Thursday, September 23rd, 2004,
10:46pm - Holy shit! You guys wouldn't believe the dream I had yesterday... It was super weird. That must have been the best sleep I ever had. To those who remembers or know Melanie...Melanie Yandina Pohl, the German/Indon mix chick from my school (SHATEC) and who was my classmate... Yes, that hot, caucasian whammax with that firm ass... The gal that went back home to Germany already.. I dreamt of her, again... Second time and it's the same dream I had, maybe a year ago. The exact same dream, somewhat like I put in a VCD and play it or somethin'... Same faces, same place, same names, same situation but with a slight twist in the storyline... In that dream, we had somethin' goin' on... We were datin'... The boys from my band was there too... It was whacked! Twice, same exact dream... Coincidence? Or was my dream tryin' to show some kind of a sign? If I happen to dream about it again, I'll freaked out! Sheesh!!

pluGGy called me and she has a job now, I'm happy that she got another job since that last incident, I'm sure she'll be happy... She love that kinda job. Congratulations pluGGy!

A few minutes after talkin' to pluGGy, Surya called me up and boy, I sure miss her. She aked me out since she knows that Tuesdays and Thursdays are my nights off but she asked me a li'l too late... She told me that she misses me and wished to see me. I better hang out with her before she moves out of Singapore to stay somewhere else. Yes, she's migratin'. Sweet doll...

Tasha's been missin' but I'll just lay low cuz she said that she's busy with school stuff... Can't wait to chat up with her again.

Got a detail for today, did some store run and yes, got to drive after sittin' around in camp for too long... Selarang to Pasir Ris Camp to Ayer Rajah Camp back to Pasir Ris and back to Selarang... In total, I clocked 94km today... At least it's somethin', all in all, I've clocked about 528km... Ain't much yet but slowly...

Aigh, that's it...Outta here!

"He feels that their bond is drifting apart, she... had distant away from him..."

(END :- 11:07pm)

Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004

9:56pm - *Sigh* What a way to start off my entry, by sighin'... Anyways, I still wonder, is it wrong for guys to write diaries? What's wrong with guys writin' in shits and feelings and memories that they had, to remember their years? Most guys finds it lame or even gay but I don't, it's like a photo album except that this one, it's in words and once you read it, visual department from your memory bank will sorta "load" up the data and by then, you would be sittin' there with the book in your hand or on the table as you stare blankly and you would go into this stage called "day Dreamin'"... And you'll have a short 10 to 15 minutes "movie" experience as your head plays back those memories...

Wow, that's a long one, just on "diary" itself. Back to my daily brin' "routine" life stories. Ain't much today except that my Staff Sergeant opened up another store to do stock checks and re-arrangin'. I fuckin' hate this. It's the storeman's job, ain't us drivers but fuck, we had to do what we had to do. The store's only halfway done and we have to get back there again tomorrow to do that mess again.

My life's pretty much borin' these days, ain't got any new shit happenin'... If you guys watched "Groundhog Day" before, it's a li'l somethin' like that. Here's my daily routine:-

Monday: - Wake up, Go "Life" run, Work till 6pm, Rest in bunk...Sleep.

Tuesday:- Wake up, Work till 6pm, Rest in bunk, Go out if anyone asked me to (Nights Off),
Report back by 11:30pm...Sleep.

Wednesday:- Wake up, Go "Life" run, Work till 6pm, Rest in bunk...Sleep.

Thursday:- Wake up, Work till 6pm, Go out if anyone asked me to (Nights Off), Report back by
11:30pm... Sleep.

Friday:- Wake up, Go "Life" run, work till 6pm, Go home, Go out and hang out... Most of the
time, I stay out from home.

Saturday:- wake up, use computer, Check mails or messages, Watch TV... Go out till late, crash
at B's place.
Sunday:- Wake up from B's place, Head home (Normally in afternoon or evenin'), Rest at home
(For a while), Go out again, head back home then head back to camp.

See what I mean... After Sunday, it goes back to Monday... My life's a fuckin' tape... It's like as if it's put on a repeat play. Over and over.

Enough of that, pluGGy messaged me and that's nice... SMS Chatted with her for a while but now, she didn't reply... Hmm... Busy I guess.

