, walked upstairs and suddenly the ghost just appear and walks past below and disappears.. It was kinda freakin! We shouted and we screamed and it was like fuckin' 2 in the mornin'! Hahaha... Loads of fun!

Today's the second day, which is the food day for the chalet, we ain't got much food and my mom don't wanna cook for me! Shit! We're so lackin' in food... Nik's bringin' Chicken and bee hoon.. hope that's enough! Min bought hotdogs, tweet and mon bought snacks,instant noodles, that kinda thing. I really hope it's enough. To those who contributed, be it food or playstation or guitar or radio or any other things that we use for our entertainment and hunger needs in chalet.. I wanna say thanks! Without u guys, it wouldn't happen. Aight, gotta go get ready to met up with Fad to get back to the chalet...

Cheers to all!

P.S. I'll reply ur tags later when I'm free...CHEERS!

Hoa! It's like 6 plus in the mornin' already and I ain't sleepin'.. God damn, goin' to camp in a while.. Fuck it, I'm gonna shagged myself out today. I won't be updatin' on what's been happenin' but just to inform u guys... New pics are up... Well, they're not really new but they're new in my blog, so yeah, they're new pics. Anyways, to those who's going to the chalet and u think u wanna contribute in the food department, do inform me through taggin' or SMSing me..aight? Please, need u guys man... I'm afraid that there might not be enough food. Anyways, do take care, I'll come in and write new entries when I have the chance...aight? Cheers!

It's that time again! Mass replies!!! MASS REPLIES!! Come on everybody! Sing along!! MASS REPLIES!! Hahahahaha!! Yeah!! Barney is gay!! Fuckin' purple shit head! And kids got influenced by his evilness! He's evil under that stupid purple suit... Anyways...here are my replies!

scrub:- I wanna post up those pics.. trust me, there's like, loads of pics to upload but I don't know why I can't upload to shutterfly. And hey, recommend me with any sites that offers free hosting for pics or files.. so that I can post up my pics... I'll see what I can do about it scrub...

zeezee:- Hey girl! Thanks for informin' me about ur link.. I'll update when I have time but right now I'm in the mood to just update my entries...

nurl:- Saturday was awesome!!yes I agree with ya! Thanks for the info girl! Hope to see u and hang out with u more! Hehe...CHEERS!

alif:- hehehe.. smiggle was awesome at Starbucks right? Coolness!

Huergh!! Madness...Today is a monday..oops I mean..Tuesday..just went into Tuesday and I just realised that. Listenin' to Bob Marley right now...hehehe...Feelin' reggae-ish this morning. Madness... Hey guess what? wednesday's a holiday!! YEAH!! Vesak Day! So most real, get to rest for one day from this stupid army life... Only one day? Yes..only one day.. Fuckin' hell. BUt most real, there's a break..Hahaha..okay I conclue that for the past for words that I typed out..are all lame...Crappy..and has no meanin' whatsoever at all.

When i got home from camp just now, I head out to meet up with B,Tweet & Mon at Parkway... Did nothin' much... Just sat down there and chat crappy stuff as usual...Gig's comin' up, play's comin' up and the chalet's comin' up! Oh my god, got loads of things to think about. Pay's comin' up in say....9 days time.. or was it 8...hmm...it felt so long! Dry on cash.. Madness! Damn, I'm kinda groggy... Or should I say, as what we always say back then (when this word was in season).. I'm feelin'.. DODGY... hehehe.

Here I am, sittin' on my favourite computer chair...okay, maybe not favourite..it's the only chair I've got...with my boxers on..only my boxers and my flabby, full of fats belly.. and my specs... sittin' here, with an empty mug with coffee stain on and another mug with lemon juice in it... lookin' at this screen.. this very screen that I'm lookin' as I'm typin' out the words that ur readin' right now.. Boredom, this...is a result.. of boredom... Blankness + Boredom = Insanity... okay, whatever...I'm lookin' forward for saturday..

Oooh!! I saw my tagboard full of tags! It's mass reply time!!!

Mass reply...mass reply~~ MASS REPLIES!! It's time for mass replies!! AH!!~~~ (Musical theme)...Whatever..hahaha!

inn: Apa bedek bedek? SHAAH!~~~(Do the cut throat action)

zad: Baik ah zad! Comin' down to the chalet! WOO HOO!

ra-fieex: Ah madness! Ur birthday! Shit, can't afford a cake but bro, u can come down to enjoy the fun man! Do come down ya? Please please, come down, just have fun with us and we take it as ur birthday!

alif: yaw! What up yaw! Hahaha.. most real, I've changed ur link already.. so now my link with ur name on it, has changed to ur new one (Apa yang aku mengaruts?) TENGTAI FOREVER!!

ti[mon]: most real ah mon, sorry girl, aku tak leh pass kau, tapi takpe... Aku try ah... pass aku CD ah, aku copy kan kau...

shikin: SHIKIN! *smiles*

shammie: Turun lah, please... we enjoy ramai ramai... can? Hehehe.. Do come aight? If u can come...

sofyn: ye lah.. apa apa ah.. most real, sekarang dah evanescence.. Ye lah, Dzafir aje kat dalam tu poster, yang lain semua invinsible...

jeebROONS: Hey bro! Thanks for taggin'! see u around!

MiZZ-D: Hey girl! Hehehe, stress eh? Biasa lah tu, exams, apa nak buat? Must study loh! Remember, study smart and not hard!

beckham: Baik ah Haniff!! HAhaha, Bergness rules! most real, rindu aku MOHAA ngan kauorang... TENGTAI!! Hahaha.. lain kali ah eh.. after 10th ah... Eh Hanif, turun chalet aku ah on the 12th June... East coast.. apa apa kau tanya tweet.. ur invited!

Ah madness! It's Monday already?! Fuck! I just got back from a very mad two days event...hmm...hahaha..Can say that out of this two days... I spent 95% of my time, outside... Loads of activities goin' on... But before that..just wanted to tell u guys about what heppened in camp...

Durin' my course... there was this guy from another group (we're studyin' the parts of the vehicles, so yeah, we're in groups)... There was this guy, I don't even know how the fuck this shit happen. His finger was danglin'... Heard news that he was tryin' to climb down the tonner of something... and somehow, the ladder at the back hit his finger... and if u look at ur finger right now, there's three parts joined up right? I mean, there's three lines in all... The last line which is the one near the edge... that's the part where the piece of the finger was dangling... by the skin... it was mad! I wished I saw that sight but damn, too bad that I'm in the other group, if not, it would be awesome! He was rushed down to the hospital to do some stitchin' or somethin'... Awesome ain't it?

Okay, before I tell my activities about my past two days... I'M GROWING FAT AGAIN!! Fuck sia, this what happen when u slack after BMT... Fuckin' hell.. 16kg lost and now I think it's gainin' back. I can see fats growin' back under my chin and most real.. my tummy, it's slowly blowin' back up! ARGH! Madness.. I'm lazy, that's one thing's for sure and I told myself before.."Damn, after BMT, I'm going to maintain my weight..." MAINTAIN MY WEIGHT... My MALAY ASS!! Fuckin' hell.. So guys, if u saw me back then, wow! Ur lucky.. that was the only time u saw me so called slimmed down... So for those who wondered how I looked like if I was a li'l slimmer, u got the chance if u saw me back then. But now, I'm back to how I was. Hahah... Insanity to the maximus!

Saturday, what did I do on saturday? Hmm.. booked out from camp, head home... And then...ermm...where did I go? Oh yeah, head down to bugis to meet up with the bunch.. and this time, it was a mad bunch! It was big! Too many people to list out! But I'll do it anyways.. Here's the list...B,Dzafir,Tweet,Fad,IK,Nik,Inn,Aliff,Azri,Hafiz,Raymond(and his friends),Nick,Yi lin,Mon,Sya,Min,Aishah,Nurl.. It was an awesome crowd! It was fun! Smoked Sheesha in Arab Street. Funny thing was, Bernard got high cuz he was smokin' sheesha and it was funny just to see his face and reaction. Then the guys were havin' this bet to eat up the remainders of the coffee powder (u know, those powders that's left behind after u drink the whole cup of coffee? That's the one).. It was whacked! And then Inn was pretendin' to be this head of a Hong Kong Triad... If u guys readin' this and u don't get it? Well, u just have to be there to know what it's like, it was fuckin' whacked! After Sheesha, head back to B's place along with Fad and IK (The usual crashers of B's place) while B send Sya back home. So yeah, got back to B's place, played with B's new BOSS family pedal (U know, the one where there's many effects in one pedal).. It was cool! It has loads of cool sounds to play with... Too bad that it ain't mine. Watched "28 Days Later".. Fad knocked out first followed by IK and then me and then B... Talked crap with Fad till we both fell asleep... Madness..

Woke up yesterday, (Sunday).. around 10 plus comin' to 11... Head down to Serangoon to jam with my Bunkmate and his friends.. After that, head down to my place to shower and change (come on, it's like I never came back home one whole day and night the day before, of course I need to shower and change)... After my shower and everythin' that's needed to do, I head down to City Hall. Suppose to meet up with p|uGGy cuz I wanted to talk somethin' out with her but well, it was rainin' and I delayed, she got tired of waitin' I guess, plus the weather was makin' a lot of people feelin' sleepy. I was about to leave when she called me up to say that she ain't meetin' me cuz she's headin' out with Din to Borders to buy book for Azri. So yeah, we didn't meet up. Damn, I miss that girl somehow... For some mad reasons, I missed her badly... MIss those mad times where we just hang out and talk shit and do stupid silly things just to laugh... MADNESS GALORE! Anyways, hanged out in Starbucks Raffles City for a while before headin' out to "The Garage" To jam.. It was awesome, for some reason, the guy gave us the big room and seriously guys... that big room, was fuckin' awesome! It was so huge that u can even do a small mini gig in there... With Fad's madness, he was singin' and doin' mad actions that made us all laugh somehow...After jammin', we hung out at S-11 (substation Garden side)... And as usual, I ate Fishball Noodle... FUCK! I'm gettin' fat again! Damn it! Aight guys, i still have fuckin' laundries to do... And I need to wear those tomorrow, I'm fucked!

So that's it guys, I'm outta here, sorry for the long entry but I just feel that I need to type out a long one. I'll do a mass reply in a while...

CHEERS!

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Can u believe this? Madness ain't it? Kinda true! Heheeh! This is total madness! Try it guys... it might be true!