I wrote too long... Till then...

"So much effort was put in yet he wasn't noticed by the girl he truly loves as she goes on with her life..."

(END:- 10:23pm)

Tuesday, September 21st, 2004

11:52pm - Aight! It's a fuckin' Tuesday and I'm relieved because that shit that happened yesterday? You know, the sleepin' thing, bla bla... i guess my staff is droppin' that shit. I might not go DB afterall. Got my 11 B back... Jeez...

Did nothin' much today besides that fucked up store shit in 9 DISCOM. It was a whole load of shit! Luckily it rained cuz we didn't do much then... So we rested... A lot!

Got my nights off today, went out with the guys in my bunk. Hung out in Tampines. Ain't much shit... But well, for a hang out session with camp mates for the first time, was quite an experience. Kinda fun... The guys are playin' cards right now while I'm on my bed, writin' this diary. I think I'm hittin' the sack now... Cheers!

(END:- 12:15am)

Monday, September 20th, 2004

10:50pm - Zoikz! Fuck to the maximus! Started the week with a super bad note! I overslept in my bunk, didn't go for the mornin' "Life" run and what's worse... I didn't fall in... And that cost me and my bunkmates some big time shitsness. Our staff sergeant was super pissed with us and he took our 11 Bs and he said that he wants to charge us and maybe send us to DB (Detention Barrack) under the offence of sleepin' durin' workin' hours and no fallin' in to count strength... Fuck dudes and dudettes! I mean, DB for this small shit?! Whatever it is, I'm havin' a hard time to book out since my 11 B is with him. Whatever it is, FUCK IT! I ain't stressin' myself with what's to become.

Yesterday was an awesome day! Had loads of fun! Those who were there with me that day... We trashed the set big time! Yeah!! And to the guys of the "Anyhow Band", Awesome crappy emo session in BMC! Amaciam? Cut our first album next week ah?! Surely the song "When The Mic Drops" will become our number one hit! Hahaha!!

Anyways, have not been talkin' to Tasha lately and I miss that zany girl. She's busy with her exams and stuff... Hope to hear from her again.

To that someone who was there on Sunday, I'm sorry if I behaved that way towards you... I regretted doin' that...

Aight, that's it for today, Cheers!

"I tried hating you but you're just too beautiful of a being created by god for me to hate and another thing, you mean so much to me..."

(END:- 11:03pm)

Insane! If u guys wanna read my past entries..it's at the bottom, I've just updated the shit... Anyways, ain't much goin' on..Ain't got plans for today and no one called me yet.. So I'm stayin' home till somebody comes up with some plans and anybody wants me along..I'll go...just call me..anyone.. anyways.. One guy asked me in my tagboard if pluggy's ain't angry with me takin' her pic...Dude..of course she ain't..Happily, she wants to take the pic as well.. And can't u see the pics? She was lookin' AT the camera.. She doesn't mind.. And why do u care? I don't get it, why u people are so bothered by other people's life... Go be a jackass and fuck urself up ur own ass with a 9 iron... Jeez... Give it a break... Aren't u tired?

Anyways, to the rest of the people who's readin' this site... pictures will be up soon... Just hang on...

That's it..I'm outta here...

Wow..it's been like weeks that I've not been checkin' in cuz I've been too busy in camp. And besides..everytime I got home, I go out again, so never get the chance to check my shit... And what I've found...War of Words goin' on in my blog...Madness... i don't get it, why do u guys hate us so much...what's the friggin' reason? Explain to us... Don't just blurt out senseless words and meaningless crap without makin' us understand what have we done wrong... It's friggin' obvious that u dissers are uncivilised...Brought up by bunch of barbarians who never thought manners and ways of civilisation... *sigh*... Anyways, I'm still at lost on why u guys hate us... Please...explain...

"Finding reasons to hate will only make u lose the opportunity to love... With that, U only live as a person full of hate..."

Okay, I don't know where the hell did I get that from...

Anyways, hung out with the bunch last week and I mean..the bunch..a whole lot of us..Hangin' out and talkin' crap and watched "The Ghost"... That show ain't that scary..The ghost itself...Ain't that freaky..it's the sounds that makes u jump... U know..One of those sudden.."JRENG!!!!" Kinda thing? Anyways, the story was okay..but it's too predictable....U'll know when the scary parts come...But the storyline was good...twsited end... It makes ya confused...

Amidst the hangin' out, I realized that one person... I truly care..is finally back with that other person... U guys would know who... Well, as much as it drags me to say...It's great for them, I guess they're meant for each other... It's just me... all this while, never learn to let go... Finding it hard... But sometimes, u just gotta let go and let others cherish their own moments with what u once had... I'd say I let go but I'll always remember what we shared... A piece of my heart is somehow, still there... as a friend and someone who will always care... Cheers to both of 'em...

That's it for this entry...I don't know when will there ever be a next entry...cuz I'm not on the comp most of the time these days... To all... Cheers! And yeah, one more info...I ain't sure about this shit but we might be playin' tomorrow... (Sunday)... At Tampines Interchange..or somethin' like that... (TAmpines int?!?! What the hell?!) So yeah... I'm outta here! Cheers!

Forgot to mention one more thing.... No Direction's "A Thousand Miles The Wrong Way" demo is finally out... With 7 original songs in one CD and to the price of 5 bucks... To get one, go to Tweet's Blog to see on how to order... If ur planning to buy or already bought it...I wanna say a big thank u to u guys! Cheers!

What u see below are the past few entries I wrote in camp... in my small diary... So yeah, read up aight? Anyways, I have nothin' much to update except that I went to check pluGGy up yesterday and well, she was a bit better but she just can't eat that much cuz her body system simply won't accept food, everytime she eats, she pukes it back out...Damn, it worries me although I try not to show her that... hope she'll do fine... Hangin' out with her yesterday was fun... Well, not THAT fun..but the word fun was there... We talked..I lectured her..and stuff..bla bla bla... After hangin' out with her and Kak Dani (pluGGy's Cousin) I head out to town to meet up with the bunch... So yeah... Bookin' in camp soon...so..that's it...Cheers! Enjoy the past "new" entries and well, if u guys noticed, new pics are up..so don't be shy, surf up!

Friday, 3rd September 2004

1:03am - Whoa! It's the wee hour of the mornin' and I ain't asleep yet! Just finished watchin' a show on the VCD player... "Beautiful Boxer"... It's a ver good Thai movie... It's based on a true story about the famous transvestite kickboxer, Toom Praniya or somethin' like that.. The movie shows how he became a "woman" and became a famous kickboxer... From young till he became a famous actress and model. The actor who plays Toom in the movie, potrayed the real Toom very well... It's a good show to watch.

Anyways, got my nights off yesterday night and instead of stayin' in camp, I went out all the way to Hougang to meet up with Aniz... Socks!! That's all I can say... It was one hell of a long journey...

pluGGy called me up a few minutes ago and boy she sounded kinda bad... She called me up just to give her office number. I can't believe that I just said that... pluGGy's office... Kinda cool... She likes this job! It's a good thing. She sounded sick on the phone and well, she is. She's havin' the same thing again. She can't eat much cuz everytime she does that, she would fell like puking... I wish I could do something for her... *SIGH*... Suddenly, I miss her dearly, I hope that she'll get better soon... The coolest friend/ex-girlfriend/buddy I ever had...*SIGH*

Looks like I gotta go, my friend is buggin' me to shut off the lights... (END - 1L20am)

11:52pm - What a day! Had my first detail today and that was a store run. Made two trips to Pasir Ris Camp today and it wasn't that bad. I'm still in camp and most of the guys booked out today but we have out Life Run tomorrow at Pasir Ris Camp.. I can go home actually but I'm accompanyin' one of my bunk mate cuz he live in Woodlands and that is far... So to cut cost and save time, he stayed in. Our senior drivers are shavin' their hair along the corridor outside... They set up a "barber" shop... Hehehe, it looks like a makeshift barber store.. They set up mirrors, and the shavin' kit all lined up, the cloth you put around ur body... MAD!