Oh yeah! Just remember! I have to replies to readers who reads my blog. THANKS ALL!!! Here's my mass reply (MASS REPLY!! MASS REPLY!! HERE COMES THE MASS REPLY!!!) <-- Okay, this is some kind of so called...Segment music... So it goes somethin' like...Mass reply.. mass reply..here comes the mass reply...hmm...it's lame..but it's still music...Anyways,here are my replies!

P|uGGy:- Ajak Miss_D hangout? Can can, whenever all of us are free ah. Most real, Miss hangin' out with u eh! Really ah, the madness... We're losin' the vibe pluggy! Need to keep those madness up and running! HUERGH!

zad:- Hoi! It's Yana Bubble..not Liana...Pandai pandai aje kau!

alif:- No Direction... Yeap!!

DaNeIsHa:- Equation? Girl, what equation? Hehehe...

Fir:- Exams are a boredom to ur heart? Dude... Exams are like the boredom of everyone who had been through school life!

Alif:- Yeah bro, sorry man, no more Downside Emotions, I know that's like ur favourite bro... Maybe one day, we'll play all those old songs again ey? Heheh.

shammie:- Yeah!! Rockin' week! Heeheheh, Girl, come down to my chalet aight? Bring ur guy along...

ti[mon]:- Ye lah, sorry girl, can't upload the pics and I don't know why... There's like loads of pics to upload sey! *sigh* Most real, see u around eh? CHeers!

zad...AGAIN~~~:- Dah lama giler siak tak jumpa kau.. Rindu pulak rasa aku, most real Zad, come down to the chalet man... Please come down...We're going to have loads of fun ey?

sweeet:- Update? I update already.. And u miss me? Hmm..I wonder who u are.. Missin' me? A mysterious person that I know not of... is missin' me... Sweet..hmm...Anyways, I miss u too (whoever u are)...So cheers!

DaNeIsHa:- Hey girl!! Thanks! Yeah, See that status...ATTACHED..heheh...insane ain't it? Damn.. I wanna have some "desert" now... Hehehe.. MADNESS!! HAHAHA!! CHEERS!

MIss D:- Hehehe, B's always curious my dear... Baby.. guess what?...*SMOOCH* Heheheh! Got ya!

PInKMakkaL:- Hey there! Nice blog? Are u serious that it's a nice blog? It's simple.. it ain't much... Just ur average guy next door's blog.. Anyways, be my friend? SURE THING! Hey, new friends are always welcomed as long as they want to come by my life... So yeah, nice to know ya, keep on taggin' my tagboard if u wanna be friends aight?

MiZZ-D:- All I can say is....SMOOCH...hehehe.. CHEERS TO YA BABY!!

Xoximus Maximus Optiprimusiticalinuximus! WoW! Whatever that means, I don't know, I just made that up. Okay, seriously, this is my second fuckin' time I'm typin' this same shit out. Can u believe this? I typed out one whole fuckin' long entry, and this piece of modern technology shit, just happily erased my entry. It was so god damn frustrating! Imagined this, u typed out.. A whole stretch of long sentences with words... Okay? Get it in ur head... And suddenly, u publish... it says error on page or somethin' like that... u refreshed... and...BAM! The whole shit dissappear! So guys, just to tell ya'all, this entry ain't original, not with the same feelin' as I type out as just now. I'll TRY to make it like how it was just now. Anyways, Can't upload the pics cuz shutterfly's bein' a bitch...okay, maybe it ain't shutterfly, maybe it's my explorer..or somethin', cuz it can't seem to upload the pics... FUCK! B, I'm sorry dude, I can't upload. To the rest of u who's lookin' forward to see the pics or wanting to download the pics (I know that some of u have been downloadin' the pics from my sites...what? No credits? SEDIH AH!) Hahahehehe... I'll try to upload the pics aight? I'm still lookin' for a new host to host my loads of pics. I still have loads to upload.

Hey! Guess what?! I'm fuckin' back again! Cool ey? Yeah, after some fuckin' long time! I'm back here, typin' out shit again! buahahaha! Madness Insanity x 100 = CRAP! My weekend last week, was okay, it was awesome it was an experience! I'll tell u later in a while. Currently I'm in my Rover lessons... if u guys are wonderin' what the fuck is a rover...it's a jeep...well, sort of a jeep. I learnt some parts of it... u know, like the alternator, the fan belt, the coolen system, the break system, the battery, the disc...the whatever u can think of on a army vehicle... I'm learnin' it. I'll be going through the tonner tomorrow... Wow! BIG Vehicle! Cool ey? hahaha.. whatever... Anyways, I stayed in on Monday and then today I went back home so that explains how I'm here.. Tomorrow, I'll be stayin' in till Saturday. Okay, surelaly u guys don't wanna know that (Don't think surelaly is a typo, I purposely did that).. Okay, back to my weekend. It's gonna be long but I hope it's interesting, so guys, just to warn u, if u don't like to read long written shits... Get out now.. if not, continue reading...

The day was cold, the weather was crazy, Mad Crossed Eye trevelled the sea...Okay.. that was crappy! hahaha, sounded like some stupid pirate movie right? Whatever BIgguy, that was fuckin' crappy. My weekend, it was an experience.. cuz I went out with Miss_D!! Yeah! That's right, Miss_D! I went to a musical, can u believe this? A MUSICAL!!! I went to a fuckin' musical! Well, it was interestin', I thought that I wouldn't like it or even pay attention to it cuz in my mind, musicals are boring. It's a malay musical and it's called "Bumiku, Hatiku"... In English, It means...My World, My Heart...or..ermm...somethin' like that. It was a play on life... Somethin' about life based on this group of kids and then the storyline followed they lifespan... How they grew up. And each individual have their story. To tell that story, it takes a view of Le General, who is so called... "GOD"... He's an actor from the Malay channel, Suria... And with Him, are a bunch of other characters which supposedly presents Feelings of a person... Anger, Love, Lust, Sadness and other craps like that. It has that comedy touch to the play... It was funny and sad and happy... Some of the actors were good and the show itself is good but some of the actors, they were just lackin' in somethin'... feelin' in the play... u know what I mean, they act but somehow didn't catch the hearts of the audience... But overall, it was good, u must be there to judge it urself if ur into plays or musicals. So yeah, that Saturday was an experience... The play ended around 11 and took the train with Miss_D but unfortunately, I didn't get to send her home cuz I was meetin' the other guys in Bugis. I have my reasons... Baby, if ur readin' this, I'm sorry... U know why I can't sent ya that day... The next time we meet up and when time permits, I'll send ya home... Okay dear? Love u, okay? And most real, my weekends are really precious... it's the only two days I have to enjoy the whole day cuz weekdays, it's like 8am to 5:30pm.. fucked up ain't it? And when i come home, it already be at night... So what's there to enjoy?

Allright, most real, to those of u who's wonderin' who is Miss_D...hehehe... Well, u guys will find out if u guys are headin' down to the chalet...

Oh yeah, the Chalet... It's a No-Occasion chalet... Meanin'... it ain't about birthday, or celebrations or anythin' like that. It's just a normal chill out chalet. There'll be food but I'm afraid that I might not have enough and that is why, I'm afraid of invitin' u guys who's readin' this.. Unless u know me... okay...ermm...maybe u guys can come down...but u have to bring ur own food? Or at least contribute some food? hmm...To those who's comin' and knows about the chalet, please please....try to contribute to the food department... try to supply a radio or somethin' cuz there ain't a radio...If any of u guys can bring ur PS 2... PLEASE DO! And if u wanna stay the night, carry on folks! It's all open up for! One more thing, to those who drinks... Please...PLEASE, bring ur own booze cuz there won't be any down there at the chalet. So whatever it is, plan up with those other drinkers on that sharing idea thingy to get a bottle of a heavy liquor and then u guys will drink when ur here and then after u guys drink, u will puke and when u puke u will soon come to realize how miserable and stupid u felt for buying that drink cuz by then u will come to reality that u could have use that load of money to buy a new playstation or maybe an X-Box or a guitar... or maybe a new shoe.. maybe spend it on somethin' worth while...or maybe, spend it on a date so that u will have a girlfriend in the future kinda thing or something! Okay, my point is, Booze, bring ur own!

Okay, for those who's curious on who is Miss_D...She'll be at the chalet.. if u see a girl hugging me and sittin' close to me... well.. Maybe that's her.. I said.. MAYBE... Cuz there might be other girls close to me or somethin'... u know..maybe u thought that's Miss_D but it's not... (Sorry baby, I'm exposin' ur identity, Love ya!)And to those who's not invited and yet u guys wanna come to the chalet... Hmm.. I'll tell the details for those who's officially invited.. I'll SMS u with the further details...

Here's the venue for those who don't know me but wanna go to this so called NO-OCCASION-"PARTY"-CHALET-THINGY.. Here's the info...

Venue: East Coast Costa Sands
Date: 11th - 13th of June 2004
Time: Whenever u wanna drop by...(If u wanna ton or stay the night, by all means, stay!)
Block: Can't tell u guys cuz I don't even know (To those invited, I'll SMS with details)

So yeah, do come down if u ain't shy and ur outgoing... U see my pic, if u come in here often, u would recognise me... so come down.. search the whole of Costa Sands...and if u see a guy like me outside BBQ-ing... then ur lucky, approach me... if I'm inside chillin' and u can't see.. TOO BAD! Oooh, that sounded as if I"m stuck up.. I'm sorry if I did.. hehehe...

So yeah, I think I've typed out too long, this time, I shall copy this entry or else I'll get another frustration and then U'll see no update of the blog... BLARGH!!

Cheers to all of u!

Madnessity! Just came back from Mon's Birthday Dinner Party... It was a small time thingy. Just a small group of us. It was mad fun. It was held at B's place... Got some pics taken.

Most real, tried uploadin' some pics but fuck! I can't upload on shutterfly, don't know what happened. Lost the upload programme or somethin' like that. Tried installin' it again and somehow, my window's bein' a bitch or somethin'. My guess is that, I can't upload any pics for this period.

Mon, Tweet, Brandon, Jessie, Min, Sya, B, IK, Inn and Hawa was there. Wow, it was nice to see Hawa, after a period of time. Same old mad girl.. They cooked a lot of stuff... u know.. Pasta (spaghetti), some fried rice, hotdogs, crab sticks, chicken...loads of it.. salad... It was awesome. Awesome food but too bad I was kinda full so I can't eat much. took some crappy pics and the whole load of us hanged out in B's room and watch a DVD (Austin Power Goldmember) and it was halfway cuz time doesn't let us. And with everybody havin' somethin' to do the next day... School, work and other stuff... Oh yeah, Fidah & D'Omar popped up for a while... Mon got sabo-ed... Hehehe, Chocolate cake right in da' face! It was insane. It was nice to hang out in a big bunch in one small room... Felt cosy...

Jess, Min & IK stayed behind to crash at B's. I wished I could join' 'em... If it wasn't for my stupid work... I would have joined them. Aight... most real, I'm feelin' kinda shagged up... gotta go and rest my eyes...Gotta report to Sembawang Camp tomorrow or should I say later... at 7:45am... Can u believe this? SEMBAWANG?!?! That's like a fuckin' distance for me!

To those who know about this... The chalet's going down this June... Details will be sent to ya through SMS...

Cheers to ya!

Another album of pics that I've just added in...

A Day Out With Miss_D:- Mitre Hotel pics, Karmilawati's Chalet/Broadrick Reunion, Aggro Photography.

Aight... This is a simple entry, got a couple of new pics comin' up... and more new pics comin' up. Well, my pictures ain't as good as Dewi Marie's or any other photographers but it's a watch. I mean, somethin' to kill ur time, lookin' at my lame pics. I'm gonna list out some description of the new pics below, I mean, at the listing... on the left... under pictures... yeah... here we go...

A Day Out With Surya:- Well, like what it says, a day out with Surya, well, not really the whole day, just the afternoon. After that, went jammin' with No Direction in BMC and hung out in town to shoot some pool. Crashed at B's Place and there's some night clouds shot... Awesome pics for the clouds! And some stupid facial expressions by me.

The Day I Stop Jammin' In BMC:- The day I stop jammin' there because of that stupid fuck who takes care of the place. Don't u guys agree? He's a fuckface! I don't think he even know what's music all about. 7 People in the room, he chase us out and asked for 2 bucks from any extra people in there. Can't even stand outside that window thingy to see the bands play? Can u believed that?! He asked us to watch the band from the security monitor? Yeah right, so small, what can I see and what the fuck can I hear?! In the first place, he shouldn't even make those stupid windows if none of us can watch the bands there. Anyways, this load of pictures was the day when First Chapter, Rika and 180 jammed. And also, BK slackin' session.

May 16th!! Hahaha... Happy May 16th ah eh!! Sickness... Two days, I stayed at B's place. Friday night and Saturday night. His home is like my home. I don't know why but I simply love to crash at his place. Good accommodation, TV, bed, Guitars, Loads of magazine for guys (etc. FHM,Maxim...) air-conditioned room... What else would a guy could as for... A place to chill and talk crap. Of course there ain't girls around but who cares... There's DVDs to watch.

Just got back home from yesterday... Went out in the evenin' yesterday and I'm only home tonight... Insane! Didn't do much yesterday, went out with Miss D and it was nice to see her again... just had a simple dinner... hmm.. okay.. neither of us was eatin' yesterday but we sat at S-11 with Sofyn, Jess & B. After hangin' out in S-11, we head down to The Garage to jam. Played all the new materials and we no longer play our old stuff. Damn, missin' some of the old songs somehow... A totally new No Direction with new style of play... I don't know, when we play upstage, u guys have ur say. No more Downside Emotions or From Me To You or some of the other songs we have.

Hanged out at B's till late just now... Watched Starsky & Hutch... & 50 First Dates... Both are good and funny. Watched Starsky & Hutch in the early mornin' and as always, B knocked out first... While I was watchin' it alone... Till about 6pm, we head down to Parkway Parade to hang out with Fyn, ToYoL, Min, B, Tweet & Mon... Had a simple dinner in Banquet. Got myself a bowl of Beef Ball Noodle Dry... It was not bad... Quite tasty. And hanged out at BK later on. Had a good laugh with Tweet & ToYoL's madness... Parkway has change a lot... Seriously, A LOT! It's not like how it was back then, plain and simple.

Brought my cam along but the fucked up thing... didn't bring along my extra batt. Sucky... so there I was, carryin' my cam with no juice in the cam to take pics. Yesterday, met up with Nik & IK in Cineleisure and god damn, we wasted their time. They waited in town from 9 and we came around 12 plus. I feel bad and B feels, extremely bad. It was due to jammin'. Suppose to catch Troy n the movies but the guys told us it was sold out. I hope that Nik & IK ain't pissed or anythin' cuz by the way I look at them, they were lookin' moody. Guys, if ur readin' this, I'm really sorry man, for being late... Nik was pretty beat cuz he didn't sleep for the past few days and IK was tired. They went home after hangin' out for a while.

Aight, that's it for today.. I don't know what else to write about.. Some other time folks... CHEERS!

Okay, here's my mass replies... :-

min~ : Hey min... Thanks for taggin'.. havin' papers ey? What papers? I don't play with those studying theoritical things anymore.. heheh.. now I'm more of the practical shit... Cool min! Cheers to ya! Hope to see ya around!

Alif : Ah! Mad! TENGTAI! hahaha.. bro, missed the session man! i'm missin' session!! MOHAA SESSION! Shit bigtime dude! Wished I could join u guys! ANyways, there's always other time! See u around...

zad : (bubble)... hahahahahaha... Familiar to somethin' ain't it? Hehehe bubble..hmm... Anyways, good whatever-time-ur-reading-this to u! Boredom is the mother of all fuck ups! Hahahaha...
Cheers!

_=beLLe=_ : Hey thanks! Cheers to u! And I'll take care if U take care...

zeezee : Hey girl! Miss ya too! Big time! i guess just don't have time to go out again ey? And argue about red day! Hahah... FRIDAY, is RED DAY! Remember that... And nemo, was awesome! haha..madness..that was like... last year! HAHAHA.. Cheers!

jeebs : Hey dude! Thanks for hoppin' by! Nice layout? Ur kiddin'?! This is the lamest layout ever! There's many other nice layouts that's waaaaay better than mine.. Look at urs example? I find that cool, simple yet stylish. Simplicity is always best! Anyways, go ahead with the link up, I'll link u up too. Cheers! Hope to see u around again...

shikin : Hmm... Miss_D... heh heh heh... STAY TUNE TO FIND OUT MORE!! IN.... blindedheart.blogspot.com

MiSS_D : Hehehe.. Ur still mysterious girl.... not much people know.. heh... Love ya!

p|uGGy : Most real... i message already.. but then... TYPO AH EH!!! HAHAHA Jangan tak QUENN tau! Man! Quenn satu! Garing garing.. letak sambal lebih kuah sikit! Satu bungkus man! Hahahaha... HEY HO!... ah eh... HAHAHAHA! Cheers!

Mergh! most real.. Yesterday was Sofyn's birthday and we hang out... Didn't buy her any gift.. Hmmm... Runnin' low on cash. ALREADY?! Yes.. it's only like 5 days from my pay day and it's like $24.60 in my bank... Cool ey? Hahaha.. there I go again... declare bankrupcy again.. Gotta watch my budget... Now that I have a new line of my own.. and still havin' my old account to settle.. FUCK! My dad's ain't payin' for me no more! Owing starhub big time... and now I'm signing up with M1? Hahaha.. I'm so insane. My M1 number starts with an 8! Coolness! Weird numbers these days. What if it's a 5... or a 2... or maybe starting with..... 1. Soon ah eh...soon.. when they're like out of numbers or somethin'.

Hanged out till late in town yesterday with the bunch. Fir,Fyn,Fad,Nik,Jess,Mitch,Tweet & Mon... Fad was bein' crappy, as always and we were laughin' out so hard that we sweat, we cried, and we got hard time breathing... just because of laughing due to Fad's action. It was whacked! Fad never fails to make us laugh with his sudden outburst of madness. Crashed at B's place yesterday... Wrote some lyrics on our band's new material... B got a hard time thinkin' of the lyrics.. and I just sat there... Hahaha.. I was brain dead... like always. I only helped him a li'l with scenario to write the song about and a li'l bit of melody guide to help him start... Worked the song till 5 in the mornin'.. and that's when we hit the sack...

Woke up around 11 and B was preparing to meet Sya... He left early to meet Sya while I'm still at his place... alone. His home is like my home... I left around 1 plus and here I am... Typin' this out. Will be jammin' with the boys tonight... but before that, I'm meetin' Miss D for a while... to have dinner and after that, she'll go home.. and I'll go with the boys.

Thought of bookin' a chalet in Costa Sands "Paris"... but I just don't have the time to do so. Damn it! It's one month away and if I book now, I might stand a chance to get it. I must not delay! But how do I book the chalet.... with $24.60 in my bank? That's all I've got for the rest of the month! FUCK! I'm totally FUCKED! i know... if one SAFRA card would give a discount on the rate... Three SAFRA cards would most probably... give us free! So yeah, Fad & B... lend me ur SAFRA card... HAHAHA.. DREAM ON WAN! Like as if that's how the system works... Money is everythin' around here... U need cash to survive! no cash, ur screwed!

Okay, that's it for now.. I'm going off.. I'll be doin' my mass replies in the next entry...

Cheers!

Hey! What a lame blog... I mean, it's so mundane... Thanks to tagboard, I have no more disses. Is it me, or is it that Tagboard's bein' a bitch? Anyways, today was a good day... I guess... Madness.

Since the sandbag area had been done, we have not much thing to do. Just now, I mean, yesterday, earlier in the day, I became the enemy. A bunch of reservist guys went through this security check... And they were given some scenario... To make sure that they check the so called "enemies" thoroughly so that they can pass through. And if they do the procedures right, they pass the test. I was this guy, who wears the No.4 Camo and I'm supposedly a guy who reports to my Clementi Camp and I don't know what's my superior's name that sent me to the camp and that I've lost my 11B. And taped around my body are two rounds of ammo. So they're suppose to look for those rounds. Most of 'em didn't get to search the rounds.. Maybe being the reason that it's well hidden under my layer of fats in my belly... They didn't feel anythin' underneath my clothes. And those reservist dudes are all in the superior stage... u know, officers... 2LT, Full Leftenan... Captains... Those people... And some of 'em were fuckin' rough that they nearly hurt me... Madness...

After my day was done in work, it was most of the time, sleepin' in my bunk... heh heh... After fall out, went back home and meet up with p|uGGy. Damn, it's been a long time since I've hanged out with her and it was fun, although it wasn't the original mad crew. p|uGGy, B, Tweet, Inn, Zad, IK & Fad was there... Tweet and Inn cracked us up big time... It was crappy! Just hanged out around my area and played some games and stuff.. It felt as if it was a long time that we've not been hangin' out...