Rode my friend's bike again and it was only a one round thing... Ridin' is super easy... While waitin' for the bike to warm up, pluGGy called me up and she sounded really bad.. I'll be headin' down to her place to check her up on how she's doin' and maybe accompany her since I got nothin' on tomorrow. Dzafir's sick and her couldn't jam, B's stayin' in camp as he got duty to do. So yeah, I'm free for pluGGy the whole day! Let's just hope she doesn't change plans cuz I know sometimes she would do last minute changes. I hope she took her rest like how I told her to... I'm worried for her...

"Why do they have to do this to her? Just as things were going well?!"

(END - 12:07am)

Thursday, 2nd September 2004

12:45am - Hours had past since my last entry and boy, not much happened. I rode my friend's bike and it was awesome. I've learnt one thing, if you know how to drive a car, you would know how to ride a bike and vice versa. Rode around a few times and had a joyride at my friend's petrol expense, hehe. It would be a good idea if I were to enrol for a class 2B license but I told myself that I will never ride a bike on the road but my friend told me, even if you have a class 3 license, a class 2B license would come in handy in a case of any emergency... I might consider in takin' bike licence. My parents wouldn't like the idea but hey, I guess I'll be followin' my eldest brother's ways. He took bike licence without anyone in the family knowin'. No one knew about it until one incident happened but that's besides the point. Well, it's a big... MAYBE.

Anyways, ofter the fun joyride, we went up to buk and watched "Casino", starrin' Al Pacino and I love that show! It has an awesome storyline and what's best, it's a mafia movie, you know, the thick Italian American accent... I love that. I'm a sucker for Mafia shows!

The guys next door (Who are the senior drivers) went on with the VCD marathon, they're watchin' "Beautiful Boxer" right now... I would love to watch but I'm just too sleepy.

Life here in camp is okay I guess, gettin' along well with the senior drivers. They're really helpful in terms of showin' us around. Nice bunch they are.

Well, Looks like this will be my last entry for today...ermm...yesterday I mean...Cheers to all! (END - 1:00am)

12:41pm - Just ate my lunch at the cookhouse. Sat together with the recruits, somehow, that made me feel as if I'm on of them and it reminded me of how it was durin' BMT... You would rush when you eat, fearin' that you'll be fucked by any of the sargeants for bein' late. Ah.. Somehow, I miss my BMT days and it's true like what those who ORD-ed said..."BMT is on eof the best experience you'll ever get in your life..." from what I know, those new recruits might not be experiencing jungle trainin' because it has been said that the new batch of recruits for 3 SIR will be going through urban warfare trainin'... Another words, FIBUA (Fightin' In Built Up Areas)... I ain't sure if all of these are true... So if that is really true, these bunch won't be gettin' the taste of jungle life? Man, that kinda suck...

Anyways, not much things had happned since mornin' besides doin' our routine mornin' area cleanin' and slackin' at the canteen with our seniors. Sat there for about two hours or so... Cuz most of them don't have details... So there ain't much to do. Still got the remainin' half of the day to go... So yeah... (END - 12:53pm)

Wednesday, 1st September 2004

8:40pm, that's the time that is shown on my watch right now. Did nothin' much today, suppose to do my assessment bu my Staff couldn't find anyone to assess me. Fucked up ain't it? If it wasn't for that Merc incident, I would be in my friends' situation... Waitin' for details. Looks like I have to wait further. Did some servicin' and cleanin' of the MT Line Area. It was a borin' day. Make plans with Aniz, to meet her in Hougang but I was just too tired and well, Staff didn't let us out tonight. So in here I am. I'll be ridin' my friend's bike in a while, again... Ride around the parade square in camp. Maybe I'll go a few rounds.

Really low on cash these days and I've been askin' fags from others, beginnin' to feel bad askin' them. Gotta last till my next pay. Anyways, new recruits came in today and boy, it reminds me of my first day when I enlisted. Not havin' any ideas on what to do and you're like with other bunch of strangers. Gotta see their family when they came in the mornin'... Parents, Sisters, girlfriends... Whoa! They came in different shapes, sizez and colour... Heh! So well... It was quite a view for me and the guys. It was an awesome sight! My friend was like sayin'..."Enlistees go to my left, parents to my right and ladies below the age of 25 and above 16, please stand in front..." Hehe! He makes it sound as if it was some kind of Chix Audition...It was a crappy mornin'!