Most real, a few of 'em knows who's Miss D... D baby, I'm sorry doll, they forced me out to say.. Ur known now... By B, Tweet & p|uGGy... So don't worry, it ain't big. For the rest of ya, still wonderin' who's Miss D? Hehehehe... Enjoy my blog to know... Okay, not really enjoy, just follow up to know who she is... I'll tell u guys when it's time to expose. And dear, I messaged ya, no reply, maybe ur sleepin'... I was a li'l bit too late I guess...

And p|uGGy! It was an awesome hang out... Been a while ey? Nice to see u again... heheheh, The Queen Of The Road... HAHAHAHA... Relak aje cross road... It was a mad view from across the street... hope to see ya more often durin' our slackin' sessions but I know that somehow, u can't... cuz ur workin' and all.

To all readers... Okay, maybe not to all... to those usual bunch... There might be a plan.. planned up this June... U'll get a message on ur phone if the plan is established...

Aight, gotta go now... Cheers to all!

Whoa~!! This is whacked man.. I was tryin' to update my blog and BHAM! New layout... What the socks?! Okay, what ever it is... it's kinda cool...

Today, was an okay day... Didn't do much work in camp, in fact, we were doin' some "acting"... The malays would call it, "wayang"... We pretend to do work but we didn't... Heh... It was awesome. Everybody felt lazy, so that's why we didn't do much work.

Talked with Miss.D and we had quite a long talk... It was nice. Just can't wait to see her again. U guys might be wonderin' ey? "Who's Miss.D?" Well, I ain't sayin' much... Gonna let u guys find out urself.. So that's that...

Hey p|uGGy! Thanks! but girl, I think the tags ur readin'... are the old tags... I don't know what's up, but the tagboard's being a bitch... So what ur readin' are the old tags... Anyways, thanks girl...

Aight, ain't much no more... Cheer!

To be continued...

ARGH! Tired...I'm so god damn tired... I think I need some sleep. Tomorrow's workin' again. God damn work... okay, it's more like, Forced Labour.. Fuckin' hell... Had a borin' day yesterday... didn't do much though.

Stayed home till evenin' time and that's when I went out to meet B, Yan, Tweet, D'Omar & Fidah at Simpang Bedok. Hang out there and chatted up some crappy stuff and had a few good laughs. Talked about LOTR Exhibition with Tweet and we came up with this lame mixture of lines from movies... hehehe... u know, that sort of a mix and match thing...

MIxed up LOTR, Troy & Van Helsing.. It may not be funny when u read it from here cuz u have to hear and be there to laugh it out... Example..."What does an elf, a man & a dwarf got to do with the Riddermark? Speak Quickly!" Then u have the Troy line comin' in, suddenly..."Is there anyone else?.......Is there anyone else?!" And there is the other scene where Aragon was trying to make the Dead Army (or whatever u call those guys) to join him in the attack..."What say u? What say u?!" "Is there anyone else?! Is there anyone else?!?!" Suddenly Van Helsing's line come in..."No! No one can kill Count Dracula..." Hahahaha... had a good laugh though.. Okay, my guess is that u guys are not laughin'... okay... ur so not laughin'... it's okay...

Anyways, called Miss D when I got home... and she was asleep! Oh boy.. bothered her sleep cuz she was sleepin' when I called.. I'm sorry hun, for wakin' u up. Anyways, lookin' forward for our next date... I'll call u when I'm free aight? Luv ya! Kisses!

p|uGGy-O! If ur readin' this, how about that pillow thing, girl? I mean, we nede to settle it right? Damn, I've been busy and ur busy... And that account thing... I don't trust in that... who knows, the cash might just go someplace else? Oh kay, I'll try to do somethin' but I can guarantee u... Call my dad, talk to him aight? I'm gonna be busy next week... don't be shy girl, just call my dad... Anyways, do call me sometime aight? Hope to see ya someday.. whenever...u feel like slackin' or what lah.. aight? Cheers to my old mate!

Damn, got my pay already and I think I'm gonna keep it on the low... Tight budget, u know. with my bills not paid fully and things to buy and do... I CAN'T DO OUTGOING WITH MY PHONE! Fuck! It feels fucked up when u can't reply a message when u really really want to reply so badly... and u can't call people when ur somewhere when there's no phone... ARGH! Cheebye! Gotta settle it as soon as I can...

Next, I'm gettin' that new phone... Nokia something something...I have no idea on what the model number is but I'm gettin' it. With $66 per month... it's worth the instalment.. It's this cool phone with many cool functions... Hell yeah, I'm gettin' it.. even if my budget is tight..I"m gettin' it... WOO HOO!!

Lastly, Miss. D... Love ya! hehehe..just wanna say that...

CHEERS TO ALL!

Insane! It's a friggin' Sunday and I'm and home! Can't believe I'm wastin' my Sunday away... Fuck man! Yesterday, I had an awesome day! It was awesome...so awesome... that the word awesome doesn't describe awesome anymore... It's called... Emosewa... Okay... That was crappy...Anyways...Here's what happened....

Once upon a friggin' time... back in the jungle... Tarzan was a.... Okay..wrong show..ehem...

Okay, so it was yesterday... stayed home for the first halve of the day... around 3 plus, I went off to meet up with Miss. D... Met up with her at borders and we sorta had a date... So we hanged out in town for a while... Showed her Mitre Hotel and well, that building is still up and I saw Raja there... For those who went Mitre durin' the Mitre Hotel days.... u guys should know who's Raja..."Siapa Raja?" "KITALAH RAJA!!" Well, same old indian guy who parks his Merc up front at the porch... Mitre no longer sells drinks or beers... Okay they still sell drinks but beer...I ain't sure...Read a sign in front at the gate... we can bring in food or any drinks we want but we have to pay them for usage of the space in that building... U know, the old seats and couches and sofas area... The area where we had Tummy War...Hehehe... God damn, that place brings back loads of memories... Yeah... memories... heh, it's mad... So yeah, we hung out at Mitre and I took some shots and after that... well took the bus home with Miss D.... Well, i'm lookin' forward to go out with her more... And D, if ur readin' this... Love ya, doll! Call me aight? Or wait... maybe I should call u.. yeah... hehehe.. Kisses baby...

After going out with her, I head down to East Coast alone... well... to meet up with my old friends from Broadrick... Wati,Jun,Liza,Aaron,Ah Soon,Shahfillah... That was the only bunch.. It was a chalet... to celebrate Wati's birthday... It was fun, did some catchin' up and had a good laugh at jokes and things... It was mad... Ik & Inn joined me after the gig at Sentosa ended... they came to join me at East Coast.. at the chalet.. Heheh, there were loads of free food! Hehehe... And most real, yesterday was the day that I never seen IK and Inn being so quiet... Okay, maybe IK was kinda normal... but Inn, totally quiet... hehehe... Lordch Bitch... Da' man... Hahahah... So yeah, hanged out in East Coast till the first bus came... Played pool, hung out at McCafe... and most real, East Coast is Badong... not much thing to do..

Fuckin' stoned when I got back and the first thing that came into my mind... SLEEP... so yeah, after I had my shower, I hit the sack as soon as I step into my room... Finally, some shut eyes....

July's gig comin' up soon... And well, ND's been practising... and most real... if we ever play our new stuff... be surprise for a change... I hope the crowd won't really mind the change. We feel that there's a need for a change in our music... So yeah, hopefully we'll play our new songs... So just stay on and hear out for it folks... As for First Chapter, well, it's a total change... big time. With this new line up, they wanna play somethin' harder and faster... So yeah, I'll try...

Aight, that's it for now... and the fuckin' tagboard's out... Temporary Error... I mean.. What's up with that? Can't wait to read up those disses again... Bring it on folks! DISS THIS TISS.... okay.. I made that up.. just to let it...ermm.....rhyme... Yeah... Diss this tiss...What the fuck was I thinkin'... Anyways, keep those rage tags, diss tags, comment tags, nice tags... or any kind of tags comin' in... I love readin' 'em! Okay.. but first, tagboard gotta make their system work... THen u guys can do that... Aight?

Cheers!

*sigh*... The first thing I can say when I open up my page... Ngast! Didn't go to work today, got myself "sick" so that I can report sick in camp... Too lazy to work cuz what I feel is that we're doing shitload there... And it's not somethin' worth doing..it's just some crappy stupid job... SAF... more like SAFo...Serve And Fuck Off... So yeah, endurance play it's part here...

Hey BeLLe....finally know who u are...Emelia... The Gel Bottle... I'll remember that... Thanks for all the messages and stuff.... Still have it...still smellin' good...

p|uGGy... Nice chattin' up with ya yesterday... Hehehe.. Madness ain't it? "Hi...Hey...Hmm...Hello?...Hmm..." Hahahaha.. Old school siak! Ah most real, the thing about u... well, Since u made a promise that there won't be any cash involve if we were to meet up... I'll tell ya. Deal? Heheh... Most real ah, I can't do outgoing calls or messages! SIAN EH!!! Okay p|uGGy-O, see u... say... next week right? We slack like old times... With the usual BK Slackers... Okay, maybe not the old BK SLackers... but u know the guys...Lordch Bitch, Frodo Baggins or Enrique, Mr.Batman (Fad)... Nik-o..and many others... I'll try to get them to slack next saturday... or if ur free..this Saturday... So yeah, u know my number, feel free to call ya? CHeers to u great ol' p|uGGy-O! Maybe I'll call ya some day...

To those who diss... thanks... It's coffee in the mornin' for me when I read it... U know what I mean...Oh yeah, my replies...

think:- The word famous, doesn't even come into my mind... Why are U the one that's puttin' thoughts that never exist in my mind? I never want to be famous... and I play in the band not for fame... I play cuz I love music and I simply love to play for the kids to listen although some may not like my band's music but what I know... I have fun when I do so on stage... And u got it wrong when p|uGGy said about fans...u got it all wrong cuz she told me about my blog thingy and we talked about this... so yeah, ur assuming... but anyways, thanks for taggin'...

Noraliza Idris:- Oh, ur that malay singer... I mean, ur name... not u... Fu! p|uGGy berbual ngan aku... FUIYO! Terbeliak giler babi siak mata aku... Serious! Tak bedek sial.... Jantan Shiok sendiri... hmm... Boleh jugak... Apa apa kau nak panggil aku.. carry on... Like I've said before... everybody have their own views and I can't have EVERYBODY liking me... hate me if u want to... cuz once again.. u have ur own opinion... Cheers!