Amidst all this, I kept thinkin' about that someone... and I'm pretty sure there's another person who is doin' the same as what I'm doin'... missin' that same one person. She's been too busy, I feel that her new job somehow took her away from me and my friends. Talkin' to her less and rarely seein' her made me feel that somehow we're losin' that bond we had together before. Bein' crappy, laughin' about stupid jokes we make and just have fun. I don't blame her and it ain't her fault... She had to do what she had to do... She got that job and she's happy with it... I'm glad that she's happy...

Aight guys, gotta go for now... Till then, Cheers!!

Tuesday, 31st August 2004

Hey low to all! It's been a while since I wrote in. I'm in camp right now and the time is 8:26pm. Here I am in Selarang Camp (Along Upper Changi Road) and in 3 SIR, that's where I'm posted to. It's been about a week and a half here and well, it ain't that bad. I'm a stay-in peronnel alon with three other guys who was from Echo, so it ain't that bad. Got along with the senior drivers and they really helped us a lot. Gave us tips on drivin', tips on how to survive in this unit and ways of life here. I was lost at first but after a while, slowly gettin' the hang of it. Goin' for my land rover assessment tomorrow and once that is done, I woud have details to drive.

Got into my first accident last Thursday, well, it wasn't a big one, just a tiny one but the fucker in that stupid old Merc made a big fuckin' fuss out of it. Here's what happened...

I was drivin' in a convoy, all of which containing the new drivers, includin' myself. It ain't a big convoy, just four vehicles. The LSV "Spider" in the lead, followed by three Land Rovers trailin' it and I was drivin' the last vehicle. So there we were along BKE and god damn! It was one hell of a heavy traffic, so vehicles were goin' in a stop-go motion. My vehicle had to stop and when I had to move off, my clutch's bitin' point was weak and plus the slope, I rolled back, hittin' the fuckin' Merc behind me. I didn't roll back far and that means one thing, this fucker was tailin' me closely, as if to kiss me Rover's ass... The damage:- a slight dent on his radiator's grill and I stress the word, SLIGHT... All this happenin' near the KJE exit on BKE... Fucked up ain't it? But it is all settled by my Major, he covered me... Private settlement, if I ain't wrong.

Enough of that, The gig on Saturday was...well...okay. Only a handful came, a mere below 20... This happened possibly of two reasons... Firstly, NUS is on the other side of the island, so distance was quite an issue... Secondly, there were three other gigs goin' on that day and well... The gig that has some ska bands, attracted crowds... Ska does sell. But whatever the thing is, we had fun durin' our set and at the gig itself. 20 Dischanger impressed me, a three piece band with sounds a bit like Ataris, NUFAN and MxPx... That is from what I feel and think... If you guys disagree, I'm sorry but this is from my point of view. Kate of Kale was awesome, as always... MSC, with their new sound, they rock! With Azman's trademark of the metal sign with his hand while holdin' the mic and their frontmen's hyper showmanship.... Strayvoice is an awesome hardcore band.... They're young but they're fuckin' good... I give my outmost respect to their drummer... He is talented... The rest of the bands was good too... No Direction made our first appearance as a six piece band... We recruited two new members as our vocalists. We did bad though on that day but thanks to them, they covered us. Before I go on... On behalf of No Direction, I wanna say big thanks to the guys from Kate Of Kale for invitin' us to play and also to all who came down for the gig and also to our followers... Love you guys!!!

I'm back again... Aniz called me and we chatted, boy... it was a long chat. This girl somehow has a likin' for me but hell, I don't know if I like her... Somehow, she does attracts me... in a way...but I ain' sure... let's see where does this one goes.

I miss pluGGy... After almost a month (I think) that I finally get to se her. It was this last Sunday. Went out with her together with B and Dzafir. It was really nice to be able to see her again cuz she's been really busy... big time! It's a rare thing now whenever I recieve her message or call... It's just great to hear from her... pluGGy, if you're readin' this, thanks... For sparin' your time to hang out with us. Love ya!

Well, that's all for this entry, till next time, cheers to all!