Most real, this blog is becomin' like audioreload's forum page... disses... what is the god forsaken world becomin' to? Anyways, pics will be up (yeah, like I've not been sayin' that for a million times...Pics up..pics will be up..bla bla bla..yet..it's still ain't up)... but seriously, It'll be up...later...

Yours Crapilly,
Sibbie

Whoa~~ I was like away for only a few hours and my tagboard's all filled up... Awesome! U know what guys? It's really nice to read up ur views and opinions on things... be it good or bad, it's like a feedback or somethin'... Some of u hate me and some of u well... just like readin' my stuff but don't really like or hate and to some... cuz they're friends of mine? Whatever it is, I have no grudges on anyone, I mean... hey, everybody have their own individual views and their options to agree or disagree with me. All these while that I've been typin' here about p|uGGy or whoever... I didn't say anythin' about me being right and I never did ask any of u guys to be on my side. It's up to u guys to choose... So whatever it is, keep thos tags comin' in... Hate or like, just show me the lights...

Head out to Tamp just now to have a short CS session... Yeah yea, I know that CS is so, old school... But it was just to have fun with my mates. Nik,Dzafir,Fyn,Suhayl,Inn and Rabia were the bunch for tonight. It was kinda mad and all... Had fun though... Saw Muhammad just now, in Tampines Mackerz (McDonald's)... He looked different but somehow, he's still the same old Mohammad I remembered... The funny guy of the class. He was from my Secondary school... Broadrick... After three years, met him... Madness...

Lookin' at the Tagboard... p|uGGy have a fair share of fans, that's cool! To those who've sent messages to her, I'll tell her... I'll ask her to reply to u guys through my tagboard. She would love to reply...

Aight, it's time for those replies again... MASS REPLIES!!

Shikin:- Nah, it's just a simple way of speakin' my thoughts outloud... Anyways, thanks!

passerbye:- I agree with ya 100% passerbye... Like i said, she's the straight to the point kinda girl and yes, that oughta get respect. If u know her, she's cool... Cheers!

ahli fikir:- Aku takleh lupa dia, sebab pada aku, dia yang paling gerek.. Dah jumpa dah pompuan lain yang bagus dari dia cuma aku masih tersangkut kat dia... Aku nak lupakan dia? Susah brudder, members paling gerek... Kecoh, gila... simply said, MAD GIRL! And she's understanding. Ego? Hmm, itu aku tak tahulah sebab aku takleh kata aku ni ego atau tak ego. Itu terserah kepada individu sendiri... And about her choosin' Azri, yes... She made a good choice, rather than being with me cuz I feel that he's better. In terms of being able to take care of her and make her happier than what I did and I've been writin'... I'm glad that she's with Azri, rather than some other jerks who don't take care of her well... Thanks for the feedback ahli fikir... Take care!

think:- I have to agree on that "Kau merapek" part... Cuz yeah, I am lame. And about that pretending to be ok... it's true, everyday I'm wearin' a mask when all these while... I ain't happy the way it is. Come on, everybody does this... They be happy in front of others so not to let others be down just because of one person. U know how a person can simply change others' mood simply by pulling a sad face or a long face... I'll pass the message to her to read up ur tag, aight? Have a good one...Cheers!

MusH`:- I'll try to keep it up bro and thanks for sayin' that although I feel that this is a lame blog... "Oh, have u ever read that lame emo guy who calls himself bigguy? He's so fuckin' lame..." That kinda thing... Anyways, thanks for the compliments...........if that is a compliment...... CHEERS!

NiNa:- Hey Nina! It's been a while ey? Well, I'll take care if u do... Just be safe when ur riding that Vespa of urs or whenever ur driving... Do take care... See u around...

Okay, that's the end of the mass reply... Damn, workin' again... I ain't sleepin' tonight... Gonna hog the comp all night long. Aight guys...I'll be uploading the pics real soon.. have loads of 'em to upload. Remember, keep those tags comin' in... Cheers!

Yours Sincerely,
Fwghds...

Fuck! Everytime I book out... when I get home, surely something back home will spoil my mood... Thanks to my mom... and now..my brother. Fuck him, never like that fuck ass shit head since I was young... Hate his fuckin' behaviour... Asshole... He thinks that his all good and great to the family... Fuck that asshole... WHy doesn't he just get married to that chinese girl and fuck off from this house? If it was possible, I would fuck off myself from this place... Get my own apartment or somethin'...but that all boils back to the word...if it was POSSIBLE... Shouldn't have went back home today, should have just stayed in. Comin' back home is like going back to some deathwish or somethin'... I was plannin' to stay in for the whole week but I went back home... Not to get back to this home to see my family.. but actually... to get back home and go out, supposedly to go out with Surya but now... I have no idea on where the heck is she... Messaged her a dozen times but ain't got a reply and called her phone... but it says, number not in use... So where could she be? But anyways, I'm headin' out to meet the boys in Tamp to have some CS Session but the thing is... I'm fuckin' broke. Ain't got a fuckin' dough! 6 more days to survive till my pay day...if only I didn't get caught red handed taking my dad's money from his wallet...that was a few good hundred dollars in all that I took from my family without them knowing...hehehe...sigh...but what the hell...Looks like I ain't comin' back home, just wanna stay in camp... That would be better..no worries, no one to shout at me.. just be alone in that bunk... Gettin' used to that lonely life in camp I guess. Great, mom & dad arguing over a stupid matter... Awesome ain't it? This ain't a home, it's a fuckin' funfair...

Heard in camp that my course will be startin' soon... Some say that it's this week and some say it's two weeks later... so the thing is, I ain't got a clue on when the hell will my course be done. The stupid trainin' shed is lookin' all good and neat now... Just a few more days to survive...Cool!

Lookin' at my tagboard... WoW! p|uGGy hit me....hit me hard! She's back online? Hmm... Maybe she's usin' someone's comp... Whatever it is, that's one thing I like about her... Honesty... She'll tell u straight in the face, without beatin' around the bush. See what I mean by me liking her? She's awesome. Well p|uGGy, I know u told me to move on and well... I've tried, believe me... I've tried but I simply can't move on. Askin' someone to do a thing and consoling someone is easy but when it happens to u, it's really hard to do it... U know what I mean... Yeah, I admit that I was a li'l bit off when u neglected me.. and that day when u called me up, I lied about sayin' that it ain't u... But actually, it was about u... U know me too well for me to lie... Ur a great pal and a buddy... was a better girlfriend... And about me comparing my companions with ya? Well, true, I can't answer to that.. I can't answer on how they or u feel cuz it ain't me... Each individual, have their own speciality and character.. but I find urs the best.. What can I do? I can't help it... My feelings took over me even if I said no. Whatever was in the mind may escape...but what's in ur heart will be kept... There u go, it's somethin' like that. U asked me to meet ya yesterday and u said u wanted to settle stuff with me and I know that it's about this... Some day we'll meet up... some day.... Last thing I ever wanted is to lose u, as a friend cuz I've already lost u once, as a girlfriend... I've been an asshole, a jerk, a butthead, a fuck ass, lame ass stupid fuck.... Why was I made this way? Where the hell I know?! Ask god! Maybe he wanted the story to be this way... The ending? He knows... all of us, simply don't know, how it would all end... Cheers to u p|uGGy! Thanks for being there when I needed someone to talk to or simply hang out... For now till whenever... Farewell... I see u when I see u and hear u when I hear u, Cheers!

To all those peeps in tagboard... I'd like to say thanks...u guys shouldn't waste ur time readin' my blog cuz seriously, it's a repeated thing. It goes on and on and on and on...like one of those energizer batteries... Same shit, over and over... BUt I really appreciate u guys for even takin' ur precious time off just to read... And to all those who's tryin' to cheer me up... well... thanks!

Here are my mass replies:-

DaNeIsHa:- Hey there! Thanks for messagin' me! Hehehe... It's been a while... Hope to see u around someday...

Alif:- Hey Alif! Thanks for messagin' dude! U know what... Maybe we can have more of this... LAN GAME..thingy... MOHAA is best! U know...ask the same guys.. Haniff...tengtai master...heh..tweet... And maybe a few others..we'll have big of a madness fun! What say u?! Hit me back in my tag dude!! CHEERS!

Sofyn:- Hey girl! Pics ain't up yet... Cuz u know, it takes a bloody long time just to download pics and I'm lazy to compress the size..bla bla bla....but it'll be up............some day....

NiK`-:- Dude! I missed u too man! Damn, my girly man has not been hangin' out with us lately... God damn it! *sigh* but I'll see some day dude! Maybe this weekend? Yeah.. maybe this weekend, the usual mad Saturday Night Crew...

p|uGGy:- Oh... I've already replied to u... Sorry for repeatin'....

_=BeLLe=_:- Hey BeLLe! I've been seein' ur nick around but seriously... I still have no clue on who u are... Thanks for comforting me.... or is it called..cheering me on... Hmm... I ain't feelin' sad...just... okay...it is sad...kind of... But I'm takin' things easy... Yeah... Move on, where did I hear that before? Hmm... Oh yeah, like whatever many others had told me to do... No wonder it's familiar... My point is my dear BeLLe... I've been tryin'... But it's really hard man... Damn this feelings... Anyways, keep on comin' to see if I've moved on or not... So... CHEERS!

Alif.....AGAIN:- Hey! Yeah, tengtai is the biggest bitch! Only depends on scope... Damn that tengtai master... He shall die with my handgun butt! HAH! Cheers!

kitty babe:- Hey there! Don't get it all wrong, I didn't mean to diss ya... It has nothin' got to do with ya... It's just that babe name... I don't know, felt like makin' somethin'... BUt I swear to GOD and hope to die by getting hit by a big lorry if I lied on this that I meant no offense to u... I swear! I ain't jealous of ur nick... I have my own nick, why would I get jealous? I apologies to u if it may seem offensive but girl, chill aight? No offense... I don't know if after this reply to u, u still wanna loathe me or u would be okay... It's ur choice, I can't forced ya to like me or be my fan or things like that... it's ur choice... Anyways, u said I know u, but I still have no idea...on who u are... And once again.. I'm sorry, keep those tags comin' in...

Allright, to the rest of u who never made ur existence in my tag or u've been readin' but u made ur presence unknown... I wanna say thanks... and those who had never tried taggin'... try it today! Try it now in fact! Why wait?! Simply scroll down, and get to the tag area... and start taggin'! First ur name and then ur website or e-mail... and then...Ur message.. It's that easy! Only 3 easy step and ur done! So try it now! Taggin'... life has never been more fun...

Cheers to all!
"Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever..."

So hey! I'm back...got an early fall out today..12 plus...we're done... The whole trainin' shed now has been cleared...sand pit on the left...bags on the right...so yeah..from packed up place..to a nice,neat and organised place... Thanks to "brave" 8 young men who works hard every single day... Brave...hmm..yeah..brave the sand,brave from hitting the sandbags when they throw to the sand pit to clear...uhmm..brave from getting hit on the bar hanging on top of that training shed...okay...that was lame..whatever it is..job's almost done... On Monday, just have to clear that shit out...

Got into an arguement with my best friend...I was in my LaL mood and I was havin' loads of thoughts so let's just say...my day was kinda fucked up... I was downed...downed to earth, man... I felt bad after arguing with my friend... Last thing I ever want is to lose her as a friend... Me and my LaL Moods.... Fuck me...I suck in life...

To all those tagged me..I'd like to say thanks... so here it is..my replies...

Zad: Hey bro..yeah! Stwong bad...Duh~~ Suh~~ HAAHAHAH!!! Yeah, he rocks my socks to oblivient...uhmm...obliviant...oblivo...uhmm...however u spell it...u know what I mean...

Alif: Ur awesome...Tengtai mana punya? Tengtai banyak! East,south,west,north or others...? Hah! Thanks dude...

Shammie: Hey Girl! Thanks for taggin'! Thanks for wanting to cheer me up, I appreciate it... Take care aight? I'll try to do some chinning up... oh...kay...If I raised my chin really high, wouldn't that be..egoistic? heh...I know what u mean..just jokin'...CHEERS!

Kitty Babe: Look at that...Kitty Babe...what kind of a kitten would be named...babe? I mean, babe is a pig in the show Babe... but a kitten? Ah heck...I know u but u don't wanna reveal ur name...Then how in the name of Ken Bettie...would I know u?! Currently? Single? Hmm....status might be changing..I ain't sure..Currently..in the stages of dating..I think... yeah..so there u go... Ur answer..

So there u go...my replies for this moment...CHEERS TO ALL!!!

May the socks be with u!

Hey ho everyone....uhmm...okay..I'm back..So I realise, there's a hate tag on my tagboard..uhmm... okay... So that guy or gal hates me..Or maybe...he or she is trying to make a point. So yeah, thanks GiGoEr... Of course I know she's attached.. Like duh! She talks to me about him.. and he knows..when I go out with her... So yeah... I know she's attached... Look...I'm a loser, okay? So if u wanna read this loser's so called, episode of non-ending stories...just like Days Of Our Lives..carry on... If u guys don't like it, well... just forget the address... blindedheart.blogspot.com...

So, okay, it's been weeks since I've been in camp and well, progress on that place is going smoothly. Sandbags slowly going down and that trainin' shed... now looks like a trainin' shed... or more..uhmm..or less..whatever it is. I stayed in on Monday... Alone, yes....alone..with no one in my bunk... Of course there were people in the camp, with all those reservist guys in their own bunks..while I was alone..in my bunk... So from there, my thoughts starts running... U know, same old shit... What am I doin' here? Why must I serve? What have I missed out? Am I really irritatin'? Bla bla bla bla... Stupid questions ran through my mind...

Have u guys ever had this feeling? U know... somehow like u've been used...or maybe..u've been like..uhmm... cheated..or maybe...just maybe...uhmm..okay I got no more ideas..but whatever it is..the main key...used...cheated...abused...okay maybe not abused...by anyone..guys or gals...it doesn't matter. I was sittin' in my bunk yesterday... and I was thinkin'...why? Okay... there's no reason on why... Aight..easy said, U feel like ur a Plaster Of Boredom. That's how I felt... U know, some people, when they're need u..they come to u..like askin' "Hey, how's ur day?" Or maybe.."Hey, how have u been?" FOr goodness sake! Where were u all these while? Suddenly u pop up askin' me on how I'm doin'? Wow..that's awesome! Oh kay..back to topic... And after askin' the basic questions like how ur doing...have u eaten..bla bla bla...the next line would be..."Hey, I need a favour from u..." or maybe..."Can u help me out?".. I mean, suddenly, out of no where, u weren't around..and the next thing... u popped out and asked me all this... wow! Well, if people really need help...I see the situation and see if I can help with what I have... Had a friend who needed cash...so yeah.. I loaned to that person... I don't care about it..it's 30 bucks...That person says that she would pay back...well..guess what...till today.. no... And that person just keeps... and when she needs cash again..she calls me up... Wow! I'm some kind of sugar daddy?! I only earned 350 per month...I ain't no bank! She's an old friend of mine..way back to 7 years ago.. surprising ain't it? After say...5 years she had not called me..suddenly she popped up and say all those what I've just lay out... Whoa...Weird... So I conclude..I AM A PLASTER OF BOREDOM! Thank u guys for making me that... Okay...to some of u people...besides the guys I hang out with... they're cool..I hang out with them..cuz I wanna hang out.. so yeah...

Lastly...My equation...

1. An Army Officer + A Rose + A Girl Who's Attached + A Bar = Birth of Paranoia in Boyfriend

2. An Army Officer + A Day Out With Girl Who's Attached + Movies = Boyfriend Gets Worried Over his Relationship When He Discovered About The Date

3. Girl Who's Attached + Confusion + Doubts + Break Up = Emotionally Wounded Which Leads You To A Broken Heart

So there u go...my lame conclusion...My point... Clubbing is a waste of time...Ha ha....ha....ha ha ha.... ha ha ha..hahaha.... ha.. haha... uhah... ha.. hahaha... Okay..bye?

CHEERS TO ALL!

Ah...the mornin'...of a Friday. Days had past and I've been doin' the same thing in camp, playin' with sand. A few of us got bored, so we did a trap in the sand pit and somehow, it claimed it's first victim, one of our bunkmates. It was funny, he was wrestling with this guy and he somehow stepped onto the sealed hole.. Ngast! This strangers somehow got closer with one another and we're like buddies who've known each other for a long time.

I've been feelin' fucked up somehow for this past few days. Feelin' as if life is meaningless... Just got bored of everythin' I guess... There was this someone that I hanged out with and it was awesome... Got the whole of almost two weeks with her and that made me happy. Simply hangin' out, talkin' crap, accompanying her to places... just like ol' times... But suddenly, these past few days... that everyday messagin' or callin' stopped and I have no idea why... Maybe she's busy? Maybe...ermm...she's avoiding me? *sigh*... I have no idea... I don't know what I'm feelin'... A mixture of feelings all blend into one. Sadness, anger, lost... I wonder what else would come to mind.

I'm plannin' to get a new phone by next month but I don't know if those handphone shops accept instalment payments... Thought of gettin' an N-Gage... or mabye a 6100... I don't know...the main thing is to know if they accept instalment payment... Gotta ask later on.

Same ol' thing today, headin' down to camp, report in camp and do same shit... And what I heard that our warrant officer is givin' us a day off this Saturday, which is...tomorrow... We earned it! Ngast...aight, gotta go...

CHEERS TO ALL!

Sickness! Today is just another Sunday...just like any other fuckin' day... As many would say, Same Shit...Different Days... Ain't it peeps? Life, ur basically doin' the same thing, repeatedly, over and over. It's only how u spend it & how u finish off the day makes a difference to the sentence, Same Shit, Different Days... I'm feelin' so LaL for today, I don't know why but simply lal. Each day passes and when each day passes... the more I hang out with the usual slackin' crew... The more I feel that I'm getting lamer, boring and quieter... Felt so out of place when they joke and me not knowing anything... and somehow I do feel a li'l bit uncomfortable to speak. Maybe the reason being that I've not been hangin' out with them that often no more... I'm a problem to society? Maybe...

Another fuckin' week had past and it's so fuckin' borin' in camp. Ain't much to do... besides playin' with sand and gettin' injured for no fuckin' reason why... Book in and book out... every single fuckin' day. Although in a way, it's good...cuz it's a so called...JOB... Forced Labour with low income... Whatever it is, I just wanna serve and fuck off.

Head down to the gig in NYP last Friday and I missed both my mates bands... Subtle Revenge and Shoe Size 9... Thanks to work, I dropped by late resulting in seeing nothing else but metal bands. Not sayin' that those bands are bad or anythin'..it's just that... the main key for going to NYP, was to see the two bands I just mentioned...play... Saw a lot of people that I know there, well...not really a LOT..but a handful of people... after the gig, or should I say, halfway through the gig, we left... Who's we? 3/4 of the November Iris boys,Dil,Firdaus,Din,Fad,Inn,Rafiee.. Head out to Sengkang to slack. Sat there, had some fun and laughter... IK & B joined us a li'l bit later... the day ends simply by everybody going home happily...

Yesterday...hmm, let's see now.. What the hell did I do yesterday? Oh yeah, went to work, did some stupid things... book out... head back home... went to meet up with First Chapter to have an accoustic session. (F.Y.I :- First Chapter now have a new line up after Tweet & Rafiee quitted the band for some reason of their own... Replacements for the two guitarist - Zad (November Iris) & IK (Subtle Revenge). Sat there for a while before I left off to see Rika jam at BMC. Went to see Rika jammed and they were awesome and I was there being a li'l extra by grabbing the mic and sing and scream some any-o-how lyrics. After their session, I went back to Tamp to join up with First Chapter again. Heard their modification of FC's original, Fading Star... Well, it was a total change... Basic construction of the music is still there but playing wise... totally changed. More to that, hardcore sound... More Screamo, less Emo... I don't know, this kind of genre, may be a li'l hard for me on drums but I'll try... After all that, ton with Inn & IK behind Sogo and around 2 plus in the morning, I crashed at Suhayl's place till 3pm today... did nothin' much... played games and that's it...but as always, Suhayl's the number one guy under the Hospitality Department... Good host...

Today..hmm..what did I do... After reachin' home around 4 plus... stayed home, and just used the comp for a while... Supposed to go to some dinner with my whole family but I choose not to cuz I'm lazy. I don't know, many would say that I'm a fucked up child for not being with the family more but I don't know, that's the way I am I guess... I was simply lazy to go. At night, head out to Tamp for a while, without my family knowing that I went out... Met up with the slackers of BK... Inn, Irma, Fad, IK, Tweet, Dzafir, Sofyn, Mitch, p|uGGy, Brandon & Jessie. Bla bla bla, the same thing, jokes, laughter and crappiness fun... Head back home early cuz I wanna reach home before my family does... So I did... Here I am...

If u guys wanna visualize on what I did on saturday... pics will be up... Enjoy! For now, I'm outta here... Life just became more boring...

CHEERS TO ALL!!!

"You make me believe that today is worth living and tomorrow is worth waiting for because you'll be there for me today, tomorrow and everyday for the rest of my life..." - A short poem written by my first ex-girlfriend to me, it's nice but somehow, I once believed those empty promises...

It's been two days for the second week of life in Clementi Camp... Began work yesterday... It was hectic and fuckin' tirin'! Came in the mornin'...around 7:30 and reported to my Warrant Officer... After that, had a canteen break and then we started our work:- Some free cheap forced labour jobs... Carryin' loads of wooden logs... And it' ain't light. So we carry it, and reorganized that place so that it'll look neat and easy for the forklift to pick it up. Lots of splinters in the hand... and some unnoticed cuts... But unit life, as a temporary storeman is kinda cool... I mean, u can slack and u can rest whenever u wanna rest..u can smoke whenever u wanna smoke but not anywhere... Have to take cover just to smoke..heh... Finished the job around 5:30 in the evenin' yesterday. Time passes, kinda quick yesterday and it was the same for today... For today, we did sandbags...loads and loads of sand... And one sandbag...ain't that light, it's like... fuckin' heavy! got ourselves sandy and our once shiny boots all sandy and greyish in colour. it was tirin', my hands are like feelin' the muscle straining or somethin'...

What I heard from p|uGGy is that she's havin' a hard time at her place... She's stressed out and it's drivin' her insane somehow... It ain't physically tiring but mentally tiring... I can see that whenever I meet her after work or somethin'. Hope that she won't quit her job cuz it has a good pay and it's quite a good job although it can drive u crazy at times... but by the looks of it, I think she'll quit this job. Even if she quits, I can't force her to stay, it's her decision. *sigh*...she could use a li'l bit of that hard earn money for herself... I wish I could help her big time... I just wished... Hope to see her around one day and maybe we can hang out again..

Got home early today cuz my staff sergeant let us off early... There's many more sandbags to go, GOD DAMN!! Aight, anyways, gonna get back to my game... America's Army... It's an awesome game! Cheers to all!

HUERGH!

Hey ho! Let's go! Go where? I don't know... MOst real, had fun today... Loads of it.. and there was like lots of people around. The mornin' went out like any other day... at home... So yeah, played my game on the comp and soon after that, around late mornin', set off to B's place. Fixed up his new guitar strings and off we go... to jammin' at The Garage in North Canal Road (I hope I got the road name right). Oh yeah, wait up, before I go further... When I woke up this mornin', I realised that my Ray Ben specs broke... The ear hook broke, I was like... "What the fuck?!" I soon learned that I actually lay down on my specs by accident durin' my night of sleep... Luckily, super glue did it's work... The damage ain't that bad so yeah.. it was fixable. Anyways, back to the day's story...

After B's place, we set off to jammin'...bla bla bla.. at The Garage... Played a few of our new songs and old. Yan came along with us to see us jam... After the jammin', we head down to Guiness Theatre to check out the gig. Got there just in time to catch November Iris play, so we got our tickets and checked them out first before we set off to eat at S-11. As usual, had my fishball noodle dry... (I still have no idea on why I kept eatin' that same thing whenever I'm there...hmm...) Going to the gig this time... wasn't like the one in Youth Park whereby there were a whole lot of newbies around and there's like no one we knew around. It sure felt like old times, almost everybody knows everybody... That's the way it is, the old kids were all there. It was fun, seein' the guys moshed and me joining the rest in sabo-ing people to body surf by surprising them from the back and lifting them up to body surf... It was fun! Saw Sa-Bitch-Na there... Ermm.. I mean.. Sabrina... and god damn! She's gettin' fatter! And she's with her boyrfriend who she claimed broke up with her when I was datin' her when the actual fact that he went away as a peace keeper somewhere overseas... But what do I care? I don't know her anymore, she doesn't exist... breakin' my heart into a thousand pieces and totally wasted my time... Fuck that shit, why the hell am I talkin' about her? SockS! '

It was one hell of a gig! All of 'em were awesome bands... Favourite bands like My Squared Circle, Elisabelle's Tears, Death Of Illisabelle Mo'narch, November Iris, Forget Me Not, Sky and other bands... They were all awesome although the last band was a bad dissapointment... Not the band, but these few young NEW punks who dissed that last band. They shouted out "Eh, Change ur drummer ah!" and there was this girl supporting the band who shouted back "Shut the fuck up, I would like to see u guys play better than them! At least they're up there playing!" Or, somethin' like that... The drummer was good... it's not as if he was a totally big time bad drummer... Kids these days, don't know how to judge good from bad... *sigh*... But most real, almost everyone there I know... Azmi, Inn, Hafiz, Aaron, Nurl, Sya, Min, IK, Mon, Tweet, B, Dzafir, Dzul, Mitch, Jessie, Sofyn, Iman, Han, few of the Underedge guys, MSC guys, Zohriah, Fan, Firdaus, Raihan & many more.. It was awesome!

After all of that, had dinner at S-11 (Again! but this time, I had Fried Rice)... and after eating and talkin'... all of us went home... So here I am now, typin' out this blog. Gotta book in.. in a li'l while and that sucks! only 4 hours to sleep... damn! But what can I do... Must go... Aight, gotta go...

Movie & Gig pics will be up soon, once I'm done with the uploading... So come back to check it out, ur face might be amongst the people in the crowd... CHeers!

Sunday blardee Sunday!!!! Old skool song by U2... And most real...watched "Hellyboy" Yesterday with the bunch... Dzafir,Sofyn,Nik,Ik & Dzul... Hellboy is a funny show... well, the heroic character himself is kinda cocky and funny... I like the action, loads of action and cool moves and all but the storyline wise..it's more of the comic... But I give a rating of 7 out of 10 for that show... Why 7? Well, It's funny, cool costumes and designs, nice backdrops and setting and lastly, nice fighting scenes. I recommend this to whoever likes action comedy movie and especially to those who's into comics...

p|uGGy slacked with us yesterday and that was the... second or third time I saw her in her office wear... Wow, she's lookin' all grown up... Workin' lady now. asked her along to the movies with us but she didn't want to, instead, she went down to Hendrix with Azri and friends... Can see that she's all stressed up with work and thanks to work, her level of fun is like going down although she's still that mad girl I know. She's more serious now... So yeah, she went to Hendrix to let it lose for a while... Stressed up girl.. ngast...

Camp...currently I'm attached to Clementi Camp... PDF unit (People Defence Force)... It's a reservist camp so one thing I can say, it's one hell of a fuckin' slacked camp. No marching needed...no head dress needed... It's a simple nice army camp with not much facilities around. But the fucked up thing, the ten of us from the Driver Vocation were sent there to be "Sai Kang" warriors, U know... Sai kang...meaning... Be a cheap labour and do extra work...Thursday was my first day there..didn't do much cuz tmie didn't allow it... Saturday, which was yesterday, we slacked cuz they gave us our bunks... Bunks = Possible Stay In... So they let us sit in our bunks, put on bedsheet and pillow case.. I might be stayin' in.. and I don't want that..it sucks! But the coolest thing is... we can smoke in our bunks...awesome! Heard the news given by our Warrant Officer that Monday, which is tomorrow, is the beginning of our Sai Kang duties... Carryin' timber logs and shifting them to wherever they want us to shift it. Darn...

There's a gig today in Substation, not quite sure about the bands that's playin'... If I'm not wrong, Elisabelle's Tears, My Squared Circle, Death Of Elizabeth Monarch are part of the list of bands playing. Before that, I'll be headin' down to The Garage to jam with ND. I'll be takin' pictures att he gig today, so do look out for new pics...

Aight, for now, I gotta go and head down to B's place... Gotta do somethin' there...

Cheers to all!

BLARGH! I'm back again... See a few interested readers of my blog. U guys are really curious ey? Hehehe, that's a good thing right? I mean, it helps u guys to kill ur boredom or somethin'... Funny... I feel as if my blog is like a book or something... It's a good thing, I love u guys comin' in here and read my blog.. Whether it's a diss or ur pleased... It's cool.

Three days had past since my first day in Sembawang Camp. I thought we drivers gonna learn to drive straight away or somethin' when we first reach there BUT...no... That camp is like somesort of a holding point for drivers before we're pushed out to our own units out there... U know, 3 SIR, Guards and all that... If u guys wanna know what I did for the first three days... Hmm.. Well, basically, it's slackin' all day long... From the time we book in (Which is at 8 in the morning) to the time we knock off (that is..5:30 in the evenin')... Reach there, count strength and all.. and go inside the MPH (Multi Purpose Hall) and just sit there.. LIterally.. Just SIT THERE and do nothin'. Some of the guys chit chat, some of 'em, sleeps and some just simply..dazed around... As for me, I would just sit down alone and just be sleepy and tired... U'll sit there till ur butt would be all cramped up and ur legs will feel all tired till u don't even wanna sit down no more... It's fuckin' borin'... 8 till about 9 or 10 plus..that's when we'll have our canteen break, meanin'... u can go to the canteen, eat whatever there is there or u can go smoke... Each break would last around half an hour and when ur back to the hall, u continue sittin' there. Around 12... u'll go for lunch (free food given by SAF)... so we'll eat..and then smoke... normally.. one hour.. by 1, ur back in that hall again. Back to doin' nuthin'... By 2 or 3, they would have talks by some people... Yesterday, they had NKF comin' over and today, they had NTUC Income Insurance people comin' over... bla bla bla... I think only 5% or less out of about 400 over people are listenin' to whatever they're blabbering about... I was one of the 95% who didn't listen... Most of us are either sleepin'...or chit chattin' or simply doing our own stuff... Waste of time... Have to book in' again' tomorrow.. god damn.. Boring routine... OUr supposedly long weekend got burnt, by the Camp's Live Run.. Meanin', all staff there, goes for a 3.5km run... Going back there on a Saturday, just to run? WASTE OF TIME! We're drivers! Why run? hahahahaha... But maybe it'll help in maintainin' our weight... Heh...

Hanged out yesterday at BK Century Square with some of the #emo kids in my uniform... Can u believe this? In my uniform...it was weird. Hanged out there till late (well not THAT late...say.. 11 plus...) And talked crap there, as usual.. I mean, u guys should know, when u hang out... it's surely some crappy stuff...

It's been three days since p|uGGy started her job and from what I see, she's sort of havin' a hard time... I wish I could help her with her job but I can't... The thing I'm proud of... she's really into this job and that's a good thing. I know she'll be fine there.. she has a strong character... she'll be fine...

Emelia asked me to call her up just now, right before I met B before he had to book back in to his camp... It was a short 8 mins convo with her... She asked me whether I was at the Youth Park gig last Saturday and so I told her... yeah.. and she was there too! Heheh... she didn't see me and I didn't see her... cuz there were too many people... She seemed to be talkin' in her normal tone so I don't know if she no longer mad at me or somethin' but from what I did and what I feel... she is mad at me... okay, maybe I assume... but that's what I'm feelin'... come on, I mean..who wouldn't be pissed? I'm being a jerk... Sometimes I hate myself, for hurtin' another soul and for doing all this... I'll never learn... *sigh*... I'm so fucked up at times...

Once again, to those who keep on comin' back to read up... Thanks and carry on in doing so... Enjoy readin' my lame collection of life stories...

Aight, gotta go now, have my rest for another day of "slackin" in camp... Cheers to all! Oh wait.. one more thing, keep those tags comin' in, I'll reply to u guys when I'm free...


"Until the day I die...I'll spill my heart for u..."

What?! It's already one week? GOd damn!! Just as I thought I was beginnin' to enjoy this kinda life... suddenly.. It's already one week! God damn! Tomorrow's my reportin' day... have to wake up early and one thing is still on my "to-do" list... laundry... my uniforms and clothes for the army had not been washed yet... Slobbish..ain't it? Since last Friday... WOO HOO!!! Got all the time in the world and I did nothin'. Been slackin' for one week and somehow... I feel that I'm gainin' weight again... GOD DAMN!!! HELP ME PLEASE!! Hahaha.. I'm gonna be a driver soon... learnin' how to drive..for FREE! BUAHAHAHA..of course with some "payment" in return.. u know.. army crap.. have to put up with the army bullshit... Punishment..charges...damn..gotta watch my ass in there...

Went to the M.O.S.H Compilation gig yesterday in Youth Park and god damn... So many new kids! I went with Tweet at first and it seems that we were the first to arrive among other kids that we knew.. So we thought, yeah.. why not wait. Going to a gig this time sure does make me feel like a friggin' newbie... It felt like it was 7 years ago when I first went to a gig and I know no one.. Seriously, it was awkward feeling... Normally, if we were to arrive at any gigs, there'll be lots of hands to shake and lots of people that we know or maybe, people know us and even though u don't know that person.. but u know that he or she is a familiar face in gigs.. but this time, it wasn't like that... it was a confirmed shit that all those kids are on the rise.. the new ones... none of them I knew... I guess it's time for the new generation to take over ey? LIke how I did the last time... Turned left, new face... turned right... new face turned everywhere, it was all... new faces.. A li'l later that evening... saviours came... Finally.. some familiar faces. Inn, Sofyn, Dzafir, Wan (Dyfectra), Shain (MSC), Lutfi (MSC), Yam, Dee-Dee & Nik was there... Missed the old times whereby almost everyone, knows everyone at gigs... *sigh* Times are changing...

There were a few bands that stands out at the gig and one or two that sucks... The gig was a li'l mundane at the beginning... The crowd was dead.. the music was dead..there wasn't any energy.... And the sound was fucked up yesterday... Soundman didn't do his stuff well... Vocals were too loud.. snare mics was not turned up... bass drum can't hardly hear... bass guitars was waay loud... So one thing.. a bad soundman, makes the band look bad...

I was all ears when November Iris played (Hope that I spelled out the band's name correctly)... and they have that energy.. and their music's not bad... Have a potential to go far though... Another band that got my head bobbibg to the beat...Turn A Tap.. or something like that... Good vocals, good drummings and guitars...they were awesome... And there was this one band that really makes me wanna shuv a thunderstick up their asses... A couple of young kids, in punk "uniform" or some sort, thinking that they're going to rock the stage or something... Firstly, their guitars were fuckly tuned up.. I think, none of those guitars were in tune... Drums... was crappy... and vocals..oh yeah.. the vocals was a bonus... It sounds like as if ur blender was stuffed with a metal pipe and u grind it or something... When they played, their "people" stood up and went up front... u know..Punks..skins... bla bla bla.. and they were the new generation of course.. So there they go.. playing..and singing crap.. "Huabablabla,yaba..bla bla..." whatever that guy was singing... And he was all fuck this..cheebye that..bla bla..trying to be all "anarchist" and it was as if the whole god damn world owes him something... *sigh*... Wow.. I'm a critic..SHIT! I'm a god damn critic!! HAHAHAHA..whatever it is... had fun yesterday...

Hanged out with the bunch till late.. bla bla bla.. stayed at B's place.. bla bla bla... and then went home earlier today.. bla bla.. Okay, this episode had to cut short cuz I ain't got the time to type out.. okay.. I HAVE the time.. but I'm just feeling lazy..so...."Make sure to catch the next episode of: Days Of BIGguy.. same time, same place...same old fucked up face...blindedheart.blogspot.com"

Oh yeah, forgot to mention, new pics are up! Enjoy those pics...they'll be on the bottom left of ur window screen...scroll down... U'll see it... u won't miss it...

Cheers!

Am I hangin' on for hope? This song that is playin' right now... is awesome, some really slow nice music for a change ey? Simple but meaningful lyrics somehow... Am I hanging on for hope? I feel that I do... been hangin' on ever since... is it wrong? Or should I do something for my own good? Lookin' for that light at the end of the long tunnel... an end that never seem to exist. *Sigh*.... And what's with people hating one another? A lot has changed since I've been in Tekong... Now that I'm here for one week, my god... the changes, it's like... whoa... Maybe it's minor changes to some but to me... a lot changed...

Changes in people, their character, their style, their way of life and people they hang out with... the place itself, new stuff, new buildings and new this and new that... Wow... stayed in there for four months and BAM!!... major changes without me realizing... #emo had been taken over and god damn, I didn't even know...

Changes in people... everybody's growin' up and it seems like it's no longer how it was the last time. Circle of friends changed, some stayed and some went away. Those who were once close are now... drifted apart and those who were once distant.. are close.. Weird ain't it? Changes... Weird... but it sure is happening... Without realizing... it's happening...

Kris Roe's words in one of his songs... (Can't remember the song title) " Being grown up is just half as fun as growing up, these are the best days of our lives..." And it's true... As i'm growin' older, I feel myself changing as well, it may not be noticable to some and it may be noticable to few... but I sure do feel changes in me. It's funny how life express itself...

p|uGGy will be starting her job this Monday, congrats to the girl and may everything goes well for her... I'll be here if u need me p|uGGy-o! U know the dial, hit those numbers to reach me, aight? From a skater to a slacker and now, an office gal... Like I said, changes...

She went for her 2nd Interview yesterday and we met up in town to hang out with my platoon mates... There were a few of us at first but in the end, everybody splits and it was left me, p|uGGy & my buddy.. Hang out at Liat Tower's BK and chatted away crap. Azri came to meet her a li'l late that night... so yeah.. after they went shopping they said their goodbyes to me and my buddy... So there was only the two of us left... Just me & Fai... my buddy. Hanged out there and left around 11 plus... Did some girls watchin', hehe... but it was all pure admiration with no intention of knowing any of those girls... Somehow I seem to lose interest and I don't know why... *sigh*... Maybe I'm just tired of things? Maybe I'm hanging on for hope too much?

Two more days to go to my reporting time... PRIVATE. Hezwan reporting for driver duties... Hahahaha... Socks... Aight, to all that's reading, Cheers! And drink up the beers! To anyone who might feel offended, I'm sorry... To those who keep on comin' back to my blog to read up my lame life, I'd like to say thanks... thanks for being my so-called..."fans"... Heh...that's weird...Fans...IN UR DREAMS BIGGUY!!! Whatever it is, thanks guys...

So... keep on comin' back to read my stories... (Suddenly, a voice in the background: " Next week on Days Of BIGguy's Life, will he survive his days in his new bunk and with his new mates? Find out in the next episode of:- Days Of BIGguy's Life on blindedheart.blogspot.com"

Once again... CHEERS!

Woo hoo!! Yesterday was a mad day! In the early afternoon, went out with p|uGGy, followed her to her job interview and guess what? She got the job! I'm so happy for her! I mean, she was waaay beyond happy and she was all excited... I was happy to see that and what's best, she got a job now... Hehehe.. Ironic though.. A girl who used to skate, who is a slacker and who goes to gigs... is workin' in an office.. Can't believe that, office girl! HAHAHAhA....Whatever it is...I'm just glad she's happy.

After all that, head down to Tamp to have dinner... and met Anah there and my god, Anah is now a guy! Hahaha.. I mean, she dress up totally like a guy, whatever happened to the old Anah? Phsyced! Mat Hard Rock... hehe.. that's what we call her... Hanged out at BK for a while.. didn't talk much though.. Cuz p|uGGy was all sleepy.. so yeah, I let her rest... We did talk, about how she would dress up for the office work, and we chatted about stuff... AFter that, we set off, she heads back home to take some stuff and I head down to BMC to check out Rika jamming. I thought that it was only Rika jamming, suddenly, it was like a gathering for bands or something... 180 was jamming, Losing streak is jamming, rika's jamming and a few others were jamming. I mean, wow! Mini gig or something? Hehehe. Had fun though... Had fun singing and screamin' for Rika... Jammed with Dzul,Ik,p|uGGy for fun... It was crappy but hell, it was fun... Azri came down a li'l later to fetch p|uGGy home I guess... while the others.. went back cuz of some stuff.. while a few stayed to slack around in Tamp for a while. I got pics for u guys to see... So feel free to check it out on the left...

Got my posting today and guess what?? DRIVER!!! Hell yeah! I got my posting as a driver! That's my vocation! Driving around! Free lessons on driving!! WOO HOO!! Monday, I have to report to Sembawang Camp in the morning... Yeah!! I'm so happy that I'm a driver...

Aight, anyways, I might be slackin' again today, with my platoon mates... So yeah... See how it goes, might ditch them if other plans comes out... So yeah... CHEERS TO ALL!